#that child is gonna grow up knowing ariana fucking grande was the reason his parents divorced

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this woman has truly lost the plot

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*  —  stats —   colton thacker !

* — basics !

full name:   colton joseph thacker. nickname(s):   prefers none. age:   twenty - four. date of birth:   may first. place of birth:   barlow,   kentucky. gender:   male. pronouns:   he / him. sexual orientation:   questioning level of education:   high school graduate. recipient of a bachelor’s degree in history, currently pursuing his master’s.

* — physical !

tattoos:  none. piercings:   none. notable features:   his nose is distinct?  quite tall also.. didnt fact check that he just looks tall. weakness(es):   injured his left shoulder playing baseball in high school,  it never fully bounced back. scar(s):   one on the upper Bit of his left arm.

* — domestic !

occupation:   line cook at a diner.  ta. residence:  lives alone and lives humbly. social class:   lower middle class. parents:   jody thacker,  age 54,   works at the factory,  a strong and silent type  ( which makes it all the better when he gets in a good joke now and again ).   tanya thacker,   age 49,   a school teacher,   one of those nice church ladies that always has her nose in other people’s business. siblings:   kyleigh thacker,   his sister.   i picture them to be pretty close,   even if differently dispositioned. extended family:   large,   spread throughout his home county.   especially close with his paternal grandparents, farmers who are well known within the community.   two beautiful nephews he would Die for.

* — personality !

positive traits:   insightful.   courteous.   reflective. negative traits:   obstinate.   envious.    myers-briggs ( x ):   istj,   the logistician. temperament:   phlegmatic. moral alignment:   neutral good. horoscope:   taurus,   the bull. hogwarts house:   ravenclaw.

* — favorites !

movie:   raiders of the lost ark. tv show:   game of thrones. book:   child of god by cormac mccarthy. drink:   ale 8. food:   sheperd’s pie. animal:   crows. color:   red. song:   give my love to the rose by johnny cash. artist:   willie nelson. celebrity crush:   ariana grande.

* — impressions !

first impression:  he doesn’t make a strong first  impression.   he’s quiet,   polite,   but he isn’t exceptionally forthcoming.   he’s nice enough to get by but could be intimidating on first look alone. self impression:   he doesn’t quite know What his deal is.   he knows he’s bit odd,   at least for where he’s from,   but he doesn’t think that’s a bad thing. he’s used to thinking of himself as different,  but he’s learned to embrace that over the years. lover impression:   he’s a romantic,   at heart. he’s a gentleman who has like perhaps bit old - fashioned ideas of what that means.   he’s not like gonna be shitty about an independent woman but boy he does believe in like paying for dates and opening doors and shit.

* — et cetera !

turn ons:   intelligent.   shiny hair.   bit of a smart mouth. turn offs:   a superiority complex.   aversion to nature. drink/drugs/smoke:   yes/no/sometimes. dominant hand:   right. clean or messy:   clean. early bird or night owl:   early bird. hobbies or special talents:   he played baseball through high school.   got a bit good at racing in his old truck  ( rip )  hasn’t given the new one a real shot yet.

* — QUESTIONNAIRE !

01. where was your character born? what brought them to st louis? what do they like most about the town?

colton was born in barlow,  kentucky.   he came to st louis for grad school.   on the surface,   its why he came to st louis specifically.   in general though,   he was brought to anywhere out of barlow just because small town life just simply isn’t for him.   he likes st louis because it represents potential.   it’s all the excitement and change and opportunity he’s been looking for,   even now,   after being settled here a few years.

02. who are your character’s friends and family? who do they surround themselves with? who are the people your character is closest to?

colton’s immediate family consists of his parents and his sister,  and,  by extension,   her family.   he gets along well enough with his parents,   even if they don’t always see eye to eye on certain things.   he’s closer with his sister and spends a decent amount of his weekends loitering around her place,   hanging out with her kids.   he surrounds himself mostly with his classmates,   enjoying the conversation that comes from like minded people,   even if they can’t always relate to him.   he’s closest with his sister,   or his grandfather,   whom he calls at least once a week,   more in the rare event that he’s homesick.   pa may not always get what colton’s going on about but he tries and that’s what matters.

