#the love team of Yaya Dub and Alden has been dubbed as AlDub. Yaya Dub as well as other characters of Kalyeserye were created by Jenny Ferr

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[joshuajjang]

A woman who didn't let her self be deceived by comfort zone: an autobiography part I

"For as long as na-experience ko lahat, I had a really good time and I made relationships and friendships with other people, that’s more than enough for me" - Maine Mendoza

PART I: THE QUEEN HAVE JUST ARRIVED

Actress, model, comedian, host, writer, singer and the Queen of Dubsmash. A phenomenal star. A woman who showed the world that impossible is nothing but just a word.

Nicomaine Dei Capili Mendoza. Widely known as Maine Mendoza and for her role as Yaya Dub in Eat Bulaga's Kalyeserye. 

PART II: QUEEN'S FOUNDATION

Meng had a wonderful childhood, thanks to her Family. She is very close to her supportive Family. Meng considers her Sisters as her best friends and her Father as her biggest fan and supporter. She has four siblings, two men and two women. Just like Maine's name that starts with "Nico", the name of all of her siblings also starts with "Nico".

Since Menggay was young, they have a cousin of her dad who has been living with them named Pepe. Maine greatly cherishes Pepe since she was the one who's taking care of Meng and her siblings along with her Parents.

She finished her high school at St. Paul College of Bocaue in Bulacan. Meng was a pretty quiet and introverted student who dreamed of being a Flight Attendant. When she was in High School she was bullied because she was an introverted person, but her friends helped her cope up. She completed a bachelor's degree in hotel, restaurant and institution management with a major in culinary arts at De La Salle-College of St. Benilde. She had her internship at The Sagamore in Bolton Landing, New York. Being an actress and being able to act on screens was Maine's secret ultimate dream. She never told any of her friends or anyone about her dream of being an actress because she doesn't want to be laughed off, and in her perspective that time is that being an actress is too impossible for her to achieve because she doesn't have any idea nor talent in acting.

PART III: BOW DOWN TO THE QUEEN

When the application "Dubsmash" was introduced to the world, the shy, quite and introvert Maine disappeared. She decided to leave her comfort zone when she was a student and started using the Dubsmash application. Due to Maine's undeniably great performances in Dubsmash, people started to call her the "Queen of Dubsmash". In the early part of 2015, Mendoza posted a Dubsmash compilation on Facebook, in which she impersonated another famous Filipina personality Kris Aquino that went viral with one million views overnight. 

She was casted as Yaya Dub in a noontime television show in the Philippines called Eat Bulaga. Yaya Dub's rose to fame when her undeniably chemistry with her co host Alden Richards was seen by the viewers. After one episode of Eat Bulaga showcasing their chemistry, the love team "AlDub" has commenced. Their pairing resulted to their wide exposure and to the further increase of the TV ratings of Eat Bulaga.

Some famous Filipino slangs and actions were created because of the love team of Yaya Dub and Alden Richards such as, the "Pabebe Wave", "Aldub You" and "Ma-alden Kita."

Maine is also considered as a fastest rising actress in the showbiz business. After the Kalyeserye series in Eat Bulaga, Maine successfully showed that she is more than a comedian. In the 2015 Metro Manila Film Festival, She was honored as the Best Supporting Actress for her role as Anna Carillo in the Film "My bebe love: #Kiligpamore" which she co starred with Alden Richards and the Famous Vic Sotto and Ai-Ai De las alas.

After that Maine took part in a lot of Film projects such as "God gave me you",  "Imagine you and Me" and  "Destined to be yours". 

Maine became a fixed member of Eat Bulaga. She is able to travel to different countries with her co hosts to shoot some episodes and have a memorable time with them. Some of Maine's Films were taken in different countries. Such as some of the scenes of "Imagine you and Me", It was shot in Como, Italy.

Maine's rise to fame didn't affect her personality. She is still the down to earth Menggay that her Family treasures.

[ariannjs]

HAPPY | A SasuSaku Short FanFic (1/4)

For Day 4 (City Lights) of SasuSaku Month 2019 - @sasuxsakumonth

This fic was inspired by the Filipino celebrity pair/loveteam called “AlDub” (based from their screen names: Alden & Yaya Dub) or “MaiChard” (their real names: Maine Mendoza & Richard Faulkerson, Jr.). The plot and content have nothing to do with the said actors, but I based the idea for this fic from the themes of Maine’s two most controversial blog posts.

