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courtmartialme · 7 months

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What's your favorite child Riza interpretation? Shy, recluded kid or buckwild shotgun child? No wrong answers.

kind of both...?? i see riza as your typical neglected kid... she can be shy and recluded but self sufficient...! with dirty clothes that don't fit, and carrying a shotgun bigger than herself which can make her look kinda feral but once you get to know her you realize shes just usually minding her own business and is actually pretty timid :) it's moe

#asked #just-trying-my-best-everyday #i like.... the process of roy seeing this kind of feral kid and being a lil scared but realizing shes very cute and nice actually #once he actually tries to get to know her #she's just bad at expressing herself

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natsmagi · 2 months

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honestly the more i hear about engstars and its TLs the more i absolutely dread the inevitable release of poltergeist and what may ensue from it, bc if if the translators themselves are already invalidating arashis identity then i Really Truly do not want to see how theyll translate natsume and tsumugis microaggressions/transphobia towards her. esp since ive noticed a rise in people being comfortably transphobic towards her, and i REALLY do not wish to see natsume and tsumugi being stupid fucking morons be used as evidence to discredit her

and i think this is all the more reason why its VERY IMPORTANT for engstars to DIRECTLY ACKNOWLEDGE arashi and her gender. bc sometimes characters are STUPID and RUDE and APATHETIC. enstars is a story with NUANCED and FLAWED CHARACTERS, and when a character is being a fucking asshole youre meant to PROVE THEM WRONG. but they dont even acknowledge arashi as a girl themselves. so, if you do use engstars, please keep pressuring them bc omfg this is so bad and i can only see it getting worse

#a bit of a serious post sorreys its kinda me venting im just preparing for the worst #We should be legally allowed to beat the shit out of ntmg for what they said to arashi #i dont remember the exact quotes verbatim but tsumugi basically just expressed confusion abt her gender identity #n natsume flatout said something like shes lying to kids by calling herself a princess #so.#not good.#having characters show bigotry is not Necessarily a bad thing. but that is ONLY WHEN that bigotry gets disproven #but. engstars arent doing that.#theyre not disproving it.#they keep pretending like her gender is. well. Nothing #so i worry that this story is just gonna fuel the flames and make everything so much worse than it already is #anyway. if u play engstars please do keep pestering them for blatantly ignoring and misrepresenting arashis identity #i try to stay out of whatever goes on on that app but. Man.#she deserves better #But hey knowing them maybe theyll just fuckin cut out the dialogue alltogether to further act like trans people and their issues arent real #nat rambles #im a bit peeved as u can see sorry i just know how this fandom is and how they cant handle nuance or flawed characters #and im REALLY not happy with happyele REWRITING THE TEXT #and getting RID OF SAID NUANCE #GRHAGGRAHGRAGHHGHGH #sorry.#its like 3:30am i just needed to get this off my chest #maybe ill delete this but god.#free my girl

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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year

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TOS-Era Michael Burnham

#Michael Burnham's in-denial 'burned out high achiever' swag...#Michael Burnham #Michael Burnham art #whenever I picture Michael in my head she is troubled by something so tha t's how I tend to draw her...that + Vulcan upbringing #the Michael Burnham in my head is so powerful...flat affect and limited facial expression queen <3 #she feels the entire spectrum of human emotions but doesn't fully understand them in herself or others <3 #<- my headcanon...everything I ever say abouther is headcanon #the ONLY clip I've seen of her was when she showed up on the ship in her red robe (KILLER look)#and when that lady Georgie(?) said (paraphrased) 'we're a good ship - more or less'#Michael looked her DEAD in the eye and said 'less.' HEHEHE #I wish Discovery seemed to have more of Michael acting Vulcan-ish but it seems like she acts more human pretty much right away which isn't #what I personally want to see v_v not that it makes the show bad or anything - I just want to see very specific things HEHEH #also I literally cant with people who're like 'Why's her name Michael when she's a girl?' there are ALIENS. there's a guy named NOG. HEHEHE #bea art tag #st discovery #st discovery art

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girlatrocity · 2 months

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MAN.