03. what is your character’s biggest fear? who have they told this to? who would they never tell this to? why?

colton’s biggest fear is that he’ll always be Yearning for more.   he feels pretty satisfied in st louis,   but he also once felt satisfied in the town he did undergrad in,   and his hometown,   but he always ends up ready for something more.   he comes from the kind of place where you’re supposed to have deep roots,   to live on the land that your family has lived on for ages,   and he really does wish that was enough for him.   it’d make things easier.   but he always wants to be moving and growing and really is afraid he’s going to miss out on getting just like happy,  simple,   domestic times because of that.   he wants more out of life than his town had to offer,   but he didn’t want to abandon the idea of family and home completely.   he’d never tell his family this,   because he feels like he’s got to keep some kind of strong face,   for #toxicmasculinity reasons just as much as needing to prove that he made the right choice in leaving.

04. has your character ever been in love? had a broken heart?

yeah colton had a high school sweetie.   her name was lacey,   they started dating when they were fourteen,   fresh into high school,   went to the same place for undergrad,   lived back home together for a year,   and then called it quits when colton decided to go back to school and move to st louis.   she’s his first and only Real Love,   but,   she got a job teaching at their high school,  and was ready to just settle into living in their hometown again.   even when they decided they could make long distance work while he was at school,   he knew he wouldn’t be able to just finish up in st louis and move back.   yeah it broke his heart a bit but he ended things a week before he headed out.   hurt like hell but maybe deep down he does still imagine that something will happen and they’ll get back together without him moving home one day,   you know,   like an idiot.

06. it’s saturday at noon. what is your character doing? give details.

again,   he likes to fuck around with kyleigh and her kids on the weekends.   when he moved,  it was never to get away from his family,  just the place,   and it’s nice to have them around and still be able to hang out with the kids and stuff.  if he’s not with them,   he’s probably reading.   fucking nerd.

07. what is one strong memory that has stuck with your character since childhood?

back when their grandfather was a little more Spry,   whenever spring came,   he’d go on long meandering walks out in the woods on sunday mornings  ( before church ).   he had never been a hunter,   or a fisher,   it wasn’t anything like that,   just a nice little walk.   when he was like 12 colton decided he needed to be his annoying tag along who probably ruined the purpose of the walks by breaking how quiet and serene the woods were that early,   but pa just ran with it.   they’d talk about whatever came up and it made colton feel special to be a part of something that had always been a special ritual every spring.

09. what is something that upsets your character? where do they go when they’re upset?

i feel like it takes a lot to actually upset him.   he’s pretty chill.   smaller things,   he’s pretty good at just brushing off and moving on from.   he’s upset by like rational things  ( assholes, people coming for his family, questioning his choices )  i guess can’t relate.  he still finds walks in the Woods comforting,   good for clearing your mind,   but most likely he just tries to distract himself with a book or some mindless tv  ( yeah he has a few pawn shows bookmarked for this exact reason ).

10. when your character thinks of their childhood kitchen, what smell do they associate with it? why?

whatever the smell is,   it’s heavy.   something meaty and greasy that would be accompanied by starchy,   weighty sides and some kind of bread,   because that’s what makes a meal,   obviously.   they’ve always been a big dinner around the supper table kind of family.  porkchops,   cube steak,   and chicken anyway you could have it were all on frequent rotation.

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100 Questions

it’s long so it’s under the cut, but man was this fun. thanks for the tag @the-most-beautiful-broom ♥ i’ll tag my loves (if you want to haha this is a lot) @raven-reyes-of-sunshine @perhalta @dracovengeance @hedaalicia and @amihanmayari

1. What is your nickname? Bails

2. How old are you? 24

3. What is your birth month? February

4. What is your zodiac sign? Aquarius!

5. What is your favorite color? green (Aw hey linds, same !!) 

6. What’s your lucky number? I was number 8 for marching band every single year (F8 for flute 8) except my junior year, and my junior year we had a shit show, so im calling that. 

7. Do you have any pets? 5 dogs back home in seattle but none where i live now or in NY when i get back

8. Where are you from? everywhere and nowhere. my dads military. but im american! 

9. How tall are you? 5’ 5″

10. What shoe size are you? 7

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? A whole lot, but they’re not always all with me. 

