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heartyearning · 2 years

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Huge fan of attending the same performance over and over again until I get it right (aka find the perfect central perspective)

#PLEASE LOOK AT THE STAMP ON MY COLLAR BONE A REALLY HOT GUY PUT IT THERE #george.png #i fucking love this show they changed some stuff since yday but fuck its so good #its fascinating to go to plays more than once and sit in different seats cause just like with atropa there were things that were better #in my first seat and things that were better in my second seat #at a certain point mars runs behind these curtains at the back of the stage and starts pole dancing with light behind him #which is incredible in the (fairly central) back row #theres this whole vision of crucifixion that takes place in that scene #but i totally missed that in row D sitting on the jardin side #but then theres this magnificent micro acting that you cannot see from the back and like #u dont NEED to but its completely enchanting #im in love w this play im in love w thes people #i got compliments on my furs mars saw i was in the front n he was like oh good ur all the way in front #<- acting normal as though this man isnt so incredibly fucking hot #god. my god #slightly unrelated (its not) i had a beautiful dream last night abt this gorgeous airy house in the clouds that went on forever #and like. it's like i said after i watched atropa like colours lights and loud music are like a soul cleanser #so i think thats why i had that dream

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sluckythewizard · 2 months

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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'

#cw blood #SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten #its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then #fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something #also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve #but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere #ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP #THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed #kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me #from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream #and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him #she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she #is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK #I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs #LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH #THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED #TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER #oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much

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sleepyminty · 1 year

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Eversince i bought my binah plush doll, my two cousins ( who had zero knowledge of any PM games) had developed fear around her, since i placed her near the bedroom door they always said that they started having nightmare of this doll and honestly

Good for you binah, you’re still a manace even you turn into a harmless plushie

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abnormalpsychology · 11 months

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This is just an appreciation post for Once In A While, and ONLY the original version by Barry Bostwick. Why are productions always speeding it up and adding dramatic-ass key changes, acting like it’s boring?? Like why do you hate gay people? let my man Brad sing his sad long little ballad!!!!

Let him have this!!!!!!!!

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#I’m so serious abt this #I had a dream last night I was passionately explaining this to my family 💀#I went from listening to it and going ‘oh. forgettable lol’#(wrong)#to the BIGGEST once in a while apologist there is #like #THATS ALL THE TIIIIIME THAT IT TAAAAAAAKES #FOR A HEART TO. BEAT AGAAAAIIIINNNN #SO GIVE ME A SIGN!!!!!!!!! THAT A LOVER MAAAAAAAAAAAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like this is everything #this is music #AND EVERYDAY I THINK #WHY WOULD THEY HAVE HIM SAY ‘SHE WONT WANNA KNOW YOU’#**SHE WONT WANNA KNOW YOU??????***#THATS SO FUCKING SAD. WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME FEEL SYMPATHY FOR BRAD ‘ASSHOLE’ MAJORS???#once in a while #bbge.text #rocky horror picture show #brad majors #rhps #it’s like you guys don’t even care that like he heard something abt someone he thought he’d known #I’m insane #Youtube #if once in a while has 100 fans I am one of them. if once in a while has no fans I am dead etc etc

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the-meme-monarch · 8 months

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well that's the worst nightmare I've had in a while

#we were at the grocery store and a shooter came in. my sibling and i were separated at the time.#they died. and i was theone to find their body afterward. so. that fucking sucked.#woke up and strted to cry bc i thought it was real for a second #dream journal #edit bc i dont eant to reblog it to say this but ive had time to process it now #i was the only fucking person who cared that xe died. the dream cut to after the shooter was arrested and we were preparing for xer funeral #i think the dream implied that yhe shooter was an ex employee at the store and my dad and i were trying to like. talk to the owners about Y #Your Ex Employee Killed My Fucking Sibling #and the manager or boss or ehoever just. didnt care. didnt have any sympathy #my dad was there. but he didnt speak. i had to beg the managet to feel anything for the child who was shot and killed in his store.#to pay for xer funeral? i dont know.#we were there getting a blind bag toy xe had talked aout going to get irl since it was a short walk there really #i was looking for those pink chocolate chips.#to make cookies fro my friends #thats why i eoke up thinking it was real i think #most of my set-in-reality nightmares hinge on something that Cant happen anymore. this one was based on Recent Events and Planned Events #i had woken up just before six. when xe gets up for school. so i stared crying bc Oh My God Xe's Dead Xe's Never Going To Go To School Again #i dont think ive looked them in the face at all today.

