#this was a really hard one I just feel more connected to Colin since I've known him longer I guess???

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

MAKE ME CHOOSE ↳ @archonfurina asked Colin Morgan or Plan Rathavit

[sleepy-seal]

Welcome back to another episode of: TMAGP & Treats!!!

This week's treat is........ brownies!!! Just plain baking mix brownies.

sorry for the lackluster treat! i'm currently recovering from a wisdom teeth removal surgery and wanted something easy to make while listening.

- got lucky that we have another box of baking mix because energy is low today after yesterday's surgery

- pan is greased

- COLIN?

- thats actually kind of nice sam is worried for him

- cameras huh? almost like he's afraid of being watched

- uh ohhhh sam's a bit agitated

- SAM

- SAM STOP FUCKING AROUND AND FINDING OUT YOU'RE LITERALLY GOING TO DIE THIS WAY

- WELCOME TO MY TWISTED MIND????? LMAO

- 2000's ass blog post

- "Bye! ^_^"

- this is a bit interesting though. the blog owner states that they're keeping the blog for posterity, but a good chunk of the posts have since been deleted

- voyeur huh? sounds like that entails a lot of watching

- A KOFI TOO OH MY GOD

- CINEPHOBIAAAAAAA LMAO

- GIRL RUN

- HOW IS THEM MANAGING TO FIND YOUR ADDRESS WITHOUT YOU INPUTTING IT NOT RAISING ANY RED FLAGS

- it looks dilapidated on the outside?????? run???????

- since i can't eat the brownies due to Surgery Reasons i'm opting to eat the batter instead (as carefully as possble)

- eating all the popcorn before the movie starts? relatable

- okay so before the Scary Part starts i'm going to guess it's a detailed version of the writer's life story but from a 3rd person's perspective

- okay i was a bit off. but i was right in spirit

- that is a bit interesting though. it's like the movie is a disease that keeps spreading. someone sees it, makes a blog post about it with the same exact words, someone else sees the blog post, that someone else sees it, and so on and so forth

- OKAY. INTERESTING

FINAL THOUGHTS:

okay firstly, this episode was pretty interesting! it was a bit shorter than the previous episodes but still something substantial. i'm nevertheless intrigued and still curious as to how things will develop.

but more importantly, COLIN!!!!! i know he was in episode 3 but i miss him already. it's interesting though that sam notes how weird colin's been acting lately. he is very intentionally going analogue. and to be honest i can't really blame him. he knows that the programs inside the computers are watching them, and will use practically anything digital to connect from one aspect to another and spy on people (remember how they managed to connect to alice's phone in the first episode??? literally no device is safe.) him doing literally everything he can to distance himself from the electronics is not going unnoticed. while we're on the topic of IT's, i'm wondering why gwen was so interested in them all of a sudden. does it have to do with the video she saw? could klaus be the german IT guy? what happened to him? perhaps he knew too much, and it was getting in the way of his work. and the fact he's german. could he be the one who wrote the code for the system? it doesn't explain things, but it definitely something to keep in mind. it seems like gwen is onto something, and she's starting her own little investigation.

i am also keeping an eye on sam. he's a bit better at this than jon, in the sense that he's not being overtly obsessive about it Yet, but something is up with him. he's a bit irrate and making incredibly bad decisions, but to be honest, who doesn't when they're in a bad mood? i do appreciate him trying to bring up colin's current state and offering some kind of solution, rather than pushing him away. i think he genuinely wants to help.

also alice is so confused. i feel so bad for her. "why is everyone acting so weird?" honestly i do not blame you. alice get behind me everybody is going to make you look like the weird suspicious person for trying to stay sane.

sorry for the delay guys!!!! the pain is bearable but i've just been having a hard time getting my thoughts together. this episode has given me a lot but also not very much. overall, i think everybody is acting weird and i know this is bad because my guys :( my little sillies. anyways, that's all for now! goodbye!

