#this was so therapeutic to write i hope that people who dont read my fic now understand my seb a bit better

[choccy-milky]

oh boy anon, you’ve activated my trap card. GET READY FOR A SEBASTIAN CHARACTER ANALYSIS ESSAY BELOW LMAO

ok so first off I know im obvs biased, but I don’t actually think my seb is that ooc, AND PUT DOWN YOUR PITCHFORKS IMMA EXPLAIN WHY. but im also gonna explain why I don’t think the other more friendly and lighthearted renditions of seb are ooc either. bc theres so many aspects of seb we get in the game that can be interpreted in so many diff ways, and so this is how i see it/landed on MY rendition of seb:

PROTECTIVENESS/POSSESSIVENESS: this is one of the main aspects of him, imo. his entire questline is about wanting to cure anne, and how he’s not giving up, and how he believes that HE is the only one that can do it, because “she’s MY sister!” seb is super tunnel visioned and has a one-track mind when it comes to this, and I headcanon that he’s this way because of their parents deaths. he’s the brother, the boy, he’s gotta be strong for his sister, and ofc when their parents died, he tries to comfort her and be there for her/be the rock, and it happens again when she’s sick. shes his sister, his responsibility, and he’ll die before he gives up on her and her safety.

SO, I just transfer all those aspects over to a romantic relationship instead. you just replace “shes my sister” with simply, “she’s mine/my gf/my wife/etc.” and in the same way I think seb tries to be strong and reliable and protect anne because he’s the brother, I think seb would be the same way in a relationship, because he’s a boy and she’s a girl and its 1890 and he’s chivalrous and he just sees it as his responsibility. I think the death of his parents and his dynamic with anne has baked this sort of mindset into him, and its even MORE intense in a romantic aspect, because then hormones and puberty and sexual tension and attraction is involved (plus the fact that seb in my fic is 17, so he’s older and has even stronger raging hormones and testosterone LOL.

JEALOUSY: who can forget the lines “between the two of you, I’m starting to feel left out” and “ominis simply needs a moment with you and he’ll change his mind. is that it?” the first one is more playful but I feel like the second one really showcases sebs brand of jealousy, and how biting and uncharitable it can be.

AGGRESSION/VIOLENCE: yet another iconic line with: “fine. but ominis knows, I won’t step back from a fight.” LIKE... the fact that apparently ominis knows this means its come up more than once…and im not saying seb is some unruly aggressor who flies off the handle at anything, but he defs has a capacity and is willing to get violent if HE believes the situation calls for it—basically the same way he feels about the dark arts. he felt justified using imperio to protect anne, and taking the relic to save anne, and so he would have fought ominis to get out of the catacomb. and with MY seb, while he doesn’t go picking fights with any boy who looks or gets close to clora, he’ll definitely be willing to beat up or lay hands on a creep who bothers clora/who is in the process of bothering her LOL.

SO YEAH, that’s pretty much it, and I’ll be the first to admit I definitely ramp up these traits further because he’s older in my fic and i think these traits would only get more intensified with age + being in love and also bc IM A TWILIGHT GIRLIE!!! what can I say. there are so many moments in my fic where you can just replace seb with edward and it wouldn’t seem out of place tbh LMAOO so blame twilight, it was a formative experience for me BAHAHA

BUT like I ALSO said, I don’t think peoples more lighthearted interpretations of seb are ooc either. because even all my earlier above examples, you can just focus on diff aspects of them. like his tunnel vision and obsession to cure anne? instead of seeing it as over the top protective and possessive, you can just view it in a more wholesome determined selfless sort of way. like I said we got so many nice little bits and ingredients of his personality that we can turn into anything we want, really👌just pick which flavour of seb u like best and use what we got in game to create it HAHA

AW TYY QUEEN BAHAHA💖 and aw im always so honoured when ppl tell me they consider my stuff canon that’s like the best compliment I can get, tysm 😭 and im glad you like my fic and art so much (enough for your friends and family to unfortunately know💀 LMAOO)

im adding your ask to this because it kinda ties into my seb essay. LETS GET INTO WHY A SWEET BABY ANGEL WOULD LIKE SOMEONE LIKE SEB. the answer ISSS: the same reason WE’RE also all into him I guess?? BAHHA

ok but to start off im gonna defend my seb, not only cause of what you said anon (i dont want you to feel like this is targeted to you!) but also bc I got an ask recently asking me to summarize seb and clora’s relationship since all they see from my art is that “they fuck and seb is possessive” LMAO, and I feel like ppl who JUST see my art and don’t read my fic have a warped image of my seb.

