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[vinniedirkota]

its so weird its SO weird its so weird feeling the ice king come out. its not a kinshift (i am always simon 0u0) its like a mood. uninhibition. ....id! get weirder get weirder get weirder. ice king is what happens when i am manic or less uptight than usual. say something embarrassing and spacey so that i can regret it later. no no i take it back! i am the dryest peraon in the room. today im not :D inverting!

[yesimmortalspiritblog]

~~~In The Beggining~~~ 🌎 is a beautiful planet that offers many challenges. Every negative and destructive word that comes out of political mouths is the oppurtunity to take their sick minds to God's glisten golden altar in prayer. Step back in faith, trust, silence and calmness, and let God do His miracles. Be patient, for these things take time.🙏 Meanwhile, do not listen to negativity no matter who is spewing it. And certaintly do not fight, be love and light.🕊🙏💞💞💞🕊 . . . #inthebeginning #donotfight #beloveandlight #donotlistentosicktalk #sicktalk #sicktalksick #sickmindsmedia #sickminds #negativetalk #negativemindset #allnegativewords #issickness #sickbehaviors #policebrutality #peopleunite #noneedtofight #bethelightinthedarkness #poetsofwisdom #poeticwisdom #apoetswisdom #poeticallyspeaking #🌎chaos #🌎love #🌎peace #joytothe🌎 #joytotheworld #freedomtotheworld #freedomtour #becool #✌️️ (at All Over the World) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSZ8krLpvWC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[blindkite]

While it's none of my business, may I inquire about what ails you?

I’ve actually been pretty open about my illnesses (since it affects my commissions work and anything schedule related) so I don’t mind! 

Some of them need a little explaining as to what they are, and it’s kinda a long list. I have alot of health problems.

Hashimoto’s disease is my main issue, its a type of autoimmune disease that causes hypothyroidism, aka, i regularly have to get blood tests and up meds to keep up with its fast progression. Not fatal, but its a fuckin pain in the ass i tell you.

Normally it isnt such havoc to deal with, but I’ve actually had symptoms of this since childhood, so I was ALWAYS being tested for thyroid issues, but nothing came up, so it was chalked up as whiny kid just complaining and faking sick for attention. 

I went an extremely long time misdiagnosed because i had a rare variant of it that required a nonstandard test to find, (It’s called Test Negative Hashimoto’s, cause it shows as negative on general tests)  so by the time i was finally diagnosed and put on meds, alot of damage had already been done to my body and there was no reversing it. If it had been caught sooner, I would never of become this sick, there’s even a chance it could of been stopped entirely. All it would of taken was one doctor to think to try the alternate test, instead of just blaming it on being a whiny kid.

As you can tell, I’m extremely salty about this.

Next up,

Ehlers–Danlos syndromes (EDS), I have the hyper-mobility type, which means my joints love to lock and dislocate over literally nothing. washing dishes? not anymore, now your fingers refuse to move. walking? hope you didnt need that knee to bend. again, its more annoying than anything. I do sound like a box of rice krispies whenever i move tho (snap crackle pop)

Fibromyalgia is also in the mix, this is a recent diagnosis since it was kinda hiding behind the EDS, since they have similar all pain all the time. Tho this has the bonus of hurting a fuck ton if you poke me, and pain in random places for no reason! Also I’m young and in a state that fears opioid/pain medication abuse so, all i get is some Alleve and a prayer!!!!

Irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) is also a newbie diagnosis, because it was hiding behind the hashimoto’s, which also causes digestive issues. Also I have the annoying version you can’t take medication for, I either strictly control my diet or i fucking suffer. I’m basically in a constant state of, the more they treat, the more they find wrong, which is not great.

Last up is Circadian rhythm disorder, aka, I was born naturally nocturnal. And no, it is not a matter of a strict schedule and some melatonin to fix. Been there, tried that. Because of the life long sleep issues (i was literally like this as a baby), i’m prone to insomnia if my natural sleep is fucked with, with the bonus of getting super vivid hallucinations! FUN!!! So yeah, I fuck with that as little as possible. It does what it wants, and I’m just along for the ride.

AND WHAT AGGRAVATES AND MAKES ALL THESE THINGS WORSE??DRUMMROLL PLEASEEEEEE~!

STRESS. STRESS IS WHAT MAKES IT WORSE.

As it is, i already have Anxiety + ADHD (or High functioning Autism, as my doctor recently realized it might actually be??) so bad its like i have boss music playin 24/7, so my very spanish soap opera like family who loves to find trouble no matter where they go, makes it very hard to NOT be stressed. Which means my health very often spins out of control. And when its out of control, they all eat into each other.

