#since cas is homeless again in s15

[castielmacleod]

It’s something so specifically bothersome that a large number of people on here think that Cas choosing to give up his grace and become human so he can grow old with [his abuser] is the “good” ending that Cas should have or even was “supposed” to have gotten. Despite the fact that: 

1. Cas very much likes being an angel and has never actually expressed the desire to be anything other than what he is.

2. Cas consistently feels distressed, vulnerable, anxious, and/or otherwise unsettled when his powers are failing or suppressed or outright lost, which is something that doesn’t change from s5 all the way to s15.

3. Cas’ time as a human in s9 was not only very uncomfortable for him but in fact made him so miserable that the Rit Zien literally showed up to end his suffering, and in relation to that I’d argue a lot of the horrible things that happened to Cas would have honestly been deeply traumatic (such as being homeless, poor, kicked out of the bunker by someone he loved and trusted, attacked by members of his own family for inadvertently causing the fall, used for sex and then murdered by the only person who offered him any help, having his grace carved out in the first place tbh, etc)

4. Human Cas was desperate enough to literally murder his siblings, something he is emotionally very not okay with, in order to steal their grace and become an angel again. Only once he was an angel again did he refuse to kill more angels in order to keep himself at full power and was content to let himself die a slow death, which is to say he demonstrably would rather die as an angel than die as a human.

Ultimately this idea that Cas longs to be human Little Mermaid style or something as opposed to just wanting to connect with humanity because he loves and admires them, is fanon. More than that it’s fanon most popular with DestieI shippers, and more than that it’s fanon most popular with DestieI shippers who favour Dean’s experience over Cas’. It’s not like I can stop people from writing fics or making posts about ideas that interest them but saying Cas never “got the chance” to choose to be human like he was narratively “supposed” to doesn’t really have any basis at all with the way the character actually is in canon, since Cas pretty clearly never wanted to be human in the first place.

[bunnelbie]

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