[blortch]

Hi it's me again

I didn't plan on replying but then I saw you wrote several paragraphs in response and then so did I and then my phone crashed so here's a shorter version. (future me here: it was not shorter, it was longer and maybe a little more frustrated because I've been working for the last 14 hours on what was supposed to be my day off and I'm tired and I hope it doesn't come off mean spirited.)

I never made any assumptions about how much you watch them and I have no feelings about how you use Tumblr. I don't follow you and we don't know each other, but I hope your year at school goes well.

It comes off like you don't like them anymore because a lot of your criticisms aren't well thought out. They sometimes involve things they've been doing for literally over a decade (the long jokes thing, they did it in BOTW 21 and again way back in 2012 in a HITB) and if anything I think they're just continuing to do what they love doing and they don't care what anyone else thinks about it.

I don't have a problem with your criticisms inherently and I'm glad you feel like the community here is chill, but I also think it's fine if people like me disagree with you without you putting a bunch of words in my mouth. My one sentence about how it comes off like you don't like them didn't *really* warrant three paragraphs made up of stuff I never said nor implied.

The problem I *do* have with your criticisms is they come off as parasocial fan theories a lot and I feel like I'm reading YouTube comments where yet another person has done numerology theorycrafting on why they think THIS is the last RLM video for REAL THIS TIME. Or Reddit dreaming up that Jim and Colin aren't friends because they aren't constantly standing in the same room with each other.

I really think the Zoomers thing is *not serious* and it just makes Mike laugh. They've almost always had an adversarial relationship with their audience and I think he's fully aware that Gen Z is part of it.

And I never said you didn't care. I think you probably care too much. And that is informed by your regular habit of making assumptions about their personal lives (is Colin wearing a hat so important? He's done it before. Sometimes he wears hats. Sometimes he doesn't.) and their emotional and mental states and how that reflects in their videos. You may have issues with fandoms who treat their figures like idols, but you have a tenancy to represent the other side of that coin. I think that's unfair to the RLM crew when they are very clear about *not wanting* people to speculate about their personal lives.

Long jokes can get old, long jokes can be forced or done wrong, or at least be done wrong more frequently, there are Mike-tangents I tolerate better than others, the latest ones I have a hard time in finding them interesting. And this doesn't affect how i feel about the ones I liked and still like of theirs.

Your theory that Mike's Zoomer talk is just another version of earlier jabs he's made at fans since forever I think makes sense.

I think you have a point that although I try to discourage too much speculation about their personal lives, the second step I do after criticizing their choices in what they present publicly in their channel is to look for motive which certainly falls into speculating about their personal selves.

More generally, I think it can even be said that I do try a bit too hard in finding motive behind people's actions, I did so for your ask and I do so for RLMstuff because I see it as part of the whole game. I've seen certain behavior before so I connect the dots from there and assume RLM are doing of the sort, or I project stuff of mine onto them. I think this subjectivity of course comes with my claims and I've said before that because of it I don't like treating my own opinion as anything like "objective", "the absolute best" or even reasonable to make. I try to use language that hints towards this but probably more often than not I omit the "to me personally it came off like... [example:] Mike's just an asshole". and instead say the easily misunderstood shorter version "I think Mike's an asshole" or even "Mike's an asshole."

A lot of the times it's for the sake of discussion. There's nothing much I could say about an anon ask about a theory concerning Colin's hat that I never would've considered otherwise so I make up whatever on the spot to keep up the conversation.

You're explaining to me how you made an observation that I read too much into, where I assumed that you wrote me an ask in the vein of "why are you doing this when you could just. not". But like I just explained I took the ask as an excuse for me to just blab about. I apologize if it felt to you like I was putting words in your mouth but anon asks aren't conversations, I see them more as the template of a post because I approach them with the knowledge that there's no way for me to know who you are or what your intentions are with certainty, so any claim I make in response is inevitably going to be full of assumptions or not be the specific answer you wanted.