Rating: K+

Summary: The truth was loud and clear, that the combination of pink and green wasn’t meant to be with black and blue – both professionally and realistically.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto and AlDub.

Warning: Get some tissues.

Enjoy reading!

...or not.

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[sakuraharunotes.com/official-blogs]

Hey, Blossoms! It’s been a while! I know I haven’t touched this blog since my open letter half a year ago, but I have important things to share with you – finally – as you read this.

First, I want to thank everyone who has been tweeting me or commenting on my posts to ask about how I am doing every now and then. I may not be able to reply but I’m really grateful to know that there are still some of you guys who care so much about me (despite the amount of fans-turned-to-bashers that came out since the last time I opened up through this blog). 

To answer your queries – I’ve been very fine, really. 

I’ve been a lot happier. 

I’ve been a lot me. 

It took some time, but when I posted that open letter about me feeling like I was losing myself within the whirlwind that is show business – because of all the overwhelming requests (demands) of our loveteam’s fandom – it helped me to be more genuine with myself.

For once, I’m living and working as I should, not as I’m told. And I’m doing things as Sakura, not as any other role.

So yes, I’ve been very fine even though you guys haven’t seen me much on social media. And I’ll always be grateful for all of you who have stayed, respecting me and caring for me as a person, and not just as a celebrity that you often see onscreen.

Second, I know there had been lots of speculations about this but I never answered yet because I know that there would be another uproar that could cause unnecessary hate to a special person in my life. 

That’s what I want to avoid, honestly. I’ve already received tons of hate after I voiced out my thoughts through my open letter that eventually led to the needed separation of my former loveteam. And having a special person receiving hate as well – just because people prefer someone else as the one I should love – is something that I wouldn’t tolerate anymore.

But yes, I want the truth to come from me: I’m officially confirming that I’m happily dating Sasori Akasuna. 

Since when? I’m not gonna tell. 

How? I don’t think I’m required to divulge that. 

Why? Wait a sec—are you kidding me? Cos my answer to that is: Why not?

Although I am deeply flattered with your love for me and my leading man for four years, I have already mentioned in my open letter that Sasuke and I are only friends and workmates in the industry. Up until now. And just because you’re supporting our loveteam, and you’re paying for our movies, or you’re managing fan accounts for us, doesn’t mean that you could dictate us about the matters of our hearts.

Even though we love you, we have our personal lives and individual decisions that need some respect too. After all, whatever you see onscreen doesn’t necessarily reflect our real lives. 

So really, to ask me why I’m dating Sasori is as if you’re asking me why I’m making decisions for my own life.

To give you some sort of peace, Sasori makes me incredibly happy in ways I have never imagined. He cares for me even better than I care for myself. And my family adores him, probably even more than they adore me! Haha. 

What I want to say is that (for my true supporters), you guys don’t have to worry if I have chosen the wrong guy. And (for my former supporters), I understand that there are things (or a person) that you think is the best for me but honestly, at the end of the day, the decision is still mine. 

And now that the truth is out in the open, I truly can’t wait for everything else that is in store for us throughout this year. But what I can assure you all is this: I’m feeling a lot better than I’ve ever been since I’ve entered showbiz, and one of the reasons that contributed to this is my newly found freedom to finally be true to myself without being afraid of what people would say. 

I hope all my fans would respect this.

So thank you, really. For sticking around. It really means a lot to me that you’re supporting not just the Sakura or other roles of me that you see onscreen, but also the real Sakura behind the scenes.

All the things that you’ve done for us as SasuSaku will always be a part of my sweetest memories. But I hope you would continue to support me, and Sasuke, despite going our separate endeavours as artists. I am pretty sure that he’s meant for greater things, even without me as his leading lady. And I can’t wait to see that from afar.

Til next time, Blossoms! Continue blooming where you’re planted! 

— Sakura H.

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He shut his macbook, albeit with a little more force, as his other hand pinched the bridge of his nose. He remembered reading another post from the same website months ago, and the way he felt after reading it wasn’t like this.

