#thats why all the hard hitters are never heard from again

[heynhay]

whats so funny is that you guys have no idea that in a week or two its quite likely ill drop off the face of the earth again. maybe even delete my whole blog. like all the great klance artists.

[caxsthetic]

Pleading Eyes

Bokuto Koutarou x F!Reader

Hurtful Truth: Human couldn't control how their heart works

Part 1 > Pt. 2

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

Your eyes were currently looking at the clock, the only sound around you was from there and how the rain was trickling down the windowpane. It was past 9 pm right now, and you wonder how long you will be waiting for him to show up.

The dinner that you prepared for him was long cold. He requested a lot of yakiniku for today. It was your third year anniversary with the said man. There's an upcoming match tomorrow, so you know there will be no rest for him and his team.

Since he became the V.League Division 1 player, he rarely had time for you. But that didn't stop you from surprising him at practice, bringing a lot of food for the whole team. Sometimes they will tease him about having you as his wife. Yes, wife.

He's such a child in the form of twenty-six years old guy, making them all wonder how someone as mature as you stuck with him. It's simple actually, because you love each other. Somehow you fall for his unique personality, and he fell for you because you actually want to know him, didn't even get annoyed with how he acted.

Even when they all knew that you are married to the ace, one of the members actually took a liking to you. Not just a mere flirt, and based on how the setter orbs see you, the whole team could understand that their teammates adore you, Bokuto Koutarou's wife. But you are loyal to your husband, and you have vowed that you will always be there for him until you are long gone.

The clinging of keys being turned waking you from your thought, you immediately stood and rushed to the door. By the time you see him taking off his shoes, all of your anger dissipated through thin air. There he was standing in all his glory, safe and sound with droplets of rain on his hair.

"I am sor-"

You jumped to him, didn't care about his wet clothes. His body goes rigid at your touch, not even relaxed a little, something that made you confused as your arms still wrapped around his figure.

"It's alright, Kou. It's alright to be late. The game is tomorrow after all." You were now standing in front of him, hands on his cheek to wiped away any trace of rain from his face, "As long as you came back to me safely, everything is alright for me."

Bokuto widened his eyes when he heard your words. It sounded sincere and full of love, he gulped down, not knowing what to say. Your hand glided down to help him took off his jacket, and he only stood there as you delicately ran your fingers on his strand of hair.

"You are really soaked," The worried tone on your voice was visible, "I will warm the dinner, you go take a warm shower, okay, baby?" You grabbed his jacket and shoes, going to put it in the laundry room to be cleaned after dinner. As you walked away, your eyebrows raised a little for the lack of footsteps.

You turned around and found your husband looking down at his bare feet. His fist clenched beside him, and there were tears dropped on the floor as he silently cried. Looking at the scene, you dropped everything on your hand and ran towards him.

As you stood in front of him, his body weakened and fell the ground. But before his figure could crash the wooden floor, you immediately became his pillow to fall and cradled him to your chest. He sobbed, hand clenching on your shirt.

"Baby, tell me what's wrong." You caressed his hair carefully, "Please, I want to help you, but I couldn't if you didn't tell me." From years knowing him since high school, you never saw him act like this, not even once. You knew his dejected and emo mode, but this is all new.

"N-no," Sorrow coated his voice, "If I tell you, y-you will leave me." He cried uncontrollably, and it pained you to see him cry.

"You don't know about that-"

"I KNOW ABOUT THAT!" He raised his voice and straightened his back as he sat in front of you, "I AM SURE YOU WILL LEAVE ME IF I TELL YOU! EVERYONE TOLD ME THAT!" You got taken aback by his outburst. Everyone? Does everyone know about his problem?

"You told a lot of people about your problem and not me, my owl?" You asked with curiosity, not even a hint of anger could be sensed. Bokuto didn't dare to look at your face right now, it's your third year as a Bokuto, and this is what happened, "Kou, I love you. What information could possibly make me leave you?"

