#this is like? idk some post-movie timeline or smth

[tangledinink]

while we're on the subject of partners for the boys--

[eemcintyre]

Random thoughts I had during my fifth viewing of the cinematic masterpiece "Cocktail" (1988)

Well... more like my 5 2/3 viewing bc I got like 2/3 through it and then my mom was like "why didn't you tell me you were gonna watch it, I would have wanted to watch it too" so I lied about how far I was through it "there's still a lot left we can start it over" and I watched the same movie almost twice in a row in the span of a few hours :)

"Wild Again" by Starship is one of the only good songs tbh, although "Addicted to Love" and "When Will I Be Loved" are also pretty alright. But the soundtrack is lowkey horrendous imo

I stand by my previous standalone post- no one has ever been that excited to get on a fkin Greyhound bus

Benefit of the bus, however- the scene with him and the baby; I feel like Tom just vibes really well w kids because he's such a smiley, fun, and chaotic lil guy and gREAT now I have baby fever again thx 💖

Oh the blatant plot exposition about his parents that they beat us over the head with oh-so-subtly

Oh the foreshadowing throughout that is even less subtle

One of my favorite quotes in any movie, bc it makes me feel better about my life being in disarray and not knowing what to do about it, I guess, is the “Most things in life, good and bad, just kinda happen to ya.”

Tom's still got his high little baby voice 😩

Even as a college graduate, the interviewing scene hits way too hard 🥲😩

Someone needs to acknowledge that the Red Eye looks like the most disgusting thing

Wish the dress shirt and tie fit had been featured more because it does things to me, but the scenes contrasting his first and second shift at the bar are when I first developed TC brain rot and fell in love w that lil goofball

I can’t judge the girl giving him the "fuck me eyes" bc have you seen him, plus she’s showing restraint compared to what I would do tbh

The adult learners usually drove me nuts in my classes (which I know is terrible but shhhhh) but I felt so bad for Sheila Rivkin

This professor really thinks he’s doing standup comedy or smth

Honey don’t put your face on the subway stairs that's arguably more disgusting than a Red Eye

The timeline of this movie is pretty hard to follow tbh; much as I adore it, you never know every time a scene changes whether it's been two days or like 3 months

What the actual fuck was the whole yuppie poet thing about- it's like when I used to watch those 60s Frankie and Annette movies where the weirdest shit would just happen for no reason and I felt like there was some social commentary or inside joke or smth that was just going way over my head that, if I had existed in that time, would have just been like "oh yeah that makes total sense"

The amount of raw sexual energy that this man exudes- I remember someone's post from a while back that was like "why is Cocktail like a 'mom' movie that all the moms are still obsessed with" but just like imagine if you saw this in theaters when it first came out

The only man allowed to wear beach shirts and look sexy, change my mind

I've always thought Elisabeth Shue is so incredibly underappreciated as an actress, smth about her line delivery and expressions just seems very genuine and naturalistic idk

She just orders “a beer” WHAT KIND???

So scary tbh how much he was becoming like Doug even being apart from him for a while

The side eye and shade Jordan gives Doug in this scene cracks me up every time without fail

The reggae singer absolutely popping tf off in his silver lamé suit ✨

Brian and Jordan both pulling the “I’m not like other girls” lmao

Sure she’s lowkey a manic pixie dream girl but I still love her

WATCH THE ROAD WHILE U DRIVIN THE CAR BRIAN 😤

If this movie was remade in modern times (God forbid) Brian would 100% be one of those guys with a hustle culture boss up motivational entrepreneur Instagram account. And Doug would perhaps be one of those cringy creepy pickup artists that talks about low-value women and compares them to horses and thinks he can mind-trick them into falling madly in love w him

If someone was waking me up early every morning to drink carrot juice I would commit crimes

The artist guy who made that exhibit looks like the oiliest man I’ve ever seen

Jordan’s dad says “bartender” like it’s a slur

When Brian tears up the check it always makes my lil heart just 💗💫🥺 the character evolution

Why did I only have this thought on my like fifth viewing of this movie, but I wonder if he hadn’t escorted Kerry back to her apartment if he would have gotten back in time to save Doug, and then who knows what would’ve happened bc then he wouldn’t have felt compelled to tell Jordan how much he really loved her and ask Pat for help and all that

WHEN HE FIGHTS EVERYONE OFF TO GET TO JORDAN what can I say, I'm a sucker for grand and melodramatic romantic gestures and proclamations of love

The teasing and singing along at the wedding is getting a little too real guys stop making this awkward 👀😬

I don’t care how unrealistic the end is, and that in real life they would have 100% soon gotten divorced, bc I want to believe that people can change and that all of the tribulation was worth it + enough for Brian to become a good dad/husband and successful but with it not being above and at the expense of his family; he would be such a fun and chaotic dad and their life would be so hectic w twins but I want to believe they could do it :( it comforts my cynical and depression-addled brain to believe they could do it :(

[halcyon-writings]

— sweet 🎃

a lighthearted halloween fic with gojo bc i Can write fluff for him okay timeline wise? pre-canon and also megumi and tsumiki are here too and they’re angels, au where idk gojo still takes care of them but nothing is wrong okay. listen-

I hope y’all had a fun Halloween, or if you don’t celebrate that your day was great! (The rest of the Halloween prompts will be up soon i just wanna post smth real quick djskdj!

nav

you sigh in relief as the mug of warm coffee is pressed to your lips. ah, the sweet sweet caffeine you think. while your future eyebags would not appreciate it, you personally felt like you had a victory this time.