Back then, he felt proud of her. For standing up for herself in a world that tried to manipulate her just because she’s the best leading lady for Sasuke Uchiha, realizing that she has a life of her own and she wasn’t meant to please people even if the fans were basically the ones who made them the most sought-after loveteam of their generation. Amidst the sea of facade, she decided to choose to be real. That personality development that was vivid in her open letter posted six months prior was enough to make him so proud of her.

His head whipped around his bachelor pad, seeing black and blue here and there. His mind traced back to seeing a tinge of pink and green in this same place every once in a while, but as his gaze landed on his macbook once again, it hit him like a tsunami that seeing pink and green here will never happen again. 

That’s why the feeling was different now. 

The truth was loud and clear, that the combination of pink and green wasn’t meant to be with black and blue – both professionally and realistically.

A week after her open letter, they found themselves seated in front of their main manager, setting a new arrangement for the two of them so as to lessen the uproar of fans’ expectations on the world’s sensational loveteam SasuSaku – as their fans called them – with the projects that they were a part of. 

The Music Show that they were hosting alongside another love team – NaruHina – had a drastic adjustment in terms of who would report on the field and in the studio. It wasn’t VJ Sasuke and VJ Sakura together in the studio or on the field anymore. But it was VJ Sasuke in the studio, and VJ Sakura on the field.

They also didn’t have commercials or magazine shoots together anymore, let alone movie projects even after their worldwide blockbuster hit movie entitled “The First,” which was ironically their last.

Although he was discreetly uncomfortable with the idea, considering the fact that this was totally new to their four-year status quo, Sasuke complied and adapted to the changes.

At first, he thought it was just the adjustments that made it difficult. But it suddenly dawned on him when he was offered a project with a new redhead leading lady that it wasn’t just about missing his old routines anymore.

He missed her.

Damn. He totally missed her.

There’s no more continuous chatter from his passenger seat on their way home after shoots.

No more pink strands on his shoulder during long flights.

No more lazy good mornings and good night hugs in their offsite tents. 

No more Sakura.

It was on times that Sasuke was very worn out after coming from the gym or a commercial shoot that the reality of this sank further in his mind. Parked in front of his condo one night, he unconsciously glanced at his passenger seat and blinked as a blurred pink suddenly clouded his vision, or so he thought.

He drove her to her place like the usual, but tonight, he wasn’t able to stop himself from staring at her after turning off the engine of his car. 

Gladly, she stared back as if it was the most normal thing to do at a time like that, which only urged him to slowly lean in, pausing slightly as if to ask her permission, before capturing her lips with his.

It wasn’t their first kiss. But it was their first without a number of cameras recording every angle of the contact. 

And Sasuke liked it. He liked how slow and achingly beautiful the moment was, until they both pulled away, breathless and flushed.

A part of him wished this was how his every night ends and how his every morning starts. But for now, he could only continue to stare at those green pools that never failed to draw him in, whether it’s filmed or not.

As he lifted a hand to tuck a few strands of her hair behind her ear, she then chuckled. “That was one heck of a good practice for our next scene, huh?”

And just like that, he was suddenly out of his daze as if a blue electric current coursed through his veins.

“Thanks for the ride. Goodnight...Zeke.”

The next thing he knew, she was already out the door of his car, leaving him blinking once, twice, as his brain slowly processed what had happened. His hand then collided with the steering wheel. “Damn it!”

What he didn’t realize was that their little moment was quite similar to the one on their recent script. 

Groaning, his face fell on his hands. Did she really think he was still on work mode?! He wasn’t being Zeke! He was being Sasuke! 

That night, he went home without touching the said script even though he had some lines that he needed to memorize for the next day.

Just thinking about it now, he wished he didn’t become complacent. Heck, when he entered the show business he was already aware of the fact that nothing is constant in it. He had seen how the ones before him and even those that started alongside him didn’t really have careers that remained skyrocketing. 

He was only one of the fortunate ones and it all began when an undeniable chemistry was seen between him and Sakura on a TV series that aired five years ago. 

While he was still paired up with her, he realized he should’ve made the most out of the time they had. He should’ve told her that his feelings weren’t that of Landon’s, nor Zeke’s, nor Marq’s anymore. 