He stiffened to hear you said that. You always so good to him, taking care of him and be patient with his antics. It's hard to have an athlete as a husband, but yet here you were for years loving him with all your heart could offer.

"You are not someone that would cheat, I know that." Your voice sounded sure, "I-It's true, right? You would never cheat on me right, Kou?" But the stutter in your voice showing him that you could feel insecurity too after all.

"No, I didn't cheat." He gulped and finally took a look at you. There's a satisfied smile on your face that caused by his answer, "T-There's no one in my heart, (Y/n)." You blinked, you were ready to joke out, Except, me~ but then his gaze fell to your eyes, and it's like you know what will he say, "Not even you."

His words send the air out of your lungs, and it was suddenly hard to breathe. You eyed him, searching for any sign of his teasing expression, but you found none. You waited for seconds, wanting him to blurt out the joke and laughing at your dumb expression.

It never came.

Except now, his hand on your shirt clenched tighter. He knew when the information completely went into your heart, you will be gone. You two never fought, not even once. Maybe a little quarrel here and there, but nothing too big because you were so understanding and he always felt guilty.

"I don't love you anymore, (Y/n)." He sobbed, "But I need you. I need you so bad."

Bokuto didn't even know when his love for you started to dissipate. Since he married you, he didn't care about spectators anymore. Knowing you standing there was enough, you were the only attention that he needed.

But then he started to act like he used to, grabbed everyone's attention as he played. It didn't go unnoticed by his teammates and best friend. At one point in his life, he knew his feelings for you were long gone.

"Since when?" There's no anger in your voice, not even sadness. He knew you always buried your emotions every time you feel devastated. And knowing him as the cause of you acting like this, he knew he would never forgive himself.

"I don't know," What he knew, was the time when his teammates were asking about you, and he didn't even get jealous. That and the fact that Bokuto didn't rush outside to meet you, and that time, the golden yellow-haired setter know immediately what's up.

"You what?!" Miya's hand was now grabbing Bokuto's collar, pushing him to one of the lockers,

"Atsumu-san! P-please calmed down." The orange-haired opposite hitter trying not to let his teammates fight each other, but the setter only focused on the wing spiker in front of him.

"Tell me once again, Bokuto. But now, look at me, so I know you are joking or not!" The ace didn't speak up, "For god sake, just answer-"

"I DIDN'T LOVE HER ANYMORE!" Bokuto shouted, feeling enough with the pressure from his setter, "Put me down." His golden eyes met his teammates, anger filled the eyes as he heard Bokuto's confession.

"You are sick." The setter pushed him down to the ground, grabbing his bag and walked to the door, "She will never leave you, you know that?" He turned one last time to see Hinata crouched down beside the dejected ace, "You just need to ask, and she will never leave you even if you tell her this." He opened up the door and let out a long sigh, "I hope you know what's better for her."

"You don't know?" You grabbed his hand, making him relaxed a little, "Does Keiji know about it?" Akaashi Keiji is your best friend and your classmates. He's the one who introduces you to the lively captain of Fukurodani's VBC at that time.

Bokuto Koutarou decision in his life was mostly from Akaashi. Your first date? Akaashi was the one who pushed him to do it. His confession? Akaashi was the one who dragged you to the gymnasium. The proposal? Akaashi helped him to search for a unique way to propose you.

Right now, Akaashi Keiji regretted everything.

"Hello?" Akaashi's voice was groggy when he picked up his phone, "Does something happened, Bokuto-san?" He yawned and sit, this is the first time he could have a decent sleep and Bokuto called him, "It's past ten pm, Bokuto-san. Where is (Y/n)?"

"Akaashi," Bokuto told everything about how he started to lose his feelings towards you. Your best friend was now fully awake, listening to the desperate voice of your husband, "What should I do?"

"You should tell her, Bokuto-san." That's the only thing that he needed to do, "And let her go."

"Akaashi knew. He, He is the one who told me to say it to you." Bokuto looked down to the floor, putting his hand on his face, ashamed, "You don't deserve this, (Y/n). I am such a child! I don't deserve you coping out with me for years!"