“it fits okay?” you murmur, placing the mug on the small coffee table in the center of the room, the small rustling of fabric bringing you back to focus on the small boy in front of you.

“mhm,” is the quiet answer. and you would be annoyed were it someone else, but seeing as how megumi was a quiet kid, and also adorable, made it okay.

“what about tsumiki?”

“satoru’s helping her get ready upstairs, he’s doing her hair.”

“okay, we have plenty of time before you have to get to school, so here let me help you out of your costume and let’s get you some breakfast okay?”

“‘kay.”

gently, you pull the costume up and over his head, making sure not to pull it or stretch it. the headband with the fake ears also on top of the folded pile.

when you had gotten the call last night, a panicked satoru not even giving you time to respond, instead murmuring “the kids, help.” and hanging up, you of course, busted your ass over to his home and was greeted to the sight of your boyfriend, glue gun in one hand as he sat on the wooden floor, legs crossed and the other shaking in the air as he whined about the hot glue, panicking over a costume he had attempted to make himself.

you smacked him for scaring you of course (well, as much as you could smack him seeing as how he, to your irritation, put infinity up just for that reason).

megumi and tsumiki sat beside him, and well, tsumiki was the emotional support and megumi was looking at satoru’s phone and reading the instructions. their school was allowing the students to dress up for the upcoming Halloween. and seeing as how satoru made them both movie nuts, it was obvious that the siblings had chosen a movie they had recently enjoyed watching again and again.

the wizard of oz, of course.

tsumiki’s costume was easy, all they needed was the dress and pattern for the overalls, as well as a pair of red shoes that you were certain satoru had spent far to much on for a child’s Halloween costume.

megumi on the other hand...? well, the concept was easy, but satoru being who he was refused to buy a costume, simply buying a ton of fabric for both the costume and the little fur pieces he’d make as cuffs and the mane, for megumi to be the lion.

“only the best for my kids,” he sniffs haughtily as you take the glue gun and shoo him to the kitchen so he could run his hand under the cool water.

although megumi was more of a sleepy lion than a cowardly one (and you knew he was one of the bravest people you had met). and then you had realized the purpose of the phone call. satoru finally caved and used his phone a friend call for help.

and now here you were, pulling an all nighter with satoru at your side as you had, not to pat your own back, pull together a more than decent costume. you even made the matching headband for the ears.

but it was a successful all nighter, as tsumiki, hair done in a pair of low braids tied with ribbon, twirled in the dress that looked like the main heroine’s with a gleeful expression as satoru took pictures of her and a (funnily enough) yawning megumi.

“send those to me,” you say with a half yawn as you take another bite of toast, the kids finally heading off to the school. and you know from the ping from your phone that he already did.

“i think we did a great job,” he cheers.

“i think i did a great job,” you agree, “nothing a hot glue gun and a needle and thread can’t put together, even if i was called last minute and in a panic.” you stare at satoru who fidgets under your gaze.

“but i will admit, it was sweet of you to get them their costumes and attempt to make one yourself,” you acquiesce.

at this he beams, “sweet enough for my own treat?”

“now don’t get too excited on me now hot shot, i’m taking a nap before we have to pick them up, their classes are doing some activities aren’t they?”

“yup, and we’re gonna be the annoying parent/guardian duo with the disposable camera and air horn!”

“absolutely not.”

“but-!”

“maybe the camera part, but the air horn is still no.”

“you never let me have my fun,” and you can hear the pout from a mile away.

“if you dress up too i’ll think about it.”

and you pretend you don’t know him when you arrive to the children’s school with a satoru using silver body paint to be the tin man character, and nearly throttling him when he shouts to get tsumiki and megumi to look at him while you thank whatever above that you brought sunglasses to at least give you some level of anonymity.

“he’s kind of weird,” tsumiki says as you both walk in front, ignoring satoru’s indignant squawk behind you both, lips upturning slightly while megumi coughs to hide a snort.

“but he’s great,” she adds quietly thinking you can’t hear. and you can’t help but agree, surprisingly the girl slightly as she flushes, but smiles when you pat her on the head. he was rather sweet; doing all this for the pair when he easily could have gotten something ready made.

although you don’t tell him that, otherwise his ego would never allow you to hear the end of it.

[simp-lyzity]

you like zutara kanej and httyd? bestie we may be soulmates...

THE WAY I'VE BEEN SEEING U ON MY DASH AND NOW UR IN MY INBOX OH MY GOD THE INTERNAL ADFOISD;FASDOFHSDIIJ (panic? fangirling? smth?? idk???? but i love ur posts) if we have other common interests, no one will see me screeching about it but my laptop and my very old well-loved pillow pet

but YES i've loved zutara since i was a kid <3 i loved their chemistry so much and i love both characters and i'm SO MAD that they didn't end up together. trophy wife katara is an INSULT to her character, i couldn't even watch the rest of lok after the first few episodes, i hated where canon went after atla's epilogue. i only vaguely know ab lok canon but i stay firmly in atla's timeline lol