Instead, his feelings were – are – of Sasuke’s.

But like what people always say, regret comes in the end.

And indeed, it came. Like a wildfire.

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(Happy - PART 2)

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This was done weeks ago but I posted it days late for Day 4 because a lot of things had happened lately, hahahuhu. Let me know what you guys think! This is my very first SS angst so I’d love to know your feedback on my writing! <3

Check out my other works here! It you like what I do, kindly consider supporting me on ko-fi or patreon. I’m also saving up for a special post-birthday trip this November so your support would mean a lot to me!♥️

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June 2019 | AriannJS

[astorytellerforthatgirl]

For Everyone Loving That Girl...

Countless words were described for Maine Mendoza by fans: Phenomenal Star, Game Changer, Twitter Princess, Queen of Endorsement, and as for me recently I called Maine as Bearer of Light in my first blog entry. It is not surprising that true fans, regardless as to whatever faction they belong to, continuously love Maine Mendoza for her genuine character. 

Much has been said about Maine from the start of this narrative to the present plot of her career. I wonder though, from a different perspective, if there was a special post discussing her fans. 

I felt compelled to wholeheartedly grant my writing passion to do my own take of paying tributes to the true fans of Maine. This blog post is for you. Yes you! Allow me to describe you in the best way that I can.

I am aware of the faction in the fandom of Maine  For this post, let me set aside first the differences, issues, conflicts, and misunderstandings dividing us. For this post allow me to speak with the language everyone can understand: our love for Maine.  

Disclaimer: I am sorry in advance if some of my words come out too strong for you. I just want to show I care for you. 

For the Shippers, I am not telling you to just stop with how you fangirl over the tandem you love. What I am asking from you is to do it responsibly. Place a thick wall between reality and fantasy. No one knows the future of any loveteam, a loveteam can be like DongYan who ended up happily together, Bobby Andrews and Angelu de Leon who became good friends, or Hero Angeles and Sandara Park that are not talking to each other based on Hero’s interview few years ago. You are the masters of your soul.  You can guard your heart. You have so much to share and give as evidenced by the massive success of Aldub in the past years because of your support. Bank on only the goodness of your heart. Focus on loving not just Aldub as a loveteam, but also celebrating their individuality. For the times Aldub give you joy, please return that with respect and gratitude. And if ever you are hurt with the series of events happening, do not vent it out against Maine or Alden. You can simply walk away without letting hatred get in your heart. That is not your nature. Thank you for all the support you have given to Aldub. Regardless as to where this narrative gets, Aldub and you as Aldub Nation have already marked records and achievements, and formed friendships and advocacy. Reminisce on the good memories. :)

For the Mulats, I know how much you love Maine that you’re willing to go to the extent of taking the front-row attacks of the smear campaign and fight back with your rebuttals. I do not have that much resilience against the enemies’ hatred, loathe, anger, and rage against Maine. You are there, taking the front-row attacks, hence at times their negativity inflicts you too. Let me share a quote from Paulo Coelho’s book (I forgot what book I read it. HAHA!) A samurai master did not flinch from the challengers’ offensive words. He said instead “Insults are like gifts, if you don’t accept them, it remains with the giver.” I am challenging you now to turn your hatred to apathy. All of you have a high IQ but clouded EQ most of the times. I am saddened and hurt too with what’s happening around your circle. First, some of you tend to be too critical of everyone Maine mingles with but let me assure you Maine’s discernment is better than us because she chooses people whom she will trust completely. Second, other mulats are willing to go down low too as you answer back against Maine’s bashers. You don’t need to reveal their personal information and mock them. Vengeance is not ours. God sees the truth but just waits. This plot of smear campaign against Maine will end soon. On the brighter side, allow me to take this opportunity to say thank you because it was your faction, your group that helped me thought “What if I fight for Maine too? What if I resonate the love and courage other fans of Maine has for her?” You are fighting for the crown princess as warriors. I will do my part now as the messenger. You don’t need to get hurt again because Maine’s aura is calmer, brighter, and happier now. I know for sure Maine herself would not want anyone to crimson their hands with negativity just for the sake of protecting her. After all, wasn’t she who picked herself up? You have so much love and intelligence. You just need to control more of your emotions. I believe you will love Maine more as this smear campaign worsens but let us fight back with love and courage. 

