Hi dear friend đ
How about..."if you could only see yourself the way I do, you wouldn't feel this way" with my sweet sweet Rulti boys.
Besos!đ
sorry this ended up taking me a little mac, i love how your brain works and i hope i did it justice đ€
please enjoy 1k of sad, angsty rain and swiss breaking through the pain đ„°
Rainâs hands travel the skin of his neck exploratorily, fingers brushing over the slightly protruding gills on either side of his neck. They are a light-blue colour and stand out compared to the greyish-blue tone of his skin like a sore thumb. He knows that logically, Dew used to have the very same identifying features of a water ghoul. That you can still see the shiny, silvery scars if you look hard enough.Â
Sometimes he even catches Dew being slightly oversensitive to the area still, releasing a soft gasp when theyâre touched the right way, flinching when heâs grabbed a little too roughly around the neck. Rain sympathizes, and knows the feeling well himself. Itâs an interesting flaw in the design of water ghouls, having such a vulnerable area highlighted like a bullseye for all predators to see. To be totally at someoneâs mercy if they touch them just right.
Thatâs not the part that really bothers Rain though, just something he thinks of once in a while. If he one day had an audience with Lucifer, heâd probably bring it up. Workshop some ideas with the Unholy One.Â
No, what bothers Rain is that heâs the only ghoul with these outward markings. Air ghouls get to walk a little lighter. Their hair floats perfectly around them, like theyâre perpetually on a cloud. Quintessences have captivating purple irises that seem to glow in the dark. Dewâs eyes hold a similar power, coupled with the fact that he always runs hotter than any other being Rain has had the pleasure of getting close to. Even Mountain grows cute little flowers on his body, for fucksakes. Donât even get him started on multi ghouls. Theyâre heartbreakingly gorgeous, taking every positive aspect of their mixed elements and crafting perfection. Heâs almost positive that if he looked at Swiss too long, heâd go blind.Â
And hereâs Rain, with these stupid fucking gills.Â
The ones that decorate his ribcage are fine, easily hidden and if thatâs the only place he had them he wouldnât complain too badly. But the neck? Impossible to casually hide. Itâs the only thing he sees in the mirror when heâs brave enough to look, the bright tone catching his eyes immediately. He feels like a lesser ghoul, unevolved, unrefined in a way.Â
When heâs feeling particularly hideous, heâll exert enough effort to glamour the area. Coincidentally, itâs more work to disguise just one part of his body instead of a full glamour. But heâs stubborn, will spend the whole day on edge and fall into bed exhausted after trying to conceal the ugliest part of him from view.Â
Heâs still standing in front of his vanity, hands to his neck, when the door to his room is thrown open.
âRain! Dew and Phantom challenged us to aâŠâ Swissâ voice trails off as he watches Rain grip his neck self-consciously. Itâs too much, the beautiful golden eyes of the multi ghoul staring right at his most vulnerable area, his gaze calculating as he takes in the scene before him. Rainâs hackles rise. The surprise mixing with the self-hatred heâs been soaking in creates an explosive reaction inside him.
âDid no one fucking teach you how to knock?â Rain spits, venom lacing his tone as he drops his hands, quickly pushing a glamour out to cover his gills. Swiss flinches visibly at the words, his eyes narrowing as his gaze still lingers on Rainâs neck. Silence eats at him, unshed tears pushing their way to his eyes. No, he cannot cry right now. Heâs just angry, he just needs Swiss to leave.Â
âRain,â Swiss ventures, taking slow steps towards him. He lifts his hands, palms raised towards the water ghoul like he would a wounded animal. Rain stumbles backwards, bracing his hands on the vanity behind him.Â
âGet the fuck out Swiss,â Rainâs voice cracks on the multi ghoulâs name, the anger evaporating as quickly as it comes. A single tear trails its way down his cheek. Swiss is unfazed by the quickly shifting moods, taking the last few steps to close the distance between them. Rain stiffens as heâs pulled close by a hand wrapping around his waist, leaving the comfort of the sturdy vanity behind him. Swiss reaches up with his other hand, his thumb brushing against Rainâs cheek to catch the stray tear.Â
Rainâs entire body slumps, the last few lingering impulses to fight dissipating.Â
âShow me, love.â Swiss whispers and Rain feels completely exposed under the golden gaze burning into him. He knows exactly what Swiss wants, debates playing dumb, but Swissâ face is earnest, affection carved into every faint line or wrinkle. With a heavy sigh, he drops the glamour, his eyes sliding shut as he tries to hide from his own wicked thoughts.Â
He doesnât see Swiss move closer, only letting out a soft gasp as his lips press light kisses along the gills on the right side of his neck. Never pushing too hard. If Rain wasnât hyperaware of every single thing happening currently, he might even miss the soft caresses on his sensitive skin. Swiss switches to the other side, supplying the same gentle affection to the neglected gills.Â
âYouâre absolutely gorgeous Rainbow,â Swiss pulls back, waiting for Rain to open his eyes before he speaks next. Itâs a battle, the water ghoul fighting back tears as he cracks his eyes to peek at Swiss. The love and adoration displayed blatantly on his face punches a soft sob out of Rainâs mouth.Â
Swiss coos and shushes him, pulling Rain tight to his chest, guiding his head to nuzzle in the crook of his neck. His warm hands rub comforting circles into Rainâs back as he shudders, tears falling to stain Swissâ white t-shirt. Itâs a few minutes before Rainâs breath evens out, eyes sore from crying, body exhausted, using every bit of strength Swiss offers to hold him up.Â
âIf you could only see yourself the way I do,â Swiss whispers, pressing soft kisses to the side of Rainâs head as he squeezes the water ghoul a little tighter. âYou wouldnât feel this way.âÂ
And Rain thinks, for Swiss, maybe he could try.Â
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