I DO LOVE KANEJ THO- i haven't read the nikolai duology but i DID read six of crows and loved it. i read the books after i watched ab half the show, then finished the two book series before resuming s&b on netflix lol but i've loved kanej since kaz knew his ghost was in the room AND WHERE IS THAT SCENE IN THE BOOKS WHERE HE SAVES INEJ, IT BETTER BE IN SEASON 2

as for httyd 👀 i only recently got back into it bc i absolutely loved it as a kid, but i've only seen the first and second movies and some of the show on netflix? but i wanna watch the rest of the shows bc they're also part of canon and I FOUND OUT TOOTHLESS FINDS A MATE IN THE THIRD ONE AND I JUST 😭😭😭 MY BABY FINDS LOVE

[lover-of-trash-and-people]

bittersweet netflix shadow and bone finale (s1 e8) rewatch; accoutrement: white wine with ice cubes in it (no YOU'RE a mom drink shh)

my wine's like fruity I love her

light and darkness title card we love to see it

Inej looking at Alina before she goes below deck to hide <3

okay that 'what can you really do on your own' was like not fun that shit hurted

okay but Jesper's 'not enough'? <3

oh no my baby Zoya's first inkling that Darkles does not really care

omg Helnik just appeared and I remembered how much heartbreak I have to face in this episode

gods I love Danielle as Nina so so much

'this can't be it' said she with her pleading smile with downturned eyebrows MA'AM I-

don't break my dumb little heart

I might hate Calahan's little accent but they're making me tear up

oh gods I literally cannot keep a hold on myself when Dani's accent bleeds through with full force, it's like she comes more alive or smth

'I will keep you warm' SIR WHAT-

I am surprised they showed a leaning in for a kiss so soon but I'm not mad about it

her little eyebrow twitch at 'what are waffles'

when that rando said 'i hunt slavers now' a dread settled into me because I knew what was about to go down

Matthias looking somberly at the stuffed wolf's head </3

I am so incredibly entranced by this exchange between Fedyor and Nina and what it represents, it's very interesting that they pushed up their storyline to match with the timeline

damn it's kind of jarring to be back in the Fold

'REMEMBER WHO'S DRIVING'??!!!! *you better stop* meme, *i am, disgusted* meme, *oh wow, oh wow* meme

Mal you fucking idiot you could never take the crows by surprise

the music rising as Kaz starts explaining his thought process, fucking perfection

haha Mal bitchass Inej caught you

'Because if he isn't with Kirigan's crew, he's with ours' WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED

'And why would we destroy the Fold? It's the greatest weapon we've got' valid point at the moment but you know I don't necessarily agree with your methods

the use of the light tunnel in the show instead of Alina just being a super flashlight in the books is quite an interesting addition as well

is this an inappropriate time to point out how pretty Ben Barnes is

okay I kind of love the depiction of the shadow powers okay sue me

'they are traitors who tried to kill you' why are you suddenly making valid points despite having kind of committed low scale genocide

'i never said I was smart' YES MAL BE THE VOICE OF HIMBOS EVERYWHERE

Kaz's face going from 'can you believe this idiot' at Mal to 'fuck me I'm gonna do the same thing aren't I' at Inej

'For who would oppose us now?' *himbo romantic rival appears out of nowhere and shoots at him* god I love this show

him standing calmly in his ridiculous all black attire after nodding at his soldier to stop the himbo in his tracks, i fucking can't

could she summon light without the Darkling making her after he put the collar on her until the uhm moment in the books? idts but in the show she can hmm

'only because I'm not in the game' you tell him Jesper

not me snickering at 'you'll be seen not as a saviour, but as a heretic' LMFAO

'Shame. I'll have to give that speech again now.' THIS SHOW IS A FUCKING COMEDY AND YOU CAN'T PROVE ME WRONG

YES LET'S FUCKING GO SULI SOLIDARITY

Darkles casually whipping the Cut out like a shuriken or a throwing knife at Jesper because he shot at him lmao I can't

INEJ FUCKING GHAFA STABBED ONE THE OLDEST AND MOST POWERFUL PEOPLE IN THAT WORLD AND THAT IS VERY TELLING OF HER POWER

that moment where you actually think that affected him despite having read the books and watched the show

and then he has to go and fucking say 'it will take more than this' and I can't be help but be a little bit impressed at this old fool's resilience

throwback to when he said 'the king is a child' sir you make some valid points sometimes and it does make it difficult to hate you

I would just like to inform everyone that it is currently 6:09 am IST and I am sipping my second mug of wine while watching netflix sab for the second time instead of doing my three papers that are due tomorrow

I'm sorry but Inej jumping to check on Zoya after she gets knocked over by the volcra? first class display of solidarity and sisterhood as well as Inej's inherent kindness

Kaz jumping in front of a FUCKING VOLCRA AND STABBING IT WITH HIS CANE to save Inej, you best believe love is true, kids

god the volcra are so ugly and gross, they did such a good job with them

they kind of remind me of these creatures (I think they might have been called Hollows or smth) from the Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children movie

STAG VISION TIME

despite my dislike for the callous nature with which the stag plotline was handled, I kind of dig the stag vision scene

'It's just me and you now, Alina. And we're all we need, anyway.' I actually feel bad for this old fool simping for this wonderful gorgeous powerful woman despite lying to her and manipulating her and exploiting her power

okay 'I never needed you' *stabs the bone fragment out of his hand* beautiful power move I fucking love you so so much

alright ben looking like ✨ that✨ not only in physical pain but also emotional pain at what the Darkling clearly considers another betrayal from this girl he wants to give the world and maybe? loves? maybe? or at least has feelings for makes my fucking heart hurt while simultaneously soar at Alina taking back control and reclaiming her power as her own and stepping into her own

