#throwing up crying shitting myself rn bc of this 😭😭😭

[heleneplays]

shaking sobbing crying over SOOOO many good demos ive just had the pleasure of reading and like. AUTHORS PLS KNOW IM GOING STUPID FERAL OVER YOUR WORKS AAAAAAAA

the wars we wage by mah_sanogo (cog forum) - when I was browsing the dashingdon page I got intrigued by the summary (lmao i am currently looking for more isekai IFs >< if yall have a rec aside kingdoms & empires my inbox is OPEN <3) and while technical wise there's still a lot to correct (esp typos), the idea is VERY solid + as a fellow fan of Youjo Senki, i am SO thrilled to play, getting into a very oblivious MC and hopefully reach my goals. ALSO GOD????? CAN I FIGHT & ROMANCE GOD???? i wish 2 know bc i KNOW we can fight (technically) and im 👉🏻👈🏻

Before we are Ghosts by @anjiefiction - HELP HELP HELPPPPPPPPPPP FROM CRACK I IMMEDIATE GO TO SHAKING SOBBING THROWING UP— author i am. *clenches my fist* SO in love with this heartbreaking concept and i'm literally honest to God sobbing into my teddy bear wishing I could hug MC rn. and everyone else honestly, they need all the hugs SO bad 😭😭😭 Anyways to anyone who wants to plays this game, fucking get your tissues ready bc you'll sob with the pain and angst and. the tenderness that's still abt to come 🥺🥺🥺

Vendetta by @vendetta-if - IT'S BEEN SOOOOO LONG since i actually played through the demo, and replaying it now......... GETTING BACK INTO MY VILLAIN ERA HEE HEE HEE <3

Sinners by @sinners-if - if villain bad why hot??? <- literally the only thought in my mind EVER!!! anyway, reading the update to ch 2 on itch.io was SO unexpected, i remember only reading it on dashingdon and then. yeah. twine has never looked so good. ANYWAYS WE'RE COMING ALONG SOOOO NICELY <3 and i cannot WAIT to see what happens next!!!!!!! (also sidenote i am reading allnthe drabbles available and im. 🤡🚩over here.)

The Price of Emeralds by @thournewrites - currently scream laughing @ my MC in this one bc WOW bestie your shit out of luck!!!!!! and KDHDJDKDK HELP HELPPPPP not me getting clowned on by the og ro :((( welp! wishing them a very yess get u in that funky crew and get that money bby girl <3

Replica: between universes by @replicabetweenblogs - i see multiverse and i immediately think abt helene-verse and DEAR GOD this wip!!!!! im biting myself soooo bad rn im being absolutely INSANE abt the whole thing!!!!!!!!!! im 7 ways enamored with everyone but most especially to the bestest little sister i am going to love and cherish now and forever 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

The Eye of Eikshal by atlas7 (CoG forum) - :3c :3c :3c intrigue??? WITH A BUNCH OF FOUND FAMILY BESTIES??????? oh boy, not to mention a benefactor turned adoptive father who's wish is for the kids to actually be happy???? man. investing rn on it <3

Through Broken Lenses by Interestedparty (CoG forum) - ok on a more serious note, this story was actually one of the first ever wips i've read in dashingdon and rereading it today had me. well. feeling a lot of 😔😔😔 anyways Vi, you're so fucking mecore and much as MC is traumatized in this one, all I can say is that I she can't help but watch you :)

I actually have several more tabs left to go through but it's literally 2 am and I have been writing this on my phone since 5 pm yesterday so. yeet!!!

[celestie0]

ELLIEEEE.

i read ch 3 of ihm and wanted to share my thoughts and praises of how freaking amazing your work is!!!!

"I would rather make love to one of those inflatable balloon salesmen at car dealerships that flail and flap around in the wind than let you touch me for the purpose of sex."

girl, the way i straight up CACKLED. how are you so freaking good at banter? like my queen, what is your secret, i could kiss your brain. the moment i started the chapter and read this i already knew it was gonna be another BANGER.

"I don’t really go after women with daddy issues."

💀 💀 💀 bruh. the way gojo is just casually throwing shade while watching CNN. i am loooooving this ihm gojo so fking much.

“Oh, thank god,” he exhales in relief, “I almost thought it was an avocado for a second.”

this whole little argument was so fun and sillly GAH i just loved it so much. the way you describe y/n when she gets mad is just ✨GOLD✨ like idk how to describe it, i just love how you manage to make her have such a spark. she's got a backbone and a heart. sometimes i manage to fall for your y/n more than your gojo 🤭 hehe

“The dog had rabies. It bit an old man. Had to put it down,” he deadpans.

OH MY GOD 💀 this fking scene with choso. girl, this whole story gives me such romcom vibes, like damn you deliver, yet another line that made me cackle.

“Your capacity for catastrophization never fails to amaze me,” he says. You’re pretty sure your therapist said something similar to you last week, too. 

i felt personally attacked here 😭 fking choso lol.

