#thank you all for bearing with me for the past 3-ish months lol

[cha1cedony]

Ch 10 of Silver Linings is up now on AO3! Thank you so much for supporting me and this fic. Love y'all. Idk what else to say. I'm tired and emotional, okay! 🥲❤️ I really, really hope you enjoy this final chapter!!! ^_^

[joe-mazzello-archive]

The Bet

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 1.5k

Warnings: language, dirty talk, sexual themes, no actual smut but it’s described lol

A/N: HAP BIRTH @brianmays-hair​!!! this is my birthday gift to you as if you didn’t know this was coming hehe. thanks for letting me rant about pedro pascal and for being a shady bitch with me and for putting up with my anons. i’m so thankful for your friendship. ily my bridge troll <3

ps: this is my first time writing for queen, so go easy on me gang! also i assumed that this pic was taken before their performance? apologies if that’s incorrect.

You had assumed that one day you’d become used to being married to one of the members of Queen. You would become numb to it, nothing surprising you or throwing you off. The fans, the parties, the tours...the fact that practically everyone in the world knew who your husband was. It would all become routine for you.

But then you went to Live Aid.

The size of the crowd alone shocked you. You knew just based on the lineup for the event and the fact that it was being held in Wembley Stadium that Live Aid was a huge event. But you didn’t realize just how huge.

You had held Brian’s hand tightly as the lot of you were escorted through backstage areas and cramped hallways, weaving through crew members and people with badges who seemed important. As someone who had been along for the ride for quite a few Queen tours, you were somehow extremely overwhelmed. But Brian’s tight grip on your hand, offering comforting squeezes every once in a while kept you grounded.

Eventually, Brian was swept away, needed to answer reporter questions or shake hands with music industry heads. You had just begun to feel a little lost when an arm slid around your shoulder.

“You look positively stressed, love,” Crystal’s voice sounded in your ear, the familiar timbre relaxing you a bit.

“It’s a lot to take in,” you replied, wrapping an arm around his waist for a side hug as the two of you watched the scene before you.

“Well, I’ll keep an eye on you, Mrs. May. Make sure you don’t get swept up in the craziness,” Crystal declared with a nudge to your ribs. You chuckled at the moniker, giving the techie a playful shove.

You knew he meant it. Crystal had somewhat taken you under his wing during your first Queen tour a few years back. Brian, only your boyfriend then, had asked you to join the group on the American leg of the News of the World tour, claiming he couldn’t bear to separated from you for an entire month and a half. Crystal had recognized the lost look in your eyes even back then as you experienced what it was like to go on tour with a rock band. The two of you had struck up an unlikely friendship, keeping each other entertained on bus rides while the boys caught up on much-needed sleep.

An hour later Brian grabbed your hand once again, bringing it to his lips for a soft kiss before announcing that him and Roger wanted to go watch some of the performances.

And that’s how you found yourself sitting in the VIP section of the stadium, seated between Brian and Chris. Had you been a few years less experienced, you may have been shocked when David Bowie took the seat next to Chris, offering you and the boys a handshake greeting. But you had had the pleasure of meeting Bowie a few years back.

No, the thing that made your eyes go wide with shock was when you realized that Princess Diana and Prince Charles of Wales were sitting right in front of you. Maybe a yard away.

Crystal noticed your reaction right away, offering a small chuckle and a loving head shake in response. He leaned closer to you, signaling you to do the same.

“I’ve got a bet for you,” he whispered, and you rolled your eyes. Somehow along the way, bets between you and Crystal had become commonplace. The two of you had bet on arguments between the band members, card games between roadies, and to your shame, you once even bet on how long one of Roger’s flings would last.

“Lay it on me, Taylor.”

“I bet you can’t get Brian all hot and bothered in front of Princess Di,” he responded. You let out a quick burst of laughter before clapping a hand on your mouth. Brian shot you a confused look that you returned with a nod towards Crystal. He immediately understood, knowing Crystal’s antics full well, and he turned his attention back to the performance.

“That’s not a bet, that’s just torture!” you argued. “And besides, you know I’d win.”

“Fine, twenty quid if you get him flustered enough to excuse himself.”

