#that feeling goes waaaaay deeper fandom and impacts my WHOLE life but yea...

[v4mpyinred]

Dont understand or like the whole: "dont talk to me if you like the same character as me. Nobody gets them like I do, i'm the best/only/#1 fan!" crap I see in fandom spaces these days. People who are so possessive over the characters they like and can't bear other people loving the same thing.

Like, don't get me wrong, I used to be like this, (and thanks to that, I still struggle with awful fandom jealousy issues to this day💔) but it was not fun keeping all my thoughts to myself or ignoring/hating genuinely cool people because of my weird possessiveness over characters. I'd see everyone else having so much fun and be pissed off, because how dare they like the same thing as me..... like what???? How is that any fun???

It used to be so bad...couldn't read other people's fanfics for the longest time, I resented innocent people just because they liked the same things as me, I'd get so upset seeing people with more merch than me, would get physically sick (im talking dizzy, heart racing, stomach hurting and everything) with jealousy at the most little things etc etc...For me, it was less that I saw myself as the #1 fan, and more I felt too deeply insecure in myself to even be allowed to like what I liked :(

Then I grew TF up, and also realized how fun it was yapping with other fans and sharing the love for the same things. Now it's like, if you don't talk to me about this character I will EXPLODE!!!! I'm having so much fun these days. There's so much amazing fan content out there and so many passionate people I wanna be friends with. I love my fandom friends dearly too, and I adore seeing people love the things I love...I don't understand why I isolated myself like that for so long.

i still struggle with some of those things but it's definitely to a lesser extent! and im way happier than those old days...So it makes me sad when I see that: "I hate when people like the same thing as me!" / "only I get this character" mentality being pushed and joked about, because I'm trying SO hard to get away from it.... Fandom isn't a competition, it's a community. I just think some of ya'll would be a bit happier and actually enjoy fandom if you got over yourself /nbh