#bnha spoilers #a had no delusions abt her being alive before but saying it out right is differenttt #i just really liked himiko she was my favourite for many many reasons but mostly bc i loved how she reminded me of myself in a weird way #like in a cathartic way idk #she was also taught that her love was like a terrible unnatural evil thing #that should never be seen or expressed #and she never fully realized her capability to love until she finally let herself indulge in it #and thats the thing how she LET herself #and how she wanted to live her life exactly the way she wanted so bad that she didn't care that none of them would love her for it #because she wanted to be free ☹️#and the fact that even after all of that rejection and loathing she still found a place for herself where there was people #who LOVED her and and CARED about her and then eventually ochako who wanted to save her #and it still proves everyone else wrong about himiko #because himiko never had to change or hide those fundamental things about herself to be loved in the end #and i hate that she died #i really do #but her narration of her death scene really hit me bc she's RIGHT #she lived her life exactly the way she wanted to and never got chained down again #and she had people who knew everything she was and loved her not in spite of it #and she's a normal girl #and so am i #UGGGHHUUJHH anyways just wanted to talk i love that girl rip himiko

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sweetest-honeybee · 1 year

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Some people do kinda suck but I find a lot of joy in giving people really specifics compliments at my job and it makes their whole day sometimes c: 💛

#I had a very enthusiastic conversation about a lady’s hair and the way it was cut #she cut it herself!#I often like to tell some women that their purse is very nice and they’re usually very proud of their purses I’ve found #I will tell some people sometimes that the color of their shirt is so fitting for their skin tone and was a great choice that day #I expressed once to a customer that I loved the prints of his shirts and he came by one day in this one particular shirt #hoping I’d be there apparently because he wanted me to see the shirt because I love his style!#it’s so nice #I had a lady blushing once from head to toe because I said she looks like the perfect example of a woman #that face every artist draws for that reference #she was so beautiful #haha I like compliments on men’s facial hair too!#they’re proud of their facial hair a lot of the time #even soemthing as simple as they look amazing for their age which I’ve said many many times #like I said some people suck and I have yet to truly meet the bad eggs but man I just really like seeing them light up #when you compliment the littlest things they put hardly any effort into and think maybe nobody will even notice #I like pointing out those things

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spotaus · 2 months

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Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

#spotatalk #i'm just gonna drop this in the queue I guess?#but I'm writing this on the last day of june so....#whenever this rolls around will be a jumpscare abd a half I guess?#I think honestly I coukd do a full breakdown of the Crew and why they're all expressions of me but like #quick summary is #Reset: Wants approval from people but mostly clings to the past. is afraid of losing his brother and acts on it to bring him back. i #<- I lack that conviction to do whatever you have to to get your way. i worry my brother and I have a weird gap between us we wont repair #Orchid: Uhhh woman. lots of pressure that she had at one time that's now no being pressed but she still tries to live up to it also.#<- I don't like the pressure of being a woman. also gifted-kid who cannot move past the pressures imposed to be 'perfect' and it's screwed #Stereo: Pulled into a situation he doesn't want to be in initially. it's bad for him but he likes the people so he decides to stay #<- I see the good in people. even when they hurt others around me. I was a bystander often and should've left the situations. paralelling.#Monochrome: Afraid. No purpose or preperation in life. soneone offers to guide him and he takes that offer because it's better than home.#<- Kinda self-explanitory but I've got little direction and feel lost a lot of the time. If I'm given a path I usually walk it no hesitation #and... for fun let's do some others!#Haphazard: Cleaning up after others since childhood. he's never really gotten a break and sees any sort of mess as an enemy #-> He's fixing rifts in universes I gotta patch relationships. there's so much conflict and I'm always so overwhelmed by it #Lost: He's got amnesia. no clue where he is. where he's from. who you are. who he is. he'll know when he gets there. he's sure.#-> I've been hsving minor issues with my memory for years. i coukd be forgetful but sometimes it just escapes me and that's spooky #Teddy: Isolated in her universe for years. she self-mutilated until she liked herself. when she finally met people she compulsively lied #-> Much more extreme version of how isolated I sonetines feel. hobbies can't replace human interaction but it's hard #oh and Ichor: God who loves mortals but cannot seem to find ones who will prove hin right for his trust and care #<- I've got a big heart. i express it often but the sentinent is scoffed off a lot. I get beat down about it and just keep moving forward #Pretender: Knows who he is. however the world doesn't like it much so he acts how they expect him to or isolates away #<- I still present femme when I'm nb/agender. i bend and break to people's perception of me. if I can't solve something I run.#okay I feel more insane than when ai started but these stupid skeletons have helped me through so many mental health problems it's only a #little bit funny 🙏