Also, why the fuck didn’t he get you chocolates from London?!?!?! The fucking snake. 

RIGHT?!?!?! WTF GOJO???? oh my god this was hilarious though, y/n being caught in her lie 🤭 girls gotta get her stories straaaaight. to be fair though, makes sense why she didn't realize gojo was out of town considering how much she's got on her plate rn.

So who really got the last laugh? Day shift workers. Literally.

this is so sad 😞 this aint fair. like why do the people that are working their asses off at ungodly hours to save and help people get the shit end of the stick? wow, much love and respect to health care workers. i can only imagine how hard it must be, in more ways than one.

 (who the fuck drinks juice from a coffee mug)

the same kind of sick fucker that would probably eat string cheese whole 😡 nah, this is a crime.

So you just relish in the ridiculous feeling of being on all fours in your vintage grandma nightgown in front of your shirtless and, breaking news: very hot, fake husband.

again, ROMCOM vibes. this is so hilarious 🤭 like y/n, my girl, i would be right there with you checking him out 👀 the way you described gojo shirtless.... 🥵😩🤚🏻

“Why the fuck would I call someone for a job I could do myself?”

oh. my. god. this fucking hit HOME for me LOL. my own dad literally has like 10+ ongoing unfinished projects bc he refuses to pay someone to do it professionally. it's like a pride thing, but daaaaamn my mom be mad when theres like, an open hole in the roof for weeks. ihm is giving such DILF vibes and i am absolutely HERE FOR IT.

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and lastly

JUNO.

need i say more??? she is so PURE and i must protect her at all costs 😩 UGHHHH i was so misty eyed when she was crying about being bullied. and the way you wrote y/n comforting her and interacting with her 😩😩😩🤚🏻🤚🏻🤚🏻 eeeeeep, i hope we get to see gojo and juno interact in the future bc anything with men and kids is literally my kryptonite. the few little tidbits with him wearing the slippers and having my little pony on the tv already made me smile so big 🤭🥰

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okaaaay, literally i love your work so much, and i feel like i never say it enough so i really want you to understand just how fking incredible you are. like seriously, i love the entire tone of ihm. like you said, the writing style is so laid back, but that adds even more to the appeal, and when the serious moments hit you shift the tone so effortlessly that DAMN those moments hit even more.

i can already see just how much you can accomplish with this series and i'm really looking forward to seeing your vision come to fruition. you are incredible, ellie ❤️ thanks for sharing such an amazing story with us.

-aly💕

HIIII aly omg thanks so much for this review of ch3 ihm!! it means sm to meee :'') i'm cracking up so hard reading this BAHHAH

girl, the way i straight up CACKLED. how are you so freaking good at banter? like my queen, what is your secret, i could kiss your brain. the moment i started the chapter and read this i already knew it was gonna be another BANGER.

pls reader really came to cut a knife w that comeback i think even ihm gojo was like damn woman chill 😂😂 as for the banter i have conversations w myself like i am crazy ❤️❤️ helps w dialogue LOL

omg thanks you for enjoying ihm reader <3 i have worries ab her being a little much but honestly i'd ride n die for her she's going thru a lot bahaha. but i'm so happy you see that spark!! and yes i try to picture romcom & kdrama vibes when i write ihm xD just like kinda cringe and absurd at times but also surprisingly heartfelt? hahah

ahhh yea sm respect for night shift workers, esp those in healthcare. it's a suuuuper rough lifestyle and there's a lot of research that shows how detrimental it is to the body in the long term, and there are ppl who work the nightshift for like 20+ years. it's crazy

PLEASE MY DAD IS THE SAME HE ALWAYS WANNA BE FIXING THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE LIKE DAD IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS I'M TIRED OF WASHING MY DISHES BY HAND PLS JUST CALL SOMEONE 😭😭😭 no but yea that scene was funny to write bc it was giving dilf vibes but also he's so unconvincing of his abilities to fix things xD idc tho as long as i get to see his abs while he's on his back working on sumn under the sink 👍🏼👍🏼

eeeeeep, i hope we get to see gojo and juno interact in the future bc anything with men and kids is literally my kryptonite. the few little tidbits with him wearing the slippers and having my little pony on the tv already made me smile so big 🤭🥰

AW thanks sm for liking juno <3 i've never written a kid character before and also i haven't been around children in so long so i was like watching youtube videos of children trying foreign country foods to see what tf they sound like xD anyways yesss omg i love men w kids. like sir pls lemme give u babies :// imeanwhatwhosaidthat

like you said, the writing style is so laid back, but that adds even more to the appeal, and when the serious moments hit you shift the tone so effortlessly that DAMN those moments hit even more.