Anyway, I hope you get your well-deserved rest, 14 hours of work sound horrible

[taminoarticles]

— Tamino for De Standaard, 17 & 18 September 2022 (x) (Original Dutch Text)

“Fame is dangerous if you’re going to look for your self-worth in it”

When Tamino's second album Sahar comes out on Friday, he will be on tour in the United States. Ticket sales are going well, and also in Europe many venues are gradually becoming too small for the Antwerper. "I briefly enjoyed the illusion that I was living a normal life."

By Inge Schelstraete Photos Aleksei Benuchi Saturday September 17, 2022 at 3.25 am

Sahar is the moment just before dawn, but we meet in a sunny café garden. Birds are chirping on the interview tape; the moment carries as much promise as the dawn, and Tamino (25) is zen. “The weather is nice, I've had a good summer, I'm looking forward to the album that’s coming out and I’m standing with a more assured heart in the buzz that’s about to come in comparison with last time."

More assured than before your debut? You were the pinnacle of self confidence back then. "It just seemed that way. I never cared much about what others expected of me. In elementary school I had super long hair for which I was laughed at every day. It did hurt, probably, but not enough to cut it. In that way, I wasn't worried about the first record, but the buzz around it did overwhelm me."

Wasn't Pukkelpop a boost? The Marquee was in ecstasy, you on the other hand looked more surprised than triumphant. "It had been three years since we performed in Belgium. The response from the public was overwhelming. Partially it was also the collective gratitude that it was possible again; listening to music, together, with a lot of people. We had played one concert before that, in Istanbul. It didn't go as smoothly as it did a few years ago, but we knew that beforehand. But it was a fantastic audience and it was nice to feel that connection with them."

When the record comes out, Tamino will be back in North America, with fifteen solo performances in Canada and in the US. "It’s lovely! I'm happy to be able to celebrate the release by performing. I'm going to embrace that. It's very exciting: it's a dream to go there. I wasn't the kind of kid who dreamed of America, although a lot of things I thought were pretty or cool came from there. And the shows are going great as well, some are already sold out."

"Also, in Europe we notice that in some cities we have to start thinking about larger venues. The European shows sold out really fast; it’s time to start thinking bigger."

Belgians tend to think too small rather than too big. We don't go further than our wallet allows us to but we often miss the momentum because of that. "It's funny, I'm surrounded by Western Flemish: PJ (Maertens), one of our producers, Ruben (Vanhoutte) the drummer and Floris our monitor man. I notice that, with them, this is often not the case. They’re really hard workers and not easily satisfied. I already noticed that with Filip Tanghe, Balthazar's sound engineer. He helped us a lot at the beginning of our career. It could always be better."

You also see that with Stromae: don't settle for 'good enough'. "The Belgian music scene is doing very well for that matter. Everyone appreciates quality and also invests in that. This should be self-evident, but even big international bands sometimes come here without a sound or light engineer. They even tour without a sound table. Can you believe that? In my opinion, you notice that quality difference on festivals where Belgian bands perform between international bands. They’re just… better. Bands that play a lot at festivals, like Oscar and the Wolf or Bazart, definitely have that mentality of 'it's allowed to be a bit extra.'"

Angèle His biggest fan was on stage at Pukkelpop: Colin Greenwood, also Radiohead's bassist, encouraged the audience to applaud longer. The two have mutual friends in Antwerp; when they came, in group, to his performance at the Rivierenhof, Tamino and Greenwood became acquainted. Shortly after, the bassist started performing with him. Is he a permanent member of Tamino's band now?

"We've never had another bass player, so I'd say he is. He played on the first record, on seven out of ten songs on Sahar and has toured with us a lot. I don't know if he will be able to tour with us this fall though: Nick Cave has asked him for his own tour. It’s not a sure thing yet but Cave's bassist is ill. It will depend on his health whether Colin will tour with us, but we’ve already arranged a replacement for the fall."

That must have been difficult? "(laughs) To be honest, I thought it was really cool. Our bassist, who is already the bassist from Radiohead, will play with Nick Cave; it’s an okay reference. I'm already very honored by everything we've been able to do together."

