#this is what i meant by lucid blues btw

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[vasito-de-leche]

I have some thoughts in my mind lately in the Self aware au R1999 (I'm invested so badly), I was wondering are there any arcanist that resented the player maybe at first or still having resentment on them? Because if the player wasn't there they would be " free " (which I would doubt since there are many players and it would still happen nonetheless but just speaking from there perspective) did they just helplessly or casually got over it after some time and accepted the fact it was a game I mean they were levelled up by the player,the player was the reason why they were getting stronger and winning every battle but I have a feeling some arcanist would have some doubt in them since everything was just a script in the first place all the things that happened to them were meant to happen for the plot, I don't about how to reach when they find out that the player was a human though.. But just like earlier if the player never was here then they would be " free ",they wouldn't know it was just some game (they gonna go bree since they wouldn't exist)(RAHHH I might have wronged what I said in this😭 I just have a thought in my mind about them doubting, feeling frustrated and all...Btw I am badly down bad for your writing 💜💜💜 I admire it so well.. 🥹🫶🫶 can I get a hello Please.. ?💜🥹💜 I'd go crazy being noticed on a writer I admire)

hiiii helloooo hola bonjour and many other greetings o7 really glad you like my writing!

your question is very broad, so I can only make a quick list to categorize all the characters and how I think they'd feel overall towards the Player within this AU! since you only mentioned arcanist, I assume you mean the playable characters only, so that's also the group I'll be tackling

I don't have a good grasp on every single character, so some of these are subject to change as I learn more about them too o7

It's very, very complicated.

Vertin. Door. Mesmer Jr. Bkornblume. I consider these characters to be "outliers" in terms of how they perceive the Player--in the sense that their opinion fluctuates and varies a lot, so they cannot be easily labeled in any of the other categories. They're contradicting or find themselves at odds with themselves, seeing the figure of the Player and everything the Player represents as positive and negative influences simultaneously. To them, you're a close friend and a distant stranger, a saviour and a harbinger of ruin, a source of knowledge and the end of everything--you're all of these, all at once.

as for the rest, I only described the opposite ends of the spectrum and the neutral category!

Extremely resentful and hateful

Desert Flannel. Erick. Mondlicht. Oliver Fog. Pavia. Sonetto. Sweetheart. This one is pretty straightforward--these are the characters who are defensive, who feel like your mere existence is mocking them, who have gone through so much and feel humiliated to know you're casually looking at them from above, so out of reach and superior and unbothered by their pain. But also characters who are combative or quick to identify you as a threat, such as Pavia and Sonetto, because you go against everything they believe in.

Stressed, requires a lot of time to get over it

AliEn T. Bette. Bunny Bunny. Charlie. Ezra. Kanjira. Matilda. Pickles. Ulu.

Mostly troubled, but open to change

6. Mr. APPLe. Darley Clatter. Diggers. Druvis III. La Source. Lilya. Melania. Ms. Moissan. Poltergeist. Zima

Neutral, indifferent and/or unaffected

Baby Blue. Click. Dikke. Jessica. John Titor. Rabies. Sputnik. Tennant. Tooth Fairy. Twins Sleep. These characters remain neutral, but do not confuse their indifference or lack of reaction for ignorance. Some of them aren't quite lucid, conscious or old enough to fully understand their surrounding, such as Rabies and Twins Sleep, but I would say the rest are grounded enough as to not let a figure such as the Player affect them in any intense or extreme way. Some of them simply don't care because this entire reveal doesn't exactly change their routine nor perception of the world. Some are choosing to remain neutral until they gather more information to form a solid opinion.

Mostly curious, but open to change

A Knight. Cristallo. Kaalaa Baunaa. Ms. NewBabel. Necrologist. Satsuki. Spathodea. Voyager.

