#shoutout to my frd on Instagram that gave me this idea

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I’m right where you left me

Aaron should have expected this. He should’ve known that this is going to happen. Every single good thing that he has never last. He will never be good enough. Katelyn broke up with him because “being with Aaron is too much.” And Aaron understands, his psychotic brother and derange boyfriend, his trauma and the stupid fucking foxes. Of course it will all be too much. He doesn’t blame Katelyn.

So why is he completely shattered when Kevin left him for Andrew and Neil?

Kevin and he are nothing, just two guys fucking because they have nothing better to do. So it is Aaron’s fault for falling. And how can he not? When Kevin is the one to take care of him and make sure he is okay after they fucked every time. When they go out and have dinners and watch movies and take late night walks at the beach. When Kevin helps Aaron to study for his finals, making him food and reminding him to drink water.

Aaron has no one. The broken deal he had with Andrew left him with no friends. He had Katelyn, but now, he only has the fucking foxes. So of course it will be Kevin.

Aaron is not delusional, they explicitly say that they are only friends with benefits. Kevin tells Aaron many times how much he looks like Andrew. Kevin whispers to Aaron that he likes Andrew but Andrew is with Neil and Kevin cannot decide if he likes Andrew or Neil more. Aaron knows all of these. Kevin can never hide it well when he is staring at Andrew and Neil.

Aaron notices Andrew noticing. Aaron just did not expect Andrew to talk to him about it.

“What is going on between you and Kevin?” Andrew asks Aaron one day, when they are somehow alone in Andrew’s room.

“Nothing,”

“Don’t lie to me.” Aaron does not answer. But andrew will not budge and there is no one more stubborn than Andrew maybe except Neil.

“We are just friends with benefits.” Aaron snaps.

“Kevin likes Neil and I.” Andrew casually says, taking a cigarette and lighting it.

“I know,”

“Neil and I don’t mind,” Aaron’s entire world collapses right there and then.

“Okay, I don’t care.” Whatever pieces of Aaron’s heart that are left have burnt up to ashes.

Andrew looks at him, but Aaron has been in therapy with Andrew long enough that Aaron knows how to hide something from him.

Without another word, Andrew left Aaron, taking the ashes with him.

Aaron stands there stupidly. He feels like crying. He does not want to cry. He cannot cry. His chest is burning and his eyes are watering and he cannot breathe and he needs to get out of Andrew’s room before anyone comes back and go back to his room and lock it and-

The door opens, Kevin comes in and one look at Aaron’s blank face he envelops him in his arms.

“What’s wrong?”

Aaron cannot talk, his throat is so tight that if he speaks then all that will come out of it are screams.

Aaron wants to pull away, before the remaining pieces of his soul are ruined. But he is selfish and desperate and a masochist. So he allows himself to stay in Kevin’s embrace. He hugs him back tightly.

“What’s wrong?” Kevin asks again, sounding very concerned.

“Just terrified of my finals,” Aaron mumbles into Kevin’s hoodie.

“You will ace it,” Kevin says, “I’ll help you.”

No you won’t. You will be with Andrew and Neil.

“Okay,” Aaron says.

Then Kevin kisses him. And one thing leads to another and they end up in Kevin’s bed.

Aaron wakes up to an empty bed. He should get used to it. But he already misses waking up in Kevin’s arms. Aaron cannot help but lingers in Kevin’s bed before getting out.

Aaron tries to go on as usual. He goes to classes, he goes to practices, he studies. He tries to ignore Kevin. Kevin is confused at first, seems even a bit hurt. But then he spends all his time with Andrew and Neil. And Aaron knows that Andrew and Neil told him.

So there is nothing left for Aaron. Once again Aaron is being left.