this may be shocking but I don’t consider my seb a red flag LMAO. I joke about how hes more of a pink flag tbh, but even THAT i dont even really believe, and don’t even consider him overly possessive. like yes he keeps an eye on her when shes hanging around other boys, but I feel like that’s normal (esp for 1890) and all of his most possessive moments have been when theres been a threat to cloras life/coming from a place of love and protection (especially since clora is so self-sacrificial, she’d have killed herself by now if not for seb LOL) so to me id actually put Sebastian as being PROTECTIVE as his first and foremost trait, followed by the possessiveness.

and yeah he gets jealous, but unless a dude is actively trying to get with her/hitting on her/harassing her, he’ll otherwise just kinda be unhappy about it/let it play out/ watch on unhappily LOL. and even when lawley was blackmailing clora and getting in between her and sebs relationship and lying about how close he and clora were, seb demanded answers from CLORA on what was happening between the two of them, but he didn’t touch lawley or tell him to stay away. bc seb thought that was what clora wanted, so he let her drift away. if he was TRULY a red flag, in this instance he would have just beat up lawley for taking what was "his"/not allow clora to leave him/immediately go to lawley instead of clora, and tell him to stay away despite what clora might want. (and clora even WISHED seb had interfered and done this. she was like 'why is he letting me drift away and go off with lawley i WANT him to fight for me...but she couldn't actually say anything thanks to the blackmail)

clora doesn’t just 'put up' with sebs more possessive and protective behaviour though, she actually likes it HAHA. just bc shes a precious baby angel, we all like a bad boy, even back then. just look at jane eyre, and how popular the dark and brooding and assholey mr. rochester was.

she tells seb at one point that she likes those things about him, even his immature competitive side, and his darker sides, and that he shouldn’t try to hide them or change himself because she accepts them. and even putting aside all of the stuff they’ve been through together that has bonded them (like the main canon quests + annes curse and then CLORA being cursed, and then clora being kidnapped and seb saving her) clora thought seb was roguish and charming and witty and intelligent and good looking from day 1. add to the fact that he’s just so devoted to her in everything he does, that even if he CAN get a bit overbearing at times, how could you NOT fall for someone like that😩 someone whose possessive behavior just stems from wanting to protect you and love you and want to keep you safe and cherish you like DAMN…. GET ME A SEB, TOO. WHERES MINE!!!😭😭

clora also realizes in ch 32 WHY seb is so protective of her (the trauma with his parents and wanting to be there for anne) and that she accepts it, and enjoys it, and that she might even MISS it if seb were to ever get less protective of her/might get lonely LOL, and then sebs like "i’ve "spoiled you, have i?"

so YEAH I don’t think sebs protectiveness and possessiveness goes into any toxic territory or red flag territory PERSONALLY (and the time that it DID get toxic was because of the relic, and clora DID put her foot down)

but my normal seb? whose dream in life is to whisk clora away into a tower and lock her up to keep her safe and keep her all to himself, but that he’d never ACTUALLY do because he knows its insane and unreasonable but jokes about wanting to do it anyway bc he would if clora agreed? clora finds that endearing and cute and is touched by how much he loves her and wants to keep her safe.

IN CLOSING: I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOUR AND THEY LOVE EACH OTHER👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

[godheadjones]

7 15 27 :)

thanks for the ask levi :))

7. What is your deepest joy about writing?

idk theres just something about writing a character that is so therapeutic whether its fanfic or my own original characters and giving someone fictional a voice and then people saying that my writing is good when i have doubts is also such a good feeling

15. Do you write in the margins of your books? Dog-ear your pages? Read in the bath? Why or why not? Do you judge people who do these things? Can we still be friends?

i write in the margins and highlight parts but havent done so in a while cause im out of highlighters, i do not dog-ear pages but i did when i was younger, same with reading in the bath but i dropped my book in the bath one time and stopped. i write cause i like the aesthetic of pencil and paper and highlighters on page, i dont dog ear cause i dont like the look and the page will be bent forever :( and i dont usually bathe anymore but in the shower not in the tub. no judgement from me because however you read is fine. and of course! if you are my friend originally or want to be and do this im not dropping you :)

27. Who is the most stressful character you’ve ever written? Why?

honestly no clue. maybe julie jenkins? i kept saying “walks” and was like “fuck wait” also tabitha tate because i love her character but i have no ifea how to write her and i wrote her without jughead/missing him/her being a lone and angst and the show doesnt show that do i had to make up a lot (that fic is not yet published but in the works) and i want to get characters just write but its super hard lol

again thanks for the ask and hope your having a good day/night whatever it is for you :)