12. Are you random? not really. im pretty set in my routines and very comfortably a home body

13. Last person you texted? my best friend @broadwaybound2016

14. Are you psychic in any way? not even a little tbh

15. Last TV show watched? The Bold Type (WATCH IT ITS AMAZING)

16. Favorite movie? I’m not really sure but i just watched Love, Simon and im literally just crying because of it right now so im gonna go with that until further notice

17. Favorite show from your childhood? probably Lizze McGuire

18. Do you want children? Nope

19. Do you want a church wedding? I dont really want to get married

20. What is your religion? agnostic? maybe? im not religious, and not very spiritual. I love spirituality, things like crystals and stuff, but i try not to appropriate those things from groups/cultures who actually use them. I’d love to learn more about them and be someone who actually knew how to practice but, again, i dont want to step on toes culturally and take things that aren’t mine to take

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? a lot! a ton of surgeries on my ears

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? nope, im literally a goody two shoes

23. How is life? lovely

24. Baths or showers? showers!

25. What color socks are you wearing? i dont really wear socks? i like those little half socks. I’m not wearing any rn

26. Have you ever been famous? nope.

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? probably. i’d love to have a voice, and if it was for doing something i love, i cant think of anything better than getting to share my passion with the world like that. But it would definitely be a lot of pressure

28. What type of music do you like? i’m into literally anything. I love Hayley Kiyoko, the 1975, big fan of just basic pop like ariana grande and charlie puth, Harry Styles’s album is a masterpiece, Shawn Mendes, 5th Harmony. i love anything.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? Yes!!

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? just two!

31. What position do you usually sleep in? on my stomach

32. How big is your house? my house at home is a 5 bedroom 3 bath, my apt in amsterdam rn is just a room in a hotel type place with my own bathroom, and my apt in nyc is a studio

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? i literally hardly ever eat breakfast, but i love a bagel

34. Have you ever left the country? I’m in europe RIGHT NOW! lol

35. Have you ever tried archery? once, i was terrible

36. Do you like anyone? Not right now, but i might want too

37. Favorite swear word? i love the word fuck. it’s got so much you can do with it. i swear like a sailor.

38. When do you fall asleep? ummmmmm? whenever i guess lol 

39. Do you have any scars? A few small ones. a decent one on my knee from falling off my bike when i was 8

40. Sexual orientation? Bisexual

41. Are you a good liar? excellent

42. What languages would you like to learn? ALLLL the languages. I’d love to learn native hawai’ian. i spent my high school years there and the culture is so incredible, and i was so welcomed into it by my friends who were from there, i’d love a chance to really connect too it and try to learn that. 

43. Top 10 songs? Oh boy... im just gonna bullet these because i cant decide the order but this is the general

the way i am - charlie puth

young god - halsey 

rather be - clean bandit

feelings - hayley kiyoko

woman - harry styles 

make me feel - janelle monáe 

six inch heels - beyonce 

get right witcha - migos

my my my - troye sivan 

nice for what - drake 

44. Do you like your country? i’m torn at the moment. I hate tr*mp and everything him and his stand for, but i think america can be a wonderful place. 

45. Do you have friends from the web? Yes!! <3

46. What is your personality type? MBTI: INTP 

47. Hogwarts House? Ravenclaw

48. Can you curl your tongue? yes!

49. Pick one fictional character you can relate to? I am Hermione and Hermione is me. (also i really relate a lot to Lexa from the 100, which... is interesting. the way she suppresses feelings, her generally logical approach to things, the way she is totally useless around pretty girls.) 

50. Left or right handed? right!

51. Are you scared of spiders? If they’re like, big spiders yes. or if they come out of nowhere. im way more scared of cockroaches tho.

52. Favorite food? For some reason this question has been really hard for me lately? idk. i love a good indian style curry, and tacos? 

53. Favorite foreign food? Indian!

54. Are you a clean or messy person? I’m CLEAN, but im messy. i feel like cleanliness and orderliness have been misconstrued to mean the same thing, but clean is to dirty as orderly is to messy. I’m clean and messy, i am not very orderly, and i am NOT dirty. 

55. If you could switch your gender for a day, what would you do? Experience a walk down the street in a city at night where im not afraid

56. What color underwear? black

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? not too long, but it sometimes takes me a long ass time to pick an outfit 

58. Do you have much of an ego? It’s as big as it should be. 

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? i suck on them until i can bite them

60. Do you talk to yourself? Constantly.

61. Do you sing to yourself? Hell yeah

62. Are you a good singer? i’m decent but i need another voice to match with. on my own i can’t carry a tune. 

63. Biggest Fears? failure. and heights. 

64. Are you a gossip? I can be, but never about like.. bad things. I like to talk about how this friend or that friend did x y z cool thing but im not like “omg did you hear so and so hooked up with so and so” 

65. Are you a grammar nazi? Not really because i can’t spell for shit

66. Do you have long or short hair? Short-ish? i cut my hair in march of LAST YEAR and then trimmed it again this year and i want it to fucking grow

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? i would definitely forget some

68. Favorite school subject? History

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Pretty introverted. 