'how do you claim such power' okay could have had better dialogue there writers

the fucking score lifting as she says 'you cannot claim what was not given to you' good people my heart is full

one day I'll talk about my defense of the chosen one trope because god damn I kind of love it

hmm I wonder was that brief hesitation that we saw on Alina's face due to her thinking about the 'you chose to betray our people' comment or the 'i was trying to save us' comment because that will define some of her actions in the later seasons (hopefully god if we get some, I honestly don't know what with this stupid brownface debacle)

I'm not saying talking about brownface and pointing out that it is wrong (for further context, I am actually brown) and harmful is stupid btw I'm talking about the incidents involving brownface in question

I don't wanna talk about this anymore but I might feel like I need to and end up posting about it idk

goodness Ivan actually believing in this cause makes me so sad because he too has been victimized by the system that ostracizes Grisha and he has every right to feel the way that he does

Ben actually fighting in that ridiculously heavy cloak and kefta when he's about to turn 40 this year makes me super impressed because I as a 19 year old sometimes wake up with muscle pulls after weeks of inactivity it's weird idk

also I understand that this Mal Darkling fight is completely fanservice and serves nearly no purpose to the plot in general but like I? love it?

'I don't have to kill you Darkling. Your past will do it for me' YES HIMBO GO OFF YOU TELL THAT OLD MAN GODS THAT WAS SEXY AS FUCK

maybe it's because I know Darkles will survive and will come out of it more powerful but I can't get myself to feel bad for him at the moment

Inej and Mal tearing up at Alina's condition made me almost feel something despite it being super obvious she was gonna be fine and save their asses at the last moment

HER POWER

a solitary Kaz in spotted on the western side of the newly expanded fold in his signature all black emo boy look

okay but the crows with zoya and malina is such an adorable team? I literally love them so much?

INEJ'S FUCKING SMILE AT ALINA GIVING HER THE DAGGER AND KAZ LOOKING AT HER AGSGSGSHSJSJSK MY HEART CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE

SHE KNOWS JUST WHAT TO NAME IT WELL GIRLIE I KNOW IT TOO AND MY FUCKING HEART IS LITERALLY GONNA BURST

okay I know they had one interaction but Mal and Jesper would be besties in another universe

Kaz glaring at Jesper when he answers ''course not' to Alina's 'will you still be trying to kidnap me?' tell me one fucking adaptation that got the dynamics between characters this perfectly

okay why do I love that Alina kept the jewellery as maybe a small nod to she has the wits to, um, you know, I don't wanna say steal, but, um, yeah, steal it because she knew she would need money to survive on the run

oh Jessie I love you so much I wish you hadn't said those things on you ig story about the brownface

it's like every single celeb I grow attached to god's like nope that one is going to do or say something problematic (hey btw im not reassigning blame to god for stuff people have done out of their own free will, 'twas a joke)

AAAAAAAH them saying 'the deal is the deal' in the show even though they didn't have to but like they did and I love them for it

Inej literally not being able to not stare at Kaz's face and smile after this <3

'I didn't expect it to burn at all. But it can be destroyed in the end. Just like him' babe you're not wrong but like um just you wait

god Mal being on supportive boyfie mode is well, absolutely adorable, obviously, but I wish we got to see more of him as a person outside of his attachment to Alina

kaz my little demjin I wish you hadn't have had to suffer so much to meet the crows and find your calling

fastforwarding Zoya's arc is also an interesting choice to me

I wish the hug hadn't been done though, it didn't feel earned

maybe Alina awkwardly and half-heartedly (remember, at this point the alliance is fresh and they still don't entirely trust each other) reached for a hug and Zoya avoided her? and then the rest of Zoya's lines followed? that would have made more sense to me at least

I love Sujaya as well, she brought life into Zoya with whatever little screentime and scraps of writing she got

inej asking kaz 'what's your angle?' beep bop bleep morp I sense another incoming embarrassing love confession

'but we do need you' *stares at her face intensely* 'I need you' ah look at the clock, look's like it's time to screech and flap your arms like you're a volcra because you're incapable of containing your emotions

NO YOU CAN'T GO DIRECTLY FROM KANEJ PROGRESS TO HELNIK BREAKUP (TEMPORARY, MIND YOU)

helnik my loves you don't deserve this I'm so sorry for both of you

Matthias fucking smiling ruefully while he says 'this was... just a cruel joke all along' THIS IS NOT FUCKING OKAY

omg hellgate

AAAAAAAAH NINA IS ON THE SAME FRAME AS THE OG CROWS I CAN'T HANDLE THIS

CAMERA PAN FROM KAZ SAYING 'JUST HOW THIS ALL STARTED... WE'RE GONNA NEED A HEARTRENDED' TO NINA OVERHEARING HIM AND LOOKING OVER?????!!!!!! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING THIS TO ME?!

Nina genuinely being curious as to the status of the sun saint because she obviously still cares

Also, 'But she is a Saint' okay Kaz trying to earn brownie points you have succeeded

DID THAT SAILOR JUST SAY 'GOED MORGEN FENTOMEN' TO MALINA BECAUSE I AM NOT OKAY WITH THEM JUST THROWING THAT IN MY FACE ALL OF A SUDDEN

gods I know I'll probably see them again but my heart is full of sorrow as my eyes drink in the sight of my crows for the last time for a while

I know people were annoyed at the meadow flashbacks but guess what? as a darklina, I loved them

'now that the Darkling is dead' could have phrased that a little differently my dudes that line needed to hold more weight

am I glad that they showed Darkles in this state with his nichevo'ya as a tasty little cliffhanger despite not being entirely true to the source material? maybe but only because Ben Barnes saying 'follow' and the nichevo'ya doing exactly so sent a chill down my spine

well, that's it for now, I'll have to move on I guess, get back to my real life which I'm obviously not ready to do

thank you to whoever actually read these things

I probably should have just made reactions or commentary videos instead but I'm lazy

my tumblr will probably go into inactivity once more as I emerge from my stint in the grishaverse

it was quite short (less than 2 months), considering the length of my other obsessions but it was definitely more intense than the other ones

[unkillability]

tell me abt dr. Red!!!!