[wintersongstress]

hi, I just stumbled across your recent fic and as a survivor I wanted to thank you for writing about the experience of That in a realistic and honest way, while also not dwelling in the gorey details. it’s hard to find the topic referenced without it actively triggering me. wishing healing for you and everyone who knows the pain. you dont have to answer this just know that your art is appreciated :)

Oh anon, come here I want to give you a big long hug 💌

The reason I didn't give up writing it is because I felt similarly about the topic rarely, if ever, being addressed in a way that's perceptive and conscious. I read books and sometimes they have SA in them and it makes me so mad when it's just thrown in carelessly (e.g. Firekeeper's Daughter by Angeline Boulley, and also The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah I don't think handled it well). It's sadly something many readers can empathize with, and it's something we can't just bury inside ourselves and never think of again. Fiction is a safe place to explore emotions and writing is the way I express my own therapeutically. Writing A Dream's Winding Way is important to me because I think survivors need stories like that. At least, I do. That feeling of being understood when you resonate with a main character can be so powerful in a book; it makes me feel less alone and like there is hope, that there are others like me who feel the same depths as I do and feel happiness too. It's like sowing a wonderful seed of possibility. I want to be able to do that for a reader 🥺

This message means a lot to me, I don't think a lot of people read my work but it makes it all worth while when it touches those who do 💖

I wish you all the best love, and all the support and encouragement and positive things for you 💕💐🕊 Always do whatever you need to in order to feel safe, you are strong and luminous 🌟

[homoose]

sometimes i read fics and meet characters who feel so real and genuine i just wanna cry 🥲 here y/n is such a mature and nice (i dont mean it in a superficial way, i mean nice in a way for people who make the world a better and brighter and warmer place by existing), it makes me feel like you must be a good person to know how to write stuff like that. and the best thing about fics is that good things definitely happen for good people, and idk how i ended up on this spiral but i hope good things happen to you too! tysm for making me feel all these warm and fluffy feelings ❤️ its a both entertaining and therapeutic experience reading

GOSH DANG IT

Y’ALL GOT ME CRYING IN THE CLUB THIS AM

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I don’t even have adequate language to express how much this message means

ilysm and I’m so glad my story was able to give u all that 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰♥️♥️♥️♥️

[btssavedmylifeblr]

Hey Bee! First off, I love Void so much. It's been a wild ride and I am so excited for more. Please take your time! Ok, so my question might be a heavier (?) one right now. So I will preface this by saying I have really bad anxiety and have a lot of irrational thoughts lol. But I have been debating about reposting my reader-insert BTS enemies to lovers fanfic (with LOTS of smut) online this past week. I don't think there is anything wrong with it, and don't think I'm hurting anyone (1/)

And its really therapeutic to write! To me, it’s just like writing out my fantasy about them members in great detail with lots of fun plot lol. Recently, Bighit posted about taking legal action for “sexually harassing” the members and Twitter got weirdly up in arms about fanfic. Which I didn’t think would be considered defamation or harassment…its fiction and not being sent to the guys (I hope…). And I also doubt they will ever see it (I HOPE! At least my own lol)

My friends (I have told 2 IRLs that I write fanfic and they support it!...one also writes soft fic) say they think I am being irrational, but I can’t tell lol. I don’t usually care what other people think, but I’m worried about the legality of it. Also, I don’t want to be thinking that I’m hurting the boys in anyway. Just wondered if you had thoughts on this, as another (far better, FANTASTIC) fic writer who dabbles in smut. Thank you for taking the time to read my worries!

If you have no answer for this, I understand that too. Take care! You're the best :)

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Man, Twitter must be up in arms about this because this is the second ask I’ve gotten about this in a week.

Here is what I said to another anon earlier this week and here is another post on whether fanfiction is objectification.

Those two posts lay out my feelings on the ethics of fanfiction. My basic stance is while I doubt the boys enjoy it, I dont think it hurts anyone and I think the pros outweighs the cons. You can read those for longer thoughts on the ethics, but you have also brought up the legality of it which is something no one has asked about before so I want to address it.

Disclaimer: I am not a lawyer, but I have looked into this because these questions worried me when I started writing too.

Is real-person fanfiction legal?

Yes. More legal than fanfiction based on other people’s fictional works because fictional works can be copyrighted but public personalities cannot.