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? Nah, im not allowed too for medical reasons

71. What makes you nervous? when I see kids wandering and their parents not noticing (okay im keeping that because me too, but also travelling? like the in-transit part of travel, catching busses/trains/planes makes me panic)

72. Are you scared of the dark? not at all

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? i try not too unless its major. usually its unintentional or the mistake is irrelevant to the flow of the conversation/situation  

74. Are you ticklish? Yes, but i hate being tickled unless its like, my sister or my dad

75. Have you ever started a rumor? No

76. Have you ever been out of your home country? Yes i have lol (linds, ily, we DEFINITELY have been over this already)

77. Have you ever drank underage? a little, but not until i was like 19, and then i was in europe for 6 months, so i didnt REALLY drink underage until i was like... less than 6 months to 21

78. Have you ever done drugs? Pot pretty regularly here in Amsterdam, and i’ve done shrooms

79. What do you fantasize about? getting a beautiful loft in a big city (preferrably london or NYC), with a kick ass job, a dog, and maybe a girlfriend with huge curly hair.

80. How many piercings do you have? Four

81. Can you roll your R’s? Yep!

82. How fast can you type? I just took a little online quiz that said i can type 72 words per minute with 93% accuracy? 

83. How fast can you run? lol I don’t run (same linds... same)

84. What color is your hair? brown!

85. What color are your eyes? Green!

86. What are you allergic to? I’m a bit lactose intolerant and pineapple makes my tongue itch?

87. Do you keep a journal? no, but i wish i did sometimes 

88. Are you depressed about anything? I’m not depressed “about anything”, im just generally someone who experiences a pretty mild case of depression.

89. Do you like your age? Yeah, i dig it.

90. What makes you angry? bigotry, ignorance, and spilling things. I spill drinks constantly, i spilled a WHOLE BOWL OF CEREAL ON MY FLOOR THE OTHER NIGHT.  

91. Do you like your own name? I didn’t used too but i really do now

92. Did you ever get a foreign object up your nose? not that i know of

93. Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? I don’t want kids. 

94. What talents do you have? i have a pretty great memory, but for random things i dont need 

95. Sun or moon? Moon <3

96. How did you get your name? My dad, he just liked it. My middle name was also my dad, he heard the name Jess on the movie A Man From Snowy River and he thought it was a nice like, nickname/pet name, so he gave me the middle name Ges (pronounced like Jess) with the intent of calling me that (it didnt stick), but he didn’t want anyone to think my middle name was Jessica, so he spelled it Ges.

97. Are you religious? I am not, but i have a lot of respect for the concept of religion, as long as its used for the real purpose, which is to make people feel peace and help people find love and comfort. 

98. Have you ever been to a therapist? I have not, but i shold

99. Color of your bedspread? White

100. Color of your room? White, with one black wall 

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One Last Time

This is the 2nd part to One More Time… lol thought the title was appropriate. I was a little inspired by Ariana Grande’s single ‘One Last Time’. Here is the link to the first part: One More Time

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Enjoy lovelies.

Justin heard a knock at the door. Rushing to the door to end the knocking before whoever it was woke up Jia.

As he opened the door, he looked at whom he thought he would never see again.

“Justin, who’s at the door?”,  I came down in a little robe that left very little to the imagination.

“You’re not going to invite me inside, Justin” Keisha smirked.

Keisha. Jia’s mother.

I looked at the despicable women, what the fuck was she doing at my mother fucking house?

Why would this bitch decide to come back now out of all times.

I all of a sudden felt insecure to Keisha who was around Justin’s age range. I remembered how much Justin was in love with her, I looked at Justin to stop my irrational jealousy of Keisha. But it only made it worse.

Justin was lost in a stupor. Keisha knew the pull she had on him.

I had to be strong for the both of us. I felt myself internally scream. I quickly got my shit together.