Angèle sings with you on 'Sunflower', how did that collaboration come about? "She invited me a year ago to get to know each other and to write something together. I went home with a very good feeling back then. "Sunflower" is inspired by a Greek myth about a nymph who falls in love with the sun God Helios and turns into a sunflower by constantly looking up at him longingly. I made up an extra character: an ordinary boy who is in love with her and starts taking care of her. I thought there was something tragicomic about that: they both want something that they can't reach and the better he takes care of her, the more she grows away from him. Someone had to embody that flower and I thought of her because I knew our voices sounded beautiful together. I'm also comfortable with her, which is important when you place another voice on your song."

"I'm an overthinker. That even worsens on tour: it is one chain of plain days with extreme peaks in the evening. You create a certain pattern that you feel in your body and of which I don't know if it's very healthy"

But in your first group you were a 'little dictator' who even wrote down the drum and bass lines. How much do you direct someone who has to sing? "That wasn't necessary at all with her. She has an immensely crazy lyrics-empathy. As soon as she puts on her headphones, she's totally in the zone. For me, it takes longer. Especially in a clinical setting, like a studio. She also works hard: she came back from New York, where she had performed on Madison Square Garden with Dua Lipa. She was jet lagged, but she immediately made time to get to the studio. In a few hours, she tinned it and went to sleep. People underestimate pop stars sometimes because they have the feeling that pop hits are being forced on them and that they haven't discovered those themselves. But there's a reason why Angèle is where she is."

Grieving an idol In 2018 and 2019, Tamino was omnipresent, but with the lockdowns, he disappeared from sight. His last performance was in the Masonic Lodge in Los Angeles: a fake-Egyptian temple on Hollywood Forever; the graveyard where Fay Wray, the gangster Bugsy Siegel as well as surf-guitarist Dick Dale are buried. “A very nice place. We had two sold out shows there. We were able to do the first one, but the venue was half empty because so many people were scared. That's the moment we knew; it's over."

He returned to Antwerp. "At first, I relaxed. I enjoyed being at home and enjoyed the illusion that I was living a normal life. I've read a lot: it keeps me healthy, especially on tour. I can really escape in a book. What else… certainly not cooking, but I can make a top 10 of the best takeaway restaurants in Antwerp. And I got my driver's license. Passed on the first try!"

And you learned to play the oud, the eleven-stringed Arabic lute. Did that mean playing until your fingers bled?" "An oud has nylon strings and they are a little nicer for your fingers than guitar strings. But several hours a day. I took lessons, because an oud requires a lot of technique. I felt respect and the need to learn it the right way. It is a hierarchical world; oud masters are highly regarded. But it's never been my ambition to become a virtuoso on any instrument."

Would you have found the time for it without the pandemic? "I think I would’ve enforced that time. I was very happy that I was allowed to go home. (laughs) It was time to gain other impressions. It was a really bizarre switch: from performing every day, to sitting at home and doing absolutely nothing at all. But the drive came back naturally. After two or three weeks, I started to feel like making things again and songs came. A lot of songs."

Was a rediscovery of the ordinary life also a part of that? In 'Fascination' you say to someone: 'I always needed bigger words.' Do you think you live too much inside your head? "Definitely. I’m an overthinker, and a little too indifferent towards the little things in life. This worsens if you are in an extreme situation, like a tour: it's one chain of plain days with extreme peaks in the evening. You create a certain pattern that you feel in your body. I don't know if that pattern is very healthy."

You don't like that people think that all songs are about yourself. "When you write a song, you hope that people can place something in it that’s important in their lives. I too like having some background info on songs though. For example: I read Leonard Cohen's biography last year. But you can't dissect songs from needle to thread. Sometimes that background information is also disappointing. Kahlil Gibran, the author of The Prophet, has always been a great inspiration. He was an idol of mine in my teenage years. But as I get older, I find it more difficult to have idols. You realize that everyone has their flaws. About Gibran; I now know that he felt a constant battle: people saw him as the prophet from his book and he didn't want that, but he did have divatraits and a messiah complex. He also had a drinking problem and didn't treat people all too well."

