#tankhun works so hard to get his little brother to come back to his own humanity until the warmth in his eyes returns

[angsty-violet]

Four times Kinn took care of his brothers

And the one time they took care of him.

Tankhun

Tankhun was savvier than he seemed. It was one of Kinn’s greatest weights that his brother was too broken to take up the position of head of their family. He was intelligent, cunning, and brutal. The kind of man who could lead their family into a new time of prosperity. He was imminently suited to this life. Unfortunately, he was just too broken to lead their family. He didn’t have the ability to be serious constantly anymore.

Kinn still loved his older brother, though. A lot. Which is why he was there, watching as Khun fussed at being forced to choose more guards.

“I have Pete. Isn’t that good enough? I never even leave the house. What does it matter?”

“Because you are still vulnerable. I don’t want anything to happen to you again. If I have to hire a hundred men, I am never letting anything happen to you again.”

Tankhun licked his lips and looked over at the guards that had been gathered. Chan had done a good job with them. Each of them would work well as Khun’s bodyguard. They had the right mixture of skill and laziness. They could defend, but they could also just sit around watching dramas with Tankhun.

Tankhun gestured to Pete to follow him, and he did. The two of them carefully inspected the rows of men, conversing about what they were looking for. Finally, after several minutes, they nodded to each other and returned to Kinn.

“I want Arm and Pol. They will serve under Pete.”

Vegas

Vegas sat silently, staring at the weights and resistance bands he was supposed to be doing his exercises with. They did not get up and start moving on their own and help him rebuild the strength he had lost.

“Aren’t you supposed to be using those?”

Vegas turned to look at Kinn. “Yeah, I am.” He didn’t expand beyond that.

“Are you okay?”

Vegas looked up at him from underneath his eyelashes and shrugged. Kinn, mindless of his expensive suit, sat on the floor next to him and put an arm around him.

“Why aren’t you doing your physio?”

Vegas tried to hold back his tears. “Because it’s hard! Because I’m going to spend all of this time on it, and I won’t even get back to where I was before. Kinn, I will never be the person I was before I was hospitalized.”

“Oh, Vegas. I’m so sorry this happened to you. I’m sorry that you have to live with this every day. I’m not going to lie and say you’ll be back to what you were before because I don’t know that. All I know is that wherever you get to, it is more than enough. You are more than enough for this family. I want you to do these exercises because you deserve to be healthy, not because you need to be any more than what you already are now.”

“Hia,” Vegas said and wrapped his arms around Kinn.

“I know, I know it’s hard for you. But I know you can do it. And even if you can’t, even if you never do another exercise again, you’ll always be good enough.”

Kim

“Damn it.” Kinn watched as Kim threw the pencil across the room angrily.

 “What’s wrong?”

Kim turned and glared, and for a split second, he looked so much like Vegas they could’ve been twins. The narrow faces and that impressive scowl. Kinn raised an eyebrow at him and gestured at the mess of his studio.

“Come on then, tell me.”

“It just doesn’t work. This damn song. I keep trying and trying, but I just can’t seem to figure out how it should go. It’s making me insane. Like when you have a word you can’t quite remember.”

“Do you want a little help with it?”

Kim hesitated and then nodded. “Yeah, will you just listen to it and see if you can pick out where it’s going wrong?”

Kinn nodded and took a seat. Kim started to play, and Kinn listened. It took a few minutes, but “I think your chord changes are wrong.”

Kim frowned, glanced at his music, and then looked down at the spot in particular. He played it through, altering one and then smiled.

“Hey! That sounds so much better.”

Kinn smiled and thought fondly about his own music aspirations. That path had long since closed to him, but he liked being able to help Kim with his music now and then. Kim replayed through the whole piece, smiling when it sounded much better to him.

He grinned, delighted, at Kinn, and Kinn’s heart went so soft. Soon, he’d be a teenager who never needed a bit of help and would be much too cool to talk to him. For now, he was still his little brother.

“Anytime.”

Macau

It was undeniable that Macau was babied. It was inevitable, being the youngest of five. Kim was the closest in age, but even he was three years older. They just couldn’t help themselves, though.

Kinn was definitely the worst for it. Which is why he was staying up late with Macau, watching movies. It was the anniversary of the death of Macau’s mother, and he had asked Kinn to stay up with him. How was Kinn supposed to say no when that sweet little face looked up at him? He couldn’t, so that’s why they were watching romantic movies and lying on the couch together.

“You didn’t want to do this with Vegas?”

Macau shrugged lightly. “I don’t remember a lot about her, but he does. Whenever we talk about her, he gets really sad. So, I do my thing, and he does his. He likes to sit at her graveside alone for a little while with flowers. The one thing I really do remember is that she really loved these kinds of movies. So, I watch them.”

