#so if they DONT get renewed. we didn’t miss out on that cuteness lol

[piratespencil]

Finished watching Shadow & Bone s2 last night and my Six of Crows obsession has returned full force. Just catapulted me back to 2016-2017. I love those crows so much.

[yourereallyhere]

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HI I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE EPISODE and im SO EXCITED to see everyones posts because I've being avoiding social media since 8 pm EST,, that was the best episode of the season by far and im FREAKING OUT so enjoy all the thoughts I had while watching since I was able to do this when I didn't watch live as I usually do and also come scream in my inbox (under the cut bc its pretty long)

⁃ Diyoza is a #sav

⁃ This convo bt Russell and Simone hmmm we know where this is going 

⁃ MADI AND JORDAN ARE SO CUTE

⁃ Raven in a mechanic shop? This is an au fic

⁃ Everyone is so happy

⁃ “It will be like it never happened”..so if Clarke does it Josephine wouldn’t have her memories

⁃ But then Delilah wouldn’t remember Jordan 

⁃ Poor Madi

⁃ Bellamy and echo where did you come from 👀

⁃ Bellamy’s smirk at Jordan

⁃ Oof Clarke is really warming up to sanctum 

⁃ Bellamy follows Clarke what a good little night and e.cho is pissed

⁃ They’re all still in murder gear 

⁃ HUNGER GAMES AHAHAHA DLCIWJFKXI

⁃ Simone is 😡😡 angry

⁃ Repent renew rejoice rebirth

⁃ THE B.ECHO SHOT AND THEN THE CLARKE SHOT AS SHES TURNING AWAY FROM LOOKING AT THEM

⁃ Russell is so cute yay for men showing emotions!

⁃ Oh clarke you’ve hurt people but we love you anyways

⁃ OHHH THE PRINCESS MECHANIC FIGHT I WAS RIGHT I love when that happens

⁃ HONEY don’t apologize for Shaw you didn’t do shit and you were the only one who even tried to save him pls spare me this bs jroth

⁃ Don’t make Clarke feel bad for having impossible choices that’s so fucked up everyone puts responsibility on her and as she’s said MULTIPLE TIMES she. Didn’t. Ask. For. This.

⁃ WHOOP there it is: bringing Bellamy into the convo 

⁃ THAT IS NOT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CLARKE AND OCTAVIA ANS CLARKE DOESNT PRETEND

⁃ Awe Octavia is protecting Clarke that’s so nice

⁃ Errand boy is hot hot hotttt he should get with Octavia

⁃ Rose and Octavia is a duo I stand by

⁃ Xavier left that knife there on purpose

⁃ THE LANTERNS

⁃ Omg clarkes said “Leaving Bellamy in Polis” that’s her darkness of the past I’m not crying you are

⁃ And now they’re talking 

⁃ AND SHE CONFIRMED IT

⁃ Clarke stop was literally the cutest thing to come out of that boys mouth ever

⁃ The Talk™️ but not really because The Real Talk™️ will have to be alone

⁃ WE BEEN KNEW THE IM SO SORRY BELLAMY WAS FROM A DIFFERENT CLIP

⁃ you’re,. my. FAMILy TOO ANJCICIWKJDJS. AAAHHHHHHG

⁃ YOURE TOO IMPORTANT TO ME

⁃ this is going down as one of the most iconic scenes ever

⁃ I have to pause every two seconds to type I’m too excited and don’t want to miss anything

⁃ HES SO HAPPY

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ Bellamy stop beating yourself up

⁃ They’re standing SO CLOSE

⁃ Xavier’s smirk I knew he left it on purpose

⁃ Awe raven found her lil hub maybe she’ll find a way to take the giant stick out of her ass

⁃ OOO a boy maybe he’ll replace that stick for his

⁃ I’m so sorry about that idk what came over me

⁃ But yea they’re gonna bang 

⁃ He’s the prime from the pic raven was looking at

⁃ What’s their ship name ?? They both start with R .. Raver?