You love the man in front of you, but the fact that he didn't feel the same anymore hurt you badly. If only he cheated on you or do something terrible, it wouldn't hurt like this. Feelings are something that out of control. You couldn't blame him from falling out of love with you, and thats worse from being cheated on. Because either you or him, couldn't do anything to prevent that.

"Oh, Kou." It hurts you, but here you were still wrapping your arms around him, "It's alright, it's alright." It's not alright, and he knew it.

"HOW COULD YOU STILL ACT LIKE THIS?!" He screamed in the crook of your neck, "I hurt you, and I don't love you anymore... So why?"

"Because I still love you." You kissed his forehead, trying to calm him down, "Kou, it's alright if you don't love me again. It's alright." Your finger wipes all of the tears that were running down his cheek, "Do you want me to stay, Kou?"

"And, Bokuto-san." Akaashi's voice ringing from the other line, stopping him from hanging up, "You know she loves you and possibly will choose to be with you if you ask him, right? Even with this new... fact."

"Y-yeah, I know that."

"Then please, if she asked you. Don't hold her back." Bokuto wanted to shout at the top of his lungs, he wanted to be angry at Akaashi for telling him to let you free. He knew it's the best thing for you, but he couldn't do that.

"But I need her in my life, Akaashi! I couldn't ima-"

"STOP BEING SELFISH FOR ONCE, DAMN IT!" Your husband was now silent. His best friend rarely raised his voice, and he never cursed before, "Sorry for yelling, but please, Bokuto-san. Just this once, stop being selfish for her, just this once."

"N-no." He wanted to blurt out his plea and begging you to stay, imagine his life without you is something that never crossed his mind, "W-we should... We should get a divorce." He gulped down every wish on the back of his mind.

You understood him, and you know the things that he wanted—burying it down deep inside him. But you know it's best for both of you. He will feel guilty every time he looked at you, and you will regularly remember every syllable that came out from his lips tonight.

When he calmed down a little, you led him to the couch, turning on the fireplace and cover him with a blanket. He stared at the crackling fire in front of him, trying to absorb the heat. You walked upstairs with tears threatening to get spilt. But you held it, shaking your head and went to your shared bedroom.

The smell of his cologne attacked your nostrils immediately. With an incredible pace, you grab your bag and put some clothes there. The faster you could go from there, the quicker you could cry without hurting him in the process.

You finished your packing in ten minutes, putting your essentials on the other bag. When you walked to the door, you look at the shared bedroom one last time. You have been sleeping there for three years as Bokuto (Y/n). All the morning kisses and late-night making love wouldn't be repeated in your life ever again.

As you calmed down, you walked downstairs and found your husband at the end of the staircase. His eyes widened at the sight of you, wearing a long coat and ready to go. It's like you two would have a surprise date outside, but he knew better not to dwell on something that's not real.

"Hey," You took an easy step towards him, he still looks dumbfounded, "You should sleep, you know."

"W-where are you going to stay?" Just one more night, he wanted it to be with you once again, "Isn't it dangerous? It's so late."

"Kou, you know I could never leave if I just lay down beside you again." You patted his right cheek, "Just focus on your next match, okay? Tomorrow is the final, right?" He looked at you with grief engulfed his golden orbs, "Don't think too much about us. There's only you, or me."

You bit your lips, taking one last look of your husband, trying not to let the tears fall. His eyes pleading you to stay, and god you really want to stay and buried the fact that he didn't love you anymore. But you couldn't. It will torture him every day, and so are you.

"I will take care of the divorce paper. You just need to focus on your team, and you said one of the members being harsh to you, right? Who is it? Miya?" He nodded, it surprised him a little that you remember everything that slipped out from his lips, either it's essential or not, "I will take my leave now."

You closed your eyes and leaned in, kissing the right side of his lips. He held his breath as he felt your lips touching his one more time before you go. Even if it's not a kiss on the lips, tonight it felt so delicate like you pour the last amount of love.

