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jaejoongs-nipple-piercing · 2 years

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Yesung fanfic pt. 3

You had 2 more panic attacks since the last one, probably about a week and a half apart this time. Both due to the fact you had to go up a ladder onto a narrow flimsy platform and complete a task for work. Which honestly would have been fine, if you weren’t afraid of heights. After mastering the art of working on all the other platforms you figured this one would be easy since it wasn’t as tall as the tallest one.

Anyway, as you had gone up to the top to push the buttons, you couldn’t hold it in and the tears just came out. You were breathing but it was shaky. Trying to calm down enough to do the job, you did the best you could and then got down off the platform. Standing at the bottom of the ladder for a few minutes as you were still trying to calm your breathing and stop shaking so much. A couple employees on the way by asked what happened, you just told them nothing happened. They couldn’t find out about the panic attacks that had plagued you since 4th grade because that would be one more thing for them to use against you in any attempt to get you fired. Since you had been doing another task before the platform, you went back to that. You were shaky and felt a little wobbly while walking and you weren’t able to calm down much until you got done with the shift.

You weren’t going to tell your boyfriend about these, you figure he’d heard enough about them. You didn’t want to bother him with your problems again. You knew he would get tired of hearing about everything wrong with you soon. Then he would start distancing himself from you before finally breaking up with you. You didn’t want that, but you also didn’t want him to miss out on things he wanted to do because of you and your ridiculous reasons. So you kept your word to yourself and kept it from him.

Maybe you should have told him though.

On the day of your weekend date, your boyfriend Yesung showed up about an hour and a half earlier than you agreed on to make sure you two had everything you needed. You locked your house and made your way to his car.

“Are we going on a picnic?”

He turned his head to looked at you, he looked surprised. Like he didn’t think you would know or you spoiled the surprise.

“I’m so sorry if I spoiled the surprise, I saw the basket getting in.”

“Yes, that was the plan. If you don’t want to then we can do something else.”

“NO! …I want to do this with you. If the plan was to go on a picnic then let’s do that. I’ve never been on a real picnic before.”

Yesung smiled as he started his car and headed out of your driveway. You were so cute like this, he wanted to take care of and protect you. You could be so vulnerable even though you were also very emotionally and mentally strong. He loved you so much, more than you would ever know.

45 minutes later he starts to slow down near what looks like a rundown country back road, then he turns down it. You weren’t familiar with the area, so you just looked out the window to see if there were any different landmarks or flowers or anything. Sadly the outside looked pretty plain.

Why would he bring me here? Is there something special hidden here?

Yesung slowed to a stop and parked in a small gravel parking area. He turned to look at you, and seeing that you seemed to be distracted he gently put his hand on yours. Startled, you jumped a little.

“I didn’t know you would jump. Are you afraid of me?”

“No, I was just a little distracted, that’s all.

Yesung looked at you with so much love in his eyes, you knew you didn’t deserve him. He held both of your hands in his, squeezing them.

“If you don’t want to do this today, or you want to do something else then you need to let me know, ok? We can do this a different day or you can pick an activity you’d like instead of this. There is a picnic but there’s more to it. I don’t want to push you because I know it makes you uncomfortable but there is a certain amount of time we have for this and once we get out of the car and start this we can’t come back until it’s time to go. So are you sure you’re ok with this?”

He looks at you, patiently waiting for your answer. His hands are so warm, gently rubbing his fingers back and forth over your knuckles. You really want to do this with him, even though you aren’t sure why he’s suddenly acting like this. He looks at you again and opens his mouth to say something else.

“I’ll be here with you the whole time, and if you want to hold my hand or squeeze my arm then go ahead. I hope this isn’t scary for you because it’s something I’ve really wanted to do.”

“Is it ok if I say I’ll try? I want to see what this is and I want to do fun things with you. I know it will be scary at first but I’ll get better at it, right?”

“That’s perfectly fine. Now should we start?”