“I’m not doing that!”

“But it’ll be fun!”

He had a point. You did get a bit of satisfaction from reducing Brian to a needy mess. But you usually only pulled the trick of out of your pocket if he hadn’t been giving you enough attention lately.

But the more you thought about it, the more excited the prospect of a needy Brian made you. Get him all riled up and then have a quick and dirty fuck backstage before he performed for thousands of people? The idea was definitely intriguing.

“Fifty quid,” you countered, the gears in your head already turning. That earned you another chuckle from Crystal before he held a hand out to you.

“Deal.” The two of you sealed the exchange with a quick handshake.

Then you got to work.

An innocent smile on your face, you turned to Brian, tapping him gently on the shoulder to get his attention before leaning in close to his ear.

“Briii,” you murmured, laying a hand on his knee. He smiled at your show of affection, but his focus remained on the stage before him. “You know what I’m thinking about?” He hummed questioningly, still not giving you his full attention. “I’m thinking about the Hot Space tour.”

You let your statement simmer and you watched Brian’s eyebrows furrow in confusion as he tried to work out what you were referring to.

“Remember that time you were in a mood, and during one of Roger’s drum solos I pulled you into a closet and went down on you?” You slightly shifted your hand an inch higher on Brian’s thigh as you felt him tense next to you. But his eyes didn’t stray from the concert being performed. So you continued.

“And then after the show as a thank you, you took me back the hotel and absolutely destroyed me with your tongue?” An inch higher. You heard him let out a shaky breath before leaning closer to you.

“Darling, what are you doing?”

“I was so wet for you that night. You make me so wet, Bri,” you practically purred into his ear. Another inch higher; you were almost mid-thigh. You began to caress the fabric of his slacks with your thumb, tracing small circles. Brian shifted in his seat slightly, but the man was determined to watch the performers.

“If only Roger had a long drum solo in your set later tonight,” you continued. “We could recreate that. Licking every inch of you before I take you into my mouth completely. Maybe even let you take control. Let you fuck my mouth.” Another inch. You could see Brian was sweating now, and you knew it had nothing to do with the weather. Your eyes flicked over to Crystal, who was watching the band’s performance with a knowing smirk.

“Or maybe instead you can just fuck me. Push me up against the wall, wrap my legs around you can let you plow me until I’m a whimpering mess,” you whispered, slurring your words slightly. Brian’s cheeks were beet-red. “You always make me come so hard.” You shifted your hand another inch higher, but this time Brian’s long fingers wrapped around your wrist. And for the first time since you began your game, he turned to look at you.

“Love,” he whimpered, almost desperately. You fluttered your eyelashes innocently, a soft smile on your face.

“Yes, dear?”

His eyes flashed downward briefly, and you followed his glance. A prominent bulge had formed in his trousers. You gazed back up at Brian, your guiltless grin fading into a knowing smirk.

“Would you like some help with that, Bri?”

In a flash, Brian got to his feet, practically yanking you with him. You knew he was probably thankful he had elected to wear loose-fitting pants that day.

“We’re going to grab something to eat,” he announced, his voice a bit shaky. Roger’s eyebrows furrowed as he looked up at the tall man standing next to him.

“We just ate like an hour ago,” he revealed. You couldn’t help but chuckle.

“Well, I’m hungry again,” Brian snapped back quickly. I’m sure you are, you thought to yourself. Brian’s hand landed on the small of your back, urging you to start sliding past the seated audience members.

As you scooted past Crystal, he discreetly whipped out a fifty-pound note and held it out for you with a grin. You pocketed it and kept moving, past David Bowie and the other crowd members. Once the two of you finally made it to the aisle, Brian gripped your hand tight, pulling you along as he sped towards a bathroom. You could barely keep up; Brian’s long legs giving him an advantage.

“So, you’re hungry, huh, Bri?” you teased as you picked up the pace to walk in-line with him. Then in one swift movement, you were pulled through a doorway and spun around, your back pressing into the door to close it.

“I think you know exactly what I’m hungry for, you little minx.”

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[that-was-anticlimactic]

top five fics of 2020

i was tagged by @zukkaclawthorne to post my five favorite works I made this year.