For the Silent Fangirls, I understand you. I was once there in your state especially because I don’t like fangirling over mainstream celebrities. The toxicity in the fandom of mainstream celebrities is more than thrice the level I have to endure in the volleyball world. That is why I choose to stay silent until the open letter comes. I love how a lot of you are telling me in my DM how much you love Maine and the happiness she brought in your life. Continue supporting Maine in the way that you know. You don’t need to join any faction too. You can be like me acting on my way and talking to all of the factions eliminating any subjective focal lens. Remember that Maine’s gratitude for all of her fans is so strong that even in your silence, she will hear it. In your simple actions of supporting in her career, it ripples into greater magnitude and reaches Maine too. :)

For Solid Maine United and other MOSF (Maine Official Solid Fan) Groups, you have my utmost respect for choosing to love Maine from the start of her viral dubsmash and staying now by her side despite of this chaotic plot twist in the narrative of her career. You love her in the worst days of bashings without resorting to answering back with hatred. If there are some of you who have turned their backs on Maine, let them go with open hearts. Just remember the good times you have shared with one another. I admire how much effort you have given for Maine. I felt in your aura that never did you demand Maine to give back the efforts you did for her. You have so much love for Maine in your heart I am praying your light will scatter too to all the fans of Maine. Thank you so much for making me remember to fight more with love and courage for Maine. We will continue the fight! No backing down! They give us hatred? We will reflect on them the light and love we got from Maine.

For Team No Group, these are the supporters of Maine who are out loud in expressing their respect and love for her. These are the fans who are not affiliated to any fan chapter or group. They do not consider themselves as mulats, shippers, or silent fangirls. They are focused on supporting Maine through the best way they can. I think I am a part of this classification since I am supporting Maine without considering myself included in the aforementioned groups. For the other Team No Group, thank you for your never ending support for Maine. Rest assured that your support and love is not less compared to others because we are all unique and distinct in showing how much we care for Maine. Continue doing what you have started. I am proud that most of you in Team No Group are acting alone since you are not part of a fan group and yet your voices continue to resonate. Thank you so much once again!

I, RJ speaking as the lone messenger, want you first to pause for a while. 

Think of all the happiest, funniest, most touching, and most encouraging moments you have seen, heard, and experienced about Maine.

Was it her Yaya Dub days? Was it her fan interactions? Was it the words in her book, tweets, IG posts, ask.Fm, or interviews? Was it for how she shared her talent despite being a neophyte in showbiz?

…Or everything is your favorite moment because of Maine’s existence and presence? :)

Think of them all and feel your heart. Yes, put your hand over your heartbeat. Wipe your tears of joy, love, and gratitude. Those skipping beats and warm tears are the physical proofs how much you love That Girl, Maine Mendoza. Speak a word of blessing and gratitude to God that He allowed us to witness the story and love That Girl.

I do not know why you love Maine. I do not know when you took notice of Maine. I have no idea every little or grand efforts you did for Maine. What I am sure of is in one point in your life, Maine just came like a hurricane and since then, you never back down in loving her. Maine is like that metaphor in a John Green’s book (again I don’t know the book. HAHA) “If people are rain, I am a drizzle and she is the hurricane.” Maine entered our life and occupied a wide space in our heart.

Depending on the fans’ focal lens, Maine is a sister, daughter, best friend, niece, granddaughter. etc. At various moments in our life, Maine made us cry, happy, laugh, embrace life, conquer fear, forgive enemies, and fight with love and courage.

Too much smear campaigns happened recently and too much hatred divided the fans of Maine into different factions. This blog entry is my attempt to find the common ground between us all: our love for Maine Mendoza.

I want to say more…it’s just that my heart is bursting with overwhelming emotions like gratitude and care. I hope that this storyteller/messenger/writer who has received tons of blessings recently will be able to solidify your support for Maine while eliminating all forms of noises and negativity around us.

Mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat dahil minahal ninyo si Bearer of Light. If one day I reached all my dreams, I will acknowledge all fans of Maine as monumental catalyst for embracing my writing skills.

