Pizza is for kids.
Pizza is every kid’s favorite favorite food. This, of course, is normal and totally acceptable. When you grow up, however, it is seen as immature and uninteresting.
We begin to substitute quality with uniqueness, and confuse variety for satisfaction.
I refuse to fall victim to a state of mind that pursues individuality over happiness. I don’t just feel okay about accepting pizza as the greatest food life has to offer, I feel excited. For the first time I feel truly free.
In the past, there were times that I didn’t have access to pizza. I would spend minutes upon minutes imagining and longing for it. Sometimes I would be brought to tears from the sheer beauty of it.
I don’t have to be sad anymore.
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Standing up for my friends!
You know I'm not really into bashing people or high school drama for that matter, but today something happened and it brought me to a breaking point.
Okay here is the back story to what lead up to the conversation that pissed me off so badly.
*Names have been changed.
Tanner D. is my friend, he had been my friend since 10th grade (last year) and I have always been there for him. A lot of Tanner's friends use him for his money, and this one girl Kara, called him out and said he was fake and a backstabber. At the time I thought it was a bitch move on her part, because when she called him out, it was after a Nickleback concert that he bought the tickets to (which in my opinion probably wasn't the best time to do it, there is a time and a place for everything). After all of this happened, Tanner told me she was a liar and all this stuff (I already had bad blood with her from something she did to me personally) so I believed him, naturally because she is known for being a liar. Anyways, Tanner was really depressed because he just lost a friend, like anyone would be so, he was texting me telling me he was going to kill him self and all this stuff. So like the good person I am I helped him through everything (which I dont regret at all, no one should EVER want to kill themselves, it sucks). So now at this point, we've been friends ever since.
*Tanner was never a "true friend" per-say, when I was crying, or something had me down, he never even asked if I was okay, which kinda sucked. He also sorta joked around a little to much about his dad did not like me (even though he NEVER met me, let alone seen me) he always told me "you look like one of those bad kids" which kinda hurts because, I am me, yes, but I am very intelligent and respectable, If you give me a chance (which not many people do).
Last year our friend Ryan (who I've known since 6th grade) had some family issues, his mother was very sick and on life support, causing him to miss a lot of school, in which he failed, leaving him at 9th grade status. Considering the circumstances, you would think the school would excuse this, but they didn't. Ryan also had to work nights, to pay bills and keep food on the table, also causing him to miss school so that is the reason he is not in our grade, and it is completely understandable.
Last part of the back story is Lynn. Lynn is probably one of the smartest people I have ever met, she just doesn't apply herself. Anyways, all Tanner does is talk shit about her (and pretty much everyone else, even me, I'm sure) saying how stupid she is, and that she needs to die (which I yell at him for that). So he pretty much hates her. Oh, and did I mention, Tanner over exaggerates and lies about everything, I mean EVERYTHING. If he is telling you a story and you laugh, he keeps going on and on, to the point where you don't even know if he knows what he is talking about, he is that bad. And again he talks shit about EVERYONE and makes you always sound like a bad person, almost to the point where I've gotten into fights for how bad he makes these people sound (I'm not the violent type at all, but he make these people sound like fucking Hitler!). He acts like everyone is out to get him.
Now for the story to unfold.
In math class today I kept hearing Tanner say ''Ryan is still in the 9th grade, he never comes to school'' and all this crap. So I turned around and gave Tanner a nasty look, the whole reason for that, is because he is talking to Lynn about Ryan (who she doesn't even know) telling her his life story, about his mom and all the stuff he had to deal with the past year, which is none of any ones business (Tanner was also VERY loud considering I could hear him and I sit on the other side of the room). It was really getting to me, so I said to my friend Shelby (who also knows Tanner and Ryan very well) I am going to say something to Tanner next period (we also have science together). Shelby looked at me and said ''I have a feeling this isn't going to be good for Tanner.'' Shelby obviously knew I was very angry.
Science class.
I walked in (it's two doors down from our Math class) and didn't say a word. My teacher asked me what was wrong, so that is when things started to turn sour.
Me- ''People in my last class need to grow up''
Teacher- ''Why, whats going on?''
Me- ''All they do is talk crap about people''
Teacher- ''Oh?!"
Tanner- ''Everyone needs to grow up? Even you?''
Me- ''Well, not me so much, sometimes I do but normally, If I have something to say, I will say it to their face. And you need grow up too''
Tanner- ''Why, what did I do?''
Me- '' Well, you do know that Ryan's mother was on life support last school year, right?''
Tanner- "Yeah''
Me- ''Well then, why are you telling people about how he didn't come to school and making fun of him?''
Tanner- ''I wasn't''
Me- ''YES YOU WERE, I heard you!''
Tanner points to Abby, a girl that sits by him in Math class.
Tanner- ''Well, so was she''
Me- ''Well they need to stop too, And you should have stood up for him, it wasn't his fault, what happened to his mother. He didn't come to school because he had to grow up, for his family.''
Tanner- ''Well Whatever''
*Our teacher said I deserved a piece of candy for doing the right thing and standing up for what I believe in.
And that was the last conversation we had, I have ended our friendship. If he can talk about so many people, what makes me think he won't do it to me, or hell, what makes me think he hasn't done it to me. I may be very nice, but when it comes to family, friends, or something I believe in, I will stand up and fight no matter what the repercussions are. I think what Tanner did was bull shit, and shows what a bad friend he is. I talked to Ryan and told him what happened (well, my side considering Tanner already had a made up story to tell Ryan) and Ryan completely agrees with me and believes me, considering Tanner's history with friends and lies. I also asked Ryan for permission to rant on Tumblr about it, and he was fine. Now, some people might think what I am doing is wrong or hypocritical, but I feel it's not, everything I have said in this rant I have said to Tanners face and it is all completely true.
This whole thing has taught me a lot, surprisingly, It has taught me to,
Act your age
Give people the respect they deserve
Stand up for what you believe is right
Do stuff for people you would want them to do for you (Ryan told me he always had and will always have my back)
And last, always think twice about peoples patterns, If they do it to someone else, what make you think they wont do it to you.
I'm actually glad this happened, for my sake. I am rid of someone that could potentially bring me down.
Thank you for listening to my rant.
Emily Wendling
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