He gulped as you take a step backwards, eyeing him with gaze still full of love, "Oh, and here, Kou." You take his hand and put your wedding ring on his palm, "I hope someday you will find someone that you will love until the end of time, and I hope they will love you as much as you love them."

And so, you walked towards the door. Ready to leave all of the memories that you spend on this house. All of the crazy breakfast, the burnt toast that he always made, the cuddle you shared at the couch, it will be imprinted on your memory as long as you love him.

When your feet reached the door, you turned your head to see him. You gave him a smile, reassuring smile. Both of you have been through everything together. You are there every time he lost and cry, and he was there when you have a bad day.

So you closed the door gently, letting go of all of those love when he was yours. He will be free without being afraid of hurting you every day. And you will be free, hoping that it will heal by time. Either it's by yourself, or someone else to help you.

The decision is all in your hand, just like tonight.

And from everything that you choose in your life, giving him back the ring that he promised to you precisely three years ago, is the hardest thing that you ever did.

[cow3survivor]

Ep. 6: “So Many Ways This Could Backfire” - Jennet

JENNET 

so the plan worked out great except jabari said that “now jake will know the truth” in front of daisy and the other tribemates🥺 i was hoping that i could pin this on lindsay so that once we merged i could lie about it and have lindsay be out next before the merge... this is truly sickening idk what to do

(a little later)

feeling really bad... is it my fault that jake forced me into a f3 with jabari who ive barely spoken with??? idk i feel like not only did i betray her but i betrayed a black woman and that makes me sick to my stomach.... hoping that i made the right choice and this propels me further in the game🥺 i honestly hated having to do that but maybe if ethan and sam have tribal connections left, when we merge, maybe we will be able to stick together and he’ll also help connect me

JESSICA

I GOT THE IDOL! It is good for 4 rounds and I still have my vote. And just in time as we are swapping into 3 tribes of 5 like I thought..... wow my psychic abilities! Jabari got voted out at tribal and I'm sad. I didn't know her but I think she was new to orgs and I really wanted to play with her! Plus she volunteered to do the tiebreaker for her tribe so I thought they'd keep her due to that. Time for a swap lets kick this game into gear!

JENNET

hoping jake isnt on the same tribe as daisy or lindsay

(a little later)

also hoping im on a tribe of winners so i never make it to tribal bc i DEFINITELY was/am the weakest link☠️

MIKEY

so. I FUCKING HATE THIS NEW TRIBE. THEY PICKING OFF ALL THE GOOD ORIGINAL CALUMMA MEMBERS AND MY GIRL JABARI LITERALLY JUST LEFT??? FUCK YOU JENNET. I KNOW THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU! But anyways, its me and jake vs all OG (insert other tribes name) and i think I'm going next lool fuck ME. this is very sad indeed and idk im upset but ima try my mf hardest

JAKE

https://youtu.be/OzrGekDCG8I xoxo gossip girl

JENNET

jones and ethan on my tribe?? *blushes sm*

(a little later)

nervous about this tribe... ive pulled off three blindsides that ive helped orchestrate so if like if someone really wanted to look deeper into it.... they would be able to make a target out of me bc of it. definitely worried

(after cooking a fish)

this is basically an allstar team. everybody on here is a heavy hitter and that makes me worried bc if i wasnt the weakest link before, i definitely am now. wishing we had gotten rid of lindsay instead of jabari bc we just made another team stronger but it is what it is i guess