“You need to leave”. I said harshly. “Comeback in the morning if you want to talk about shit, good night”, I slammed the door in Keisha’s face.

Justin looked over to me like he was about to explain his trance.

“Don’t. Spare me the details” I said weakly. I rushed into the room before I could do something stupid like cry.

to be continued….

I was so upset. Too angry to cry, I wanted to hit myself upside the head for ever believing him. I saw the truth written all over his face.

I paced up and down my room.

How could Keisha just come back acting like she didn’t leave her daughter. She didn’t even want Jia to begin with. All of sudden she wants to be in the girl’s life.

After I raised the child, loved the child as my own. I was Jia’s mother, I don’t care what title I was given. I provided for her, I took care of her. I think of her when I’m away, she is my concern, even when Justin and I are not talking.

Keisha threatened my relationship with Jia. She was going to take away my daughter from me, my family away from me. 

Fuck that bitch, she was obviously unstable. I mean she was over here waltzing looking for Justin, like she never had a daughter in the first place. 

I wanted to punch that bitch into next week. She only cared about herself. She was selfish. 

Why all of sudden she decided to come back now. 

I wanted to adopt Jia.

Of course he was still in love with her.

I couldn’t compete with his first love, she was Jia’s biological mother. 

Not to mention she was fucking gorgeous even with her psychotic attributes.

I saw my perfect family slipping away from me. I felt so weak. I just gave myself to Justin. I wanted him, the whole him. I realized that I couldn’t have a deeper relationship with him.

It was because he was incapable of loving me back. 

It hurt. I could feel the walls of my chest caving in. Too much pressure. There was a tightness in my chest. I felt my shoulders rack with quiet sobs.

I held in the pain making each cry louder and louder. I cried for the loss of Jia, the loss of Justin. I already gave up. Why set myself up for failure? I needed to prepare myself for the hurt that Justin was about to put me through.

I heard a knock from outside of my door. I hurriedly wiped my tears before putting on a brave front. I was gonna get through this.

I forced myself to open the door, and a dumbfounded Justin was under the door frame.

We stared at one another before we both started to speak. He was probably studying my puffy face.

“I wanted to-” 

“What?” I sighed. “You go first” I bit my lip.

“I wanted to talk to you about what just happened” He looked at me cautiously.

“You don’t have to, I understand you don’t want me-” 

“Sasha will you shut up and listen for once. Stop assuming things and acting like you know shit when you don’t” He quickly cuts me off. 

“Fine” I said petulantly.

“Sit on the bed, we are going to talk about this whether you want to or not” 

I obeyed him angrily. He trapped me into a figurative corner.

“Sasha, there is a lot going through my head right now. I always want you. I’m going to want you until I can’t do anything about it anymore. But that doesn’t change our situation. I will always love Keisha, she is the mother of my child. What kind of person would I be if I denied the rights to Jia’s mother. Wouldn’t Jia be angry with me in the future. Listen, I’m trying to do right. You know how my life was growing up, I didn’t have good parents until your father took me in. You’ve got to understand why I have to give her chance. We might have to put us on hold for right now, but don’t make any hash decisions” He finished. 

I gave him an incredulous look. Make any hash decisions? No. What happens to me if he chooses that bitch, what happens to me. He has got me ten types of fucked up if he thought I was going to just sit around here waiting until I was booted out of my own damn house.

“You know what Justin, don’t act like you are doing something for the greater good, like you are looking out for me and Jia, when you are only looking out for yourself. Our father was your real father. Blood doesn’t prove family, actions prove family. Keisha left Jia, left you. What makes you she is gonna up and walk out again when shit hits the fan, when being a mother gets to be too much for her again. She didn’t even want Jia in the first place, you had to beg her to keep Jia. You want Jia to know about that. You should know better than anyone what a parent is. I survived with out my real mother. Jia doesn’t need her real mother. I take care of her, I feed her, I love her, I will do anything for Jia, you honestly think I’m not that child’s mother. I’m the closest thing she has had to a mother” I breathe in, I continue my rant.

“Justin, what do you mean not make any rash decisions, huh? You mean leave, so you want me to watch my family invite some other woman, into my house, watch her build a relationship with my daughter and my fucking man while I’m kept on the sides. Fuck you Justin, I hate you so much. I don’t know why I always have to prove myself to you. I’m worthy of you Justin, and your the only one who doesn’t see it. I will do anything for you and Jia. That’s erased because Jia’s birth giver has walked back into your life. You don’t love her, you love what she represents, and she represents that age you want, the realness you strive for because you wanted your real parents to love you until you realized they were never gonna give a shit about you” I said in a heated breath.

