#the experience of being sapphic in a largely homophobic country

[ammorfati]

good luck, me!

inside me there are two wolves: one is screaming 'I TOLD YOU SO!' on top of its lungs to the other, and the other is, well, on the receiving end, met face-to-face with reality.

in another life, i would be in a karaoke room with my girlfriend, singing this song and laughing until we can’t see because our eyes are scrunched too tightly from how wide we’re smiling.  in this universe, though, where i’m not granted with that luxury, i’ll have to be content with singing this inside my own room, dancing unabashedly and visioning her in front of me, matching my steps and looking at me like i hung all the stars in the sky.

i have moved on, yes, but if the world were kinder, i wouldn’t have budged in the first place.