#this could def be better stated but yk what i’m getting at

[norwegianblackmetal]

something something the reason why cartman is so obsessed, so infatuated with kyle (even if he doesn’t realize it) is because kyle matches him as an equal. this is portrayed quite well in “smug alert” when cartman gets increasingly frustrated with butters, because butters just goes along with him. butters is weak willed and accepts - even agrees - with the taunts cartman throws his way. cartman wants a challenge, he wants someone who will bite back, so to speak. i feel like that may have been why he grew disinterested in heidi so quickly, because she wanted to change and improve eric through genuine kindness, which does not work on him; for eric to realize his faults, he needs a heavier hand, which kyle never fails to deliver.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

grapejuice - a close reading

you better believe i wrote this with a glass of red by my side. 

harry’s house, track 3

LYRIC ANALYSIS

title: “i promise i’m not singing about wine”

(intro music: i can’t unhear the comparison @swimmingleo made to the intro of teardrop - massive attack lmao it’s in my mind forever)

One, two, three One, two- Yesterday, it finally came, a sunny afternoon I was on my way to buy some flowers for you Thought that we could hide away in a corner of the heath There's never been someone who's so perfect for me

“it finally came, a sunny afternoon”: they’re in the UK besties

“i was on my way”: set out to do something sweet for partner, to enjoy together

“hide away”: escape reality together for a while

“the heath”: piece of land, meadow

find a spot of peace and calm in nature. how bucolic of him

But I got over it and I said "Give me something old and red" I pay for it more than I did back then

“but i got over it”: over what? the thoughts he was having about his lover? over the idea of going to hide away? this dreamlike, film version of love?

gets a bottle of red wine instead of flowers - can’t resist alcohol? sets his thoughts to woo his lover aside - bc it’s not realistic? bc he prefers a drink, to start his nostalgic meanderings? bc he prefers getting something they can enjoy together, as a mature couple?

“i pay for it...”: the consequences of drinking red wine are greater than when he was younger. aka hangovers are a bitch when you’re not a teenager anymore

There's just no getting through Without you A bottle of rouge Just me and you

def sounds like someone who’s had a glass or two

“no getting through without you”: a bottle, or life, or anything really

“just me and you”: would almost make you believe “you” is there, drinking with him. 

theme: us against the world // “in this world, it’s just us” - as it was

or “you” as in the bottle of red. a hint of alcoholism there (+ him getting a bottle instead of flowers: love for the drink is overpowering everything else?)

Sitting in the garden, I'm a couple glasses in I was tryna count up all the places we've been You're always there, so don't overthink I'm so over whites and pinks I pay for it more than I did back then

seems like he’s drinking alone -> previous “just me and you” implies more, then, that he’s talking in general terms, not specifically the bottle

“tryna count up”: useless tipsy activity, still thinking about his lover tho

“all the places we’ve been”: travelling together

“you’re always there”: lover is always there, wherever he goes (whether literally or metaphorically), or the wine is always there 

-> “so don’t overthink”: settle his thoughts/worries about love and life with a bottle of rouge

can also be heard as more innocent: i shouldn’t overthink where we’ve been as a couple bc he’s always there, as he’s proven time and again

“i’m so over whites and pinks”: white and rosé wine. sounds like a drunkard assuring the drink he’s holding that the other drinks are nothing to him -> more narrative into the red wine is the love of my life side of things

“whites and pinks”: i just need to get this thought out of my head so i’ll put it here: this part reminds me of billy joel’s scenes from an italian restaurant “bottle of white, bottle of red, perhaps a bottle of rosé instead” and that reminded me of the idea i had of music for a sushi restaurant before i heard the song, yk, that it was gonna be that kind of vibe. so. what’s my point? idk. that everything reminds me of billy joel? maybe yeah

There's just no getting through Without you A bottle of rouge Just me and you 1982 Just me and you There's just no getting through The grape juice blues

sung so lazy and happy and tipsy lmao 

1982: next drunk activity: reading the label. (on this website it states that “The 1982 vintage was, for many regions, extraordinary.” lmao so that’s great to hear ig 

it’s also the year E.T. came out (this is a joke but it’s still fun to entertain). 82 is also 28 backwards. 

we’re circling back now: there’s no getting through the grape juice blues without you - i need you to get through it all. the wine is making me a lil blue but i do remember that you’re always there. won’t you come sit in the garden with me and share this bottle? where are you, baby? *whine* (pun intended yes you can come slap me)

“grape juice blues”: being wine drunk is often a more melancholy, tired kind of drunk + hangover afterwards

One, two, three One, two, three One, two, three One

yes if you add up all the counting you get twenty-fucking-eight

SYNTHESIS

Alright, so. Before I go any further, I’m just going to state that I do not think Harry has an alcohol problem. He’s said on multiple occasions that he doesn’t drink while working, and his overall stance on it makes it pretty clear that he has it under control. This, to me, is another episode of your love is so addictive I can only compare it to substance abuse.