Eager to learn, requires a lot of stress to be affected

37. An-an Lee. Centurion. Eagle. Horropedia. Leilani. Nick Bottom. Shamane. Sotheby. X.

Extremely intrigued

Eternity. Medicine Pocket. Ms. Radio. ONiON. Regulus. TTT. The Fool. Regardless of how your existence affects these characters, their curiosity and the new opportunities and possibilities you bring along are much more important to them. These are characters who seek to profit from you in some way, who see you as a fascinating subject to study, who may even relate in a way to the role you play as the Player, who may pity you.

[astrojoy]

Divine Communication Method #1

TYPE 1

Synchronicities

What Are They?

A repeated meaning given through symbolism of objects, numbers, occurences, etc

A Few Examples

🌱 Seeing repeating numbers

🌱 Seeing repeating images/stories

🌱 Somehow ending up in a place of an occurences at just the right time

🌱 Someone warning you about something and then you somehow end up in a situation that you were warned about before

🌱 Somehow always ending up with a certain object or item all the time

🌱 Hearing the same unique word being talked about over and over again with no real reason (ex - unicorns)

Frequent Misunderstandings

I used number examples

🌱 Seeing a number on the clock like 11:11 once and thinking it was for sure a sign (coincidences happen + 1 time isn't something trying to get your attention

🌱 Seeing a synchronicity like 777 or 33 only a few times (like 2 times for example) and thinking it was a sign meant to be

🌱 Thinking that synchronicities can only be numbers like 888 or 9999 when they can actually vary widely such as 1818, 2586, 1214, etc!

🌱 Having a dream about a number like 111 and thinking it was destined. If it was lucid id say it's possibly a bit different, however if you dream regularly about different random things you think of throughout daily life then it probably wasn't since logically we need to face psychology too! ^^

My Personal Experience

To help anyone better understand

All of a sudden I started seeing fairy symbolism out of the blue. I didn't know why I just did. Fairy images started popping up on my recommendations, pinterest and etc even though I never look up that stuff. People's pfp would sometimes show a fairy. People's names I saw started showing usernames like "Fairyy_Love" "Forestpixie78" "$illyfairiee" etc. a tarot reading including "you may have fairy ancestory". A comment saying "you remind me of a fairy! So positive and uplifting". Looking back at an old book I wrote when I was younger that I had forgotten all about and noticing the books title was called "The gift of Joy" and it was about a fairy and finding her "spark" (btw if you didn't notice my name on Tumblr is 'Joy' which made it even more bizarre)

Stuff like this 💚

[whatatime30]

Can I ask... all of them?????

I mean, I guess??? Why not! 

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Spotify

is your room messy or clean? It’s a neat messy.

what color are your eyes? Dark brown.

do you like your name? why? Yes. It’s my mom’s maiden name.

what is your relationship status? Single

describe your personality in 3 words or less. Saltier. Than. Pretzels.

what color hair do you have? Brown.

what kind of car do you drive? color? I don’t have my license or a car, so...

where do you shop? Walmart mostly

how would you describe your style? I dunno... Preppy???

favorite social media account? Tumblr

what size bed do you have? Twin

any siblings? 7

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? Texas. It’s cool (I already live here btw).

favorite snapchat filter? I don’t have snapchat

favorite makeup brand(s)? I dunno what brand my makeup is.

how many times a week do you shower? My socially acceptable answer is 7.

favorite tv show? Arthur

shoe size? 12

how tall are you? 5′8′’

sandals or sneakers? Sneakers

do you go to the gym? Ha. No.

describe your dream date. A boy with eyes and a face.

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? $37

what color socks are you wearing? I’m not wearing socks.

how many pillows do you sleep with? None.

do you have a job? what do you do? No.

how many friends do you have? 0.

whats the worst thing you have ever done? Pinched a toddler for biting my younger brother.

whats your favorite candle scent? Pineapple.