You nodded. Grabbing your sweater and your little purse, you stepped out of his car onto the gravel. Glad you wore flat sandals, the gravel is a bit uneven. He gets out his door and walks around to the other side and reaches out for your hand. You let Yesung hold it, you’re nervous but also a little excited. This is your first real date with your boyfriend and you want it to go well, you want to have fun.

The gravel pathway ends in a few minutes to reveal a large grassy field. It’s a little dry, but not enough to start a fire, which was great to you because you were absolutely terrified of fires and anything that could start or cause them.

Yesung looks at you a few times to see how you’re doing, checking your face and gestures for any signs of nervousness or some panic attack/anxiety symptoms he had read up on. He was hoping you would be ok with this but he wanted to help as much as he could in case you started to panic. He wanted to be the best and only (if things went his way) boyfriend you would ever have.

As you start getting closer to your destination before you have your picnic, you get a weird feeling in the pit of your stomach. You feel like you’re going to be sick, so you open your mouth to take some deep breaths, telling yourself it’s fine, you’ll be ok. Sometimes to overcome a fear, you have to go towards it and deal with it in person. That was a simple thought you had told yourself before and it had always helped. The minute you saw all the balloons laying around you felt your heart skyrocket into your throat. You stopped suddenly, unknowingly worrying Yesung.

“Are you ok? Do you need to do something else?”

You tried to calm yourself by taking more deep breaths. Then you turned to him, “it’s ok, I think I’ll be fine. I’m just afraid of heights. I’ve dealt with high places at work a few times, it should be fine.”

You said that, yet you didn’t move any closer. Yesung held your hand a little tighter, trying to comfort you again. You hated being like this, holding him back from so many things. And you were nothing to look at either, like he could have any idol, model, actress he wanted. You were just disappointing him.

Yesung starts walking again, lightly pulling your hand behind him. He smiles at you, and again he promises to be there right next to you the whole time. You take one more deep breath and follow after him. You want to get over this and if he can help you, you’re going to let him. You stop in front of one of the balloons getting ready to take off and Yesung gets in first.

“Grab my hand and hold tight, ok?” He extended his hand towards you to help you into the balloon-since it was already off the ground a little. You looked at him with glassy eyes, the tears of fright threatening to come out.

‘It’s ok, he said he’ll be right here. If I need to get back down I’ll tell him and we’ll go back down. That’s how it works. I’ll be fine. Just get in and spend time with your boyfriend. Just do it!’

Before you could think anything else you close your eyes tight and grab his hand. Yesung grabs your hand with both of his and he pulls you up into the balloon. You still have your eyes closed after you get in, so he puts his hand on your shoulder gently.

“You can open your eyes now, we’re in the balloon.”

You tighten your grip on his hand and slowly open your eyes, first the right eye and then the left. You are surprised at the view in front of you. Yesung picked the perfect time of day to see the sunset.

“It’s beautiful! I’ve never seen the sky so pretty like this before. Thank you for planning this, Yesung. I love it!”

He was happy to see you enjoying this. He was also hoping it would last for a while, like until the end of your date. You still had your hand in his, holding onto it like you thought he was going to disappear from your side.

“If you want to let go, you can. Not that I want you to, but maybe to give your hand a little break?”

“Oh, s-sorry about that. I’m still kinda nervous.”

Yesung turned to you, slowly shaking his head while he carefully put one hand on either side of your face. Gently holding your head, looking at you like you were the most precious person in the world to him, he brings his face closer to yours.

“Please stop telling me you’re sorry, and you have no reason to be nervous. You’re a strong woman, right? And you have me with you, I promise you’ll be fine. Ok?”

You went to look down at your feet but he stopped you. “And stop looking down, please. I know how you feel, I really do. But stop putting yourself down, and look at me. If you only look at me the whole time we’re up here to help calm your nerves then do that. Please believe me, you are a wonderful person and your past does not define you. Anything that happened to you before we met, forget about it.” He leaned a little closer and lightly kissed your forehead.

