#that 'this sucks' btw was about a poem i started earlier

[creatediana]

“Now, Waiting” - an elfchen written 10/14/2022

Older now, still a bright-eyed child looking for my teacher’s approval.

[shiro-0197]

God no I'm sorry 😭😭😭 the way Tumblr eats all my drafts, and now your replies. (Someday I'm gonna eat Tumblr grrrr) that must've been so frustrating tho, I'm sorry love.

someday we could go to a country with Highlands together. It'll be super cold and nice. And the views would be really really pretty too!! WE COULD EVEN BE AMONGST THE CLOUDS >//< aww yes I hope you'll be able to try them soon in the future!! I died and had to stay in bed for an hour, (because my spice tolerance is nonexistent <3) but yeah I'm better now! Name is: "대박 ghost pepper noodles" the Korean word 대박 literally translates to "awesome" but— 😭😭

oh I see!! I hope school goes well, it's good that you're excused for a part of the day :D and aww I understand. Replying can be lengthy sometimes, so please please only do it when you're free and comfortable >:(( we're in no rush, after all :D

I was studying earlier too. and I texted my principal about the exams ( because apparently none of my teachers know anything about it, and I was so frustrated with everyone being so clueless ) she just replied with a : "hi Ariana, will let you know on Friday" like excuse me, ma'am. GRRRRR >:( STOP BEING CLUELESS.

awww that's okay!! I'm sure those prep slides were really pretty too :D aww that's sweet of you. some of my online friends sometimes sit in on my Leo events (if it's open to everyone) and it's pretty fun when they do (once, one of them had to talk for like, an activity and my club mates were like "SHE HAS AN ACCENT??". It was hilarious hehe) zoom is great for that reason, and only that. they're just ready-made slides tbh, I use canva :D

Shiro, love, you won't disappoint anyone, I promise you that. I'm sure your mom is more proud than you know, and from the way you talk about her, I can tell that she truly adores you. tho I also understand your worries. If you want to rant or anything, you know I'm here. And I'll just continuously reassure you of how amazing you are :)

that's my boy 🥺🥺 grr, you're so feisty, please imagine me holding a "you go, Shiro" sign everytime you tell someone to fuck themselves :D Laurent is indeed amazing. He's my favourite character for that exact reason >//< there's another character, from a book I read, just like that. His name was uhh, Kieran. And he knew so many different languages, and was just in general; super smart. I remember being so in love with him when I first read it (The title of the book is "genius")

HAHA. ikr. They're all hot, and most importantly; smart. nevermind, when I meet you someday we can cry over them together 😭🤚 pffft no offense, but being evil is hot sometimes 😾 (I mean, Kieran was evil. So's Moriarty :] and I am: a simp for them all)

aww bae that's okay 🥺🥺 your feelings are valid, and it's not wrong to express them whenever you feel like it. Grrr if I ever see your dad, he might be missing a limb >:( sorry, that was violent, but I get especially mad if anyone upsets someone i love )

exactly?? It's been a year?? Where's that blink meme where someone blinks and it's suddenly 2021. Oooh that sounds really nice!! Adding it on my list of things to try in March >.< Honey is really delicious. especially all those desserts which have a lot of them.

glad I made you laugh >////< grr my sense of humour is just so weird tho, so I'm glad you aren't freaked out by it.

KAJDKSJSKS SIR WAIT. There was an explanation for that u but I guess it got cut off in my notes 😾😾 IT WAS MEANT TO BE A Ü (smiley) but I was using my computer and I couldn't add the two dots above, so I typed "imagine the eyes" (but apparently that part got cut off and now it just looks like a random alphabet SKJSKSK IM SORRY 😭😭😭

I understand, the lack of opportunities can really get on one's nerves. But oh yes, Japan and Norway are beautiful countries. Apart from Japan, I've been really into Korea and Switzerland. The Alps 😻

grrr y'all have tough exteriors. But it's so rewarding when you finally get them down, tho I think, you guys have tons of other layers to yourselves. I guess that's just the charm, I find it endearing, because it just means there's a lot more than meets the eye :)

MY FRIEND MAKES FUN OF ME FOR LIKING PINK. HE TEASES ME MERCILESSLY SKSJSKSK (so I published a poem line in the school magazine to get back at him for it, because I'm petty like that)

that's so funny >.< There are two girls, and a girl and a guy, who share the exact same names in my class, and it's so funny because they're opposites of each other xD

he really is precious. The best leader, I would literally die for him, he's wonderful. yeah the book actually started out different, with them just being best friends. Best plot twist 😭😭 AWW

NOOO I'm sure it's cute, in it own way? :P tho that meme tho. LDJCJSBSKS. Don't worry, hehe, the character may be .... Unpleasant to look at?? , but you're not the least bit at all :)

how was your day btw? My day sucked ass and was literally the worst day in the history of uh, days. Yeah. sad. tomorrow will be better.