3 favorite boy names. Hux, Henry, and Humbert

3 favorite girl names. Graphter, Anna, and Diane

favorite actor? Grant Gustin

favorite actress? No

who is your celebrity crush? Grant Gustin

favorite movie? Harold and Maude

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? I don’t have a fav book, but I’m really into The Book Thief and Lolita

money or brains? Brains, I suppose.

do you have a nickname? what is it? Depends on the setting. Different people call me different things. Surproisingly, only adults call me by my name.

how many times have you been to the hospital? More than I can count.

top 10 favorite songs. Oof. Currently? Freak by Molly Sandén; Wolves by Selena Gomez; My Mistake by Gabrielle Aplin; Growing Pains by Alessia Cara; We Belong by Pat Benetar; Chun Li by Nicki Minaj; It’s Raining Men by Weather Girls; I Wanna Dance With Somebody by Whitney Houston; Lucid Dreams by JuiceWRLD; and Fergalicious by Fergie.

do you take any medications daily? Yes

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) Oily

what is your biggest fear? Failure

how many kids do you want? However many God wants to give me

whats your go to hair style? Cornrows

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) Big

who is your role model? I don’t have one of those

what was the last compliment you received? An AO3 comment

what was the last text you sent? “This world? A shotgun.”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? I was always taught Santa was fake

what is your dream car? One that works

opinion on smoking? Stupid

do you go to college? No

what is your dream job? Writer and Church Admin

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? No

do you have freckles? No

do you smile for pictures? No

how many pictures do you have on your phone? Over 1,000

have you ever peed in the woods? No

do you still watch cartoons? Yes

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? McDonalds

Favorite dipping sauce? Ew. I hate condiments.

what do you wear to bed? T-Shirt and Shorts

have you ever won a spelling bee? Yes. Thrice. *insert smug face here*

what are your hobbies? Writing and reading

can you draw? No

do you play an instrument? No

what was the last concert you saw? Never seen one

tea or coffee? Tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Starbucks

do you want to get married? Yes

what is your crush’s first and last initial? LM

are you going to change your last name when you get married? Yes

what color looks best on you? Pink

do you miss anyone right now? Lots of people

do you sleep with your door open or closed? Closed

do you believe in ghosts? The Holy Ghost :-)

what is your biggest pet peeve? Violation of comma rules

last person you called? Mommy

favorite ice cream flavor? Chocolate

regular oreos or golden oreos? Neither

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? Rainbow

what shirt are you wearing? A light blue school t-shirt

what is your phone background? moodboard for my “Murmaid” story

are you outgoing or shy? Shy

do you like it when people play with your hair? No one’s ever done it before.

do you like your neighbors? I don’t know them.

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? Both.

have you ever been high? No.

have you ever been drunk? No.

last thing you ate? A dinner roll.

favorite lyrics right now? 

Am I jaded?Am I meant to feel this way?I'm a loser, getting beat by my own gameBut if I falter, well at least it was my mistake

summer or winter? Winter

day or night? Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? Milk

favorite month? December

what is your zodiac sign? I don’t do that kind of stuff (the parentals).

who was the last person you cried in front of? I don’t cry in front of people.

[mebeingserious]

(c.) End 2012 - Early 2013

- - #1

#Based On A You Story. Blinking cursor.

Peep my Doogie Howser blue screen. Peep my blue light. No bloc festivities, streamers, or tails to pin anything on. Pin that shit on yourself, B. Take responsibility.

“Pin The Tail” had a Max B verse on the original. Do with that knowledge what you will if what you will do is reimburse me for my strong miscellany-fact-brain game. I refined it through the arthritis of those on my personal Mt. Rushmore.

I’m unknowable, really. You should get to un-know me.

And it was an inside job, btw. Egged on by the peanut gallery, flipped the switch, gave you a parachute and some mumble-mumble about how the chlorophyll’s gonna be stunning.

I’m just another human cat, word to Grass Green. Don’t treat me like the grassy knoll. Leave them stones turnt all the way down.

But that “you” isn’t you, that’s you’s on you’s on you’s. UUU, if you will. Gotta not have it.

New swatch alert. Here. Peep the texture and the hues. That’s the interior.

Cam’ron in a Utah Jazz throwback staring back at me through a phone’s reflection. [||]. You right, you right.

Captain Quirk but the Captain Crunch Dog at the same damn time. Pretend it’s two months ago, though.

Your last.fm recent plays leave you vulnerable, if you think about it. I thought about it.

