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karinyosa · 8 months

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if i ever played jesus he would be the slimiest most decrepit doesn’t shower or sleep neurotic unwell emotional roller coaster dissociated from the human form motherfucker ever and if i ever played judas he would be a smarmy twink.

#i think jcs jesus is in a weird half dissociated state the entire play and in gethsemane i think he is like fully out of his body #he’s hallucinating in that garden #judas is like. i would make him quippy. like yes he’s a very passionate character but also i think being like #openly critical is kind of second nature to him #to the point where like i think he would just say shit #i don’t think he has to be super openly intense w jesus until the last supper (divorce song). and i like the idea of tls being like a break #ng point in a really obvious way. up to that point it’s just simmering. heaven on their minds is almost like an offhand prophecy to me #i think it could be very casual for him to be like hey best friend here’s everything that i think is wrong with you #he just says it. like that’s the kind of person he is. judas asks what everyone’s wondering. he might even view it as his duty as a friend #jesus however needs to either have the intensity dialed to 11 #or just to be incredibly deflated but obviously filled with like inner turmoil. like theres ghosts in his brain and u can see it in his eye #and i think in gethsemane he would oscillate wildly between the two #i think it’s because like jesus to me thinks of himself so heavily as a vessel #so like there’s this sense that his body is just a shell or not really his #sorry didn’t mean to give your messiah dysphoria it was an accident this time #i think in a similar way with mary the mother there can be an element of thematic sa there as well #definitely not as overtly as with her but it’s that whole thing of like #your body not really belonging to yourself and existing essentially as an object or tool for someone else’s ends #there’s that sense of smallness as well. this feeling of being unable to escape this nebulous sense of ownership no matter where you are #and i mean you can map that onto all kinds of abuse. im far from the first person to point that out. anwyay its another one of those nights #i think if i ever played jesus i would get flack for making him un-messiah-like like i think he’d come off unlikable and unsettling #as he should #during holy week at least #outside of holy week he’s a charming uoung man with so much passion and drive that you really want to believe everything hes saying #to the point where you brush off his more concerning tendencies #and obv he can perform miracles too or whatever. i guess #anyway back to the intensity thing i just think it’d be funny to have a judas that’s just like #leaning on a beam or whatever like hey what ur doing rn sucks major ass. love and light #and jesus responding like a bridled horse about to crush the fucking bit between his teeth #anyway this is just what i would do. i am well aware i have only twinkish smarminess to offer for judas

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