“give me some morphine” - mmith

“loving you is the antidote” - golden

That said, this also isn’t the first time alcohol has been mentioned in Harry’s oeuvre. (I included the ones where he’s drinking, otherwise you can also look at Carolina or Kiwi.)

“i got drunk by noon” - ftdt

“there’s no one to blame but the drink in my wandering hands” - falling

“don’t blame the drunk caller” - tbsl

“we’ll get the drinks in” - fine line

“i spilled beer on your friend” / “red wine and a ginger ale” - little freak

“then we drink the wall” - satellite

“he starts secretly drinking” - boyfriends

Yes, he likes a drink. At times, he also drinks to cope with difficult situations. Heartbreak, identity crises, loneliness, or as a distraction. It lets that tied tongue of his loose. He also drinks to just have a good time. Partying, letting go. This, however, is one of those songs, to me, that’s about a very mundane slice of life. He got a bottle of red and decided to drink it in the garden, basking in the sun, thinking about the love of his life. The one who’s always there, the one he can’t get through life without. The allusion to alcoholism, though, to him being dependent on wine to get through life, is a smokescreen for his true addiction: his lover. The one he’s needy as fuck for, the one he craves attention from at all times, the actual source of life he’s dependent on. I feel like this scene is one where the lover isn’t home, so he’s left to his own devices, and it’s simply a happier, harmless version of “Harry, you’re no good alone.” He’s drinking a couple of glasses of that bottle, which is encouraging him to think about their relationship and where they’ve been in their lives, and he’s having a good time. “So don’t overthink,” he’s telling himself - stop fretting, it’s all good. He’ll have a hangover, but that’s part of it. Good thing he has that love thing going on to soften the blow. (Which, again, can be seen as a metaphor for when things get rocky in a steady relationship like theirs, it blows over eventually. Things get healthy again. Just gotta be patient and power through that nasty headache.)

I also love that the song contains playful elements of the wine in question, and that it flirts sonically as well as lyrically with how someone might sound after a few glasses of that nice 1982. He’s a messy drunk, who’s not 18 anymore, so his grape juice blues hit a little harder, and his hangovers are a little worse than they used to be. 

The bottom line is: let’s share this bottle like we share this life. Because if I do it alone, I’m suffering.

[adcres]

         howdy hey , pardnerrrs :> i’m rox ( she / her ) ‘n i’ll be playing yr residential sullen broodin’ boy , nico . i didn’t have the time to write out a whole new intro , given that i have back to back classes again today :-’( , so please forgive me for recycling his old intro akawodkgrsd ; . that being said , i did tweak around some tingz and i updated his wcs for him , so if yr down to clown around just hmu on my discord :   𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱 𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔫𝔦𝔞#2854 !  okie okie , i’ll shut da eff up now ♡ 

BASICS.

༉‧₊˚✧ kim taehyung , cis man , he / him / his — did you see that nicholas “nico” yoon was trending last night ? the twenty three year old street artist has been getting a lot of press lately . i think it’s due to them being so + quixotic & + free-spirited , but i always thought they seemed - withdrawn & - sybaritic . their fans always say they remind them of soft smoke rings spun in a dreamy haze , silver-ringed fingers rapping against polished oak , and waning light refracting against broken glass though . i wonder if they’ve found out about REDACTED yet … i guess we’ll have to wait and see . [ rox , 22 , pst , she / her , none ]

PINTEREST & PLAYLIST .

01 and 02 .

PERSONALITY .

at first glance , nico reads as this aloof , arrogant type that doesn’t like to associate w the common public . always keeping the majority of people at a comfortable distance , nico moves almost exclusively within his own social network , and doesn’t like to deviate from what he knows best .  

not so much pretentious as he is lazy , making an effort to socialize with complete strangers is simply something that nico would never do . hehe ... he’s kind of shy like that .... ♡ though he’d literally never admit it ♡

despite giving the impression that he’s some intimidating and chronically indifferent kind of guy , nico is genuinely a sweet boy — ‏‏‎ one who’s in a constant state of confusion as to why people seem to be so scared of him . it always comes as a shock when close friends of his admit that they thought he absolutely hated their guts when they first met him .

b/c tho he’s p smart , nico is very oblivious at times , and he’s 100% the kind of guy who’ll walk away from a conversation thinking he did a rly rly good job trying to make a friend ... when in reality he prob said four words in the span of thirty minutes smh .

overall , nico’s a private person , especially with what he’s thinking ... and it’s really hard to get a clear read on what’s on his mind . sharing his feelings has never been one of nico’s interests b/c he just genuinely doesn’t think whatever he has to say is rly worth mentioning . so he usually just shuts da fuck up n lets other ppl talk so he can mentally gain the strength to continue socializing .

push nico’s buttons enough tho ‘n you’ll catch this mf speaking in full sentences .

lastly , it should b noted that nico is a romantic through n through ... this mf probably d*ed in the victorian era ‘n got reincarnated b/c he’s got that ‘ lets share furtive glances across the room but never say a thing to each other  ‘ thing on lock . mr. darcy headass

and while nico might play the role of long-suffering , ever pining lover to a T , he’s more in love w / the idea of love than he is w / any single person . and he literally cannot hold down a relationship w/o fucking it up for himself in some shape or form .

kind of sarcastic ... v much the teasing type .... 

can b very impulsive at times , loves to go on solo adventures at night , prefers his own company tbh ...

overview : melancholic , reticent , noncommittal , humble , mild-mannered , romantic .

a mix of : josh from clueless and j.d. from heathers

more here .