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carcarrot · 8 months

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#some of these are serious possibilities others. not so much . but we can dream #i would looooove if a glitter suit came back. that could be a real contender #id also go nuts if the poncho came back. but hes gotta also do the white pants . i miss you poncho boy #also considering the 2022 tour was the yellow suit and last year had the red thats why im thinking blue or turquoise this time. who know #go nuts everybody #spars #russ

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cottoncandylesbo · 3 months

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I forgot how exhausting it is to sob, actually scream cry. it feels good and bad. my eyelids sting. i keep trying to get up and do things but everything just makes me feel sick.

#i know grieving is kinda universally difficult but like #the last time i truly needed to grieve sometjing was so long ago #this feels new again and its so hard #i just. i just keep turning around expecting to see him there #waiting for me #like it was all a bad dream #because it all happened so fast.#the animal er visit was like two hours tops. i thought id take him and theyd fix him up #get him home #i had no idea i needed to make that decision on the spot #really i had like five minutes to think about what to do for him #it was nightmarish honestly maybe thats why its not sinking in #it just all felt so cruel #i dont. i didnt want to believe it to be true #i still donr #please come home to me max #please come back i dont care if you bite me or bark at me #please just let me see you one more time

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

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forgechildofheph · 2 months

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Is it possible to still like a character but dislike/feel iffy about their canon relationship/portrayal?

#Percabeth shippers pls dont come at me #I like annabeth ok #I just feel weird reading the books and how she's portayed at times #I dont want to be jumped #I just think they both need to grow more as people themselves before getting into a relationship #theyre kids who never had a chance being kids #and theres healthier ways to show affection and it was cute when I was younger but rereading the books now just fills me up with dread #i just think they both need therapy first #gods i feel like a sniper is aiming at my head #just to reiterate: I like Annabeth #but not Percabeth #I don't like any of the ships in general tbf #like the part where they talk about what Percy will do for college while in Tartarus #that one was sweet #judo flip and all the “punching” was unnecessary #And the canonically lowering his self esteem #and the healthy dose of fear in that one kane book i forgot the name of #and why can't the “punch” be a playful “nudge” instead?#Idk I just see myself in Annabeth a lot but when I see how she's portrayed w her actions I'm horrified #because it takes a lot of hurt to be gentle and ik Annabeth is a sweetheart at her core #Cerberus in book 1 Her dream to be w her family in book 2 so on and so forth #like shes strong and soft at the same time but why is the soft part not that shown? Thats part of her complexity #gods i love annabeth chase #but Percabeth????#There's a lot of good fandom written percabeth #but canon Percabeth????#I wish that sometimes her character was written about more instead of just being a generic stronk female lead #yeah i said it #she's more of a strong female romantic character than “Annabeth Chase” herself #better off as friends and I'll die on this hill

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sorrowsaint · 4 months

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im going to bed

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heres a song i like goodnight

#......................#.............................................#..............................................................................#thats probably enough of a buffer.#last night i dreamed i was in the hollow below the tree that my body was in. when i woke up in the morgue all i wanted to do was curl up #my bones remember i think. even if i dont. sometimes i feel a phantom emptiness on my chest #like the arrows. like the knives.#its scary. its so scary.#im just a kid #will i remember it forever? how long will it haunt me?#people die all the time. people die and come back. people die and come back and they remember but it doesnt haunt them #i was trapped in death and i think thats... its not gone. maybe it is magically but i still feel it.#all i had for so many months was the vague knowledge that i was dead and this overwhelming sense of sharp coldness #my body remembers. i remember. how does anyone forget things like this? i dont want this. i dont want to remember.#i like it under my bed. ive put pillows and blankets down here. the vent that blows in cold air is here too so it feels comfy #and maybe it reminds me of being under the tree. and i dont know why but thats something im actually okay with #my body was under something for so long. the soil was cursed but i loved those woods. i miss the woods. my body hurts.#my mom is missing a leg and sometimes she talks about phantom pains. like her leg realizes it isnt there and screams #can you feel that way about a hole in your chest and your neck. can you feel that way about a tree above you.#can you feel that way about death #maybe i should get angry. but alone. so so alone so i dont hurt anyone.#i cant prove him right. because he was wrong and everything he ever said was wrong and he sucks and i hate him #im not like him.#im like gertie and my parents.#im so tired. im so tired. i want to sleep in dirt for a few more months. maybe sort myself out somewhere dark and quiet.