:D ty

[fyi im trying not 2 be 2 vague but i have a rough Plot for Future Projects in mind that im still developing so w some of my ocs like. things are dependent on Story Events i havent fully decided on myself yet so i cant be Too Specific as it may change. atm avi & skipper are my Main mains that i can give a Lot of detail abt & im working on everyone else omg.]

Full Name: Dr. Red Kirsch 

Gender and Sexuality: dude + bi

Pronouns: he/him

Ethnicity: black

Birthplace and Birthdate: hhh havent decided exactly where he was born but like. midatlantic region. also idk the date but hes a pisces …

Guilty Pleasures: soap operas & ‘housewives of _blank_’ style shows & stuff like. survivor & whatnot hgrefgdhtg. hes an Academic™ & Uber Serious Doctorate Holder & his peers would never let him live it down. 

Phobias: umm hm idrk? hes a bit hypermoral & Really afraid of doing the wrong things; the potential of being morally grey stresses him out so hard. idk about specific phobias that arent like. typical things like bees, spiders, heights etc. his fears are pretty normal to the average person. 

What They Would Be Famous For: scientist…or maybe idrk

What They Would Get Arrested For: god idk he doesnt really shake the boat in a public sense. maybe having a science accident in like his. apartment or smth. & getting in trouble for that. 

OC You Ship Them With: hmm like ok so in the Main Timeline reds removed from the main cast for a bit- but he has A Husband & i havent yet outlined that character 

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: ooof oof spoilers guess. its complicated i wont say but it doesnt happen omg she could Never. 

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: fantasy + sci-fi [SOLARPUNK] but also.. romance…

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: dystopian/post apocalyptic futures. ‘everything is bad everyone Dies the world is Fucked & everyones Evil.’ see: solarpunk.   

Talents and/or Powers: um hes really good at playing instruments? like how some people can just sorta pick up an instrument and intuitively play it by ear. also hes a rlly rlly good scientist. pioneering top of his field. 

Why Someone Might Love Them: hes sorta like, think likably zany professor who could also definitely pass as a mad scientist [he has The Means grfehdvf also hes p much. exactly that at one point. but shh spoilers] but really Honestly wants to do good things & make the world a better place. makes sure people are ok. generous & kind. like u know how some ppl are Super Nice but it seems almost insincere/ annoying? its not like that. hes just truly a sunny genuine kinda person

Why Someone Might Hate Them: he can seem a little goody-two-shoes? or at least afraid to rock the boat. maybe a bit too stubbornly optimistic at times.  

How They Change: oof spoilers but ill just say: Getting A New Job, getting outta a funk, uprooting & starting fresh, goin all out being an eccentric sorta guy, getting a bf, Thriving etc

Why You Love Them: hes one of my somewhat newer characters + theres a lot i plan on getting into with him but i rlly like that i can just go ham researching scientific stuff & play with semi-sci fi but really just hypothetical near future topics. ‘ethics of nanobiotechnology.’ etc

[infinnitethejackal]

Hey Finn, do you think you could teach me about what kin is? It sounds really intriguing and I think I'd enjoy learning about it :O

aaa, sure thing dude!! i’m not the best teacher in the world ngl lmao but like, i can at least attempt to do so! first off, i’ll preface that kin views, feelings and experiences can vary from person to person, so my own word shouldn’t be taken as all there is to being kin. i’m also gonna drop a couple of links before i get onto my own ramblings on the topic for additional information / more input!the otherkin wiki could be a good place to start poking around as there are multiple pages for different types of kin and other nifty stuff! treat it like an info hub! for example, check here for a brief run-down on fictionkin - my type!below a read-more here are then my own ramblings on Kin Stuff™ for you and anyone else who may be interested :0c 