I need to remind myself I don’t do this for the little or the big dunns. Everyone needs to get their Lex Luger on from time to time. B.Y. Before Yokozuna.

So I say that to say this: “Can’t call it, might spoil it”

Performing tune-ups with some VBRs and possibly, 192s. You can only crash so many planes before you start frisking yourself in the airport.

Further and farther are in full effect. But then I remember “that’s when the money starts running” and Stoicism, and put it in hands I once knocked down.

- - #2

Spot ‘em, got ‘em. I got dirt on you, doggie.

But God made dirt and dirt bust your ass.

Or my ass. I know too much. Internal Spy vs. Spy.

I saw those stars. Had my radars up. Tangible air.

One minute it’s in the constellations, the next sixty-seconds it’s a “Superthug” if.

Hella.

No, not you. The other. But you? You’re putting together a 150-piece in the dark.

Me? S.O.L. S.O.S. But I’m like Private Ryan. So you can save that.

Oh wait, I forgot that motherfucker survived.

Anyways, haardships.

My window’s been closed but at least I have a window. But it’s lowkey amazing that a window is even a thing.

I just did what Game did with the coaching of the fat producer on ironing Dickies. But you don’t hear me, doe.

Do you hear me, doe? This is the Gawd.

He doesn’t take requests but he’ll play me, though.

But really, I did that. Sorta like what Kane said on “The Symphony.”

Anyways, indecision.

He who hesitates in peace is even worse.

The pyramids didn’t get built by throwing stones or sitting on them. But I fucked up when I entertained the E.T. theory.

I’m the man now, dog. But really, without the seven you’re not Sean Connery. You’re just…

Anyways, alternate universes. That exist in shared thought bubbles.

But that’s the only place they ever existed, nah?

But let’s thought experiment. Does that outcome satisfy?

Or is it just better than hearing a single echo against drywall?

I can give you advice on farther but my track record is a stumble out the blocks paired with a horizontal starting gun, finished off with a somersault. 1.0 - 1.0 - 1.0

Got gotted and spotted.

Need is whatever you think it is.

But try to take my arm and leg and I might be that shoe with the band between the big toe.

You can have a symphony composed of c-notes in that porcelain but if you don’t embrace that internal Hammer … well. Basslines don’t come across well in sign.

You can go on and be Big L’s Rocafella debut, but you don’t know voodoo.

But tangible is good. I mean, Tough Luv holds up pretty well eight years later.

I guess I misunderstood that originally. Or I tried to understand too soon. He was right when he said “…or rather me.”

- - #3

The last verse on “Pyramids” without the sonic context.

Strikes Back. In the Empire. They say it’s their favorite flick.

Swore my hand waved to me as it fell, in that “Hi, Hater” motion.

Took off that mask and it was a mirror. No disrespect but there’s truth to it.

Anton Chigurh in the guidance counselor’s office basically saying “heads or tails.”

Saw it with the old man. In the alt. section of the universe it was Batman Returns.

Trying to lucid dream about the Northwest in 1996, but I’m better off sleeping. And peeping those trees with the date emblazoned in a reddish orange beneath their stumps.

Subsidized Napoleon complex had me fighting on the wrong side. Got did like Waterloo.

Manila envelopes addressed to that British newspaper. Don’t you know this is the Empire?

Telepathy returned to sender.

Heard “boo” from that pocket-sized frame.

But ghosts only come for your wig when you turn your back.

“Whoa” ain’t me, that’s Black Rob.

Speaking of that song…

Come to terms with endearment.

You chose the ball and you joined me in breadth.

Another one chewing dead skin, dirt particles and textile fibers.

Carly Simon. Bet.

What came first, the wound or the egg that provided the shells that were stuck in the soles?

South West here like Northern OH. Something something “talent.”

Indecisive travel agent that forgot to build a plane.

I saw the white plates, the blue plates, and now they’re yellow. i.e. I’ve seen the Empire crumble.

Let an ocean talk for me.

What the fuck is portamento? Not worth it.

