#stevietalks

[indestructibleheart]

[deep sigh] anyway...............

[stupidheaddraws]

hi!

hello! i’m Stevie! i decided to make an art blog because i hate the instagram algorithm.

i’m fifteen years old, gay, and taken by the loml!

i won’t be posting about my opinions here at all.

some of my art will contain heavy themes and if you need something tagged, please let me know!

i want to get my motivation for art back as my previous art class completely drained me of motivation.

i’m a junior in high school and want to take AP art my senior year (i’m excited for that aaaa)

i really love minecraft and bojack horseman

i’ll be posting finished art and doodles here

i mostly use just primary colors in my art so all art with bright colors will be tagged as #eyestrain

my other accounts are @irlstupidhead and @irltoddchavez

instagram - @ithinkillfakegod @latetotheslimetrend

tiktok - @beetlebxy

please note that this is a side blog and it is mobile run!!

[indestructibleheart]

petalwrites is now IndestructibleHeart

Hi, friends!

As some of you know, I've been through a lot of changes this year... and one of those changes involved a lot of thinky-thoughts about gender and coming to the realization that I'm demi-femme (or genderqueer; I use both terms). I started using she/they pronouns, which I'm really comfy with, but I've been thinking a lot lately about wanting a more gender-neutral name that represents all of me... and this is the safest place for me to explore that.

petal → stevie

As Charlie Spring would tell me, I don't owe anyone an explanation re: my gender or why I'm changing my name, but I actually want to open up a bit. I'm just going to do it under the cut below.

However, the tldr is this: I'm not a girl, but I'm not NOT a girl (hope that helps!!). I'm gonna start going by Stevie in online spaces because it better fits the person I'm becoming. I've changed my URL here, my ao3 username, and my nicknames on Discord. I love each and every one of you for cultivating a space where I can explore what being demi-femme means to me, since I'm not quite in a place to change my inherently feminine government name IRL.

cw for talk about both gender and losing my dad (spoiler alert — I didn't choose Stevie for Stevie Budd, as precious as she is to me):

The name "Petal" being pretty feminine is something that's been on my mind for a while now, and I thought pretty hard about what name felt most like me. When the name Stevie popped into my head, it was because of Schitt's Creek... but something else clicked right after.

It was my dad's name.

(Well, his name was Steve, anyway.)

And, while we had our differences over the years, he was the first person in my family to wholeheartedly support me when I came out. I told him I was a lesbian and he was literally like, "Cool. You want pizza for dinner, or...?" Yeah. Didn't bat an eye. Especially given that he passed in June, of all months, it feels like a fitting tribute to take his name with me on this journey.

For me, the gender spectrum is complicated. It's a place I'm still learning to navigate... and that's why I'm choosing a name that feels like it suits me wherever I happen to be on the slider at any given time. Having a place where I can make these kinds of changes and do some self-exploration is just... like... I don't have the words to articulate how much that means to me.

This community has been nothing but wonderful every step of the way here. Hell, this community half the reason I felt safe and comfortable enough to start doing all this self-reflection in the first place. So, thank you for that.

I know referring to me by a different name is gonna take some adjustment, but that's okay!

Just like I am both she and they, Petal is a part of me, too... It's just not all of me. I want to introduce myself with a name that fits like a comfy sweater, rather than a dress that I only wear on certain days. Y'know?

(And, really, this is more about me needing a space to safely explore some gender neutrality when I can't IRL than it is my being uncomfortable with the name Petal. So, don't stress about it.)

I hope that makes sense outside of my head... but I guess it's also okay if it doesn't.

[indestructibleheart]

bad news: despite having four playlists for this universe and writing more words than i have in almost a year (over 10k!), the fic i've been working on for "halloween, huh" will not even be remotely close to finished by midnight.

good news: i guess that means i can participate in seven-sentence sunday this weekend..?

i'm super bummed ngl but — to paraphrase @stereopticons — i wouldn't heal from two broken legs and immediately try to run a marathon. probably shouldn't have pressured myself to write 8 chapters in a month lmao. please know i made a valiant effort.