Which results in an extremely shit a immune system, pain, dangerously low amounts of sleep and fevers on a weekly basis.

None of it is fun, its very complicated and just an all around not great time.

Thanks for coming to my TED TALK 

[invieres]

ranting ahoy / cyctalk (sicktalk too)

since I’m finally done with hospital appointments (s/o to the fact the doctor literally went ‘we don’t need to check if you have PCOS cos we’d give you the same medication anyway’- aka the pill and diabetes meds. ‘it sounds like you have a nerve problem but since you can still feel I’m not worried’ hurray for the NHS, guess I’ll just *deal with it*) I’m gonna get my lil ass in gear and work on getting all the skeletons out for @cyclicalrp if anyone’s even still around or here for it. tbf I’ll do it anyways once this week’s illness is over (I haven’t been able to talk for three days, and my mum said I was lying about it??? fun fucking week lemme tell you). I am so so sorry it’s taken this long to update on it. 

[journalistically]

Hold your breath, Listen close, Hear her voice creek in restless song, A single rose. In rustled winds billowed cold, Hollowed. Alone. Strong. This entrantress sculpted in ice, Frozen in time, Cold as hearts she hollowed with her teeth, A vice: A mime: Mimic the sky dark in refractions I find. An Ill will, A torched nature. And endless corridor, from those wanting more, Not land, nor sea could tame her raging laughter, By daylight she has transformed again, Disfigured I named her: Eternity, I felt her brush against the heat of my fever, Infirmary, I loved her from a distance, Nervously. A piano in serenade, Her contraptions balle as light into breaking day of the ocean's relentless tide, From her love I both run to, and hide, I am so locked up outside, From this freedom I’ve found, A heart of ever shifting sinking ground, A sad love song, with no resound, I tell you in truth, As sure as I breath, Listen close, Hear her voice. In restless song. Geo Rodriguez. #love #lost #poem #poetry #summer #sicktalk

[jasonlouietimmons]

#wyeOak #sickTalk #JulyFavorite❤️💙🎶❤️💜 (at Thejspot)

[blindkite]

I have Hashimoto's thyroiditis. I feel ya. It sucks. I wore a bright, traffic cone orange hoodie throughout my entire high school career. I lived in the heart of Phoenix, AZ. I get it.

The worse thing is that when i was finally put on meds, it was like my body didn’t understand wtf temp regulation was because it was just locked on “always cold” my entire life so instead of just feeling shit normal, i now overheat just from light activity. go from eternal chill to YOU READY TO HAVE HEATSTROKE FROM FROM DOIN CHORES??? wtf is heat idk im still not used to this shit.

[whisperedwings]

I'm sick in bed with the flu today.

[bikenesmith]

fukutomi??

looks: somewhat attractive | eh | not really my type | pretty | handsome | beautiful | stud | gorgeous | SWEET LORD MERCY

can you relate to this character on a personal level?: no | not really | somewhat | yes | they are me

would you date/be friends with this character in real life if they were real?: total bros | friends| best friends | date | become their steady datefriend | neither | i don’t know

[macdemarkers]

Baby's first twisted ankle.

[starrylamb]

i feel so icky right now just kill me

[kotarokrusher]

vampire weekend

it's a tie between bryn and giving up the gun

[stoneheartmp3]

sicktalk said: me and natalia are planning on making a movie lmao you guys could make proper movies as in real heart in them and throw in creep by radiohead every once in a while

[du-og-meg]

sicktalk replied to your post “What was your first entry level hipster song”

does for reverend green/fireworks by anco count

yeh

[ampkiss]

staphylococcusaurus replied to your audio post “I was tagged by danielsharms and I hate this more than anything I’ve...”

actually your voice is very nice ._.

sicktalk replied to your audio post “I was tagged by danielsharms and I hate this more than anything I’ve...”

i love your daryl voice lmao

YOU PEOPLE ARE FULL OF SHIT

I SHOULD TAKE THIS TRAVESTY DOWN

[blindkite]

OH GOD YOU HAVE HASHIMOTO'S?? I'm so sorry fam I know that pain. I was just diagnosed with that about four months ago and I still get my meds adjusted every few months cause my thyroid decides to fuck around and straight up not work

EEYYYYY SUFFERING BUDDIES