MeToo has also made it clear that there are no heroes: when an idol falls from their pedestal, there are often feelings of grief because the illusion is shattered. "I'm totally following that. I still admire Gibran's work just as much as I used to. Maybe even more, because I now know that he couldn't be the person he described either. In my opinion, you have to distinguish the artist from the human, to a certain level. Dehumanizing people who have done wrong doesn't solve anything. Forgiveness is also one of our most beautiful traits as human beings, in my opinion. Which we’re collectively abhorring."

Is 'The First Disciple' also about Gibran? "It's about fame, amongst other things, yes. We used a picture of myself as a kid for the song, a lot of people think that it's about me because of that, but I'm just as much looking at my idols from back in the day, because I now know more about fame. Fame is dangerous if you're going to look for your self-worth in it, and I think a lot of famous people do that at some point. It's also about the scission when you realize that how people see you is very different from how you see yourself."

The record talks a few times about believing and trusting, not in a religious sense. As most beautiful sentence: “There's common sense in being a heathen” in 'Only our love'. "(laughs) A 'heathen' on there is indeed not a non-believer in a religious sense, and if I say 'god', I don't see an anthropomorphic god. I think that's a very outdated idea. But you can believe in the good of humanity. Bringing a child into the world is an act of faith to me. It's a huge act of trusting the people around you; an act of faith. And as beautiful as I think that faith is, I struggle with it. I tend to be more distrustful. That's that anecdote from "A drop of blood" where kids bully me. If the first contact with people outside of your family is disappointing, it puts a dent in your confidence."

“That thought often returns, because I really want to believe in people. The "you" in that song is my optimistic self I'm singing to: "Show yourself again." I liked that about ‘Human Kind: A Hopeful Story’ by Rutger Bregman (‘De Meeste Mensen Deugen’ in Dutch, almost literally translates to ‘Most People Are Good’). You can probably find scientific arguments that contradict Bregman, but you notice from the success of his book that a lot of people want to believe that. That alone makes you look at life differently already."

Sahar appears on Friday 23/9. You can read the review in the Wednesday newspaper.

[rose-tinted-juls]

juliana's comfort movies pt.2

posted: 20.07.2021.

scent of a woman (1992) main actors: al pacino, chris o'donnell, james rebhorn short summary (imdb): "a prep school student needing money agrees to "babysit" a blind man, but the job is not at all what he anticipated." why i love it (in a few words): al pacino (as i've already said, i absolutely adore him - he's breathtakingly talented and attractive), interesting plot, dark academia aesthetic, another classic one, i find it heartwarming and wish it didn't end

the holiday (2006) main actors: jude law, cameron diaz, kate winslet, jack black short summary (imdb): "two women troubled with guy-problems swap homes in each other's countries, where they each meet a local guy and fall in love." why i love it (in a few words): i don't even know really, it just makes me feel all happy, and it makes me believe that out of unexpected adventures can come true love. sometimes i just love a cheesy, fluffy romantic comedy

a walk in the woods (2015) main actors: robert redford, nick nolte, emma thompson short summary (imdb): "after spending two decades in england, bill bryson returns to the u.s., where he decides the best way to connect with his homeland is to hike the appalachian trail with one of his oldest friends, stephen katz." why i love it (in a few words): i'm a huge fan of robert redford, i love bill bryson (author) and his books, this movie never fails to make me laugh (even though i know the jokes by heart already), the scenery is *chefs kiss*, it makes me wanna go a long hike, the soundtrack is lord huron songs and it's amazing, true comedy

catch me if you can (2002) main actors: leonardo dicaprio, tom hanks, christopher walken short summary (imdb): "barely 21 yet, frank is a skilled forger who has passed as a doctor, lawyer and pilot. fbi agent carl becomes obsessed with tracking down the con man, who only revels in the pursuit." why i love it (in a few words): young leo (!!!), it's honestly so much fun, i love spielberg's movies *shrug*, so many twists, it's based on a true story (!!), amy adams is cute, never gets boring to watch it

