#sorry if i sound weird i am SUPER dissociating rn lol

[rabbithaver]

I know how you feel. Being a disabled adult who has to rely on their parents fucking sucks. Feeling like a failure and a burden, even though it's not the case. Is money a little tight since they're helping you out? Possibly. However, they love you so much they're willing to do it. They would much rather have less money than see you living under a bridge starving to death. The only way you can fail them and be a burden is if you stop trying. And I think you're trying really hard.

Since you don't have an income I can give you some(albeit basic) advice when it comes to the ssi/disability process. (If you've already tried a couple times, you probably already know them)

If you aren't afraid of needles and don't have certain medical conditions (mostly ones that affect the immune system) you could also donate plasma. The typical income from plasma is about $60 or more a week.

I hope this helps ❤️

this is insanely reassuring, thank you. maybe ive just been disappointing my parents for so long that it really feels like its all im capable of. theyve told me that they love me and that they dont mind taking care of me, but yoiu know how it is. the depression brain says that theyre lying. i am really lucky to have them

im defintiely saving ths in my reference tag. i would super appreciate some advice on the SSI stuff.

i actually used to have a massive phobia of needles, but i'm fine with them now. as part of my pain management, i routinely need to get nerve block injections in my spine, and they have to sedate me for that. i can even watch the nurses put the IV in, it's cool to watch. i never considered donating plasma, though! i'll definitely give that a thought!