ok, here we go! to begin with, as you heard me mention above the cut, there’s different types of kin - many actually - but they all still boil down to bigger categories for the most part - at least from what i’ve observed! otherkin is likely the most common term you’ll hear above all, and, again from my own observation so take with a grain of salt or w/e, is kinda treated as an umbrella / core term that links into everything else in some way or another?? for example, fictionkin are considered part of the otherkin community, stuff like that. idk it’s hard to explain hhHHHH moving on!!since i’m fictionkin myself, i’m gonna assume that’s the kind of kin you’re mostly asking about here, but like if you do mean a broader range, then fear not cause most things that i’ll try to cover such as memories of being who/what you kin or phantom sensations and all that jazz can still apply anyways.so! fictionkin is kinda… well, i guess the core of it is that it’s where you’re very deeply connected with a character, to the point where you just feel you are them, you identify as them. you just… have this strong feeling, this sense of “i am _” and it’s kinda hard for me to describe personally. most fictionkin such as myself believe in multiverse and past lives; there could very well be universes where these characters are or were real, and when they pass on, they move into another, taking a new form in doing so. it can be a spiritual thing, that kinda deal you know? different body, same soul? idk? but as i said earlier, this all still may vary from person to person; not everyone in the world has the same beliefs. to a lot of non-kin ppl, the whole thing probably sounds a bit bananas, identifying as a fictional character and whatnot. theres uh. a fair bit of hate for us out there lmaobrushing up more on the previous life stuff, some ppl actually have very in-depth and vivid memories of their life as the character they kin with and it’s really interesting!! they can be triggered by things relating to their character, or sometimes come in dreams. others may lack them, but whether you do or don’t get kin memories doesn’t make you more or less valid as kin. in some cases, ppl also share memories! that’s often referred to as being canonmates - taking into account how their memories line up so well, two or more ppl may believe they came from the same “canon” / timeline / universe as each other. also included in this topic is canon-divergence! a canon-divergent kin is where someone may have memories that conflict with some source material of the game/book/movie/etc.to pitch in my own example of the above kind of things, while i’m still not sure if it’s truly a memory yet as it’s my first experience trying to identify one, i have this extremely specific image that’s always dwelled in the back of my mind. it’s me as infinite, pre-forces, lounging in a big ol’ chill dogpile with the rest of the jackal squad. we’re in a desert, but nearby an oasis or smth i think? and for once i’m letting my guard drop?? they’re teasing me about how i’m going soft, but i don’t bother denying it and we all just cherish the moment of peace for once. i just… have such strong feelings attached to it, it’s stuck with me so long and it feels like something that may have happened. other things i feel fairly sure of are my old name being finn (hence why i use it now), and at some point (likely post-forces / post redemption of some kind?) i had a strong positive connection with gadget despite him not even being truly canon nor a friend of infinite at all.i’m wracking my brain for other stuff to mention, and more things related to kins can also be experiencing phantom pains of injuries received in their past life or just like, general sensations induced by kin related stuff. as a sensation example, again using just my own personal experience, one of the earliest times i can remember that i heard the phantom ruby sound effect in clear quality, i had a… kind like a sudden, tingly rush in the centre of my chest from what i recall? and there was this sense of discomfort i guess, yet also familiarity sorta? it was just after the game coming out so kinda a while ago now. some ppl get really unpleasant pains, tho i haven’t personally been thru that.on a final note, i think the last thing that comes off the top of my head to mention is kin doubles! i’m sure you’ve likely heard abt double drama joke posts and other stuff like that bc sometimes the discourse can be Real between ppl. again, doubles link back to the whole multiverse idea that a lot of this branches from, which would explain there being so many multiples of a character, bc we’re all from slightly different universes. some people can find doubles invalidating or intimidating i think? and so they don’t like interacting with them? others think they’re the “only real one” and that’s kinda shiddy. others are fine with doubles and i fall into that category!! welcome all twinfinites B)aaaand i think that a wrap! there’s a looooot of tangents here bc i wanted to try and provide as much insight as i could based on my own experiences, thoughts and knowledge, but even i’m still kinda Novice Kinnie so!! i apologise to fellow kin ppl if i made any inaccuracies lmao i’m not used to Explaining The Thinghope it was at least a lil informative !!

[trueheda]

                     1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY. ya’ll know me, i hate making things serious and sappy but i really did want to get around to writing something more for my one year on this babe because she means so much to me ( and so much more now that i’ve been writing her for a year ). ontari is such a wonderful and complex character, and it’s a shame given the show she was given she was only in there for one season it’s always an honor for me that ya’ll are willing to accomidate me into your lives, rp timelines, and plots ! i’ve honestly adored spending this last year with yall. with so much that’s happened irl in this past year it’s been such a blessing to have a steady place where i felt comfortable and identified to be able to hang out and write creativly, plus the bonus of enjoying my bbies ( that’s you lot ).  and i know i’ve done some pretty shitty shit in this past year. and this is deffiently also a thank you letter to everyone that’s stuck by my side despite everything i’ve done not to deserve it. so this is my personal way of saying THANK YOU for being here, for wanting to write with ontari, for wanting to write with me, thank you for those 2AM movie nights, for the 4AM rush replies because a thread was just addicting, thank you for bringing a smile to my face for introducing me to friends new and old and freinds i wouldnt have been able to make if not for this blog. thank you so much. ya’ll don’t understand how much this means to me. and i dont think you will. so here’s a small little thank you notice for those of you that care:

if you were to LIKE & REBLOG this post ( * yes both ) you’ll be entered to win the following provided to you by YOURS TRUELY examples including ( all my rp blogs legit just look at any of the rp blogs ): a THEME BG + CODE * only if u want a custom code by me ofc it’s up to you, a PROMO SET, a DASH ICON, a MOBILE HEADER and !! an AZGEDA EDIT of your character because how tf would you not want more azgeda around !! 

now that we’ve gotten that out of the way and i’ve given ya’ll a small thanks, i want to give you an even bigger thanks ! and wanted to give a big shout out to my fave babes whom have stuck by my side through a whole lot of shit that is hella undeserved ! but yet you’re still here ! despite it all and i owe you all the world so thank you. so much. 