Kinn turned to the screen. He hadn’t known his aunt Milan very well. They had spent very little time over at the main family home. However, what he did remember was that she was a total romantic.

“Okay, kiddo. We can watch as many as you want and stay up as late as you want. I’ll call tomorrow and excuse you from school. We can sleep late and then have a good breakfast. Just you and me.”

“Thanks, hia.”

+1

Kinn

Kinn was falling to pieces. He didn’t want to admit it to anyone, but he was. The work was piling up, and with the tensions with one of the smaller gangs, he was just starting to feel completely incompetent. But he didn’t feel like he could go to any of his brothers with it. He was the head of the household. He should’ve been fine. He took care of anything. So why was he so tired?

He got up from his desk and walked toward his room, thinking about taking a nap before his next meeting. When he opened up the door, instead of the overpowering silence of his rooms, there was the sound of laughter and teasing. Khun, Vegas, Kim and Macau were all sitting in his living room.

“Kinn!” exclaimed Tankhun. He got to his feet and threw his arms around Kinn. Kinn hugged his brother back.

“Is everything okay?”

They all grinned at each other.

“Everything’s fine. We’ve just noticed that you’ve been having a hard time, and we wanted to cheer you up,” Vegas offered from the couch.

Kinn felt his throat close up slightly. “Oh, you guys, that’s so sweet.”

Khun gestured dramatically. “Yeah, so we just knew we had to have the best party in the world. We’ve got snacks and movies. Anything you could want tonight. It’s all about you. You’re going to leave that boring paperwork for later and come and join us.”

Kinn couldn’t think of anything he’d rather be doing.

[wickedmoonlite]

KinnPorsche Rewatch 2023

So just a disclaimer: as we go into heavier topics in KP (dub-con/non-con, toxic behaviors, whatever else I know this series throws at us), I will not be doing deep dives. I'm planning on taking this just below surface value, but not too much farther. These are literally thoughts I have in the moment as I'm watching. There are plenty of other users on this platform who have done deep dives and are far more intellectual about it than I am planning on being. Also cinema/media literacy has never been my strong suit. Thank you for your cooperation.

Episode 5 Random Thoughts

No, Kinn, I don't think Porsche is okay. He's very.... Broody.

"My Papa isn't in the room? Gotta go snooping around because I'm nosy." Kim, probably.

I love how Korn doesn't trust his own son. He knows Kim's snooping around the family business and background because Papa knows everything. I swear, Korn has ten thousand schemes going on at a time and they're all kept track of in his head. Dude is very smart and cunning.

Tankhun knows exactly how Kim operates. And honestly, Khun has the best instincts of all three of the boys. He just doesn't want to be in charge of operations.

Kinn was also talking about himself and how he fucked up last night.

The montage of memories from the night before coming back to Porsche is very well done.

My little sister has done a flaming shot like that, she said it was very hot going down, so their reaction isn't too bad overall.

As an addendum to yesterday's post: I have many thoughts and feels about the ending sex scene (also feels about why I think it does work, and is well done, though v problematic). And I really appreciate how they went about the feelings behind it in today's episode. Where both Kinn and Porsche are having a hard time leaving it behind and trying to be with someone else because they're in like (not love yet) and stuff.

Kinn looking at his reflection in the window... Feels like he's having a hard time coming to grips with what happened (rightfully so, I'd say).

Vegas drives up on a Panigale V4 S with no back seat.

Oooooh the jealousy from Kinn.

I don't like that they used KP's song for VegasPorsche bike ride.

Pulling up to the building, the bike now has a back seat.

My favorites are here just strolling into a studio 🥰

Kim likes all the sides of you too, Chay. I can see the smitten even now.

Almost gave away that you're gathering info on the brothers, my dude.

I love how he gives in to Chay and stays to listen to the song even though he didn't initially want to. And then starts playing piano and singing along to it too. 🤡

Gratuitous shower scene, but it feels like he's washing away the bad.

Kinn showing up uninvited to the house of the person he likes is just a mood. Because he's just that forward and entitled lmao.

The way he switches between being brash and kind of a bitch to trying to be nicer is hilarious because it feels so unnatural. Mile did such a good job here.

I feel like Korn knows about or possibly orchestrated the kidnapping. It just feels so... off.

I do really love how well KP work together in these fist fighting scenes. It's so good.

I think these posts with my thoughts are just going to keep getting longer as we get farther into the show... Which, I mean, if y'all don't mind it, then we're good. Episode 6 tomorrow!