Rules: it’s time to love yourselves! choose your 5 (ish) favorite works  you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them  below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

so. I have only published five on ao3 because I just worked up the nerve October, so. Bear with me haha!

1. finding the worth that is hiding beneath

This is one that I actually haven’t posted yet (because it’s not done haha), but this is a little snippet from it that I posted! It’s pretty important to me because it’s the first time I wrote Sokka with Tourette’s Syndrome and, if I haven’t mentioned it enough times, I have TS so it’s very personal to me. This was / is just really fun to write in general! It was my first time writing Zukka and has some personal self-projecting moments in it and was the first thing I actually wrote for atla (I think I started it in April but then Dairy Queen overworked me to the point where I barely had time to think about atla unless it was what blizzard the characters’ favorite would be so anyways it’s far from done). It was also my first time trying to write this style for TS (I wrote a oneshot with Jay Ninjago having TS and I wrote that differently). Anyways, I’m rambling! This fic is just really special to me and I can’t wait to finish it so I can share it with friends and others with TS:)

2. threshold of eternity

oh boy did posting this one terrify me! Not only was it my first time writing for Azula, but also my first time writing for Mai, Jin, hints of Jinzula, as well as interactions between certain characters. I actually almost didn’t post it because I was terrified that it would be too ooc, but I guess it wasn’t because people told me they liked it and thought I wrote well for Azula (which made me mentally sob happy tears, so thank you!). I have the tendency to focus on certain characters and I do that with Sokka... a lot... so this was also my first time writing something with minimal Sokka (... he was still... he was still in it though oops) and this was a great opportunity for me to explore other characters as well as their relations! Plus, I love Azula and she deserved better. It was also the first oneshot in a series I’m working on and I wrote it all in three days instead of, ya know, doing homework... I would just sit in a dining hall and writexD

3. Deeper Than Words

have I not talked enough about how much I love Sokka and that I headcanon him having Tourette’s? Yes? I’m sorry, this one is also about that. I wrote this in like five hours one day when I was sad because of my tics and how embarrassing they are (and they aren’t! that’s something I’m still working on), so this was very heavily self-projection but to the extreme because I have never been in a situation entirely like what Sokka was in in this. Again, it’s very personal, I got to show Suki some love, I got to write some Zukka, and I got to give myself the words of affirmation that I desire but don’t have the guts to ask for haha. I’ll keep this one short and sweet! I’m just... rather proud of it:)

4. unruly heart

look. I love the musical The Prom. perhaps and unhealthy amount. but also, this was written from ZUKO’S pov and NOT Sokka’s, which is an accomplishment in itself for me! This one was... really really really hard for me to write. I had one and a half pages sitting in my google docs for, perhaps, two months before I literally said “screw it” and finished it in one day. I’m not sure why this was so darn hard for me to write, maybe it’s because I had to write for Ozai and mmmm wasn’t sure I could do that well. Or maybe it was because it wasn’t from Sokka’s pov or because I have literally never been in a relationship and I don’t know what it’s like. Either way, I knew what I was writing was right and I wanted to write it so badly. It was hard to write, but I won and managed to finish it:) (and go listen to Unruly Heart from the Prom).

5. we say that it’s a brotherhood

okay. this is, perhaps, one of the most abstract things I have ever written. It’s kind of funny, I was talking to Grace about it the other day and even she went “and you only mentioned Sokka a couple of times, I’m proud of you!” (that’s when you know you have a problem lol-- kidding, I was thinking the same thing haha!). I started this when I was sad. Now, I don’t remember why I was sad, but I was very sad so for some reason I decided to make Jet suffer... and then Yue... and then Suki... and then Piandao... Ty Lee... Kanna... Aang... but I’m kind of proud of it? It’s rather different compared to other things I’ve written but I like how it turned out:)

this was excessively long oops

I have so many other atla wips in my google docs that I would probably have finished if I knew how to focus on something lol

anyways, thank you, Grace, for the tag:) this was fun to reflect on!

uhhhhhh I’m not sure who else to tag, so anyone who wants to can and some fellow writers I know are @tikmasjiens and @mcfanely and uhhh Grace and Ellen have already been tagged, so uh, again, anyone else who wants to should do this because we LOVE positivity:)

[witchyinthekitchen]

This is a Vent Post about my Mother, Please do not reblog

This post is probably gunna be all over the place/time with things that I can remember/recall so bear with me here.