You just nodded at his request. “Ok, I’ll try.”

Yesung smiled again, kissing your forehead a second time. “There we go, that’s my brave girl.”

You felt he was overdoing it but you were up here for him. Hoping this would help you with your fear of heights was the only thought in your head. Then you noticed the balloon was going higher, almost to the point you could see the mountain tops clearly. Your stomach churned, suddenly gripping Yesungs’ forearm. You started shaking and you felt like you had something caught in your throat, like it was blocking your airway.

You tried to move his arm a little. To get his attention. You needed the balloon to go back down now, the sooner the better. You didn’t want to have a panic attack during your first date.

“Yesung..” your voice came out almost a whisper; he didn’t hear you.

Putting more effort into your grip and moving his arm a little more, you tried again. “Yesung, please. I need to go back down now. Please.”

This time he looked at you, concern was all over his face. He turned towards you, leaning in.

“Are you ok? Why do you need to go back down? What happened?”

“I-I’m starting to have one of those, those things I told you I get sometimes. I don’t want to ruin our date and it’s really cool that I finally got to do this but I’m too high up and I need to go back down now. Please. I don’t want to cause an issue up here.”

Yesung looked disappointed, but you think he understood. He turned to the man controlling the balloon and asked him if the balloon could be let back down now. The man acted angry, something about he paid for a certain time slot or paid a certain amount and there’s still time left. You could hear him telling the guy he’d make it up to him somehow, but that you needed to go back down, you had something else to do now. He apologized to the man, and finally the guy started adjusting the balloon so it would go back down.

‘It’s ok, you’ll be back on the ground in a bit. Just hold on.’

You could see the balloon starting to get lower and you got excited to be on the ground again. This also meant you could start your picnic. And you couldn’t wait for that.

Your temporarily calm state was brutally interrupted when you started to hear something popping. Like popcorn, but louder. Your head whipped around to see where the noise was coming from. You saw Yesung talking to the man again, asking him what happened. The man just kept shaking his head, and you got worried. Was the balloon going to have a crash landing? Were you going to make it?

Soon after the popping had started you saw sparks fly. You grabbed the side of the basket as hard as you could to try steadying yourself. You were shaking now more than you had on the platform, you were so scared. Sparks create fire, fire can damage so many things and cause accidents. Your thoughts spiraled down into the depths of worry and tragedy, and soon there was a loud bang. Looking up at where the sparks had been, you saw a fire. There was a fire in the hot air balloon you were in. You were terrified, you had to get down, away from the fire. But you couldn’t move. All you could do was stare in horror at the fire.

You tried to get away, tried to back away from the fire but you couldn’t. At this point you were just pressing yourself into the side of the basket. Your thoughts were irrational now, frantically trying to figure out how to get away. Yesung was trying to help the man with the balloon mechanisms to get back down onto the ground and find a way to extinguish the fire. Unfortunately he was so focused on other things that he didn’t see you panicking.

‘If I jump off the side of the basket and curl up into a tiny ball, I should be able to make it. Right?’

You, someone afraid of dying since you were a child, was actually considering risking your life to get away from a fire. Ironic, isn’t it? In the midst of your thoughts you heard an even louder bang, so you turned to see what it was. The fire had almost doubled in size, and you could see the two men frantically trying to fix things. You could only see the fire, and the next loud bang you heard, your hands went over your ears and you just screamed.

You had ruined the first date with your boyfriend. You didn’t want to, and you didn’t mean to. He wasn’t going to want to finish the date when you got down (if you got down) and he would probably break up with you soon after. You didn’t want them to see you crying so you bent your head down-your forehead touching your knees- and you cried. You cried and sniffled and sobbed, you thought you were going to die because they hadn’t figured out the problems yet.