@murhys - MOON !! love of my life. cas to my dean. actual other half. salt king husband to our salt kingdom. moon you’ve been there for me since day 1 and are probably the only person on this website i’ve never had a disagreement with. you wormed ur skaidad into my baby icekids heart which i thought would be impossible and it’s magic how much i enjoy ur presence really. you’re deff like my other half babe. ultimate husband. ily

@azgona / @braverstars - HANNAH !! b to my v. actual partner in crime when it comes to like anything ! legit we write anything and theres so much perfect chemsitry between the characters that i think we were meant to b babe. like legit anything we do its magic and you really need to have more faith in this community because we need u man. we need you. 

@kiingbuilt - LENEE ( STARS ) !! actual babe. positivity queen lenee. honestly ur so sweet and so perf and idk what you want me to say bc ur awesome in every way ? you put up with me who’s like the dark hole to ur sunshine but like i’m always so greatful i don’t think there could be a better person i’d want to play tari against than you, roan and her have such depth and it’s so wonderful to be able to talk at lengeth about our ice siblings and what could have been like ! ily so much thanks for legt taking care of us all better than what we deserve

@leyosgona / @saviorbuilt - SOCHIE !! my babe sochie waht to i say about you. well lets start with the fact i don’t think i’ve ever become trash for a ship quite as quickly as i became trash for catari like wtf man. i’m going to second that with sayig ur clarke is presh and i love her to death ? and top it all off with the fact hat you legit always put up with me spamming u wit random af things without ur permission and are a okay with it all the time which makes u way too cool. 

@humansympathies - CHARLES !! legit one of these days im sealing u away form ur wife just u wait ( * hamilton an american musical plays in the bg  )  honestly i still need to thank you for making me so goddamned comfortable with being okay to write something i had been so nervous to write before because of the context of th show. you are the reason i was able to come out of my bubble and im so fucking thankful for that sitll am going to add #actualjohnmurphy bc nothing u do can change that

@ginatcnic - LAUREN !! gg lauren ur always around to help me when i need it and i really think i dont deserve you as a friend you’re amazing and always there for me and put up with me ranting @ you about the randomest bullshit and being vauge af about it and whatnot. ilysm babe dont forget ever that you are one of the most important parts of this fandom and we’d be lost without you. 

@foxofthe100 / allofthe100 - BRITT !! things i never expected i would do: ship with britt. things i’m super thankful happened: shipping with britt. not that we needed it to be friends bc w were friends beforei. but i deff think that foxtari has brought us closer and i’m so glad that it did !! you’re such a fun and acomplished person, and your view on things are always so well balanced and lovely to hear ! being who i am i love understanding things and you always put things in prespective. just in time to drop an angst ball on me but yknow. 

@si02built / @rainkiing - CHUCK !! yo you. yes you. i love ya man. like i do love you so much i don’t think you understand how much you’re amazing. you’ve been there for me since day 1 and i know that it dosn’t matter if i havent spoken to you in a day or in a month we’ll jump back into things just as they’ve always been meant to be and i think there’s a sort of treasure in that tat can’t be sahken. i love you man. kisses. take care

@damnleader - NIKKI !! i dont know where to start with you man. i started off as ur biggest fan and now look at us. we’re trash and i love it and you legit need to get ur ass back onto this account so i can yell at you about how presh u are and how much i miss talking to you and ranting and bless. 

@youngcst​ - MOO !! moo. legit i never knew whether to call you that or lois but you know what it don’t matter much now does it. waht i will say however is how thankful i am that we were bros for such a long time, and how much it means to me what nova and tari built toether and their relationship like i sob over our babies so often you don’t even know ! please always keep bringing us babe characters. 

bonus shoutout - @ CONSQUAD because yall put up with my ass for 4 days and if anyone can do that i think they deserve like a gold medal or smth like pls yall are honestly some of the best people keep being you !! @banishhim ( black hole ) / @algaenotwar ( milky way ) / @stellarstolen

bonus bonus shoutout - @ icesquad because AZKRU BEST KRU - some of ya’ll are inactive and need to get ur asses back here just sayin’ @icymenace / @azhaihefa / @aznofi / @azkeyva / @azgedaechoes / @azgada / @aznontu / @komashdaun /  @azenblida / @dubiousloyalty / @challengedloyalty / @shudameika / @aiopgona / @zosimekomazgeda / @wintamnontu / @deathwants / @icebuilt / @icebitxh / @leyosgona / @kiingbuilt / @haihefaroun / @firraun / @rcyalscars / @acrownofice / @youngcst 

i also wanted to make a sort of like FOLLOW FOREVER ? like ? idk how you make a solid one of these but just like all the blogs ? i’m in awe of whenever they come on the dash seemed like a good idea ? like these are all so quality all the time eve if some are inactive i refuse to unfollow just because of the chance they’ll come back, they should be a shoutout bc they are my inspiration to write they make me a better writer every day ! and love the hell out of them: @wolfsouled / @rattledbybullets /  @ragnarsscn / @princeubbe / @belomi / @soldiiermade / @imqetuous / @everyturnanycost / @noximperator / @lionoffrance / @praycd / @redempticnarc / @bloodshedbound / @allvanquisher / @murdocksredemption / @damnmechanic / @leaderbuilt / @casuistic / @headstrongblake / @crimiinalchemiist / @noukru / @starxbcrn / @arroworn / @survivorbuiilt

[55oju]

BEHIND PROLOGUE

prologue 

hello :) thanks for reading this lol. i’ll try not to make these too long idk. i’m writing informally here too. but let’s analyze the prologue: this is basically me telling you everything you might have missed because i didn’t know if i expressed it well. 

