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[tizianomazzilli]

SMILE YOU’RE STILL ALIVE! #smileyouarealive #smiley #tuesday #october2020 #fuckcovid19 #art (at London, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGjlRrnHHjY/?igshid=hexn2ngh21cp

[grind2dagreen]

You have to know it’s going to all work out. If there are no BUMPS in your road you are taking the easy route 🤓.
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[diaryofarunninglady-blog]

I would still smile even if my chiclets were yellow 😃 😆 😃 #diaryofarunninglady #smileyouarealive😊 #lipstickmonday (at Wilmington, Delaware) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3UWxJYFX7e/?igshid=1rj3qcivelute

[diaryofarunninglady-blog]

Should be at work but my morning had other plans. Nice try Monday but I'm ready for all your tricks. No thank you and you can come AGAIN. Trying to learn to ride the wave and not to let the wave swallow me. #diaryofarunninglady #smileyouarealive😊 #lifehasbumpsintheroad #speedoverspeedbumps #lipstickmonday https://www.instagram.com/p/B2eQxiKlcGv/?igshid=7xorlw56gjil

[spacemonkeybutts]

friday late night night 3/28/14

suddenly i want to get on facebook and continously show how good i am doing at ife and how well i function on a computer.. 

and then i want o say fuck spell check unless its fucking important!

haha. ok, so i suck at spelling attach (attatch . . ) and hierarchy (heirarchy...) fucking silly.

i love talking to this girl at work. she has such high pitched energy not only is she a natural beautiful woman but shes like high maintenance, and so simple - she has morals and wants something we all as women want - nice men. But men are like disasters. All the men seem to be cheaters or yanno drug dealers.. 

its fun how we talk to each other and get to know each other - but i definitly feel the energy is so high that i forget almost everything i say and i dont remember everything i heard. i recall bits here and there but it all flies by so quickly that it pains or makes me feel suffering later when i want to hold onto the excitement and nostalgia of the conversation.

work was ok today. i bet i looked hideous yesterday but i feel wonderful today, 

why did i look so hideous yesterday. i did the wine reset and wkept my face down - i had on the sample revlon anti age number 30 on my face and being that tan makes me feel a little bit more of a wallflower.

today i wore the faceshop bb cream i got at christmas - it is nice stuff a little dark but natural as all hell when its put on. i'm glad i get to wear makeup everydamnday but i wish i could not wear makeup. 

and still function.

i eat vitamins. magnesium, biotin, vitamin c, gingko and sometimes i drink acai things.. those don't feel like a waste of my time but i wouldnt be taking such good care of myself if at all haha this is trying for sure - anyway - i am hurting myself and thats why i am trying to counteract it - i want to be young but i like feeling - thesmoke i guess.

i do go to the gym to shower - only. it seems. i want to be toned but im all - weak to the life it seems to transpire around me. The people are so - intensely in my visual space, grr, but they motivate me too.

-- i dont really feel like typing all that much. i want to talk about how i had a feeling in my stomach and face earlier when i got the chills about some far away boyman that i thought i knew a little. gushing. i wanted to hit on him but all i think are thoughts so narrow- only one way and the direction of success is illusive and meaningless... but i wish i was a different way entirely. so i wait and i will wait until i am who i wish to be - haha.

still - the sex, right? hahah. don't we all want to have that too. idk. i dont know what i want but it definitively entails being hugged and held.

its more of an ownership of valuable materials. love? i didnt think its supposed to be called that. work - love, erm, humor me, relationship, intimacy, colleague, friendship, partner, those words seem to work ok when describing what i hope is marriage erm. with children and dogs one day. that's like a hope i have, silly, but it's true. 

in my fantasies - i have a great job, and they love me and i love what i do. i have a house, making mortgage payment! and living with a dog! i own a beautiful car with black rims too... and I am happy.

My man of Dreams, enter here. 

smiles politely, does beautiful craftsmanship, can cook, likes to read, and watch movies. likes to work daily but enjoys vacations and can afford to take one every once in awhile..

travels for his job, we both do. and we have met a beautiful babysitter who my future husband claims to have never slept with. Which I am thankful for because my children are a riot and i don't want a fucked up husband squirreling around in my life like that and jeopardizing my feelings - exploding this perhaps after-all delicate rouse of a life. 

subtle. haha. don't fuck with me? - idk, they say marriage is different, but it's unfair to do that I think . divorce, however, i get. so whatever. 

whatever ~! haha

[diaryofarunninglady-blog]

Happy Friday good people, enjoy! #diaryofarunninglady #tgif #youarestrong #youarekind #youareawesome #smileyouarealive😊 #givethanks #beblessed #beablessingtoothers https://www.instagram.com/p/B2WZ4wPlpS8/?igshid=1vaenqqwc86f2