They finally got the balloon back onto the ground, and some of the others who had been on the ground after their trips rushed over to help with extinguishing the fire. Yesung looked around for you before he saw you on the floor of the basket. You looked like you were sleeping. But based on how you were acting earlier, you had probably passed out or blacked out from the stress and the fear. Carefully walking over to you, he picked you up bridal style like he did once before and carried you out of the balloon.

He thanked people for their offers of helping him help carry you but he politely declined. They walked away and he continued to carry you back to his car. Fumbling to retrieve his keys from his pocket, he realized he would have to set you down for a bit. Yesung sighed. You were sleeping so peacefully, he didn’t want to disturb you.

“I’m sorry, princess. I have to put you down for a little bit to get my keys out. I’m going to put your feet on the ground and lean your body on mine, ok?”

He slowly put you back onto the ground and propped your body against his. He knew you probably didn’t hear him, but he still wanted to let you know so you didn’t get scared. You were so fragile, he felt bad for you. But he was also glad you two had met, because now he could take care of you.

He got his keys out and unlocked the back door, gently sitting you down on the back seat. He quietly closed the door and walked around to the other side, pulling out his phone in the process.

He called the only person in the group he could trust right now.

“Hey, Leeteuk. I have a favor to ask.”

“Oh? Is that you, Yesung? What’s going on?”

“This needs to stay a secret,ok? Remember when I told you about my girlfriend? The very shy one? We had an incident on our date and I want to be in the back with her, but then I can’t drive her home. Can you come over here and drive us back please? Oh, and she had said she wanted to meet Shindong too so could you bring him along? Maybe he can sit in the back with her until she wakes up. Just don’t tell the other members yet. And don’t tell the company either, please.”

“Alright, I can do that. You’re lucky, we just got done with our fanmeet, so we can probably sneak out. I’ll grab Shindong and tell him something to get him out.”

“Thank you so much. I owe you big time.”

Yesung hung up his call and sent Leeteuk his location, then got into the back with you. He leaned you over onto himself and put your head on his chest, since he remembered that helped you relax last time. He slowly ran his hand through your hair, whispering sweet things that you couldn’t hear.

“You’re ok now, honey. I said I would be with you the whole time and I was. I’m so sorry we couldn’t get you down sooner, and I will regret that forever. You didn’t ruin the date though, alright? The ballon did. It’s all the balloon’s fault. I called my friends and they’ll be here soon to help me take you home ok? And we can put the picnic stuff away for now and have it when you feel better. I’m sorry I didn’t know fire and heights were so scary for you, I’ll make sure to ask about your fears the next time I plan a date for us. You think we’re going to break up because of this but I told you before, that won’t happen. So don’t think about things like that, alright?”

Leeteuk and Shindong showed up in about 15-20 minutes from the time Yesung called them, and after explaining to them what happened they helped him. Yesung handed Leeteuk his car keys and Leeteuk got in the driver’s seat. Yesung got into the back on the left, telling Shindong to go to the other door and help him move you into the middle. So you had your head on Shindongs’ lap (on top of a pillow), and Yesung was holding your hand so you didn’t freak out when you woke up.

You could feel yourself moving in a vehicle of some sort and you jerked. You couldn’t remember what happened, the details were fuzzy and missing. You remember being in the balloon with Yesung, and then there was the popping and the fire. Did he send you home in a taxi? Where was he? What are you resting your head on that’s so fluffy? You opened your eyes and saw the roof of a car, felt someone holding your hand. You were still shocked from what had happened so instead of gently holding you felt like they were holding you down. You tried to move your hand away, starting to thrash about in the vehicle.

“Honey, it’s ok. It’s me, I’m right here.”

Your teary eyes blurred your vision but you saw Yesung. You tried to sit up but he stopped you.

“You’ve been through a lot, today. Just rest.”

“Yesung? If you’re back here with me, who’s driving?”

Leeteuk turned around quickly since he was at a traffic light to introduce himself.

“Hello young lady. My name is Leeteuk. I’m the leader of Super Junior, your boyfriend’s group. And you’re currently laying on Mr.Fluff himself-Shindong.