“I won’t allow you to hurt me, not anymore” I croaked. My eyes watered down my face. 

He wrapped me in his strong arms and I felt my hardened exterior weaken. I cried into the side of his neck, I felt my warm tears wash any anger I had for him away. I already knew what was gonna happen.

I was too scared to give him an ultimatum. So I held on to what I could before I had to say good bye to the only man I have ever loved.

She will probably give him everything I could not. He is everything and I’m nothing without him. Who was I kidding?

How would I move on from this.

But I had to. 

So one last time I held him in my arms. Just one more time.

I didn’t care that she still took up space in his heart. I just wanted him to hold me in his arms one last time before I had to let him go. 

We laid in my bed as my tears dried. I know he could never love me. I know she was everything. 

I hope he finds the love in her that he couldn’t find in me. 

I kissed him one last time.

I held him one last time.

I loved him one last time.

I finally let him go.

We sat at a public restaurant, Justin sitting next to me while Keisha sat across from us. 

I was silent. Justin basically chose her over me. I was simply replaced like a new doll. 

I hadn’t said anything to the woman. 

We both looked at Keisha waiting for her to speak with us. Redeem herself.

“Why is she here?” Keisha flared her nose. I simply looked at Justin with a raised eyebrow.

“Well when you decided to leave Jia in the hospital and disappear for three years, my adoptive sister took care of Jia, she is Jia’s mother figure. You have met Sasha before, don’t act brand new” Justin snapped.

“That’s not fair” Keisha whispered.

“That’s rich coming from you, you left Keisha, you didn’t want to be in my daughter’s life” Justin heatedly growled.

“I understand that I might have begged you to keep Jia and that was wrong of me to ask you to keep her. But you had her Keisha, I thought for sure you would fall in love with her once you saw her, just like I did. I apologize if I made you feel alone, I’m so sorry if you went through something, but I would have never known because you left with out a goodbye. I loved you Keisha with everything, I wanted to marry you some day, you left me and your daughter with nothing but to guess that we were the reasons you left. Tell me why you left”

“I didn’t want to be a mother Justin, I was too young, I had my life in front of me, I thought I was making hash decisions, I didn’t know if I could spend the rest of my life with you, I had to know I wasn’t making the wrong choices. My father gave me a way out, he said he would fly me away and I could start over. So I left” 

“You are 30 years old Keisha, what do you mean too young. We were engaged. Jia wasn’t a something you decide to return back. Did you even think about us”

“I thought about you everyday Justin, you have to understand”

“Did you think about Jia, at all? What makes you want to be a mother now”

“Uh I love you Justin, can I at least meet her” Keisha hesitated. 

Thats when I felt a fire emerge from within my core.

“No you don’t, if you had any remorse, you would have told Justin why you left from the start, if you weren’t so fucking selfish, you would have explained to him, wrote him letters, you wouldn’t just pick up and leave, leave your fiancee and your kid behind, what kind of person does that to the people they love. You don’t have any clue what love is. I would say you love yourself, but you don’t, because if you can’t even love something that is a part of you, I don’t think you can love the whole you. Since you came back, its all been about Justin, what you think Justin is just going to take you back and act like you didn’t break his heart, that when Jia was screaming and crying for a mother to feed her, Justin couldn’t do anything for his daughter” I scoff.

“I am Jia’s mother, so I wouldn-” I stopped her from talking by holding my hand in her face.

“You are not her mother Keisha. You didn’t hold her at 3 o’clock in the morning while she had colic, you didn’t rush her to hospital when she had a fever, and you didn’t kiss her hurt away when scrapped her knee outside, you weren’t there for her first word, when learned how to walk or to talk. YOU WEREN’T HERE. You didn’t change her diaper, you didn’t potty train her, you don’t even know what she is allergic too or what her favorite juice, you don’t know what she can and cannot eat, you don’t know her favorite book or her favorite cartoon, you didn’t love her enough to tell her goodbye. I pack her lunch, I take her to day care, I ask her about her day, I bathe her, I put her to bed, I play with her, she is my everything, there is not a moment where I am not thinking about Jia, she is my family, there is not wall I wouldn’t climb for this girl. I sure as hell wouldn’t leave her and that was the first thing you did. So you are not her mother, she doesn’t know you. I hope she never will” I breathed. I had tears streaming down my face. I quickly wiped them. They were from the anger that burned through out my veins.