God, you're so adorable wtf. Marry me rn. AKDJSKSJS I didn't find it lame at all, (tho were you flustered? Because that was cute as hell xD) I love you too 🥺🥺

—☃️

It's okay, it's not your fault. We could storm the Tumblr building together or something..:3

Oh I really hope we can!!! I love cold weather. You can wear sweaters and hoodies and all that💞 and you have an excuse to cancel everything and cuddle up with a blanket or someone else😝

Im so glad you're better now!! Spice sickness or whatever is the worst😔 WBHDJWKX that's hilarious I hope I come across those soon! Let's see who wins😼

Yeah, about that, they started making us do after-class activities, which now leaves less time for the stuff I have to do .... which sucks . But I'm managing, I think, so it's cool xD yeah, I've always been kind of cautious about the timing, it's nice to have a little freedom now, thank you so much <3

Wow😭😭 our teachers usually have the dates set two weeks before the exams, we always recieve a message. Though I've been there, where the teacher have no clue, it's so annoying😭😭

Ohh, that's so cool! I hope I will be able to visit one someday. Though I dont think itll be too soon, but I'm looking forward to when I can😝 also that's funny, whenever I speak people go "he doesnt have an accent???" Even though I so obviously do. They just have no idea 😭

Okay..... that's the best words of encouragement I've ever received, I'm so touched- thank you🥺💘

Bwahah, that's gonna make my day every time 😭 Yeah, hes my favorite too!! He seems like a simple himbo at first, but the more we see of him the better he gets. (That sounds cool!!! I'm gonna check it out when I can!)

Thank you🥺 also, dont worry, I wouldn't mind that. I'd love that, actually, wanna go rip off guys arms together?

MZJXKGJJAKXKAKX IT'S ALRIGHT HAHAH, ITS REALLY FUNNY SO DONT WORRY😭😭

JSNFNMWMDMS IM GONNA MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR MAKING FUN OF YOU how could he . I will eat his eyeballs. Also I 100% agree with the poem and I'm glad you posted it. I hope some people thought about it.

Wow😭😭 its honestly so funny, because they're all so different and yet their names fit them so well either way.

Also, wow I feel so bad it's been almost a week since I responded😐 I'm really sorry. I've been writing snips of this message any time I could and yet it still took me days xD I'm getting free, though, so I'll try to respond faster now. I missed talking to you so much😭 thank you for your patience🤍🤍🤍

How've you been? I'm pretty good, tired but feeling good because I can finally respond😩 I hope your day went well. Love you!♡

[to-worship-hera]

Hera, please help

i love you too :) what's awhhh? it's okay :) [name] is worth it i mean, i liked talking to you too ooooof :( i don't want you to be jealous i did have a moment of like i guess that doesn't help with the jealousy at all hm

okay i figured up my follow up question so we talked like 1:3 or 1:4 ratio of work:[me] except with a term maybe then it becomes like 5:6 or whatever, a bit less than half so like ~6 hours over 3 days, or ~4 hours over 5 days with routine 1 term = 10*18 = 180 = uhh i guess 1 game? but if not during a term then like.... it's like 5 hours a week = 36 weeks or basically a year to make 1 game given that we don't have terms like last term unless we pull some shenanigans

(1) are you ok with rate of like 1 game a year (2) do you want us to find a term in the next ~3 years ah like when i'm in [country] like you would not go to [country] that makes sense protect lungs <3 (y) i forgots yeah but i forgots

ah so then it is like COMPLETELY up to you like no [me] to distract you at all not even to cook for her or help her with math so if you come out with nothing, that will be COMPLETELY your own fault and i will have so much relief that i don't suck for you :P jk mmkay

are you sure you can pull off 1:3 or 1:4 on the weekends when working like what would stop you from playing games with me allllllll weekend your own self control?

??? but if i work 10 hours a day that's like 1 prepare/commute + 10 work + .5 commute back + .5 sitting around + .5 getting ready for bed + 9 sleep (honestly i wish for 10.5 lol) so 2.5 hours assuming i eat everyyy meal at work i mean like let's say a [you] spends 2 hours with [me] a day but no meals would that be enough where on the weekends you'd work for 5 hours? :O what is "not enjoyable 2 hours with [me]" :O :O :O :O :O :O :O :O :O is this enjoyable is like when do you not have my full attention? huh i would consider that Not Spending Time Together at all hmmm interesting