-Being told to make my own food bc mom was too busy with brand new baby (I was between 5-6 so poptarts were about all i could manage. I'd asked for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.) (my brother was a VERY finniky baby. If you weren't holding him he'd scream till his face went purple.))

-Tried to share interests in Anime/manga with her, when I asked her what she felt about it she said she couldn’t get into it and that it felt like a chore. (13-15 ish)

-Told her I needed therapy bc I was having suicidal thoughts. She took me, but then took me out once I started getting upset about the things i’d been talking about in therapy with my therapist because I'd come home in a bad mood.(15-16 ish)

-Went to Mother Daughter Group Therapy with her (there were other mother daughter combos) and she stormed out in the middle of it saying that we were only attacking her and not my dad too. (was 15-16 ish)

-Got into an argument about who i was voting for in the 2016 election while on vacation at Disney World (Hint it wasn't Trump like she wanted)(24 ish)

-Tried to gaslight me about trying to get everyone together to talk wedding stuff saying how she tried but that it all fell apart. (I have texts of her canceling it the day before we were all supposed to get together.)(26)

-Gets super defensive/upset any time I talk about “other mothers” in my life (MIL, BM)

-Has been super hot and cold with me during wedding planning and making passive aggressive comments about everything: Tell him to buy new pants for the engagement shoot 'bc I dont want him wearing baggy clothes -SO's Lost over 20lbs+ for the wedding and i'm so fuckin proud of him- “I don’t want to pay for hard alcohol for SO and his friends to drink at the wedding.” As if ½ the people invited weren’t all just her friends? ((All our friends live out of state/country so half the wedding is family and HER friends/neighbors.)) "I’m sure H*(SIL) and K*(MIL) have good counsel for you on _____," (Why would you say this when i'm asking for YOUR opinion? If i wanted their opinion i'd ask them.)

-4 months before the wedding she’s trying to talk me out of my venue saying we need to go look at the ones SO and MIL had suggested.

-Wants me to keep (BM)'s relation to me a secret even though i’m pretty sure 85% of the people who know me and are coming to my wedding know i'm adopted.

-Angry that I was moving out of the house at 21 with my SO she told his mother she hoped we’d fail. (In her defense she'd just been diagnosed with breast cancer and I'd done poorly in my last semester of college so parents thought it would be a good idea to take me out of college for a semester so i could live at home and basically be at my moms beck and call while also being expected to work 2 jobs (they'd told me the instant that the semester was over that i was expected to work 2 jobs) -That's at least how I was viewing that whole situation before I moved out- )

-As a kid I remember wanting to run away a lot. (Never away to a friends house but always to a park to live under a bridge like the goblin I am (lol)) (is it obvious I use self depreciating humor to get through things that I'm uncomfortable with? haha)

-I'd always hide things from her, even small things like a puzzle book i'd bought myself from the elementary school book fairs. i even began writing my diaries in code so she couldn't read them. Not that i ever caught her reading my diaries or what not but thats how afraid i was.

-The only things that stopped me from killing myself was the distressing thought that my mother would be more upset with blood on the floor than me being gone. (It was a constant worry of mine when I was having ideations.)

-When i was getting close to graduating high school the librarians told me they had a bunch of excess old books they were getting rid of and one of them happened to be the "Toxic Parents" book i've seen several other posts refer to. I took no other books besides that one. I hid that from her too. Looking back through it i remember there was a checklist in the book and i'd filled some of it out when i was younger. I most definitely am a people pleaser.

-We've never really been able to "talk" about things together like how my dad and i do and i think she's really jealous about it.

-The only way I feel comfortable talking to her is Via Email/Text because then that way i have a copy of all the things she's said. because i often forget things. (I honestly don't know how bad my memory is or if its gaslighting but i hope its just me being forgetful and not the latter...)

-I literally cannot let my SO do the dishes because my Mom would always do the dishes/clean when she was mad and bang pots around loudly and just even those sounds set me on edge.