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pergaminaa · 1 month

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The Blackbeak Matron is a brutal woman with not an ounce of love to any of her offspring. I don’t imagine her being kind to Lothian— like, she was her Heir, her training is harder and more brutal than what other witches would undergo.

Despite that harshness and brutality, Lothian was nothing like her. She she just couldn’t quell that side of her daughter: she was kind, warm and full of hope. The Matron couldn’t change that.

I think that what Lothian did, mating with a Crochan prince of all people and believing that the child they conceived would bring peace to their people is what tipped the Matron over the edge.

Killing her daughter soon after giving birth, she decided that she’d been too soft. Something she will not do with her granddaughter, her new Heir.

This is why I believe that Manon endured worse shit from the Matron than anyone did before. Her grandmother simply didn’t want to risk her being soft, like her mother, and made sure that Manon would not even recognize that.

This is the reason why Manon has a hard time with emotions because she wasn’t taught these things. All she knows is brutality and the different ways she can kill people. She endured a lot at the hands of her grandmother but because of that upbringing, she just carried on without giving anything a second thought.

But deep down, Manon is Lothian’s daughter. No matter how brutal the Matron got, no matter how harsh she was, she couldn’t change that. I think she realized that all she did didn’t fully kill whatever kindness might have been passed down to Manon when she picked Abraxos to be her wyvern. I believe it was that moment the Matron realized that despite everything she did, there was no changing that.

It didn’t stop her. Because she got worse. From that moment, she decided to use those feelings against Manon. Punish her for her compassion by threatening to take away everything she loves. It’s mainly the reason she kept targeting Asterin, and forcing Manon to be the one who does these things because at the end of the day, Manon still seeks her approval. She will do anything if it gets her noticed by her grandmother and this is why the Matron kept using Asterin against her. It was something Manon would want to avoid, but it will always be there: one mistake and it’s her cousin’s life. This way, the Matron had full control over Manon and ensured that she’d never rebel against her.

This is a woman who never displayed an ounce of love or affection to her granddaughter. Honestly she probably started Manon’s training early on, not taking the chance to turn her ‘soft’. I believe she prohibited anyone from coddling the Heir. She wouldn’t allow anyone to show her any affection or any display of love. Those who did, lost their lives.

Honestly, when Yrene hugged Manon during that scene? I knew she was going to freeze and not do anything. Because she doesn’t recognize the gesture, she has no idea what it means or how to respond so she just froze.

#booklr #books and reading #throne of glass #manon blackbeak #tog #asterin blackbeak #empire of storms #kingdom of ash #dorian havilliard #manorian #lothian blackbeak #manon x dorian #tristan crochan #blackbeak matron #evil evil woman #there was no line that she didn’t cross with Manon because she didn’t want her to be like her mother #the thought of what Manon had endured from birth until she was over a hundred years old is soul crushing #im just glad she’s with Dorian #he’s so loving and affectionate and he’s there to show her love and be there for her #he can help her recognize those different emotions and how to deal with them #but I also think that Manon would be highkey terrified of displaying these emotions #because she was never allowed to feel them and if she did she got punished for it #so there is trauma around that as well #like if she expresses a single feeling she’d panic and just retreat into herself #my girl had tones of ptsd from her grandmother #she needs a lot of therapy honestly #and Dorian #Dorian is the supportive boyfriend who will try to reward those emotions when they (finally) show #in hopes that this will override the bad memories #not likely but it doesn’t stop him

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thehappiestgolucky · 2 months

