#thought you'd like some of raph singing his brothers to sleep

[stormy-nights-are-best]

When my little sisters and baby cousins ask for a lullaby, I'll most likely sing them a slowed down “yin & Yang” by Tally Hall because it's warm and nice, but “rises the moon” by Liana Flores is my personal favorite.

[wellitsmyrespunsibility]

ROTTMNT~Raphael x Self hating!Reader Just the way you are

Credit to artist.IMPORTANT A/N:

THIS CHAPTER DISCRIBES ME AND MAYBE YOU,SO IF YOU HAVE HARD TIME,OR THINKING OF COMMITTING SUICIDE OR HURTING YOURSELF,AND DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO I'LL BE GLAD TO HELP.I AM KINDA GOING TROUGH THE SAME THING AND I JUST WISH TO HELP IN ANY WAY I CAN,SO PLEASE IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO,ABOUT ANYTHING,I'M HERE.(1-8OO-273-8255 NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE)

I'm not sure how for how long did I know Raph,but he talks to me every night on a rooftop.I never saw him because he would always be in shadows and that's fine.

"Hey,Raph.Remember our first meeting?"I asked him sitting against the wall next to the shadows"Of course,you were sitting in that same place and singing while crying.Why were you crying anyway?"That's right,I never told him,I never told him how I hurt myself,how I look in the mirror and keep thinking how I'm ugly,disgusting,fat,gross,and nothing like other girls.Truth to be told I was never had a slim figure,never had a boyfriend,never liked things that my best friends like but I never told them anything and my parents would just push it aside like it's nothing,so I kept my mouth shut and cried myself to sleep every night.So one night as I was crying on a rooftop away from everyone to let my emotions out,not knowing that my future best friend/crush would be there away from his loud brothers and lazy father.Raph heard me singing and crying at the same time,so he decided to cheer me up not knowing that everything I laugh at is half fake."Just some stupid thing I'm hurt on the inside"I saw him move from the corner of my eye,it was just a faint movement but enough to notice it.Silent wind humming joined us along with faint honking of cars in the beautiful night,so Raph decided to break it"Why did the crab never share?Because he’s shellfish"I only smiled a bit"Really Raph?"It was as I could see him shaking and giggling a bit"What do you get if you cross an angry sheep and a moody cow?An animal that’s in a baaaaaaaaad mooooooooooood."that took a little giggle out of me,I forgot about those bad things and words,so I decided to join in" That’s the seal-iest thing I’ve ever heard."I heard him laugh a bit,it made me smile but I assumed that he already had someone to love,why would he waste his time on someone like me?Was it a pity or am I naive?Suddenly those evil and bad thoughts started coming back again "Hey,(Y/N)do you know what happens when you go on a date with a root vegetable?Your heart beets fast."I just used one of my fake smiles so he kinda feels good and not like me"What's wrong?Please tell me and don't lie"I was silent for a while debating should I tell him or not,but my sadness got the best of me and I started crying"I keep h-hurting myself and I k-keep hearing voi-voices telling me I should die a-and that everything would be b-better without me"I covered my face with my hands to scared to think"Well I don't think so"I lifted my head and turned around to see a 5 foot turtle mutant,I heard of them,I always thought that they were interesting and amazing looking"R-Raph?"The turtle started to get nervous but nodded his head waiting for a reaction,I just stood up and walked up to him while lifting my hand towards his carefully and slowly like wanting to calm a scared deer.Raph lifted his hand as well and our hands met in the middle,both of us looked amazed almost like kid seeing a rainbow for the first time"See I'm a mutant and you are beautiful"He looked so different than I thought,here he stood just smiling awkwardly,then both of us looked towards our hands intervened now.I started to feel butterflies in my stomach just flying around like they just woke up from deep slumber,and my breath stopped for a second while I kept looking into his black eyes it felt like years,until he spoke again"Do you know what's awesome?pizza, oh and you."I smiled not believing that this is happening" You have cat to be kitten me right meow."Raph laughed and hugged me"Even if you were cloned, you'd still be one of a kind. And the better looking one."That made heat rise to my face as we laughed"Well if there is one thing I like about you, its that I like more than one thing about you."That made him smile even more and nuzzle his face in my neck"You know you make everything better. If people were more like you the world would be perfect.Oh,and I love you,just the way you are."I nodded my head"Love you too Raph" With that we stayed there hugging each other hopping that this night would never end.