-Her telling me that the careers i wanted to get into (IE: the Arts/Theater/Music) wouldn't make enough money and that they'd be fine as Hobbies but not as careers.

-She's continually trying to push me into a Customer Service Job because i'm so good at making other people happy. (talked to dad about this and he says i'm a very big people pleaser who doesn't like conflicts -cue nervous laughter about wedding planning-)

-Being around her for long periods of time is so physically/emotionally draining. I know that's probably a result of always being on edge with her and I always feel bad that I feel that way.

-Because she's said she hoped I'd fail (me and my So when I first moved out) I'm terrified of telling her anything personal going on in my life for fear that she'd take it out on me or use it against me (i got super anxious/scared when she came up to see me on my end of town once because we'd be stopping at the mall where i used to work and i hadn't yet told her that I'd quit that job.)

-I want to have a relationship with her. I want us to do fun Mom& Daughter things but at the same time I'm scared of letting her get too close to me again just to have it fall apart again.

-When I moved out (21) i went VLC with my whole family before i even knew what VLC was. I barely saw them (except for certain holidays/events.) I didn't talk to my dad for about 3 years because of this and am just now recovering that relationship with him (been 5 years now since I moved out)

-After I get married my plan is to move to CO. During that time i don't remember if my mom has mentioned if she'd miss me, but i do recall she has made multiple points to tell me that my dad says he would miss me.

-I had to beg for a 16th Birthday Party. She finally caved half a year later after I'd talked to my Therapist about it.

-pretty sure i'm the SG of the family (possibly Cousin 1 being the GC because she went to same University my mom did)

-Other family members on her side have stepped in to provide financial help to me on the promise that i wouldn't tell anyone. (probably to stop any gossip of favoritism)

I Don't know if she's an N or just really bad at expressing herself but her hot and cold attitude really sets off my anxiety that i've done something to piss her off and that she won't talk to me about it for a few weeks and then acts as though nothing is wrong/nothing happened. Planning my wedding is the MOST contact we've had in 5 years since i moved out and went VLC and i've been trying to use this as a way to bond with her better but anytime i think i'm getting somewhere Something happens and she's upset again. A phrase i've found myself come into saying recently is "I can't fix something that I don't know is wrong." So i've tried to take that approach when it comes to her. I know she's an adult and can choose for herself if she wants to talk about whats on her mind. I can't force her to talk if she doesn't want to but the anxiety it causes when she gets into these moods is really debilitating. I'm terrible at letting things go (especially if i think its my fault)

I'm Not Her Therapist, but if she has an issue with me I wish she'd just tell me instead of the Silent treatment for a week.

Trigger Topics that I've learned to Avoid at All Costs:

Anything about "Other Mothers" in my life.

Politics & Racism

Anything in the Past that happened.

My moving out

Anything that paints her as a "Bad Mother"(aka this whole post probably)

This post is a mess and I'm rambling. Thanks for sticking through this Brain Dump while I process. 

-Edit 2:

More things i'm recalling: For Christmas one year in front of my whole family (I was between 8-10 ish) she got me a set of underwear with the days of the week labeled on them and told me in front of everyone that "Maybe this would help me remember [to change my underwear daily]..."

One of my final years in high school I somehow managed to get a Cold Sore. My First Cold Sore ever and my lip where it broke out swelled up HUGE. I woke up the day it appeared ( a weekend thank the gods) and horrified went downstairs to tell my mom about it. I don't recall any words of sympathy other than "Cold Sores are caused by Herpes." I just remember breaking down into tears.

I mapped out a "Quiet Walking Path" that avoided all the creaky floorboards and steps in our house.

I get extremely anxious whenever I would hear my parents footsteps coming up the stairs. It got to the point that I could distinguish their steps on Carpet.

I jump/flinch (visibly) at loud noises, even if I know they are coming (movies songs ect.)

Routinely friended/unfriended me on Facebook before deleting it entirely (due to 2018 spying/hacking allegations)

I don't know if she means for these things to be hurtful but as someone who doesn't enjoy confrontation and is extremely sensitive to others feelings it just hurts y'know?