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blue crew silly

odessa wants to join in the spooky forest adventure too >:[

#doodles #the blue crew #elden ring #elden ring shadow of the erdtree #sote spoilers #my ocs #odessa #ellunar #agama #i love these dumbasses from different worlds forever #ellunar the barely expressive lesbian who continues to just. make bad choices #if agama and odessa could join ellunar in her world every boss would be dead in seconds fr #(by odessa’s hand because genuinely she shreds. in bg3 she nearly killed nere in one turn by herself #dlc bosses would be scared of this baby if she could help ellunar)

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broodygaming · 7 months

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rewatching she-ra again while I draw and and and omfg

In S5 when Wrong Hordak (never not funny) asks Entrapta about her "facial tic" and she IMMEDIATELY just explains to him what it is - a wink - what it's called and how it's used and THEN gives him encouragement to try it out so he understands it better and feels more confident??

My. Fucking. Heart. neurodivergent ppl looking out for neurodivergent ppl and showcasing EXACTLY how to just not be a dick to people who don't get social cues. It's not our fault. It's not personal. It's not us trying to be difficult. We just don't get it. Explain it, give an example, a safe place to practice it and boom, logged and loaded.

#she ra and the princesses of power #spop #things that make me feel feral in a good way : entrapta #gods i adore her #her smile in the opening credits make me giddy and grin EVERY single time I see it and ive seen it literally hundreds of times haha #I think the way entrapta is “treated” is actually really well done cuz it's realistic and the payoff is earned #they have to learn to understand her and she also has to learn how to not step on feelings as much #both parties do bad things and work towards one another #ya know? Like im glad she's like... not some innocent flower who can do no harm #girls harmed haha girls harmed a LOT in fact #and in many ways the others are justified in being frustrated with her #and the resolution that's 90% just communication issues is SO GOODDDDDD #cuz it's NEVER been that Entrapta just doesn't care - she does! She has almost 0 tools to express that care and walls herself off instead #and the princess' help her break down those walls and build doors and windows #one painful brick at a time #GIRL same

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer?#i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

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here-on-occasion · 7 months

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If I ever acknowledge just how ooc the mcdonald's stuff was for sylvie I'll probably never get over it so i'm gonna ignore the whole thing

#sylvie laufeydottir #Loki (the bad series)#coz why would an ex interdimensional fugitive throw herself into minimum wage hospitality in the 1980s when she can literally go anywhere #in time and space #why would a character like sylvie ever settle for the structure of that #would she even comprehend job-home-sleep structure?#don't you think she'd do something else with her newfound freedom like idk LITERALLY ANYTHING #why'd sylvie get the short end of the stick and have to sell out her character for product placement #just to fund the central plot of *checks notes* fixing a fucking machine #but what? she stayed because she saw people living in a way she never has before?#and the best way to express that was having her work for a megacorporation. like. sylvie. our deuteragonist who spends both series 1 and 2 #arguing that the time police having complete systemic power is bad actually #is now working for a megacorporation #oh no :( I acknowledged it

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aurangg · 3 months

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Why do I never learn? Why do I never learn never to confide in my mother? I tried to talk about something sensitive to me and she didn't listen to what I said at all and talked about herself. For the 3rd time in a row in just 5 minutes. I tell her she's upsetting me now, and she blasts music on full volume to shut me up.

#I need to learn my lesson.#I'm never confiding in her again.#She doesn't care. She just doesn't care.#Vent #How can someone be this immature?#I've never had one good conversation with her.#It always ends up in an argument because she only talks about herself.#I need her on Dr Phil.#And people wonder why we're so bad at expressing ourselves and being vulnerable.

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gender-critical-analytical · 26 days

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I live in a tightly packed area and sometimes, because there's a pond that sits right up against my and my neighbor's property, random men (and women, but I only mind when it's men) decide to plop down in my yard and start fishing for the bluegill. I'm still working on my confrontation skills (a combination of intense female socialization, liberal midwestern 'mind your own business and look the other way' mindset, and autism that makes it a struggle to look people in the face during even the most normal of occasions) but I have recently found that bringing my dog outside on her leash and letting her bark and growl at them while frantically tugging on the leash to get to them does a great job of making them suddenly, conveniently, want to move a few yards down, and I don't have to say a word during it. In fact, staring silently at them makes it work even better!