⁃ CLARKES A RAVER

⁃ AND SHES HERSELF

⁃ AT THE RAVE

⁃ oooo Bellamy’s gonna get jealous

⁃ that’s the wrong man clarkey 

⁃ We need a reaction shot

⁃ CLARKES SMILING SO MUCH

⁃ omg Bellamy’s watching clarke and doctor man

⁃ E.chos watching him watching clarke ANGST

⁃ Don’t lie bell we know why you’re upset

⁃ B.echo fight gimme

⁃ Also bell that wasn’t the last time you were at a party the last time was in Arkadia at the end of the world with your blue solo cup and the girl who looked suspiciously like your wife

⁃ Omg BELL CALLING E.CHO OUT FOR BEING A ROBOT

⁃ how would the e.cho you knew on the ring do that if no one was in trouble or dying ?? Unless bell was dying of sadness

⁃ Also weird thing to say right after clarke apologized to him showing that she does in fact care when people are in trouble or dying

⁃ FINALLY TALKING ABOUT MONTY AND HARPER (HARPER HARPER DONT FORGET HER)

⁃ Wow Bellamy that was a lot of sass

⁃ I kind of feel bad for e.cho

⁃ Octavia is SO GOOD in this episode

⁃ FEAR IS A MOTHERFUCKING DEMON love that callback

⁃ Oh good grab the stick

⁃ YAS DIYOZA

⁃ NICE STICK THATS WHAT I SAID AHHAH

⁃ omg I knew rose was gonna die now clarkes gonna become the host but I’m sad bc she was so cute and smol 

⁃ Octavia we know you’re gonna end up having sex with him

⁃ Diyoza is a cockblock

⁃ The ponytail is back YAS with braids this time

⁃ OOO I KNEW IT RYKERS A PRIME

⁃ I love being right

⁃ YES CLARKE ITS BEEN 132 YEARS GET THAT DICCCCCC

⁃ Clarke is so hot

⁃ And *invisible ink* horny

⁃ Delilah doesn’t want to forget that’s #sweet

⁃ Oo good job clarke he’s got abs

⁃ Banned by the primes hmm is this guy a spy 

⁃ HE IS THE SPY

⁃ POOR CLARKE THE FIRST GUY SHE HOOKS UP WITH WANTS HER DEAD

⁃ Clarke couldn’t release her sin of leaving Bellamy

⁃ Poor Jordan

⁃ OH YAY CLARKE IS BEING SAVED FOR ONCE even if it’s by randos 

⁃ That tear. Kill me.

⁃ I miss Bellamy come back to my screen bby

⁃ Also murphy Emori Abby Miller Jackson were just kinda kicked out of the episode lol

⁃ They’re gonna turn Clarke into Josephine at the end of this episode and the next or next few will be everyone else having to save her for once I think so it’s good that she and Bellamy talked a little bit before

⁃ I am all for e.cho showing emotion

⁃ I don’t like that everyone is drinking their problems away though

⁃ Oo they obva haven’t been together that long or e.cho would have told Bellamy the truth about her parents before this right

⁃ Ok the b.echo scene was cute but their physical interactions just look so awkward and I wasn’t a big fan of Tastas acting although it was better than usual

⁃ RUSSELL NO they’re not even giving her a choice

⁃ They bad bad

⁃ NO CLARKE

⁃ the flaaaaame destroy that stupid piece of shit already

⁃ How can Eliza Taylor show SO MUCH EMOTION while paralyzed

⁃ Queen of acting

⁃ They’re calling Clarke a vessel like she’s not a human being

⁃ OMG this is so good like bad for Clarke but plot wise SO good (even though we saw it coming) and when she was screaming I thought it was her getting clarkes pain but I guess it was just being reincarnated 

⁃ THE HAIR TWIRLING 

⁃ Yes you can work with that it’s Clarke motherfucking Griffin

⁃ that was the best episode of the season. scream with me in my inbox.

[morningpages-louise]