-edit 3: Attempted to talk to mom about her saying she hoped we'd fail via email. went about as well as expected. =Well, that clears a lot of things up. We only wanted you to be independent and happy, and it appears you are. End of story!

And for what it’s worth, I’ve said a LOT of things over the past 6 years that you didn’t hear about. And I’m not really sure where you heard “I hope they fail.” But I’m sure your source is 100%, and certainly not something you’d want to clarify with me.

I hope you got your apartment all squared away in Colorado. You should be under the 60-day notice by now! Woo hoo!

Let me know when you all are coming to get your stuff out of the house.

I’ll have it packed and ready for you.

-Mom

Am i reading into this too much? because it sounds like she's being hella passive aggressive about this.

-Edit 4: 7-19-18 Been venting about wedding planning being stressful on fb away from my mom since she doesn't have one anymore. I didn't realize she had fms reporting to her about my posts as she just randomly mentions via text that she wants to help me have fun while planning and that she wishes she could make it a happy time for me.

Edit 5: 9-26-18 Wedding is over finally. had our honeymoon and got moved out of our apartment back into my MIL's house. During the move we had to put all of our stuff into storage which includes Wedding gifts and thankyou notes. So Mom has been hounding me about getting them done and i've informed her several times that all of that is in storage and i havent been able to yet. She said not an excuse go buy more thankyou notes and write them all. I asked if Emailing a thank you would work, she says no must be hand written and mailed out (also who's paying for 100+ stamps: Me) Well Tonight she informs me that she's doing all the ones from her/my side and that she doesn't care if we do them for DH's side since SIL didn't send any thank you notes either. Cue big long talk with DH about all of this and he says not to worry about her being passive aggressive like this. Go and check my Email to find she sent an Email to me only with writing saying

"Dear all,

Thank you so much for attending --- wedding. Your presence was so important to me, and I know to the kids as well. Thank you also for the lovely wedding gifts you sent or brought. I know they are appreciated and will be enjoyed by the newlyweds. It was very kind and generous of you!

Unfortunately, --- is unable to send thank you notes, but I did want you to know that your gifts, and your presence at the celebration, were very important to all of us, and very much appreciated.

Fondly,

MOM"

currently I'm choosing not to respond and I wonder how our relationship is going to be going forward from all of this... I was so happy that the wedding was over so i wouldn't have to deal with this petty drama bullshit anymore but I guess thats just too much to ask for.

-She's also unfriended me on facebook again. I'm tempted to just block her to stop this wishy washy stuff from happening again.

[inkofamethyst]

March 29, 2020

hahhahahaha i am FREAKING OUT

Day 89 of the cute campaign: I mean I washed my face, so,

Day 17 of quarantine: I wish I was back at school.  Sundays are work-days for me, unlike for my parents who are loudly watching Frozen 2.  The problem is that I kinda want to listen, so I can’t bear to tell them to turn it off despite the fact that it’s a total distraction from my studies cramming for tomorrow.

I’m really very thankful for all these recent studyblr posts about how to do online learning and keep a schedule and such.  I lowkey wanna do the thing where you get dressed up ridiculously for each class.  Like, I’ll wear fancy dresses and put on crazy lipstick colors and maybe even do some wild eyeshadow and eyeliner stuff because why the heck not.  It’ll make me a bit more excited to wake up and prep myself on MTuWF (Th I don’t think I have any face-to-face classes so far, but idk what my math TA is doing which is weird because he’s never had a problem before when it came to emailing my discussion section, so).  I can do, like themes or something.  Like one day is the 20′s (the roaring ones, not the 2020s where we’ve been scared of the world ending, like, three times in three months or something).  One day can be a princess day (I’ve got a ballgown lol), I can do a greek theme (last year’s prom dress y’all), pirate theme (I’ve got this wack top from Hot Topic and I could totally make an eyepatch), and I’ve got a few fancy-ish blazers and dress shirts too.  I’ve got a leather jacket and gum to do a biker theme, and I’ve got a white off-the-shoulder top to maybe do, like, a renaissance theme.  As soon as I figure out how to change my zoom background, it’ll be over for everyone.  ...I’ll get started planning these out.  During a study break, of course.