JONES

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbTUvzatQrw

JESSICA

Today's song is "Ribs" by Lorde because I have played it on repeat all morning. Also I forget if I said for my last confessional but that song was "Sober", also by Lorde. Basically I love Lorde and my life is better because of it. This swap worked out super well for me! I really said in my host chat "Could I please be put on a tribe with Shane and Daisy?" and the hosts simply said "Okay". I have my final 3 back together and we also have Lindsay and Lovelis. Lindsay seems really cool so far and Lovelis and I have a good thing going so I feel very confident on this tribe. I really hope we do not lose because honestly? I don't want to vote out Lindsay at all. I like that she is active and she seems like someone who really is putting in effort whereas Lovelis, as much as I like him, just really hasn't been here. I would rather play this game with people who are more active so to me it's like.... Lindsay is absolutely not the obvious vote if we lose. Not even a bit! I'd love to do with her what I did with Mikey and make a separate f2 so that when we merge, she's someone who will keep the target off of me. I didn't tell my alliance about the idol because honestly I just don't anticipate using it at all. It expires so soon and I really only took it so that no one else would end up having it. Also.... I don't know, I didn't tell them right away because I was a bit busy at the moment we swapped and now it feels suspicious if I do tell them? Also who knows, maybe they would not find my story believable and think I have an idol up to final 5 which I just don't want! I'd rather throw the idol into the sea so it causes no problems. This immunity challenge is an interesting one. If I knew what was in the boxes, I would probably bet more, but I bet some of those boxes have bad things or nothing in them and I simply do not want that. If I had to guess, one has the other half to that idol, one probably has an idol clue, another maybe has extra idol searches.... maybe another has an idol nullifier? Or a vote peek? Really none of these are things that I need. They're all cool but I'd rather be immune thanks! As far as how I feel in the game, I really do want the Maples to be f3. I'd rather be at the end with my alliance and lose than flip and be there without them. Ummmm what other thoughts do I have.................... I think that might be it. My mind is empty but I'm still moving forward.

LINDSAY

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L5Nzch65XLD_njxnIxLKwqUs5vqXcYot/view?usp=drivesdk

JESSICA

Also if we lose this immunity....... I'll be mad because I bet 0 on everything and I am STAYING that way!

JENNET

feeling increasingly bad for voting out jabari /:: idk it doesnt sit right with me in the grand scheme of things. obviously its a game but the fact that i genuinely upset somebody to that extent is so sick. idec that we’re going to tribal, i want to be voted out

ETHAN

3 tribals in a row... I don't for a freaking second believe that Jones and Nicol "made a mistake" with their bidding. This feels like throwing, and if it is, it means that: 1. they feel comfortable enough with Jennet to have a majority 2. they feel comfortable enough with Pete to have a majority 3. it doesn't matter anyway, they now have 2 boxes and potentially an idol or two they could use Either way, this is a freaking sucky situation, and Pete is being super sketchy. People keep making bad play after bad play so honestly, it is hard for me because I keep assuming that they will be doing all of these things to throw the wool over my eyes when they actually aren't doing anything.

JENNET

im annoyed im frustrated and im angry... why were so many points used?

(a little later)

here i am... again... in the middle guys vs girls.... um this sucks bc like me ethan pete didnt use alot of points and nicole and jones did so thats like sucky bc initially i wanted pete gone but like now theres no reason for it to be him

(after soaking in the sun)

nicole says that pippa told her to wait to see whats in the box, so that could mean tribal or that could wait next round. or what if its a comeback power? i literally have no idea what to do

(after making a pillow out of leaves)

okay so the plan is, we get to tribal. me ethan and pete vote for nicole. jones and nicole vote for pete. nicole uses immunity on herself, pete goes home. there are so many ways this could backfire and honestly if it sends me home than im okay with that. i just hate going to tribal so many times in a row

MADISON

I AM FREE FROM MY BROOKESIA PRISON. Current tribe dynamic on Furcifer: me/Sammy have been on the same tribe this whole time, me/Sammy/Jake were just on swap Brookesia, and i know Sam from OG Brookesia so the only person i'm just now meeting is Mikey and that stresses me out so much less than if we had merged or something. My gut is telling me that the idol is long gone and searching might just get me annoyed before it gets me an idol. On the upside, i still have time to find one if it's it out there because i highly doubt I'll be in trouble anytime soon the way my tribe keeps winning everything. ALSO: i only said that i thought Calumma would lose because Shane was on that tribe and i just felt like he would go big or go home but that's an issue to address when our paths cross again. If our tribe ends up going to tribal sometime soon, i would hope it would be the obvious choice to vote Mikey seeing as how i know him the least but idk maybe thats wishful thinking i dont want it to come to that.

