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muzzlemouths · 2 years

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🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

I really struggled with answering this one because I'm not sure how to put it into words. I've always been writing - my whole life, even during those years I was convinced I should quit - all I thought about was writing.

From the earliest days it brought me comfort when no one and nothing else could, its always been a safe way to vent and express myself, it helps me work through emotions when I don't understand them any other way, and it brings me inarticulable joy to speak fluently on pen when my mouth fails me.

I've been eat sleep and breathing this media for as long as I could hold a pencil and at this point it's just a part of who I am, I can't imagine myself without it. I know that's super dramatic, but I can't express it any other way. It's really, truly important to me.

#ask games #I'm gonna get a bit more personal in the tags here #When I was a kid I was really working through some things #I had an awful home life and my (undiagnosed) autism was at its peak #there were a couple years where I was nonverbal. Just completely mute save for a spare word here or there when it was forced out of me #I felt like everything I said was Wrong and Bad and would get me in trouble #but writing felt like something that was just for me #it felt like I had grown up attempting to use a foreign language - but writing felt natural. I could say what I meant and it came out RIGHT #Once I realized that I did everything to keep a hold of that feeling #and I haven't let it go since #Maybe my writing isn't perfect and maybe my book will never be published #and maybe all I'll ever do is write silly little drabbles of silly little characters #but I'm having fun doing it. I'm speaking my language. And that's enough #<3

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