Waking up to a foreign vocabulary test. Appealing. No comprende.

Opted-in because I was loyal to the wrong things. Minus the fuckboy-isms.

He was the Pookie of venlafaxine.

Caesar: Judas.

Conversational anesthesia. Was on that Freud shit.

Liked the yellow yoshi that stomped and the one with wings.

And you can tell a lot about a man by how he uses a warp whistle. Button on the VCR.

Meant to hear Tiến Quân Ca in person but couldn’t. If he saw the inland, I wouldn’t.

Lucas Arts revisionist tip. Script = flipped. And now…

Telling the emperor “We don’t need to see all that.” I’ll say it.

And maybe worth it. But no capitulation. The sign fixed.

- Carly.

“You, Me, Him and Her” gets played twice.

The first one’s near Luxor, prolly.

Gut snitched.

Us couldn’t stop dreaming, then I couldn’t get to sleep. Both.

“I fuck around and have you sleeping underneath something”

But that last verse, though.

- - #4

Pop culture hustling and cocaine references are the way to my heart. My heart is sullen and abandoned; full of un-shatterable Pyrex-brand measuring cups.

Or is it. Racially ambiguous inquisition. Internal. In-terminal, I keep ticking. So, maybe occupied.

Don’t knock it. I’m taking out this time. To compose choppy sentences that stop before they start because I’m so non-fiction I might call myself Tumblr Game Tom Wolfe.

Looking back, YN really inspired me with his Letters From The Editor. But nah to that “Ha!”

Flirting with disaster because she sent me a flick. Y’all are too literal. Down to the ‘I’m so crazy.’

Meanings on top of meanings. Princess and the Pea. That now archaic Jay-Z and Kanye interplay. References need a new hard drive. They’re making that grindin’, too busy to stay up-to-date sound.

I’m not looking at your dues, I’m looking past you. Why are ghosts see-through but you can’t see through what you can see.

Peter Piper was too fucking picky. End of story. Citing Antwan Patton in MLA style. If you want the references, you gotta pay for this. I accept Juelz. Pay the pause forward.

Subtle is my subtitle. You can read or watch. An internet quiz will tell you what that means for you and your personality.

John on the run eating. But wasn’t gaining.

Acting like shenanigans in loosie, but there was no explaining.

No, no, no. I’m not you, rapper.

Jesus H. Pylori. The church of disrupted insulin function and latter day faints.

Glue where the flex be. Vampires that never heard about the smallpox blankets. Paul’s Boutique sample count. Dust, brother. Trying not to bite down.

That admittance, and the small BIC. Alluhdat.

Three letters. Now I feel alluhdat.

Maybe knowing in retrospect is the win. Like when they extend those legs and and hold their hands in a state-enforced half-hearted semi-prayer position saying “I hope this provides closure for your family.”

A & B convos. Split-tests. More like a two and eight.

Good things surface for those that hold elevators. Or something.

Lost the top about fitty-leven times. No lojack. Find it, then repeat. Dementia. Kojack.

No lolli. Point the finger, no Rollie. No handle, no bars. Just folly.

Was on that “If I die, I die.” Life Game Ivan Drago.

Try to be a fatalist. Unexciting Mortal Kombat finishers.

Marcus Aurelius darts onto the screen to kill the opponent with mercy.

No hip hop genius to help you. Y’all Nah Right sidebar. Newsy. Your quotient can’t save thee. Or thou. Or you. Let’s say you.

Because I’m like Jason Bourne asking himself about that one birthday party when he was an age that gets spelled out by the Associated Press. Hope unseen sequels don’t kill my simile.

We’re all trying to live facsimile’s meaning if you said it quick. Gender neutral, though.

Don’t, doe.

Because reflection requires dedication. Three’s ain’t always charming. There’s precedent. See the millionaire trying to kickflip.

I’m not a walking version of the back of the teacher’s edition history/sociology/psychology combo cost-saving textbook.

Slight of hand. Converse with it.

Phonte’s monologues on the last two from Get Back.

That’s the point. Nipsey Russell.