You jumped up immediately. You didn’t want members of the renowned K-pop boy group Super Junior to see you like this.

“I-I’m so so sorry. I didn’t mean to cause so much trouble.”

Then you started to say something else when Yesung interrupted you.

“We aren’t breaking up ok? It wasn’t your fault. The balloon should have been checked out before it ever got used today. That should always be done: checking to make sure everything works properly and that everything is where it should be. He should have known that. You know I’m not leaving you, you know that. You’re too fragile and someone needs to be there for you. We can continue the picnic another time, and I think you should take a break from work. Just come stay with me for a little bit, take your mind off of things.”

“No, I can’t do that! I don’t want to bother you, you’re so busy with group activities and stuff. And I would just be a burden if I was there with you. Maybe I can just admit myself to the hospital and they can watch me. That would-“

“I’m not going to have someone else taking care of my darling because they might say or do something to hurt you, whether they’re aware of it or not. You’re fine, I promise you are not a burden, alright. Now take it easy, ok? Lay back down on Mr.Fluff.”

“I know I’m a bit bigger than you but I actually take offense to that,” Shindong responded, grabbing his chest in fake pain.

That made you chuckle a little, but you were still worried. You weren’t ready to live with someone even if it was just temporary. That was a big step and you didn’t want your relationship to go downhill. Then your thoughts were interrupted again.

“You know, it really wouldn’t hurt for you to get a change of scenery, and Yesung is a very caring gentleman. I’m sure he doesn’t think of you as a burden, and whatever you have going on-school or work- I’m sure you can just ask them for time off, maybe tell them you just need a break. You’ll figure it out, and if Yesung would like, Shindong or I can help you two every once in a while as well. Don’t you agree, Fluffball?”

Shindong sighed. “I thought I already told you what NOT to call me? But I agree, I’d be more than happy to help you, y/n.”

“Shindong, she’s MY girlfriend. Remember that! Don’t make me hit you with my sandals again.”

This conversation, different as it was, did help you feel a little better. You could feel your body starting to relax again, the tension from the events earlier gradually dissipating. Maybe staying with your boyfriend for a few days wouldn’t be so bad. You would just need to put some clothes and a few other things in your backpack, and make arrangements with work (you were not contacting ‘hr’ though. That thing is a bitch).

“I guess I can try it. Can you come visit sometime?” You asked Shindong, turning to him for his answer.

“I can, but only if Yesung here is ok with it. It is his house.”

“As long as you let me know beforehand and you don’t upset my special fragile princess, then ok.”

Shindong looked disgusted at this new nickname, and you turned beet red. You could hear Leeteuk in the front seat talking about how much Yesung had changed since meeting you, all these new words and phrases coming out of his mouth. It might be ok after all. Let’s just see how things play out, shall we?

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ageingfangirl · 2 years

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Little Sister (Super Junior)

Shindong

Being Eunhyuk’s younger sister could be hard sometimes. You had to deal with fans who whenever you were out with your brother or the other guys assumed you must be sleeping with all of them. And secondly, Eunhyuk had forbidden you from dating any of the Super Junior guys, though you'd never tell him about your secret relationship with Shindong.

You had been on a lot of tours with them and it was getting harder for you and Shindong to hide the growing feelings between the two of you. Both Donghae and Leeteuk knew because they'd walked in on an intense kissing session when you were supposed to be helping Shindong get ready. They thought the relationship was cute and promised to keep it a secret.

After tour everyone decided to go out for some drinks to relax and unwind. Eunhyuk was protective of you and didn't like you drinking when all the other guys were getting wasted. It was cute how much he cared but one day he needed to let you go. Donghae had been trying to get him to drink more so you and Shindong could sneak in some alone time together, but getting your brother drunk was harder than it looked because he knew something was up.

Your phone vibrates on your lap, its a message from Shindong who's sitting across from you.