SAMMY

Mikey has my heart on this tribe....YUP I really just wanna keep all the fun ppl...im missing daisy:// umm I did not bid on a single thing and I kind of regret it but also??? At least I am safe from tribal...but damn I really should have bid huh? Anyways not much is going on...ready to start playing a more individual game tho hehe

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-WUq5wfYK3Xb1Y-KNZptfyagwvSff4cd

NICOLE

I cannot believe I risked being voted out only to NOT BE ABLE TO PLAY NEXT IMMUNITY!!!!!!! what a round, I'm so sad. But I hope I stay.

DAISY

from f15 https://youtu.be/-_meWPNctO0

PETE

it’s literally... dude.. why can’t i just float to a merge whyyYYYYYYYYyyYyYyyyYyYy does it AAAALWAYS have to be so COMPLICATED like this is it this is the time im mufuckin ouutttiiieeeeeee that challenge was clearly thrown so like ✌🏼 it was fuuuun i hope y’all liked me enough to bring me back for whatever the next chameleon returnees thingy is uwu

(after being attacked by bees)

i know i’m paranoid and every tribal i feel sick to my stomach but nobody has talked to me today, except ethan about how fucked we are, it’s half an hour before tribal and no one really seems like they want to work with me. i still haven’t heard a name

TRIBAL COUNCIL

PETE EXIT INTERVIEW

[dreams-of-wings]

Impossible (3/8)

Imagine Billy Hargrove with a Mixed/Biracial S/O

Warnings: Racism, swearing, mild violence, homophobia, homophobic slurs, sexual harassment, some angst. These warnings are serious y'all. This part deals with homophobia and the next part probably also will. I am trying really hard to keep this gender neutral so everyone can enjoy it while also acknowledging that some of my readers may be male (there was a really bad stigma surrounding the LGBT+ community in the 1980's hence the reason for this conflict), but it's a little hard to do that as a new writer and make it seem personal. So I can only hope I do the issue and the story justice. Feedback is appreciated!

Masterlist

For the next month and a half the two of you have vaguely become what you would define as ‘friends’.

He acts differently with you because as opposed to Carol and Tommy, you can see though his facade, and will call him out on his shit.

He slowly migrates to the seat next to you in any of the classes you have together.

He eventually coaxes you into sitting in the back with him.

You throw off your teachers and they almost mark you absent.

Billy’s a total distraction in class.

Passes notes to you in class on a regular basis, normally full of smart ass comments on what the teacher is saying.

You still somehow manage to pay attention in class and keep your grades up.

This slightly irks the teachers.

You’ve low-key started bringing a small tape recorder to class to record their lectures, because let’s face it Billy is persistant.

For the most part you both don’t hang out outside of class, but he still stops by your little hiding hole in the library fequently to get patched up.

He hasn’t been beaten in a few weeks but some of his cuts are still healing.

Once they’re gone he starts coming to you for stupid reasons.

“Billy, you’re fine, I don’t see anything.”

“Of course you don’t see it, it’s a paper cut.”

He’s so fucking dramatic.

“What if it gets inflected?”

You dead pan.

He snickers.

Low-key ready to fight him.

He still shoves you and slams your locker, but it’s mostly just to get a rise out of you now.

You can be heading to class, zoned out, and he’ll bump shoulders with you.

The force makes you whip around to look at him.

He smirks, snickers, and winks at you, before continuing on to where ever he’s going.

Carol and Tommy are normally not far behind.

“Watch where you’re going, Poodle.”

He stops calling you 'mutt’ and 'Heinz’ but some how manages to stick to the dog theme.

Tommy and Carol follow up with insults of their own.

“Tragic faggot.”

“Alphabet soup.”

Steve, Nancy, or Jonathan are normally around to put an end to it.