this is interesting because like as per the schedule 1 prepare/commute + 10 work + .5 commute back + .5 sitting around + .5 getting ready for bed + 9 sleep (btw thanks for letting me rest my very sore throat) ^ 2.5 is very short like if i shower that day it becomes 1.75 if i call my parents that day it becomes 1 if i decide to write for like 3 hours like i sometimes do then there goes the whole time + maybe some sleep from the next day i guess i have 2.5 hours and i decide whether to spend it on you or like LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE :O :O :O :O

omg i hope i like my traps :( it would really suck to have 2.5 hours of non-trap time if i hate my traps ? ???? what is this, Lazy Person Thinking? hm is right i can't really help my commute my love we will live HERE obviously ok i want divorce you can work at [company] i can say "my ex husband works at [company]" "that's why he's my ex husband" "[company] sucks" people will be like "good job getting out of that relationship!" "[company] sucks" hahaha </3

cool you'll have no commute i'll work wherever will take me :( so unemployable omg if i play with cats then like there are 2 hours if i play with cats every day, then 2 hours and only if i play with cats Very Efficiently RUN CATS RUN

trap :( school is better i guess i mean it makes us ravenous for air but like at least i can keep typing at 5am haha wow i will never be able to have a side project again

work by definition cannot be a side project SIDE ...fuck [company 2] you saw it coming ......... undertale style ellipses ....................... have you seen this it's cute PAPYRUSUSSSUSUUS so cute

okay i will work i guess and let you sleep good night my love :) that's all :) i guess like with an emoji you can't tell which smileys are sad (sad) :) (sad sad) :)

just like the world closing in on us between exceeding expectations + spending time with each other + having freedom to do things + travel + idk it's just like wow this is the Last Term Ever where i get to do things i like for more than amortized 4 hours a day i should start using it better :) (sad) :) why are you sorry

you know what i am SO GLAD ABOUT thanks to the money thing earlier i haven't hung out with anyone i'm like really REALLY glad i do not hang out with people because that time really does feel wasted after idk praise :) you're great

but :O this is the Last Term Ever where i get to do things i like for more than amortized 4 hours a day ? what you mumbled yeah i heard "rethink drafts?" what draft picks :O like the things i'm writing? like don't go into a trap? DIE POOR get a good trap? that's kind of the trap's choice not mine traps are traps are traps my love

i am really sad like [name 2] and [name] and [name 3] and they all seem like they genuinely like the topic they do like i'm sure they have various frustrations with their actual job but they have like a TOPIC to work on that they are passionate about [topic] [topic 2] [topic 3]

i've never loved anything that much but you like to enjoy something beyond the tumblr rush you know like a class is basically [number] weeks tumblr rush + [number 2] weeks finishing the term lol like i like: coding but only non-scalable frontend soc animated films but only cute ones intl security as a way to think about the larger world greek gods writing but only low stakes teaching but only sections basically just that yeah uhm civ? cats? uhm like all these things a solid bunch but none consistently even celebrities, not that consistent it's like i have a top limit on how much i can love a thing that is not a person who can have dreams and expectations :O how do i pick a trap WHAT that's like on my other list of things i hate :)

hate ml math probability research physics lecturing big groups betraying my kind spanish philosophy group projects

that reminds me at some point i would like to ask [name 4] like "what is consensus decision making again?" like how does it work do people just talk until they convince everyone to be a consensus do you vote i feel like during our project i learned like what was NOT consensus decision making or like how easy it is to pretend you have consensus decision making by simply not making any decisions how does it work??? pls advise (that's what i would tell him) he would probably appreciate right? would he be like :O you learned nothing or :D you are still thinking about these experiences that's good

damn life was easier when i used to think that if i got tired of Everything In The World i could come back and be a [job] now i'm like hmm without that as an option i'm lost {waves arms} (sad) :) you should go to sleep my love

? [me] is luckiest girl

good night love you? writing but only low stakes ???????? that's high stakes low stakes is like

here is a poem about how sad i am i am sad heh

if i were a cat i would be a sad cat meow meow heh

i basically like making you laugh :) ty "low quality hanging out" mmkay i love you yeah hahah but is bright get a scarf and your covers

[brief-creation]

Rules: answer 30 28 questions then tag 20 people you'd like to know better

tagged by the brilliant @sure-as-eggs (thanks btw, I was giddy to see my name after I finished reading your thing, surprised me and prbly made my morning)

<p>1. Nicknames: honestly I don’t have any friends to give me nicknames. However, my childhood nickname was Roo (like from Winnie the Pooh, because I was bouncy we loved tigger). My actual name is Marley though! (I think) /yes like the dog<br>

2. Gender: female? <br>

3. Star sign: Taurus ♉<br>

4. Height: 5'0"<br>

5. 6:44 PM <br>

6. Birthday: April, 30th (allegedly) /fun fact, this is also the day Hitler died<br>

7. Favorite bands: I usually have favorite songs rather than favorite bands,,,, Imagine Dragons, Fall Out Boy, Arctic Monkeys, Flat Sound, Queenand probably many others <br>