Let us love Maine to the point no negative words or actions will hurt us again. Let us protect, fight back, and take care of Maine, the Bearer of Light, with only Love and Courage in our hearts.

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Why Fan Girling?

I actually don’t know how to start writing this but this is my journey of being a fan girl and my heartfelt thoughts about being a fan girl. 

Being a fan girl is not easy, it has it’s ups and downs, highs and lows, and it can make you a little selfish of your idols. As you can see I’ve been fan girling most of my life, it probably started when I was a kid Hello Kitty and Filipino shows such as ANG TV, etc but it was short lived as I lost interest in watching television and mainly read and listened to music, that was the time when I started to fan girl slowly from NSYNC, BSB, STEPS, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, S Club 7 and many more but I was just a lowkey fan girl buying their cassette tapes and listening to them every single day, I just continued that habit of mine listening to music while reading books. 

 Not until I was able to use the internet, I think I was in 5th or 6th grade when I started to use social media, I started with Friendster, MySpace and Multiply hahaha I also learned how to use youtube so from there I started watching my fave singers performances and man was it a hassle to use the internet before, oh and I can only use our computer and internet on weekends so hassle pa more! 

 I lived a monotonous life during my elementary and high school days it was always home-school-home that was my routine I seldomly get the chance to go out and spend time with my friends. I was basically a home body and that’s when I started to feel alone and it spiraled down to me being shy and aloof to others. Music was my only way of coping and expressing how I feel. I can never leave our house without my mp3 player and earphones, it became my security blanket during those times. 

Come mid 2008-December 2008 as I was searching for new songs on Youtube I came across a video of a certain kpop group (which I didn’t know who at that time yet cause I was more of a western music fan), watched it and I seemingly liked the melody of the song as I started humming the chorus after listening to it once, but it was just in passing so I just continued searching for new music and forgot the melody, not until a few days later when I hummed the tune again out of the blue, that’s when I started to get curious I searched for the song again on Youtube and it turns out the title was Marry U by Super Junior who has a whopping 13 members, since I had a hard time recognizing the members of the group as they have many, I just casually started to browse the videos on the right side of the tab and came across BIGBANG’s Haru Haru and I found myself liking the video and searching for performances for it, add to the fact that I easily remembered the members names as there are only 5 of them. That’s how my fan girling for kpop started I knew SuJu first but got hooked on BB but eventually I got hooked with SuJu as well, it was in 2009 that I started to learn about girl groups the first one I encountered was Girl’s Generation they were promoting Gee during that time but I didn’t have a liking towards them on the get go but I did research about them but I was more inclined to BB and SuJu during that time not until I heard their song “Way To Go” that’s when I started to have a liking towards them. I was starting to get hooked to kpop already during that time but I guess the biggest contributor to me being a kpop fan is knowing 2NE1 the most bad ass girl group ever (for me of course) I believe that they were the ones whom made me into the kpop fan girl that I am today. As the year went by I knew other kpop groups such as SHINee, FT Island, f(x) and KARA, there were other groups that caught my eye but the ones written above were really the ones I am fascinated with. I also created my twitter account this year and used it to fan girl over kpop as I have a fear of being judged (well I was still judged anyway).

During those times I started to watch TV again but mainly because of taiwanese and korean dramas, due to my liking of kpop music I leaned more into watching kdramas, if I remember correctly I finished Princess hours within 24 hours (addict much hahaha).

2009 was the biggest year for kpop as their music started to get known worldwide, but it was also the year of my first trial as a fan, scandals broke out here and there that year and I didn’t know what to do, I was affected, but barely had any updates cause internet was still slow that time (well till now) and I was really busy with school. Thank heavens I was able to surpass that and continue on with my fan girling.

2010 went by with a blur new groups arised but only one caught my attention CN Blue, I already love the band concept of FT Island so another one won’t hurt. This was also the year that I started to participate on voting for awards show, voting became a habit for me and also watching music shows weekly, I learned to watch via livestreams to be able to be updated. 

I basically live and breathe kpop, my alarm tone was a kpop song, the songs I listen to when I take a bath is always kpop, I even forgot to listen to western music as I only listened to kpop and nothing else.

