#sick fux

[bekah-reading]

God you know I have a book hangover when I want to dive back into a book I just finished.

I really want to re-read Sick Fux

I miss them so much.

[idcbabyialreadylostmymind]

i need to start reading fucking trigger warnings cause i just started sick fux and im fucking balling my eyes out bc this is bringing so much trauma back up like whattt

[r0seinw]

sick fux

I love sick fux, it's a book that makes me both disgusted (because of Rabbit and Dolly's traumas uh) and love (the scene in which Rabbit makes an effort and they make "love" as Dolly wanted) I think it's a 10/10 book for fans of dark romance, if this reaches someone who hasn't read it please do. I swear you won't regret it, especially if you love dark romance like I do.

This is an extra fact but uff (spoilers) the blood pact scene, that was fucking cute and horny.

[persephonegatz]

Reading List 2022

🏆 My Top 5 🏆

[maddiesflame]

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[seedhe-pahad-se]

I just finished “Sick Fux” by Tillie Cole and oh god its so fckd up. The initial chapters and some other scene in between made me experience something similar to what i feel during panic attacks. Rabbit and Dolly (ifykyk) these two are so messed up because of the obvious traumas but i am glad they got the revenge. God the way their minds worked its effed up. and there was a scene SPOILER where they made the blood pact and had each other’s blood around their necks’ in a vial.. i want that. like for real.

[girlmostlikely]

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- The Stranger by Albert Camus

- Dead Inside by Chandler Morrison

- The End of Alice by A.M. Homes

- Amygdalatropolis by B.R. Yeager

- A Certain Hunger by Chelsea G. Summers

- Hysteria by Jessica Gross

- Bunny by Mona Awad

- Cockroach by Rawi Hage

- A Girl is a Half-formed Thing by Eimear McBride

- Binary Star by Sarah Gerard

- Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead by Olga Tokarczuk

- Girlhood by Melissa Febos

- The Chronology of Water by Lidia Yuknavitch

- Very Important People by Ashley Mears

- Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata

- Severance by Ling Ma

- A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

- The New Me by Halle Butler

- The Well by Elizabeth Jolley

- Milk Fed by Melissa Broder

- Boy Parts by Eliza Clark

- Hidden Pictures by Jason Rekulak

- The Girls by Emma Cline

- Rape Girl by Alina Klein

- The Sluts by Dennis Cooper

- Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke by Eric LaRocca

- Comfort Me with Apples by Catherynne M. Valente

- Gone to See the River Man by Kristopher Triana

- Come Closer by Sara Gran

- Milk Teeth by Jessica Andrews

- Black Swans by Eve Babitz

- Negative Space by B.R. Yeager

- PenPal by Dathan Auerbach

- The Secret History by Donna Tartt

- Sick Fux by Tillie Coke

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- Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

- The Final Girl Support Group by Grady Hendrix

- Earthlings by Sayaka Murata

- The Idiot by Elif Batuman

[jupitervega]

hey peace & love, i mean this as kindly as possible-- some of y'all rly gotta unclench abt takin up space in the world by existin

like if a jerk in line behind u at the store is huffin n puffin bc yr self check is givin u fits & makin the process longer, that's their problem to deal with like an adult. is there some kinda giant glitterbomb behind the counter that's gonna blow if u don't get yr bags packed & get gone before the jerk's internal timer reaches zero? is anyone gonna blast u with literal red eye laser death rays? naw? then let the pissbaby pitch their lil fit that u can't ring yr groceries at lightspeed

or like. doctor stuff for fucken real. it's not illegal to be a pain in the healthcare system's ass until u get the relief u need. i'm not sayin be ugly abt it or anything, but yr allowed to put yr foot down with yr doctor. they said u needed to lose weight for an unrelated issue, or wrote yr symptoms off as anxiety/stress when u know damn well somethin else is wrong? make another appointment. message the office again. go to a different doc who will take u seriously if yr able. ask for every test yr insurance will pay for (if u got it). if they refuse to test or treat u for an issue, insist that their refusal is noted in yr file. don't mask yr symptoms to try & save face at the clinic. if they don't believe u until yr at yr worst, show up at yr worst. yr the best advocate u have, & idk abt y'all but i'm not catholic & i refuse to suffer any way i ain't gotta

other ppl don't like how u dress (too weird, too goth, too bright, etc.)? well good thing they're not wearin yr clothes then huh!!! maybe they oughta get glad in the same pants they got mad in while u strut yr funky stuff the hell away from that bullshit

any unsolicited negative opinion on anything u do that hurts no one & makes u happy? just be like ok loser thanks for the garbage input, i will not be considerin any of that, i'm happy for u or sorry that happened, goodbye

anyway. all this kinda stuff mattered So Much to me in my teens-twenties that i stressed myself sick abt it all & now i'm 31 & simply cannot find many more fux to give. i'm alive on this gay earth same as anyone else, & so are u, & we have a right to be here & take up space by existin. this world was made for us to explore, how u gonna do that when u keep makin yrself so small? take my hand. we're gonna get thru all this together :)

[the-bjd-community-confess]

I'm all for people learning new skills but I'm so fuxxing sick of tripping over kids trying to sell their first crappy 3D sculpt every other day. You can't always monetize your hobbies, you definitely need some basic sculpting and engineering skills before trying to sell, and it's exhausting trying to tiptoe around your feelings when you're throwing it into every single convo constantly.

Stop asking why people aren't buying your $$$ doll. No one is buying because it's ugly and badly engineered. Go practice and get over yourself.

~Anonymous

[mix3d-emotion]

So I'm going to start Sick Fux by Tillie Cole today

If anyone would like to join me on a buddy read and maybe create a book club out of it?