No lawsuits have ever been filed for celebrity fanfiction, so it’s never been directly tested in court, but they have probably not been brought because it doesn’t violate any laws. The closest I could find was Hustler Magazine v. Falwell, where Hustler Magazine published a fictional interview with Jerry Falwell claiming he had drunken sex with his own mother. The Supreme Court ruled that because no one would assume the story to be true, that it was within Hustler’s free speech rights to publish it, because Falwell is a public figure. Likewise, fanfiction is always labeled as fictional.

Perhaps if one was charging for access to the fanfiction, a legal argument could be made that you are profiting off of their likenesses, but no one does charge for access to it, and sites like AO3 have specific policies banning profiting off of fanfiction.

Is real-person fanfiction sexual harrassment?

No. Definitions of sexual harrassment vary, but most resemble something like this.

Sexual harassment includes requests for sexual favors, sexual advances or other sexual conduct when (1) submission is either explicitly or implicitly a condition affecting academic or employment decisions; (2) the behavior is sufficiently severe or pervasive as to create an intimidating, hostile or repugnant environment; or (3) the behavior persists despite objection by the person to whom the conduct is directed.

Fanfiction doesn’t meet any of these criteria, as long as it isn’t sent to the boys directly, to their homes, or their workplaces. Fanfiction doesn’t request anything of them, doesn’t affect their employment, doesn’t affect their environment if its not placed where they can see it, and they have never objected to it. In fact, as with BTS World, they regularly invite us to engage in fictional role play with them. If a day comes when BTS or Bighit come out against fanfiction specifically, I will lay down my keyboard and go write original fiction.

Do I understand why it makes some fans uncomfortable? Yes and I don’t begrudge anyone who doesn’t want to read it. That is why I put warnings on all my fics and don’t put them in places where anyone would find them if they weren’t looking for them, including BTS.

I hope your writing brings you joy, whether or not you choose to publish it.

[rose-blooms-red]

Update, writing and life

Hey everyone, this is a little update I guess for my writing and stuff.

Putting it under a read more so it doesnt take up people's dash.

So the big one is 'fault lines' I dont know when the next chapter of this will be done. I only have about 500 words done so far, the beginning of the opening scene.

My school year is ending today but, because I ended up having one of my worst migraines during the quarter (it lasted a week and made it so eating was difficult due to nausea) I ended up with some of my worst grades ever. I've been working to raise them but due to mental health and a chronic pain condition, I've spent most of my time just laying down not doing a lot. Which stressed me out.

All of this is just a really long way of saying, I'm stressed and in pain and not in a good headspace and this story is both exceedingly draining to write and very therapeutic. I do not believe I'm doing the story justice right now. At least, not in the way I want to, and it’s very important to me that I tell the story I want with this, it’s a very personal story that is close to my heart.

So I am working on it, but much slower than normal with a lot of rewriting. Which means it might be a little bit before the chapter comes out. I apologize for this.

I've stated before I was working on a 'Bruce and Harley in med school fic' and that is still being written but it ended up wanting to be a lot longer than I had originally expected it and I am nowhere near versed in med stuff. I'm also a high school student with very limited knowledge of what colleges and med schools are like.

That being said it is something I'm pecking away at in the background.

Next up, anyone following me who read my bnha stuff, the 2nd (and final) chapter of 'The Phoenix's Song' is sitting in my google docs. I have some of it written, but because of how my interest in things works, (I end up completely immersing myself in something and when something new catches my brain I immerse myself in that with very few trips away) it means that I've been focusing more on my DC works than anything else. I only have about 1,500 words written for it and while I can promise it will be done someday, it wont be for a while yet.

That of course brings me to my sort of stress reliever story, 'and the storm is fast descending' I use it to help if I have writers block or am stressing about my other stories too much. So this one is more of an 'occasionally type a few sentences or paragraphs and see where things go' story so I have no concrete ideas about when the next chapter will be.

If you made it all the way through that rambling I both applaud and thank you.

There is one last story (that is. This is the last story of the ones I know for sure are being posted at some point, there are some other ideas sitting on the backburner), is tentatively titled 'a man takes his sadness to the river (and throws it in)' and its Jason and Bruce centric. I do not know when this will be up. It really depends in when I finish writing the last few scenes. I do hope you guys enjoy this one, because I enjoyed writing it and it gave me a lot of emotions.

Thats about it I guess, thank for being so patient and kind and I hope you are all staying safe and doing well.

My messages are always open if you want to talk or just need someone to listen for a bit and I hope that you all have a good weekend.