the whiskey bandit (2017) main actors: bence szalay, zotlán schneider, viktor klem short summary (imdb): "a rootless young man in ceausescu's romania crosses the hungarian border looking for a better future. with his back against the wall in the post-socialist turmoil, he becomes the most successful bank robber in hungarian history." why i love it (in a few words): finally another hungarian movie i love, based on a true story (!!), the title is terrible but funny in english (i swear the hungarian original title is a hundred times better - "a viszkis"), it's an interesting look back into communism in romania and hungary

love actually (2003) main actors: hugh grant, bill nighy, colin firth, liam neeson, martin freeman, emma thompson, andrew lincoln, keira knightley, thomas brodie-sangster, alan rickman short summary (imdb): "follows the lives of eight very different couples in dealing with their love lives in various loosely interrelated tales all set during a frantic month before christmas in london, england." why i love it (in a few words): so many incredible actors oh my, adorable plots, so enjoyable to watch, it's a must really, i watch it every christmas, baby thomas brodie-sangster *-*, this movie makes me believe that love actually exists (lol see what i did there), suitable for all age groups in my opinion

the lake house (2006) main actors: keanu reever, sandra bullock short summary (imdb): "a lonely doctor, who once occupied an unusual lakeside house, begins exchanging love letters with its former resident, a frustrated architect. they must try to unravel the mystery behind their extraordinary romance before it's too late." why i love it (in a few words): this one's one of my all time favourite movies, incredible actors, i love keanu and sandra, even more when they play together, the plot is something so unique and well-created, makes you believe in love and that it really has no barriers, some mystery with time

serendipity (2001) main actors: john cusack, kate beckinsale short summary (imdb): "a couple search for each other years after the night they first met, fell in love, and separated, convinced that one day they'd end up together." why i love it (in a few words): it's a truly adorable movie, a lovely romantic comedy, CASSIOPEIA (sorry i just love that scene since i was like 9), makes you believe in love (yeah this one too), but also it gives me some frustration at times when things don't work out like i want them to lol

knives out (2019) main actors: ana de armas, daniel craig, chris evans, christopher plummer short summary (imdb): "a detective investigates the death of a patriarch of an eccentric, combative family." why i love it (in a few words): it's exciting, it has phenomenal scenes (often i laugh so hard my sides start to hurt), i love the actors oh my, the cinematography oh my, THE PLOT, i love detective movies, watched it three times within two weeks (and i rarely do it)

while you were sleeping (1995) main actors: sandra bullock, bill pullman, peter gallagher short summary (imdb): "a hopelessly romantic chicago transit authority token collector is mistaken for the fiancée of a coma patient." why i love it (in a few words): a childhood favourite, watched it like a hundred times (and never got bored), i love sandra bullock, an interesting plot with small twists that i adore, bill pullman's jack is amazing (and his freakin smile), funny and adorable, it's a must for someone who loves romantic comedies

[survivor-ingary]

Episode 3 - "RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful" - Riley

The 3 tribes of Pendragon, Hatter, and Jenkins have been reorganized and condensed into 2 new Hatter and Pendragon Tribes. Tribal immunity is Scavenger Hunt.

The fact I have Brayden and Toph in my merged tribe boosts my serotonin. i have a feeling colin may be someone to keep an eye out for in the future now...

RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful. I guess we'll see how Pendragon pans out.

yall doin me dirty putting me with brayden i just hope that by some miracle me him anastasia and ellie can work together? like i still dont know if theyre plotting on my ass vdshibshj i know brayden told anastasia to take me out when this game started oop but lemme see if dis works. i hope riley follows the logic of the old tribe sticking together and thatll be 5 votes. im kinda obsessed with toph like since the beginning of the game he looks like someone i could totally play with so def wanna work on that relationship. ava and nya? i believe? lets say hello and work on those relationships as well. dis is a bit overwhelming but we shall see how it goes

uh... well... i am SCREWED. me and ginny were the only ones separated from the Jenkins tribe... RIP. 4 pendragons, 2 hatters, and 2 jenkins... the main things i see here are pendragon yoinking one of the hatters / jenkins and voting the other off... OR a 4-4 tie... OR they're gonna target one of me or ginny cuz none of us have gone to tribal council yet. this is really dicey, and I need to tread very, very carefully from hereon. (ALSO GINNY BARELY TALKS PLS I NEED YOUR HELP GIRL)