2012 was the start of me fan girling hard as in real hard, I was finally able to watch a concert and man was I so happy and emotional that time, add to the fact that we got inside the venue late and we weren’t able to see the opening, I was so disappointed during that time but I was also happy to hear my favorite songs and cried during Haru Haru. That was the start of a promise to myself that I will watch a kpop concert yearly especially when it’s my faves, and I was able to do it sometime even watching 2-3 concerts a year.

During those times I met so many people who have become my dear friends and we all started as online friends, that’s why I’m a firm believer of being friends online is good.

2014 was probably my hardest year as a fan, I have adapted the how tos of being a korean kpop fan that I don’t want anyone being with my oppa, he can’t date and all that shizz, so when Sungmin announced he’s dating and going to get married, man did I get angry af! I hated him and the girl he’s dating, I said mean words to them, I bashed them hard. I was hurt, in my mind that time oppa is only mine no one can have him, I was that immature. I also lost the will to fan girl because I was badly hurt, I lay lowed and just read updates, also took the time to reflect and that was when realization hit me, I had done something wrong and bad, I hurt the people whom have been my inspirations with my immaturity. I apologized dearly to both Minnie oppa and Saeun unnie and I was ashamed at myself for what I did, I tried to stay away from fan girling but I guess it’s already embedded in my blood. I still continued on with my tradition of watching concerts, but after BB’s MADE concert I layed low for the time being as work is getting the best of me during that time as well, but something happened in 2015 that I didn’t know I would ever do in my entire life. 

I was never fond of watching TV, I would either watch k dramas on the internet or spazz around in my twitter account for my fave kpop artists, most likely about concerts and such. Being a social media savvy I always check the twitter trends in the Philippines and I noticed that a certain #ALDUB was trending for a few days already, being the curious me I clicked the ht and saw tweets about a certain Alden Richards and Yaya Dub, that got me to thinking, wow they must have so many fans for them to be consistently trending every day and mind you, they’re always on the number one spot. So my curiosity really got me and had me watching the episode the next day which happens to be their second weeksary. I was confused at first when the episode started since I wasn’t able to watch the very first ones, then here comes Lola Nidora with gigantic bags under her eyes, Yaya Dub being locked in the limousine, then a riding in tandem comes with a giant pink teddy bear and hands it to her and lo behold it was from her on screen partner Alden Richards who looks like an angel who has fallen down from heaven. I forgot how the episode ended that day but I decided to watch it again later that night, I pulled an all nighter and watched the first episode up to the latest episode and I was instantly hooked, who would’ve thought that a kpop fan like me whose world revolves around kpop and kdramas would fall in love with a local LT? 

I was never an avid fan of a local LT until ALDUB came and I must say they have really changed my life, in terms of my personality I am becoming more of an optimist now rather than a pessimist unlike before, I learned to wait, as in really wait for the right person to come into my life and do not rush into things.

One thing that I don’t understand though is why is there always a need to compare the two, I mean they are a team right so why is comparison needed? That’s the most shocking thing for me, oh and the bashings and shadings as well I mean I am accustomed to the bashings already because heck in kpop they bash most of the time, but in here it’s like the two are always doing bad things wherein fact it’s the opposite?

This is also the only fandom I entered that have so many feeling KIA people oh and those who act like their mothers and tell the two to do this do that, I mean they have parents of their own so why don’t people just let them be? 

I can withstand all the bashings thrown at the two but I’m tormented by those who act as if they know everything about the two, wherein fact they haven’t even had the chance to talk to them, some though act that way cause they have already taken a selfie with the two like wtf? 

Being a fan of Maine and Alden has its ups and downs but it is so worth it. I would just like to give thanks to Maine and Alden for being able to bring out the optimistic side of me and for never giving up, thank you also for all the new friends that I have met because of you. I now have a new family because of you. Always remember this we will always be here, ready and armed to protect the two of you. No matter what happens, we will never give up.

For now I am laying low again on fan girling as I actually lost the will to do it after what I went through last December, but rest assured I will always be here to support and pray for my idols.

So this is my story.

PS. parts of this entry is written in my journal.

PPS: I wrote it when I was so goddamn emotional so forgive me for that.