8. Favorite Solo Artists: I listen to a lot of P!nk (recently), Frank Sinatra, Ed Sheeran, Bon Jovi, uhhh,,, Sam Smith, Taylor Swift (recently) Marina and the Diamonds,,,idk,, yeah OH RICHARD WALTERS DEF<br>

9. Song stuck in my head: I’m listening to music rn so this is sorta hard, but I hard Secrets by Pink stuck in my head earlier. Now I’m all about Toms Diner tho.<br>

10: Last movie I watched: fuck uhh,,,, I think Princess in the Frog but I watch a lot of tv so that might not be accurate. (random movie related, I’m playing to do a batman / marvel movie marathon in a couple days when I’m on break, I’m super excited). <br>

11: Last show I watched: lmao no idea I jump around too much. Probably Gotham, Girl Boss, or something else honestly who knows (hey recommend me some shows to watch I need something). <br>

12. When did I create my blog: who,,, who knows man, , not me. Probably sophomore year. But I had another tumblr before this <br>

13. What do I post: on this blog? Although it’s my main blog, it’s my junk blog. All my other blogs are themed and have certain things that are reblogged to them (I have a compulsive need to be so organized, everything needs to have a place), this blog is for the leftover things the don’t fit in my blogs; mainly memes, animals, and neat stuff. But whatever really. <br>

14. The last thing I googled: good question, one sec; lyrics to Tom’s Diner (an aforementioned song, I heard Robin Lord Taylor singing it and I wanted to know what song it was so I looked up the lyrics he is singing). However have 38+ other tabs open bcs I am an animal. </p><p>

15. Any other blogs: lol, yeppp. A lot. Too many really. I don’t necessarily use them all either. My Gotham one is my most actively, constantly using that one. Then this on I’d second most used, then the positivity one, then so forth. I honestly basically have a blog for most everything. (my personal-personal blog is beforethelion, I haven’t updated for a terribly long while but I plan to start using it again verrrry soon for photography, poems, videos, art, like basically whatever Im doing that day;; so like self promo I guess lmao)</p><p>

16. Do I get asks: nope, neverr. however I leave them to others all the time. I genuinely enjoy complimenting people and spreading a good vibe. </p><p>

17. Why I chose my URL: for this blog, I just liked these two words so I put them together, then voila. But for my beforethelion one I actually have a significant reason, but if I were to talk about it I would ramble and make this thing 10x longer than it needs to be (like it already is) so I won’t explain. But if anyone does wanna know my ask box is open 😉as for my others, about half have reasons and half are aesthetic </p><p>

18. Following: 1880

19. Followers: 241 for this one, 33 for my Gotham one (I weep because I want to be more part of and involved with the fandom but;; I don't know how to like do that''' I can't engage, ,,, then beforethelion has 54 (simultaneously surprised and disappointed)</p>

20. Average hours of sleep: depends if I'm having "issues". Lately I have been so not very much, but majority of the time I have my full 8 hours

21. Lucky number ugh

22. Instruments: trying to grasp the piano, played saxophone in middle school, own 3 guitars but just don't

23. What am i wearing: black pajama bottoms and a marble tee ;))

24. Dream job: fuck.. Actor tbh but like yeah. Currently attending a career center because I wanted to be an animator/film developer buttt the entertainment industry is a mess. Love love to be a surgeon not school is expensivvvee and what if I suck. So I've lowered my goals to history professor (college grade is the dream but I might end up settling for high school).

25. Dream trip: god,,, I never travel oh,, honestly actually probably New York. I'd love to leave America and indulge km another culture and land of course but god, new york. I gotta go.

26. Favorite food: im hungry right now so, everything.

27. Nationality: American

28. Favorite song right now: no, no, no-nonon, we are not doing this, no. I,, have a lot of music. Whenever I see a song title/lyrics/artirst/whatever or hear something that's interesting I just gotta screen shot it/ write it down. I do this a lot (I screenshot other people's answer to this if that says anything). So I have a good amount of music I need to listen to. So t the end of the day I try to listen to a good chunk of it. Whenever I like one of the new songs, I save it. On average I approximately add 10ish songs every day. It's a lot of music,,,,, I refuse

Okayokayokay,, finally, here we are: the end. I was soso happy to be nominated for one of these things. I never pay attention to my existence/acknowledge myself/ever talk about myself/ever talk to anyone/ever talk/ever have done one of these before :) So really it was a lot of fun. I'd like to nominate people but, all my mutuals are on my Gotham blog and god, can you imagine that : engaging.