This swap actually turned out pretty amazing for me. I still have Keith and Moth who I worked semi-close with in the pre-swap. Additionally, I've met up with Colin and Babs. A little Raffy magic could keep me very safe on this tribe. I think Kenneth is super fun as he is a newbie AND active. He will definitely make it far in this game. I hope, at the very least, that I can be by his side to make that happen. However, I am wary he might just be making these strong social connections with everyone. As a final note, OG Pendragons have this tribe 4 to 8. That's both good and bad. Good because we have numbers. Bad because that may make people target me very early on just for being a part of it. So, I have decided that if I were to throw any of my OG Pendragons to the wolves it would be Jonathan as I haven't been able to connect with them as well as Keith and Moth. Other than that, I hope this tribe doesn't have to go to tribal all that often between now and the next swap/merge. These people are lovely.

I'm getting a bad feeling about this... Since most of my Jenkins tribemates are on the other tribe, I KNOW they're good cuz we just keep getting W's... so I think there is a good chance we might lose the challenge. I contributed a good amount, so I hope that the target won't be on me if ever we lose the challenge :( I really don't wanna go, and I wanna reunite with Dennis/Ellie and maybe Anastasia and get further in the game.

i worked hard on this confessional

Our tribe did our absolute best in this challenge. I have no idea who is getting targeted if we go to tribal as everyone is so quiet. All I know is that I want to keep Colin, Kenneth, and Keith close to me for this stage of the game. They are the only ones who consistently talk to me. Challenge results: Pendragon wins due to a 10% advantage, Hatter Tribe must go to tribal council the following day.

THANK GOD I FINALLY GET TO GO TO A TRIBAL, ITS BEEN TOO LONG!!!!

Look, before you go to tribal with a group of people it feels like there’s a barrier of game socialization because you haven’t been able to go to tribal with them. But leading up to tribal and after it, a whole new can of worms is available for game talk. Unfortunately it’s an extremely simple vote because Nya has ghosted all of us, but at least we still get to go to tribal so I can talk game with more people even if it’s only a small amount with this easy vote. But who knows, someone might decide to switch shit up!

And also I absolutely love this tribe (Minus Nya cause I haven’t met them) so I’m glad that I get to go forward with this group although I won’t be nearly as happy if we go to tribal again because as I said, I do enjoy this group of people a lot

Moth (Tumblr will only allow me 10 images so player banners stop now, whoops) I believe the only reason I will make it to the next round is because of Raffys advantage. I’d be so screwed otherwise

I like Babs. They got good vibes.

Also I’d kill to know how the other tribe reacted

Dennis in a perfect world i would try to not vote out nya but bdksksksoksks theyve done it to themselves. no need to make waves. unless someone else is secretly plotting on me i think this is about to be an easy tribal. damn one point. miss ellie had her name down on stuff that she didnt do. also overslept that first challenge is she purposey trying to sabotage and play the villain? who knowssss also ive broken my streak of never going to tribe tribal sigh