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akascow · 1 year

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who do i have to kill to get my goddamn hands on a g3 abbey doll at its retail price what the fuck

im more confused than anything because the release dates i find keep changing (june 23 to july 23 to august 23)

but also some people have it in hand or some people are already selling for double the price but also local stores or anything online just arent available

so im just like🧍🏻‍♀️ what is happening

what am i missing lmfao

#its been out for almost a month WHY ISNT IT IN STORES HERE YET #ive been waiting for this doll to drop since it was teased in like May dude i need her rIGHT NEOW #sorry to international collectors i now understand your pain this is eating me alive lmfao #i want her so bad shes my favorite g3 signature doll so far im like clenching my fists fr #scalpers r selling for like 2-3x the price but i literally cannot find anywhere thats selling for 25$#like WHERE ARE PEOPLE GETTING IT IM SO CONFUSED #the new fearidescant secrets came out immediately (YESTERDAY) why CANT I FIND AN ABBEY UGHHHHH #i had a dream last night that i finally got one n then i wake up and it still ceases to exist #thats how much i think about it. its becoming part of my DREAMS #which really isnt that hard BUT CMONNNN #monster high #abbey bominable #monster high g3

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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so magical that yakuza 1 and shadow the hedgehog came out the same year........ 2005 the best year for sega honestly.....

#snap chats #AND DAYS APART TOO IN JAPAN (rgg1 dec. 8 while shadow was dec. 15)#the gap is significantly wider for US releases but thats not important.....#japanese kids were winning on christmas i swear #'snap why are you bringing this up' isnt it obvious. i am playing shadow the hedgedhog #and i keep thinking about daigo playing shadow and then later down the line just talking to mine bout it cause he can be a lil sillay #i hope he had dreams where he and shadow got to be besties. and by Him And Shadow i mean he dreams himself as sonic #because obligatory Same VA Joke Is Obligatory IF WE CAN GET ONE (1) W FROM RCS VOICING DAIGO. LET IT BE THAT AT LEAST.#for me..... let it slide for me..... yes ik it was jason griffith voicing sonic (and shadow) back then but let it slide this once..#i refuse to acknowledge modern shadow. unless it's from that one uhhh fuck what was the cartoon called #its on netflix Point Is the one time shadow was actually like his old self girl i sobbed. too bad sonic was a dipshit though #a soul for a soul ig.... i think its ok just this once....#im getting so off topic but this is how i inflict my other interests upon you lot #i trap you into reading a post vaguely about rgg and then i make it about something else :)#look at my pfp you fool. i legally have to talk about shadow the hedgehog like once a month ok let me have this #while im here. like /i/ know this game is nine years long but sometimes i forget HOW long #326 endings and for what. because they love me thats why.#fym 'revenge at last' is only ending 11 that seems like the third route or so you'd take (only black doom missions)#ok ive talked long enough. anyway bye im gonna uhhhh god idk.... i keep getting distracted #i started watching kagerou while my sister was playing mysims the other day but i got too engrossed by her playing to continue #mysims was like. A White Whale of sorts in my house for a while since it was one of like five games my sis actually played #and it was her fave but one day 1.) we lost it 2.) our wii stopped working. since that day she's blamed me for losing it #WELL then i found it and i got the wii u working SO all that can stop now 👁️👁️ ok ive fr gone on too long #unfortunately i cant talk about EVERYTHING i want to lest i just turn this into a general games blog. but i wont i prommy #for now. bye fr i think my sis just got home actually LMAO

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cutemeat · 1 year

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i need Sunny’s women like i need blood in my veins

#its carnal at this point its alarming #yeah im thinking abt maureen #dennis didnt know what he had #queen of manipulation high maintenance catgirl with no job thats the fucking dream #maureen was litrlly the only person who could beat him at his own game thats why he went back to mac #‘some people just find the middle of the woods romantic i guess’ she implication’d your ass but alright sure #hes a fag thats the real problem but ofc he’ll never admit that #cuz again to glenn the only thing funnier than a fag is a closeted fag so we’ll just have to deal until the show croaks #sorry ik ive said nothing groundbreaking im just bored and overstimulated at work need the outlet #tw f slur #in tags

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mettywiththenotes · 1 month

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Had a dream I was watching or playing a vampire game (was in the style of minecraft tho) and for some reason steven universe future was there in his own art style