August 12, 2018

good morning to yall. the morning after the new moon - a time for renewal, for blank slates, for clearing out thoughts and for piece of mind. why do i feel like these past few weeks have been crazy? huhu not quite sure pero yes. its slowing down a bit now though. not just my workload but like this whole break and my time in Manila is shortening. i only have about 2 weeks left in this city and it makes me a bit sad. i do love manila im gonna miss my friends here, im also gonna miss sheena shell be leaving for thailand soon. i hope to spend some time with her this weekend because it will be our last few moments spent together :'( so yeah drinking my cup of coffee and not really thinking it's of any effect to me. what can i say? i just can't stand a morning without coffee. it's the fuel that keeps me going. right now its pretty gloomy outside but to be honest i cant really tell since i literally have no view. this lack of any natural lighting sucks let me tell you. these past few weeks have been cray and busy as hell. i havent had time to check in on my thoughts and my internal self. konting tiis nalang talaga. konting tiis. just outside your reach. im excited to go home, destress, reinvent myself and maybe become closer to finding the meaning of life (why am i so char) heh ive been obsessed with terrace house lately promise i fucking love that show its so weird i think i like it cause i like seeing how humans connect and disconnect in some cases. human connection - a topic that has been of interest to me lately. i think it had something to do with sense 8. yup right now im feeling quite lethargic. last friday night and yesterday was just a whirlwind. i basically was out the whole day filming and i only had like an hour of sleep cause i spent the night prior tagay-ing with Krizia's CDO friends who are super nice btw. must say tagay is honestly my favorite type of drinking. i'd choose a night of tagay with your most intimate friends (or they dont even have to be super close) over a night out in the club. im just a chill person like that and i'd rather choose good laughs, meaningful conversations and chill inumans than hardcore drinking, dancing to electro and all that jazz. im just a simple gal like that. i wish i had more friends who were into that tho because they seem all about that bad/island/coco club life hahahaha kapoy bes. i also like poblacion vibes. im just super chill okay. life is meaningful. it really is. to find the meaning in life, i feel like thats all we really want. ive been so cautious these past few days because we've had quite the cockroach outbreak yuck even typing it and seing that word disgusts me. but so far i havent seen any in the past 2 days but im not letting my guard down. no i am not. im alone in the condo right now. im not sure pero i think kristine is coming back today? or was that tomorrow? kirsten is off somewhere, probably with tommy and she didn't spend the night last night. i miss her. i miss kris too. i dont know man its times like these where i feel super extroverted. i constantly want to be surrounded by people. to be honest that has been me this whole term. i think its cause im afraid to comfort the pain inside of me. what pain? i dont know but i know im still hurting a bit. im afraid to confront loneliness, insecurity, the toxicity inside of me and being with people makes me forget about that, it makes me focus my energy on other things beyond the me. i'll be okay. i'll be okay. but yup that's just been me. i really do like this morning pages thing. it makes me really tackle what my mind is going through and all the thoughts residing and it helps a bit in clearing it off, clearing the weight of my being. so yas. that's just been my thoughts these past few days. i promise i just can't wait til im chilling in the beach and watching that sunset, and reading good books and watching new films pero im also sad to be leaving manila. i wish i had a bit of time to explore the city after my term ends, by myself or with friends i dont really care but i do enjoy going around manila without a single weight on my shoulders. is it wrong that i'd rather be here than there? i don't think so. not at all. but maybe this feeling of home i feel is only temporary. i only feel like it is home because my friends all live here. it has become familiar and it is hella close to my school lol but i swear if you took the people away from here, it wouldnt be the same. what's manila without your friends? and i swear almost all of my friends are from the provinces. lol i get along better with people who have gone through similar experiences as me which in this case is weve all come from different parts of the philippines and are living alone and figuring shit out by ourselves. it's an amazing feat to be honest. to be completely independent, to have your parents trust you so much. i can't believe ive been living alone (well not really alone pero without parents) for over 3 years now. ive learned to cook. ive learned to clean (a bit lang lol) still dont know how to do my laundry tho. ive basically learned to live by myself. to commute by myself and to get around by myself and because of that, i feel like ill be fine. dude i have so much weird energy in myself and i just really want to release it but i can't quite figure out what this energy within me is but i always feel the urge to cry, as a form of releasing lol super weird but yeah anyways im way beyond the word count but i just want to keep going. my coffee is also completely gone. what am i doing today? i was supposed to continue filming for one of my majors but i think since it got cancelled, i will just watch cinemalaya and work on a few papers. there's also this event that i want to go to called writing from the margins. it's in Raffles hotel (fancy) pero not sure if i can make it. it's currently 1:20 pero ill try my best ill wrap this up now so i can make it, do some yoga, get ready and then leave and once im finished ill work on my papers (perhaps in UCC or another cute cafe) and then wait for a film showing of a cinemalaya film hehe toodaloo and see you soon! i love you!