Toph So what’s happening, I can’t remember the last time I made a confession but the tea yall ?! Soooo the tribe swap happened and my gut was right soooo okay intuition work ! I feel like I really like everyone from the merge and nya as remained inactive since, after losing the challenge it seems like an easy vote but you can never be to safe, I have my little allinnce with Brayden and Ava which is wig and I really dig Ellie , Anastasia, and Dennis too, I’m gonna be so nervous if we have to go to tribal agian because it could be me ! I’m not to sure about Reilly but they seem nice ! I feel pretty good with Anastasia as well and feel we could rope her into an alliance easily, I’m just gonna due my best right now to play the middle, keep my head down and speak positively. I really need to find an idol or something even better just so I don’t have to worry as super much and just plain worry then lol. If anything I’m gonna stay loyal to brayden and Ava the most since there my day one homies. Brayden seems to be close with Anastasia which could definitely help in are favor of having the numbers on are side. But could mean he would easily cut me for her if needed, so that mean I need to get closer with Ava, just to gaurnetee my safety, I have to look out for me this game and only me, making sure the numbers are kn my side I’m constantly on the right side of the vote should help me strageticly float to the end and win my crown thank you very much. I’m also lowkey worried about alliance’s being made right now without me! Everyone seems to be online but my chats are a bit quite but this could be me overthinking things mmmhmm I’m not sure, we’ll anyways it was nice to vent to y’all. :)

Riley Nooooooo I can't believe we lost by just one point. Damn the Hatter tribe's secret bonus point boost >:(

Kenneth I am honestly in such a shock that we won that challenge... Raffy really came in clutch and helped us win AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Now I don't have to worry about being randomly blindsided or targeted for at least a couple more days now pls I just hope we get lucky again and another swap happens where I would be on the right side of the numbers, all prepared for merge domination >:) Raffy Oof. I know the other tribe is MAD because I would be too. Like, we only won because of my advantage giving us a 1 POINT LEAD. That's crazy! Honestly, this works for me as I can still focus o n making strong social connections within this tribe. By the time we go to tribal, I will be so integrated with this tribe that voting me out would do a lot more short-term harm than long-term good. I want to see if Kenneth would start an alliance with me as that is someone I want to work closely with. In this alliance? I have no idea. I'll probably let Kenneth take the lead on that since I want him to feel like he is in charge. Dennis nothing is real

if i go tonight i would applaud it bc i am so sure nya is going. it would be a goop if the vote really wasnt nya but everyone is more or less trying to do the easy thing i think. i just hope she is okay and just too busy for dis.

some time has gone by and im just chilling. im not chilling because i feel safe, im chilling because i dont know what else to do. i cant be all game talk 24/7 because then im an outcast and would get targeted. besides the obvi alliances like a+b and maybe(?!?!??) an e(?!) in there, idk what alliances there are. like there has to be something but i dont have the picture yet. as yall know im not in any alliances in my current tribe besides i guess ellie who i fear is a saboteur lol and most likely working with a+b. a+b are such a double edged sword for me ugh. am i really in their best interests???????????????? am i really in ellies best interest???? do they know about her idol too?????????? likeeeee thats the issue. if im not really in their best interests then im the next to go after nya. i am probs very low if not the lowest on this tribe if dats true. i mean what if i really am in their best interests and theyre all genuinely trying to work with me? idk! if not then im next to go efuhijdhvbf and i fear im probably not.

i really like toph. taurus sun (in the 12th!) gemini everything else king. hes got social game on lock like who wouldnt wanna work with him ?! and hes a cutie ?! ?! ?! but i seen the chart -.- i know what hes doin. i think hes working with ellie. but he reaches out to me and probably others but i like our conversations. (but im sure everyone loves their conversations with toph!! hes great!!!!! friendly ol toph wont harm a fly ?!) i hope he likes me and sees i actually would wanna work with him above all the gorls and chooses me over them too.

ava also knows what theyre doing. saturnian legend. we barely talk but little short bits here and there. i hope its bc theyre busy but im sure ellie is talking to them more than me amongst others too. oop also possible alliance, brayden toph ava who all swapped together. so gotta keep that in mind. but yeah i dont really think im much of their priority esp if theyre on vacay they would hear a name and not stress too much if its mine bc we dont have ties like that.

riley and i talk here and there, had a lil chat today

someone once told me that i just look like someone you cant trust but you can :( sometimes :)

so yeah here i am having lots of thoughts over the last few days.

maybe im not super super invested just yet bc i feel like the rug is gonna get swept out right from under me again :))) also back on my bs telling people im a leo moon. i shouldnt weaponize astrology but hey.