#shizume

[madeliefkrans]

reread yoi's lovely confession in uruwashi no yoi no tsuki ch15 and ichimura's reaction to yoi's confession while she faced away, asking her to turn around, and then seeing her bright red face, reminded me of another one of yamamori mika works where the girl tries to hide her Extreme Blushing but ends up showing the person she loves

yes i'm writing about hirunaka no ryuusei again

let's compare the two scenes. both girls are Highly Embarrased, facing away from their love interest. the guys are surprised to what's going on. first is uruwashi no yoi no tsuki ch15:

then hirunaka no ryuusei ch40:

then, the guys become aware of what's happening and they both ask their girl to turn around. they want to see their face (always, but guess that's not possible). the girls are hesistant, understandably, because they feel vulnerable. their mask, not showing their face, feels safe. their secret would be out in the open if they'd turn around. there'd be no going back.

to the left is hirunaka no ryuusei, to the right is uruwashi no yoi no tsuki:

the girls turn around. faces bright red. bashful. honestly, they've never looked more cute. the guys see it clearly on their face. no hiding in plain sight.

to the left is hirunaka no ryuusei, to the right is uruwashi no yoi no tsuki:

the guys react how anyone would when the person they love is blushing. they reach out. they want more. above is hirunaka no ryuusei, below uruwashi no yoi no tsuki:

they both experience the rewards of submitting to the mortifying ordeal of being known

[aishiteru-kenshin]

Hirunaka no Ryuusei | ひるなかの流星 | Satsuki & Suzume

[gradol-cuties]

Nodoka Shizume 鎮目 のどか 2005年10月12日 T158cm B-- W-- H-- 推定Cカップ

[sijopolang]

Supportive big sisters (and a brother) all around 🥹

[findflower96]

鎮目のどか

[lachatalovematcha]

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[kawaiichibiart]

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[illuminateloverycuties]

Nodoka Shizume #1

[mochikimchiroom]

[madeliefkrans]

the quiet pulse of shizume on ao3

okay i wasn't planning to let shizume make me melancholic again but here we are. so. let's talk about the corner of ao3 where shizume still lives. it's a small space with only 37 works. and yeah, i remember when people were more into posting their writing on tumblr instead of ao3, which, considering tumblr’s awful search function, means a lot of those works are lost to the void.

which is kind of heartbreaking, honestly.

the shizume tag on ao3 appears to be a ghost town. an archive that’s being lovingly maintained by ao3's servers but isn’t getting any new additions. it’s like visiting an old library where the books are still there, but no one’s writing new ones.

but that’s only part of the story. sure, if you look at the last five fics, they span a good six years, and quite a few authors have left their works under the lonely "orphan_account", but there’s still a pulse. you can feel it in the slow rise of hits, kudos, and the occasional comment that pops up out of nowhere.

for some context: hirunaka no ryuusei / daytime shooting star wrapped up back in 2014.

comments are pretty sparse. the fic with the most comments only has 11, and that’s counting the author’s replies. but there’s this pattern: fics from 2014 with their last comment in 2018, 2015 fics with their most recent comment from 2020. all these years later, people still find their way to shizume on ao3 and feel so moved they leave a comment.

here’s a little timeline of comments that made me ache:

2018: "hnr was such a big part of my life for a portion of time so it was really frustrating the way it ended. the idea that you read my fic in order to soothe the sadness is the greatest honor"

2020: "when i first read hnr, i rooted for mamura, but older me now realizes how their pairing, lovely as it is, doesn’t quite match the theme established in the beginning of the story. the longing and heart break of shizume was well done by the mangaka, and both characters have already moved on from this relationship, but a part of me wished to see them work out in a universe with kinder circumstances."

2020: "listen,,,,,,,,,,, i don't know what happened but on a whim i felt like thinking about hnr and it's weird how much i can pine and ache for a relationship even five years down the line. i suppose it's bc of the nostalgia. i feel it a lot in your words here. the way you describe how they remember things is the same way i feel when i read the manga so long ago. i guess it'll always be bittersweet but fics like yours make me realize that i'm not the only one feeling like that, if that makes sense? it's like soothing even if it hurts, haha. thank you so much for writing."

2022: "this is literally from 8 years ago but i stumbled upon it now"

2022: "i soooo wish you hadn't stopped updating this since 2015. i'm a shizume shipper and i was devastated that shishio-sensei didn't get back together with suzume in the manga. so, for this reason, i look to fanfiction to ease my heart and read the ending i want for the characters i love... i can only hope you somehow see my comment and that it inspires you to continue with this fic. for me, and other shizume shippers like me, stories like these that give hope are like oxygen."

2024 (responding to the comment above): "i still have a few chapters left with this, and hoping to end it with a few more. one day, i will post it. and i hope you will be there when i finally close this work."

some of these comments got a reply from the author, but a lot didn’t. maybe it’s too embarrasing to look back at something you wrote 10 years ago (why did I use those words to describe that feeling?), or maybe they’ve moved on from the characters. or maybe shizume still hits too close to home, and they’d rather not go back there.

anyway, today i got a kudo on an old fic. no one on tumblr is talking about hnr anymore, but i know for sure that shizume still haunts people. suzume and shishio are still out there, touching the hearts of old readers. the ao3 tag is all the proof you need.

[karamell-sweetz]

EVERYBODY SHUT. SGUT UP. SHUTUPIIHHFDGNJJJBGGFBJIJZGBM. DNJMJGGGSHHM. shhnhdfhbbmn.

[soapyakships]

shizume shizume

at first i was a bit confused by this so i did a bit of digging and IS THIS A FIXER BY NULUT REFERENCE?

[gradol-cuties]

Nodoka Shizume 鎮目 のどか 2005年10月12日 T158cm B-- W-- H-- 推定Cカップ

[iikurakoen]

有頂天LOVE(スマイレージ) covered by 小川紗季　巫まろ　鎮目のどか　西井万理那

[aroace-poly-show]

my voice longs to sing fixer but alas i am home alone no longer 😔

[findflower96]

鎮目のどか