Besides that, there’s soooooo much that I’ve got to get done today.  As in, these tasks absolutely must be finished by today.  That list includes the following (by the way, many of these are totally things I could’ve done over the past two weeks)

review chapters 8, 6, and 3 for my orgo exam tomorrow (in addition to reviewing all the skills from the last exam because these are ~cumulative~)

this will involve three packets of material, a practice exam, extra practice, two quizlets (one from last exam and a half-finished one for new material), combining my notes from lecture, discussion, the book, and supplemental material, and looking at the posted answers for all of the practice problems to actually understand what I should be getting from the material

aka, I really screwed myself over

watch two and a half math lectures online of new material

figure out the answer to the orgo homework I’ve had for two and a half weeks now

finish the lab report for anatomy (this is at least halfway done though and shouldn’t take more than two hours if I stay focussed tbh)

The main thing is the studying for orgo.  The math lectures will take two and a half hours max, I think.  And I can split those studies with other things I need to work on/look at (too many for me to list out just to depress myself).  I’ll figure out a schedule for today.  I have to at this point in order to ensure that I get a decent amount of sleep before the exam.  Minimum of six hours of sleep required, so a bedtime of 2:30 am must be enforced, goal of 2:00 and before.

I think I’m going to start using the app Forest again to track my work time.  The incentive of growing a forest will help me want to work more I think (at least it did during final’s season last semester), so I’m going to give it a shot.

Aight, well.  As they say, “until tomorrow...”

(I don’t even get the dumb Instagram until tomorrow trend and I’m too disinterested to actually look it up, so my ignorance is my own fault because I’m 98% sure that Buzzfeed has already done an article about it.)

[sannie-hannie-archive]

Tagged by the wonderful @jeongjarsofhannie for the get to know you tag. Thanks so much for tagging me <3 I love you and your blog so much!

Rules: Answer the questions and tag followers you would like to get to know better! 

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Name: Shay 

Nicknames: Shay (it’s my nickname but I go by it so much it’s basically my name) I have other nicknames but only one or two people can get away with calling me it so yeah lol

Zodiac Sign: Virgo

Height: 5′8/172 cm

Orientation: Straight 

Ethnicity:  American with a mix of Irish/French/Scandinavian? IDK my precise ethnicity lol

Favorite Fruit: ALL but if I had to choose I really like pineapple

Favorite Season: Winter (Fun fact never seen snow because I live in Florida)

Favorite Book: Maximum Ride/Confessions series by James Patterson

Favorite Flower: Hmm never really thought about it lol Carnations?

Favorite Scent: I like a lot of scents lol I don’t really have a fave

Favorite Colour: BLUE

Favorite Animal: ALL but if I had to choose polar bears

Favorite Beverage: Coffee (Peppermint Mocha)/Soda (Mountain Dew Baja Blast)/Tea/Water

Average Sleep Hours: 8-12 hours (yeah I sleep a lot but if I don’t get at least 8 prepare to die cuz I get unbearable)

Favorite Fictional Character: Yuna from Final Fantasy X/Lunafreya from Final Fantasy XV/Evie from Assassins Creed Syndicate/Raven from DC/Harley Quinn from DC/Scarlett Witch from Marvel/Mikasa from Attack on Titan/Adroid 18 from Dragon Ball Z/Hawkeye from Fullmetal Alchemist/Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII/Zack from Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core/Noctis from Final Fantasy XV/Prompto from Final Fantasy XV/Riku from Kingdom Hearts/Captain America from Marvel/Quick Silver from Marvel/Edward Elric from Fullmetal Alchemist/Roy Mustang from Fullmetal Alchemist/Vegeta from Dragon Ball Z/Beerus from Dragon Ball Z/Erin from Attack on Titan....The list continues I have too many faves...

Number of blankets you sleep with: 1 if that...I don’t really need one here in Florida most times

Dream Trip: Ireland, London, Japan, Korea, Italy, Puerto Rico, Spain, Boston...I would love to travel the world tbh...

