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persephoneggsy · 10 months

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I know Sebastian realized he loved Marian after the Arishok fight, but was there a separate moment where he questioned if he could maintain his vows in good conscious? Not necessarily an “I can’t not fuck her” thing but just having these feelings, a strong desire for physical closeness?

I thought about this for a long time, trying to come up with an eloquent answer, but honestly… I think once Sebastian realizes he loves Marian, everything just falls into place. Any guilt he might’ve felt for looking at her before, for going against his vows and having such desires, it all melts away.

In his mind, loving Marian is the easiest thing in the world. Any vows he made before he met her, before he loved her, are a distant afterthought.

#ask #breadedsinner #sebastian vael #sebhawke #this question kinda got away from me sorry fkshfk #but I just love the idea of Seb fighting his feelings (consciously or not) and wrestling with that guilt #only to give in and realize he was being so dumb being in love with her is so great #the tl;dr is pre-realization: Seb treats his feelings like any other temptation and rationalizes them away #post-realization: he throws his entire ass into this relationship what even are vows anyway #only vows he cares about now are the ones he’s gonna write for their wedding

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