#the plot details i remember were that #there were two vampires with their own territories - one had a hotel/mansion and the other lived in a tent on a hill #and they were both trying to kill each other #it was like different endings. one ending had the mansion guy being killed on the hill #and the other had the tent guy being killed (not sure where)#idk why i just. remember a scene that was actually kind of chilling where the tent vampire was like 'alright im gonna have to kill him'#and it cut to steven universe (future) who was super tired and smiling with bags under his eyes like 'great thats just great!'#like he was real sick of it all #now that i think about it the implications of his involvement are so funny #was he trying to help them solve their differences? did he get roped into the whole situation?#was he trying to Make A Change for the good of the people who lived in fear around them?#thats for you to decide i guess #i just know by the end that he was pretty sick of it #steven universe #steven universe (show)#steven universe future #my dreams are getting funny man im very happy about this #mettys posts #metty posts #trying to decide whether it was a horror game or not #like it was def creepy #it had a creepy vibe #steven was not part of the creepy vibe tho he was just his own character

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love-songs-for-emma · 1 month

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i was on zillow today, fantasizing about being able to live somewhere, when i came across the listing for my childhood home. it wasn't active/being sold, but it was on there with some pics of the interior. and my GOD. THEY MADE HER UGLY. THEY TOOK HER RUSTIC PUSSY OUT. WHAT THE FUCK

#i'd share pics if it didn't dox me a little #but it's SO SAD #PLS #i needed to see her... curiosity got me. i dream of this house genuinely nearly every night #but like. oh my god.#this is probably for the best bc it means i cant romanticize about buying this home again one day and expecting it to look at all like #it did #but they literally took down to bare bones and reshaped her and ohh my god #babes there was so much gorgeous wood work in that house #there was an accent exposed brick wall in the living room #the open layout was still closed off Enough to feel like separate rooms. but they opened it even more #AND THEY TOOK AWAY THE BARSTOOL/COUNTER AREA ?? IM SO CONFUSED #WHY WOULD U DO THAT #YOU COULD SIT AT THIS GORGEOUS BLACK GRANITE COUNTER AND EAT SITTING IN THE LIVING AREA AS SOMEONE YOU LOVE SERVED YOU A MEAL DIRECTLY FROM #THE KITCHEN #i'm not genuinely bent out of shape about this btw. i just had to share this somewhere sldkjfdskl #people will buy YOUR childhood home and make it ''''MODERN.'''' it will happen one day to YOU #they will paint the walls GRAY & take the pussy out of her TOO (the walls were warm deep yellows/oranges/reds. bedrooms were lighter blues)#THEY TOOK AWAY THE WARM COLORED TILES OF THE LIVING AREA AND REPLACED IT WITH UGLY WOOD FLOORING ???#THEY REMOVED THE MOLDINGS ENTIRELY ??#NO MORE WINDOW LEDGES ??????#WHAT WAS HAPPENING HERE #praying that these were In Progress pics and somebody has returned love to this home since bc. my god #again vague for my own safety but i moved out within the last decade and the home was resold in the last 5 or so years and thats when these #pics r from i think. so they've had time to fix her since #and boy was she a fixer upper after the horrors that happened inside those walls </3 ASLKDFJSAK #i should literally just write about this and instead i'm posting on tumblr #yeah that's life. that's being a tumblrina writer.#personal #.txt

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boygirlctommy · 1 month

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ive been thinking about my ocs all day and i FOUND A WAY FOR MADINEAU TO BE RELEVANT AGAIN!!!!

#my post #caps #its only the titular fuckin character #but yeah so madineau was like a god and also the parent of the 4 mcs at first #but i couldnt see a way for that to be like literally at all relevant. like why is their dad god #why doesnt it do anything for the entire story.#so i cut it out #BUT! but #i was thinkin this morning about how this all started bcus i had a dream of a person seeing their life flash before their eyes during a #near-death experience. and the earliest thing they could remember was seeing this god bending down and reaching a hand out to them.#this character would become everin and i was thinking about how i decided she would actually die but i never did anything afterwards #and i thought about that dream. and decided that thats basically going to be her limbo. and shes going to be stuck there rewatching her lif #over and over again #until madineau appears to her and tells her its ok to rest now. and offers her its hand. and walks her home.#o(-(#this does come w the added challenge of now creating a religion for this world. maybe even 2.#or maybe same religion but different gods?#idk the details. but bcus of the lore of an earlier version of this story nekaia's name means protector of life and madineau is among other #things the god of life so i can do something here. making all my ocs religious now ig #yknow this might actually make the whole magic system easier too!#smilesss oh its all coming together

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