MORE AESTHETICS.

the chill of silver jewelry against flushed skin , forgotten graffiti on porcelain sinks , flickering motel lights , kisses sticky with vodka , eyes ringed with lavender , sleepless nights surrendered to the dull buzz of television , obscure art house films , sun-kissed cheeks , the surprise of summer rain , chest aching with lost loves , scattered baby’s breath and rosemary , and a shared smile between perfect strangers .

CHARACTER DISSERTATION.

nico was born on a brisk wintry morning in the fashion district of los angeles ( january 21st , 1997 ) to a family of six .

as the second youngest child , and the only male son to boot , nico grew up with his only inheritance being a generational kind of hunger , one that demanded for more than what his struggling parents could offer

the arts stole nico at an early age ... ushering him into a world of creation and freedom beyond the four bleak walls he daily occupied . from spending lonely summers tucked away in some forgotten corner in the library to practicing on a borrowed violin from dawn to dusk , nico knew that even with nothing at his disposal , there was always something to be made w/ the tools he’d been given  

despite not having the money for private tutors to hone their son’s growing artistic talents , his parents did whatever they could to support his dreams , whether that meant working double shifts back to back or scrounging for loose change underneath the sofa cushions to pay for whatever materials nico needed .

it was in this strange way that nico grew up p spoiled . somehow having nothing while also having absolutely everything at the same time .

very much a family man , the first big purchase nico made once he broke out in hollywood was a house in beverly hills for his parents . now that he’s finally at a place where he can take care of his family , nico makes sure that his parents and sisters want for nothing

while he showers everyone else with generous gifts and obscene amounts of money , nico doesn’t particularly feel comfortable doing the same for himself . he’s a simple man through n through . one who’s content to spend his time walking his dog late at night , listening to a podcast on his airpods , instead of going out to a club w/ other well-known socialites .

a true artist at heart , nico refuses to conform to the current trends of hollywood , instead insisting on wearing thrifted clothes to important galas — ‏‏‎much to the frustration of his PR team and the chagrin of his stylists . but none of the choices nico makes seems to surprise anyone anymore . driving flashy cars and wearing designer clothes has never really been his style , after all . and it’s important to him that he remain authentically himself despite everything .

WANTED CONNECTS.

pr relationship ( open ) : someone that nico is contractually obligated to date ... i could totally see there being drama ‘n tension from having to pretend to actually like each other ... would b better if they rly did not like each other at all ... 

fwb ( open ) : buddies who bump uglies sometimes ... they both agreed they’d never catch feelings for each other but we’ll see ... 

frenemies ( open ) : someone that grinds nico’s gears but they’re a friend of his friend ... so they’re forced to keep it civil . i can see them exchanging hateful comments in the back of their friend’s car while simultaneously posting pics of each other on ig to keep up the rouse . 

unrequited crush ( open ) : likely nico would not realize if yr muse had a crush on them ... but it’d be fun to play it out like a kdrama anyway heh heh

a close friend group ( open / any ) : i thought it’d b so cute if there was like a small group of friends , maybe 3-4 ppl , that do stupid shit like ditch going to celebrity after-parties to break into abandoned buildings , get real high , ask stupid ‘ would u rather ‘ questions , and do sum main character type shit ... yk what im puttin down ... ‘n nico is def the type to open up in the presence of extroverts so i think having a group of wild outsiders of diff bgs would b v inch resting ..

enemies / rivals ( open / any ) : tbh nico prob rubs ppl the wrong way since he has resting bitch face ‘n never wants to talk to anyone .. so im sure there r ppl who just do not like this mf ... and rest assured that the feeling is mutual ...

bad / good influence ( open / any ) : nico’s known to mount his high horse often ... mr morality over here ... so i just know he prob would butt heads w/ the residential troublemaker . tho nico’s artwork can be controversial and out of the box at times , his art style and his personality are at constant odds , and it’d b interesting to have that bad influence / good influence dynamic w/ someone .

family friend ( open ) : someone who grew up w/ nico in dtla ... couldve gone to the same public school as him ... or their families couldve gone to the same church ...

ok my intro post has become a fucking behemoth so im going to stop here ‘n just say i have so many more wcs in mind so if u wanna plot lets just talk hehe :>