You can no longer take Max home, but the two of you are back to your regular schedule of milkshakes Monday, Wednesday, and then the arcade and milkshakes on Friday.

Chocolate coma Fridays are normally how the day ends.

Billy meets the two of you wherever you are to pick her up.

Max is confused when he doesn’t talk about how much of a hastle she is to take care of when he picks her up.

Even more confused when he orders a stawberry and banana milkshake and joins the both of you (on rare occasions).

Sometimes he comes into the arcade (rare occasion too) and kicks your ass at whatever game you’re playing.

Max never knew he liked games.

He used to play a lot of games when he was much younger.

Doesn’t say this outloud though.

You don’t know it yet, but things start going down hill when Carol and Tommy spread a rumor that your queer.

Carol and Tommy had been talking about it to everyone they knew, and it spread through not just the school, but through the town, like wildfire.

You noticed Monday that people would stare at you, and anytime you glanced at them they would lean to their friends and whisper.

Steve, Nancy, and Jonathan have no idea whats going on, you’ve asked.

You should have known they wouldn’t know, they’re you friends, of course the others wouldn’t dare say anything slandering you to them.

Other than the odd stares and hushed voices following you everywhere you went, your day proceeded as normal.

Go to class.

Go to lunch.

Billy visits, though he eyed you skeptically every now and then, it didn’t seem too unusual.

Back to class.

Tutor Max and your other students.

Take her out for milkshakes.

The workers in the shop who used to eye you for being a different race, were eyeing you again.

Billy came and picked up Max, not giving you so much as a glance.

What the fuck.

You call Nancy and talk about your day for hours.

She’s shocked you consider Billy a friend.

“But he’s a douchbag! And he bully’s you, you can’t be serious!”

“Not anymore, he’s been laying off the racist names.”

“I just don’t want you getting hurt, you’re one of the best friends I have.”

“Don’t worry, Nance, I’ll kick his ass if I so much as get a whiff that he’s reverting back to his old ways.”

You won’t, but the idea of things going back the way they were makes you uncomfortable.

Both you and Nancy agree not to tell Steve, who will flip his shit.

The next day you confront Billy about what’s been going on since he seems to be acting off.

You find out about the rumor spreading that your queer.

And appearently thats not all.

According to what’s been going around school, you’re an easy lay too.

And appearently your trying to get in your friends’ pants.

He gets pissed because he thinks you’re lying to him.

“You’re just like everybody else in this bullshit, fake ass, hick town!”

“Billy, you know me! Why would I lie to you? You see this,” you motion between the two of you, “This seemingly impossible friendship that took so long to build, why the hell would I want to fuck this up?!”

He thinks your somehow using him.

The librarian has to kick you both out.

Billy says he’s “done with this bullshit” and leaves.

Throughout the rest of the day you have to deal with remarks that are borderline, if not sexual harassment.

Various people of the opposite and same gender have been taking jabs at you.

“It’s only because you haven’t slept with a boy/girl yet.”

“How about you come by my house after school and I can show you a good time?”

Some one touches you inappropriately as you try to retrieve things from your locker.

Homophobic slurs are thrown your way periodically.

“Queer.” (Honestly the only one I know?)

“Ginger beer,” (I don’t understand this one?)

“Bitch.”

“Switch hitter.”

(I had to google this shit so I could find gender neutral terms, I appologize if these offend anyone. There was honestly more, but I removed them after reading it over for several reasons.)

It’s all honestly getting to be too much and Nancy pulls you aside into a quiet corner to talk to you.

“I heard everything, are you okay?”

“Tell Max and the others I’m not feeling well today and tutoring is cancelled.”

You leave school for the day without saying another word to any one.

You walk to your car, and your back window has been smashed in, the words 'queer’, 'faggot’, 'bitch’, 'slut’, and 'AIDS’ has been painted all over your car in bright red paint.

You let out a shakey sigh and your hands are tembling as you get in and start it up so you can just go home.

You are so done with today.

