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angelpuns · 7 months ago

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I worry that people are mad at me so often and the unfortunate part about that is even if I haven't done anything to make them mad ( but what if smthn I did was misinterpreted?? How would I even know??) my brain will manage to convince me that not only are they mad at me but I MUST have done SOMETHING.

Which wouldn't be as convincing without the fact that I HAVE had a couple of instances where I have totally blacked out for a second and done something. I mean I was a kid but what if amiright?

#the first time was at Christmas and I litetally blacked out for a second and fell #Thankfully i didnt do anythung but one second i was going to sit on the arm of a couch and the next i was falling #the other time i was on the bus with my friend #and i was holding a pen #and then i blacked out for a secons and scribbled on smthn important to them #idk why i did that #i dont remember what i said afterward #and i dont think we ever discussed it again #but like #what was that #anyway so now that ive rememvered that can happen my brain is trying to convince me that maybe i just blacked out #and said something or did something #when I was a kid it was only twice and it was for literal seconds but what if now that im older #its longer #anyway #this has been me talking #vent #technically not a vent #idk what to call tjis #the blacking out thing is quite literal #black screen moment #i dont thunk its happened since #i hope not #i also hope im not making all that up for some reasom #genuinely thats how i rememver it #but maybe i DID do it on purpose #hghh #im having a bad time lmao #im just v anxious

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