SHINDONG: Make up an excuse. Say you need to go to the bathroom and I'll meet you in a couple of minutes x

You glance up and smile at him before clearing your throat and picking up your bag, ‘oppa I'll be back in a couple, I need to use the bathroom.’

Your brother nods and as you slide out of the booth and give Shindong a secret thumbs up which he returns with a smirk.

Before you can open the bathroom door though someone's hand grabs yours and you can't help but smile, ‘Shindong I thought you said a couple of minutes. I actually do need the bathroom so wait out here for me.’

‘It's not Shindong.’

You jump at the unknown voice and try to shake the hand off you but the grip tightens. You turn around and come face to face with one of the new sound engineers brought in for this tour. He grins and eyes you up and down, the smell of alcohol rich on his breath. You remember him giving you looks all tour that made you feel uncomfortable.

‘Err please let go or I'll tell my boyfriend,’ you gasp, as the grip on your wrist tightens.

The guy throws his head back and laughs before pinning you against the wall roughly, ‘you don't have a boyfriend, your brother is way too protective. I've seen the way you've teased me all tour and now I'm ready to collect.’

You start to squirm and struggle until someone rips the guy off you and pulls you into a tight hug. You look up at Shindong who has anger written across his face.

‘Don't you dare lay a hand on my girlfriend you creep,’ he growls possessively, a side you rarely saw.

‘That's my baby sister,’ your brother calls out.

You didn't notice Eunhyuk or the other guys until your brother has to be held back by Siwon and Leeteuk. You gulp and glance up at Shindong who smiles before kissing you on top of your head. Your brother clears his throat and you instinctively pull away from Shindong who keeps a firm grip on your hand. Your brother looked pissed, Leeteuk and Donghae took the hint and look around the group before speaking.

‘Donghae, why don't we move this creep outside?’ Leeteuk suggests

Donghae nods and helps him grab the drunk engineer and motions to the rest of the group who were in shock at the dating revelation, ‘we’ll explain everything to the rest of you guys outside.’

As they pass you Leeteuk squeezes your shoulder and smiles weakly, ‘good luck guys, we're rooting for you."

Eunhyuk waits until everyone was out of the frame before turning to face the two of us, his expression was unreadable. Shindong took a brave step forward.

‘Look, man, I know she's your sister but I need you to know that I love her and have done for a long time.’

Eunhyuk’s expression softened slightly, so you take the opportunity to tell him your side.

‘Oppa, I'm glad you've always protected me but I do love Shindong. I know he's your best friend but wouldn't you rather have someone you trust date me instead of some stranger?’

Eunhyuk sighs and Shindong squeezes your hand. You really wanted your brother's approval.

‘My little sister and my best friend. Wow, I guess I should have seen the signs. How long has this been going on Shindong?’

Next, to you Shindong shuffles nervously on the spot before answering your brother, ‘I started getting feelings for her around the time we were working on Black Suit but I never made a move. I waited until she was comfortable and we only kissed for the first time on this tour. I respect you and her and I'll never hurt her.’

You couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend than Shindong, he was a keeper. You never wanted to lose him. You just hoped your brother could see how much the two of you loved each other.

‘My sister and my best friend. If you ever hurt her Shindong I will come after you. I approve, just as long as you don't kiss in front of me okay?’ Eunhyuk threatens, though his voice sounded happy.

‘I promise Eunhyuk,’ Shindong says proudly.

Your brother chuckles and walks away leaving the two of you alone at last. Once no ones around Shindong pulls you back into a tight hug, you knew on the inside he was kicking himself for not being able to protect you but it wasn't his fault.

‘Well, at least your brother approves. Now I get to officially call you my girlfriend Y/N.’ Shindong says with a big smile on his face.

You stand on your tiptoes and peck his lips, he smirks and pulls you back for a deeper more passionate kiss.

‘And I get to call you my boyfriend, but the rest of the guys aren’t going to let us live this down anytime soon.’

The rest of the night was spent in Shindong’s arms as you re-joined the party. All the guys were happy about your relationship.

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