[amicicidalgambler]

in which two of the texts from this are used in one convo and vriska tries very hard to not show an emotion in front of a megido

tlmetravel

nads told me that given half the chance youd literally murder me which is fine but its going to make gatherings kind of awkward?

talk to me, babe

amicicidalgambler

Well if I wasn't going to murder you 8efore I am after 8eing called 8a8e. What gatherings are you even talking a8out though, I wouldn't enter the same room as you at gunpoint.

tlmetravel

what if theres a hatchday party and were both on the invite list? do we just go out back and tussle

amicicidalgambler

No. We 8eat up the idiot who tried to invite 8oth of us.

tlmetravel

thats one way to bond, yes!

amicicidalgambler

Wrong.

tlmetravel

aww cmon you wouldnt even feel a single tingle of friendship if we got our hands bloody together?

amicicidalgambler

No.

I wouldn't.

tlmetravel

damn baby thats cold :/

amicicidalgambler

I swear to god if you call me another petname I will 8lock you.

tlmetravel

okay poohbear 🙈 whatever makes you feel comfortable

amicicidalgambler

Eugh.

tlmetravel

but, in all honesty now

im sorry about whatever impression your timelines aradia left on you i hope we can have a better relationship than that

the bar /is/ pretty low

amicicidalgambler

And yet you are determined to lim8o under it.

tlmetravel

all in good taste

amicicidalgambler

I guess you're in luck though. Once she comes 8ack that 8ar will get to 8e lower so you'll technically move up a rank or two.

tlmetravel

oh, you guys still have a revenge arc going? my vriska and i parted long ago

amicicidalgambler

So I've heard.

8ut yeah.

tlmetravel

im sorry to hear that must be some pressure youre under

amicicidalgambler

Karkat asked her nicely not to kill me so I'll 8e fine.

tlmetravel

thats totally reassuring

amicicidalgambler

Yeah. So it's not a pro8lem.

tlmetravel

why are you so sure she wants you dead anyway? maybe shes moved on?

amicicidalgambler

Sollux has di8s on my life and it'd only 8e polite to offer it to her first.

tlmetravel

dibs as in. you owe him one

or

amicicidalgambler

Di8s as in people have chosen not to kill me 8ecause he can't right now.

tlmetravel

thats? not right?

amicicidalgambler

To 8e fair, I was pretty concussed when I was told that.

tlmetravel

yeah you dont strike me as the type to take it lying down

amicicidalgambler

No, I mean I don't remem8er exactly what dramatic 8ullshit was said to me.

tlmetravel

eff

did no one have a transcript

amicicidalgambler

I could find the log if I felt like it.

tlmetravel

im feeling a 'but nah' at the end of that sentence

amicicidalgambler

Yeah. It's not like I want to read whatever I was 8a88ling a8out while 8arely conscious.

tlmetravel

thats fair, i never look back on my drunk texts but also isnt it kind of important ?

amicicidalgambler

Yeah, 8ut I'm sure I'll get a whole monologue a8out it when it's relevant again so why 8other.

tlmetravel

monologue usually play well into giving you time to escape whatever is being monologued about, though

amicicidalgambler

Usually. Not here.

tlmetravel

so youre just resigned

amicicidalgambler

Unless something drastic happens, I guess so.

tlmetravel

then surely you must know its not my part to kill you?

amicicidalgambler

I don't know, talking to you makes me feel like I'm dying a little.

tlmetravel

ouch!

:b

amicicidalgambler

::::)

tlmetravel

youre a hard hitter, i appreciate that!

amicicidalgambler

Whatever you say.

tlmetravel

0u0

amicicidalgambler

You're really persistent, aren't you.

tlmetravel

how so?

amicicidalgambler

You haven't 8een convinced this is a 8ad idea yet?

tlmetravel

talking to you, you mean?

no, its quite pleasant

amicicidalgambler

Yeah, you keep saying that.

tlmetravel

i keep meaning it

amicicidalgambler

Weirdo.

tlmetravel

:)