“It so fucked up because the first thing you wanted was Justin, dude shouldn’t you be asking for your kid. You carried her for nine months, don’t you feel anything. You are putting on act, I see right through you. Justin might forgive you, but I will not, I won’t put my daughter in harms way, especially in the likes of you. You can’t take care of a kid, you don’t want to take care of a kid. You hurt Jia in any way I will fuck you up, I don’t care, you fuck with my family and I will end you” I glared at Keisha.

“This is my fami-” Keisha began I was about to cut her off but Justin was quicker.

“ENOUGH. Keisha, I was going to give you a chance, hear you out, but you’re so selfish. You are not here for Jia, you are here for yourself. You have no where to go. You signed away your rights, you didn’t want Jia, thats the last thing I had ever gotten from you, that was your goodbye. You threw us out like we were trash. Jia is nothing to you. We are not family, Jia is definitely not your family. I am not your family. You have a nice life. C’mon Sasha we are leaving” 

Justin got up from the table and threw a couple of 20′s on the table before he grabbed my hand walking out of the restaurant. 

Once we got to our car, he look apologetic.

“I’m sorry Sasha” he hugged me. I just nodded. “I want to ask you something, I know we have been wanting this for a while, but I want you to be more than Jia aunt, you were her mother from the start, I want you to adopt Jia” 

I felt my eyes water. I couldn’t contain my emotions. Of course. I loved that kid so much. I looked into Justin’s eyes. I hugged him fiercely not wanting to let go. I nodded before getting out a few yeses.

I thought that was going to be the last time I would hug Justin.

3 months later……

“Okay okay okay, one last time before we go to bed” I giggled at Jia.

“Okay mommy” Jia smiled amusedly. She knew I would give in to her. She thought she was slick but I knew exactly what she was doing. 

I kind of wanted her to ask me again anyways. I loved her.

I began to read her bed time story once again. Half way into the story, Jia was knocked out. I closed the book and kissed my baby on her temple before tucking her in again once more. 

I turned on her night light before shutting the ceiling light off. I watched sleep soundly.

To think that I was almost going to give her up to Keisha.

We ended up getting a restraining order against her. The court ruled me legally Jia’s mother. I never cried so hard in my life.

I stood in the door frame one last time before leaving, I closed her door ajar before leaving the hallway. I went to turn to my room but I bumped into Justin’s strong body, bouncing me back.

“Shit, you scared me” I put my hand on my chest.

“Well, its not my fault that I got to sneak up on you in order to talk to you these days” He shaded me.

“I talk to you” I said. It was for Jia’s sake, I wouldn’t say we were close.

“Not like you used to” Justin sighs.

“Well, you know why?” I avoided confrontation and passed by him. I was quickly pulled into him.

His face so close to mine. I pushed his chest further away from mine to give me some space.

“Why are you staring at me like that?” I squeaked and turned my face, curving his intense stare. 

“You know why?” He breathed on to my neck. I closed my eyes loving the feeling. I felt my panties become moist.

“I can't compromise my relationship with Jia. I'm sorry but I don't want to be your second choice Justin. I will not allow myself that. We both have to move on.

"Sasha, I'm so sorry that I hurt you but you gotta give me a chance... I'm in love with you baby girl, and that ain't gonna change any time soon. I have made mistakes and I was trying to make the right choices, I realized that you were there all along, I should have chose you but it doesn't matter because regardless of the fact I'm gonna choose you over any other woman because you're family. I'll take care of you and Jia, and I will prove to you I'm worth that chance everyday" 

I could barely comprehend his confession. I decide to hear him out.

"I'm not gonna tell you one more time, if you mess up, we are done, you hear me"

"I promise" he raises his hands in defense.

He pulls me into a hug, into his warm strong muscular arms. I just sigh in content. This is all I wanted. I felt at home.

"So you'll finally give me a lil something something" Justin whispered in my ear. I let go of his arms and walked into his room with him on my tail.

"We'll see, Daddy" I winked before dropping my clothes on the floor.

That wasn't gonna be the last time I called him Daddy either.