WARNING: before continuing, please read the chapter. there are spoilers ahead.

okay, the prologue starts with a dream. hence the italics. it says a man who is supposed to protect and I AM NOT TELLING YOU WHO IM TALKING ABOUT just yet anyways. lol but it is clearly a male-figure in her life. jukhyun has this nightmare and it gives her once again another sleepless night or rough night.

speaking of JAE RA. i will try to say this without leaking anything about her and her childhood with jukhyun so i’m sorry if this sounds funky and weird but she is her sister and an artist who lives in america. lol i said that in the chapter; yall it’s hard not to spill anything.. but that is jukhyun’s older sister. i don’t know if i’ll mention this in the main because it’s not that relevant but she is a 86 liner, being 6 years older than jukhyun / you?

NOW THE FLOWER

uh how do i explain this. the flower doesn’t play an important role? yet? but i haven’t really put a story of why i use a flower to tell you that there is a memory or flashback in time.. but let me tell you about the first flashback- ALSO I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO CALL IT OTHER THAN A FLASHBACK UHM PLS- but anyways,, this flashback is on jukhyun’s 22nd birthday. (shes the same age as seokjin) this flashback occurs after hearing just one day on the radio which she actually listens to the radio quite often because it gives her *cough cough* a feeling of warmth and i’ll stop now. but yes, she gets a flashback to her 22nd birthday and her sister insisted or tells her that she has a present that she mailed to jukhyun for her birthday. 

she gets a letter from her friend, sojung, her father, manager sejin, jae ra and then, she received a package that was from unknown which she had expected that the package was from her sister but she knows exactly who is was from if it wasn’t from her sister. WORLDWIDE HANDSOME YALL; ugh fan girl moment, i’m sorry. if you read what he had gave her and i’m not telling yall if she went <3 sorry bout it- we’re only analyzing boos <3 and as you can see, seokjin says something like i know you dont want me around.. or something along the lines of that and this means they have split omgomg winkwink. he also says: which i don’t know why or something like that and this means he doesn’t know the reason of why jukhyun split up with seokjin.. heartbreaking, right ?!?! pls i type like a nerd. 

this “chapter” was short but it was because it was just the prolouge. i mostly used this to grab viewers attention and to introduce her family? And her relationship with seokjin. 

the dates are key in this story. i created a whole ass timeline pls. 

anyways i think im going to do song of the chapter then characteristics of jukhyun and the drafts or something <3

song of the chapter is the first song of the playlist, just one day. in the playlist, i put focus areas which might be taken out due to the BEHIND series like this, where i explain why i have this song in the playlist or smth.

so i had just one day and the focus area of the song was verse two and the chorus.

;;just one day;;

!verse two, !chorus  

[verse 2: V, RM]

If only I could do that, how nice would it be

If only we could go anywhere

To eat and watch a movie comfortably

I would do anything girl

I’m sorry

Maybe I’m too rational

But still, if you see me someday, smile

Maybe you resent me a little or no, a lot

I know, I couldn’t look at you more because of my dream

Then just give me one day

Even if it’s in my dream, just one day

Out of all those words I had to swallow

Because of the excuse of reality

I’ll pick one and tell it to you for sure

Let’s meet when the morning glory blooms

And part when they wither

I didn’t think I’d get over you easily but

Is it selfish of me to hope you are the same?

I’m still lying, saying that it’s all for you

You are standing in the center of my life

[chorus: vocal line]

Just one day, if I can be with you

Just one day, if I can hold your hands

Just one day, if I can be with you

Just one day (just one day)

If only we can be together

because the song was kind of dedicated to jukhyun (fictionally) i had to make it the song of this chapter // but it wasnt what i originally had in mind.. // using this song for the chapter and explaining seokjin’s use of the song to jukhyun is if he can have just one day to see jukhyun again as they are split and they are broken up. as he knows like if they do have another day, it would be hard for jukhyun to leave seokjin again << ALSO, seokjin doesn’t know why jukhyun broke up with him. !!SORRY IF I KEEP CALLING HIM SEOKJIN: i do it because i’m so used to typing seokjin for the story!! by the way if these seem to all over the place for you, i just want to say everything before my train of thought gets lost.

continuing with the song analyze and it’s use;; in the chapter, i was going to make it as seokjin made the song with yoongi since yoongi is one of the original writers of the song but i just put it as seokjin ranted to yoongi or the group about his problems and yeah.

things you might’ve missed:

-in the flashback, jukhyun receives mail from manager sejin.

it’s just a hint that although seokjin and jukhyun broke up, she has decided to keep in touch with bts’s manager.

manager sejin is bts’s manager. has been with bts since early debut or before debut :) more about him is added in the next chapter or in chapter one.

-jukhyun characteristic / fear;;

this was very subtle but she has a fear of lighting/thunder, it’s not just some fear either and i can’t say the story behind why she has this fear but it has really bad uhm backstory to it. 

here’s this leak that i just wanted to add cause i’m feeling risky LOL and cause i don’t think anyone will read this because this is longer than the chapter itself PLS. 

Jukhyun was a 1st ranker of the country for all 3 years of her highschool life. we couldnt leave out a female beak seung jo out // i love my kdramas, i��m sorry. 

extra;; 

i have a schedule for posting which chapters are posting every tuesday and behind eps are posted on thursday but i don’t want to post that because i never stick to it.

and i actually wrote this before but didn’t finish it. this is more polished i would say??? i wrote this on wattpad but there was a hack i think and yeah <3 it got my mom involved too i think and so yeah <3 we’re not doing that again.

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