It is a dark romance though and will probably have triggering material in it so please read any trigger warnings before going down this rabbit hole with me.

[bekah-reading]

75/120

5/5

This was a TBR jar pick. I for sure will be adding this to my Wishlist for my birthday and Xmas, I really want a physical copy.

I first heard about this from my friend, J, who had a friend, S. S had to stop and put this down as a DNF because it was too intense and really dark. I completely understand and stand by S’s decision because I don’t want anyone reading something that could harm them. BUT I’m too much of a nosy fuck. S said that was an Alice in Wonderland retelling/inspired book. So I’m liking it because of that as well, but I also want to see what was so bad that she had to stop this. I also have Tillie Cole’s MC series so this seems like a nice way to start and see if I would like that as well.

After finishing up The Cat and Mouse Duet by HD Carlton, whenever I pick up a dark romance I’ve had a really hard time getting into them or I just didn’t feel like reading them anymore when I picked them up. This helped break that, I actually read this all the way through. I’m glad it was able to help with that slump.

I love the writing style so much, it definitely works really well in bringing these characters to life and immersing the reader into this story. If her MC series is anything like this book, I totally want to read it.

There were parts with Heathan that were sickening and horrible, and if you cannot handle reading about children being abused DO NOT READ THIS! This has a ton of SA towards children. It made me sick and I just wanted to be able to reach into the book and save these guys. I will admit I did cry a few times whenever these guys had something bad happen to them. It doesn’t help that I’m on my period so I’m really too empathetic for this right now. I will say that even though their shared SA past is mostly the first like 2/3 chapters we do get bits and pieces throughout the whole story because of them growing and healing from it. It’s totally got a ton of revenge in it, and I was happy with all of those moments that they finally were able to get control back for themselves.

I did really enjoy the relationship that Ellis, Dolly, and Heathan, Rabbit, had together. Especially as Rabbit worked through his past and trying to help not only himself but Ellis as well. The way both of them would gravitate towards each other but have this touch aversion was really adding to the longing and it was heartbreaking. I think that Heathan is definitely up there with Zade in terms of favourite Book Boyfriends.

[ghost-mafia]

His long dark eyelashes rest so perfectly against the smooth plain of his cheek, beautiful to me but not to himself. His fluttery, often-frustrsted hands are at rest, beautiful too, thin and long fingered, capable and romantic, like a piano player or a poet, and

the poetry he writes is perfect to me, too, in the way that car crashes and motor cycle accidents are perfect, and somehow just as thrilling to read as it was to car-crash my car again and again before i knew him.

Our hearts are dark together, pressed close through our chests, like twins in a womb, mirroring trauma and love and vicious rage and retaliation and pain and more love and pure sex.

With no rules, we would destroy one another. Or we would survive one another and get better, quit being junkie skum fux and live a normal life together, and heal somehow from all the awful, soul-ruining shit that made us how we are, the shit that makes us perfect for each other, with a sense of massive, life-shattering gravity pulling us closer together until a kind of singilarity occurs.

The twitch and ache for closeness, the agony of yearning so completely for the other person. Comfort is telling myself that he was there with me this whole time: the frailty of getting sick and almost dying, the frailty of being vulnerable in front of someone despite knowing they could irrepairably damage you by you just trusting them with ur nakedness.

How i have cried. How i longed for him. Its the way i knew him in my mind beofre i ever met him, how i wished for him all those years i was alone alone alone, especially alone with other people, the way emptiness hurt so bad that i had to let it out, make it into an image on my skin. I love every single slice and scratch that ever marched across his skin, each one is a demarcation of a singular moment that hurt, just like my tattoos, but rendered in scar tissue...

We are inverted negatives of each other, incomplete without the other, and how it made me cry to realize that id never been a complete person until he fit up against me like an answer to my whole life's questioning, like a puzzle piece that has only one interlocking piece that reveals a new and beautiful picture: all the possibility of the world suddenly seen in startling clarity, like telling the truth for the first fucking time. Oh, i thought, you stupid, stupid girl- SO this is what love feels like, real visceral, in the flesh amd bone. I want to give him life but my body rebels, rejects my want, wont fulfill my wishes. In this i would have the opportunity to grow and become the version of myself that i was always waiting to become- a refugee from an alternate dimension, a pirate with no gold and no wind fuckin sail with, wasted years rotting and falling away, shedding all that pain of not being together. It agonizes me that he was there all along, a familar stranger i would come to love so dearly that it sucks the breath out of my chest.

[darkestcorners]

Any new fav dark reads?(books).Btw glad you're back

Ooo some of I’ve read recently are:

Gothikana by RuNyx

Prisoner by Annika Martin

Skeleton King by Charity B ( this is so dark, please make sure to read the trigger warnings 💀)

The Mind Fuck series by S.T Abby

I know what love is by Whitney Bianca ( again please read the trigger warnings )

Sick Fux by Tillie Cole

Too Late by Colleen Hoover

My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell

Misery by Stephen King ( it was giving very much yandere )

The Butterfly Garden by Dot Hutchison

Stolen Tongues by Felix Blackwell ( loved it but don’t recommend reading it in the dark like I did 😭)

[persephonegatz]

[bordonfreeman]

Despite how it may seem. My tuping does not get worse when im sick or super tired. I sipmly lack the energy to care about fuxing it

[seedhe-pahad-se]

i am still on chapter 10 but my heart aches for heathen Rabit and Ellis Dolly.

I mean gawd my whole body was shaking just on the initial chapters. no idea what else i signed up for just oh god i hope they get their revenge and nobody should go thru what they went thru. shit dude i am still shaking.