#they made him so bbg and then proceeded to make fun of him

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rj babygirl barrett

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so basically, im just gonna talk abt it on here.

please comment your thoughts/reactions and any other commentary you may have on the matter :3

tw: ? i am going to go kind of in detail and i dont want to gross any of you all out. idk if that needs a tw or not, better safe than sorry.

met this guy who i talked abt previously on my feed. we have been close friends for awhile as i babysit for his step-mom. we met up, and hung out for about two hours before he gave me a goodbye kiss. he cupped my face with one hand and grabbed my side with the other. it was cold out and he is way bigger than me so i was just completely warmed. it only lasted like a minute or two but it started getting more desperate and he like forced himself away from me and he was breathing really unsteadily and he kissed me on the forehead and said “sorry, i dont want to make you uncomfortable, hope you had fun, goodnight.” i told him it was the most comforting feeling i had had in a while.

anyways but that was my first kiss (other than during my SA which happened when i was eight, and the other guy was thirty-one but i dont count that one) since then we have hung out one other time at a swim meet for my school. i dont swim and neither does he but my parents are strict and so i said that my friend who is on the swim team wanted me to come watch her. shout out to maryanne, thank u bbg! so we hung out at the swim match and walked about the building until we found ourselves in an empty hall behind the yoga classes. i was talking and then all of a sudden i stopped and said, “sorry, i talk too much” and i was getting mad at myself for talking too much and he interrupts my thought spiral and is like, “i like listening to you talk”

might as well have just undressed me right then. hottest thing i think anyone has ever said to me.

so then obviously in the profound silence that my shock offered i leaned in closer and he closed the space between us soo so gently and then his hand grabbed my face and my waist and pulled me into him completely and i thought i was going to literally pass out. so then we actually kind of made out. HE PROCEEDED TO PICK ME UP FROM THE GROUBD WITH EASE and hold me by the thighs to the wall for like 10 WHOLE MINUTES. he gave me a hickey too.

oh also now anytime we see one another at school we go up to one another’s ear and say the stupidest shit known to man. so jokingly i went up to him and moaned in his ear. he texted me and told me he hated me and loved me for it at the same time. i just said “im like that <3” in response.

anyways i have to babysit for his step-mom this weekend. what should i do?

i need people to talk to and like just straight up girl talk to.

rn majority of my close friends are guys and i want to just gush over the person i am talking to but dint feel like i can with my guy friends.

my close friend who is a girl doesn’t know i am talking to the person i am talking to bc she got mad at me (for no apparent reason) when i told her we were talking.

i just wanna giggle and kick my feet in the air abt this guy but i cant find anyone to talk to abt it and it is soooo frustrating.