Blog Created: Ummm I know it was before Pretty U era...It was like a week before all the teasers started coming out :)

Hogwarts House: Everyone says Ravenclaw and I agree

Time Right Now: 1:21 PM

Lucky Number: Don’t have one

Last Thing I Googled: “5′8 in cm” IDK conversions lol

Favorite Bands/groups: I know this is a shocker but Seventeen, Pristin, SHINee, Twice, BTS, BlackPink, KARD, Red Velvet, SNSD, GFriend, EXO, NCT (mainly U and Dream if I’m being honest I’m not big on 127), Black Veil Brides, Bullet for my Valentine, Three Days Grace, Evanescence, and others I can’t really think of rn.

Favorite Solo Artist: Tbh I don’t really listen to a lot of solo artists lol IDRK any but I’ll say Andy Black

Song stuck in my head: Wee Woo by Pristin <3<3<3<3

Last movie watched: The Great Wall or Angels and Demons I can’t remember which one I watched first lol

Last TV show watched: Sleepy Hollow <3<3 but if Tuesday Night Smackdown counts then that was the last one I watched...I don’t really count it though so yeah

Dream job: Chef or Video Game Designer/Developer

Following: 313

Posts: 2,691

Do you get asks regularly: Not really but that’s alright when I do get them it’s just makes me even more happy and makes it even more special! <3 :) I love hearing from ya’ll

Do you have any other blogs: 1 but I never check it lol

What I Post About: Seventeen/Jeonghan/K-Pop with the occasional Video game/Anime post

Why you chose your url: Because I absolutely love/hate the “angel” Yoon Jeonghan

When Did My Blog Reach it’s Peak: Um IDRK if I consider it peaked at all yet but I am getting a lot more notifications and followers lately which makes me happy since I only really post garbage lol

Second game:

rules: bold the statements that apply to you!

appearance:

i am 5′7″ or taller

i wear glasses

i have at least one piercing

i have blonde hair

i have brown eyes

i have short hair

my abs are at least somewhat defined

i have or have had  braces

there is something i would change about the way i look

personality:

my hogwarts house is: gryffindor hufflepuff ravenclaw slytherin

i am an introvert

i like meeting new people

people tell me that i’m funny

helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

i enjoy physical challenges

i enjoy mental challenges

i’m playfully rude with people i know well

i started saying  something ironically and now i can’t stop saying it

there  is something i would change about my personality

ability:

i can sing well

i  can play an instrument

i can do over 30 pushups without stopping

i’m a fast runner

i can draw well

i have a good memory    

i’m  good at doing math in my head

i can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

i have beaten at  least 2 people in arm wrestling

i know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

i know how to throw a proper punch

hobbies:

i enjoy playing sports

i’m  on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

i’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

i have learned a new song in the past week

i work out at least once a week

i’ve gone for runs at least once a week

i have drawn something in the past month

i enjoy writing

fandoms are my #1 passion

i do or have done martial arts

experiences:

i have had my first kiss

i have had alcohol

i have scored the winning goal in a sports game

i have watched an entire season of a tv show in one sitting

i have been at an overnight event

i have been in a  taxi

i  have been in the hospital or er in the past year 

i have beaten a video game in one day

i have visited another country

i have been to one of my favourite band’s concerts

relationship:

i’m in a relationship

i have a celebrity crush

i have a crush on someone i know

i have been in at least 3 relationships

i have never been in a relationship

i have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

i get crushes easily

i have had a crush on someone for over a year

i have been in a relationship for at least a year

i  have had feelings for a friend

my life:

i have at least one person i consider a “best friend”

i live close to my school

my parents are still together

i have at least one sibling

i live in the united states 

there is snow right now where i live

i have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month

i have a smartphone

i have at least 15 cds

i share my room with someone

random shit:

i have breakdanced

i  know a person named jamie

i  have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

i have dyed my hair (bright-ish red with blue ends the way I’ve been wanting it forever but only got it done last week)

i’m listening to one song on repeat right now  

i have punched someone in the past week

i know someone who has gone to jail

i have broken a bone

i have eaten a waffle today

i know what i want to do with my life

i speak at least 2 languages fluently (I wouldn’t say fluently but I do know a good bit of Spanish :))

i have made a new friend in the past year