AHHH thanks sm i could cry srs this is such a sweet thing to say :'') yea that tonal shfit stuff is tuff but to hear it's coming off is so relieving thanks so much aly <33 and for all your words too 😭😭 i hope you have a wonderful saturday!!!

much loveee ❤️❤️

[the-backwards-eel]

Sorry yall no proper review for cpc ep. 139 bc all i have to say is

What the fuck, Lambcat!?

(!Spoilers, tw su1c1d3!)

OMFG LAMBCAT REALLY SHOWED UP GWEN POISONING HERSELF BACK IN EP. 107 BUT I DIDNT THINK ANYTHING OF IT BC I DIDNT KNOW THE CONTEXT NOW I DO AAAAAAA

BC OF THE SPOILER IN EP. 107 I WAS THINKING GWEN ALREADY HAD THE ROBE AND IT SOMEHOW GOT PUT BACK IN THE HOLE

SO LEELATHAES ROBE WAS JUST SITTING IN THAT WALL FOR OVER A DECADE BC NO ONE BOTHERED TO FIX THE WALL???

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP SHITTING MYSELF HER EYES LOOK SO DULL ITS LIKE SHE ALREADY DIED…INSIDE 😭😭😭

THIS ABSOLUTELY BROKE MY FUCKING HEART ESPECIALLY AS SOMEONE WHO DEALS WITH DEPRESSION AND HAS ATTEMPTED SU1C1D3 NOT JUST ONCE BEFORE THEN CONTINUED TO STOMP ON THE PIECES THEN THREW THEM INTO A BLENDER TO BE CRUSHED INTO FINE POWDER THEN ADDED TO WATER TO MAKE A SHAKE THEN FLUSHED DOWN THE TOILET FOR SEA CREATURES TO SHIT AND PISS IN AND PPL THEN CATCH AND EAT SEA CREATURES THEN SHIT IT OUT AND THE SHIT IS USED AS FERTILISER FOR CROPS THAT PPL ARE GONNA EAT AND SHIT OUT AGAIN

INITIALLY I WAS CONFUSED AS TO WHY SHE ATE THE POISONED APPLE BC WHEN JAMIE ATE IT HE WAS JUST OUT TO SLEEP BUT THEN I REMEMBERED THAT JAMIE WOKE UP BY TRUE LOVES KISS FROM A WAFFLE BUT GWEN THINKS FREDERICK NEVER TRULY LOVED HER SO-

GODDAMN YOU LAMBCAT FUCK YOU IM GONNA BE SENDING MEAN MESSAGES TO LAMBCATS INSTA I JUST CANT RN I AM SO DISTRAUGHT I HLDKKWKDIXKSOSD

[thelovelybitten]

vera's first watch of south park -- season four (part 2)

jfc i want 2 unalive... slowly

EPISODE 6: THESE THE BOYS ARE SO FERAL BYE messing w the sub with switching names NO KYLE IS SICK :’((((( MY POOR BOY NOT BUTTERS HE’S SUCH A CUTE CARD I LOVE BUTTERS SM miss information…. bffr garrison writing a SMUT FIC BYE MDFNVIFDMIMMVS miss information BYE STAN IS TRYING 2 HELP there’s only so much natural herbs can do :’( “KYLE’S MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD” SO TRUE SO TRUE CRYINGGGGG “I’LL GIVE HIM MY KIDNEY I’LL DO IT” stan would die for kyle and that’s on god babe not cartman being the only person in south park that matches kyle SMH kenny and cartman being actual kids ofc cartman won’t give it up “how much is ur life worth to u, kyle” cartman u fucking JACKASS if kyle dies i’m gonna be pissed stan worried abt kyle :’(((((( kenny >:( rightfully so garrison just come out as gay babe it’s not that hard clyde and tacos >>>> kyle’s life this is so fucked ew oh stan is serious he’s gonna get his kidney i forgot abt cartmans pig cartman is so smart okay that kinda slayed stan DON’T CRY “nobody cares if i die” KENNY THAT WAS OUTTA POCKET BUT ALSO SO TRUE MY SON “I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT. SCREW U GUYS I’M GOING HOME.” PIANO FALLS ON HIM :’( very cartman of u kenny OH THEY KILLING HER OOF wait how is cartman not dead ?!?!?!/! his whole ass kidney was cut off by an eight year old oh they defo put his kidney into kyle’s bod but faked it for cartman epic EPISODE 7 Chef winning U GET THEM KING. Ending racists PERIOD who TF is this teacher Cartman winning debates ??? Weird Oh LMAO THE CLASS AGREES HES A RAT MY FUCKING FAVE KIDS ON TEAM CHEF !!! WENDY, BEBE, CLYDE AND BUTTERS. ICONS Stan obvs on his uncles side but BIG BOO WENDY GET THEM BABY WENDY TELL UR MAN HES AN IDIOT STYLE VS WENDY AND CARTMAN ??? oh this abt to be good cartman tho… fat boo Chef schooling the kiddies (style respectfully) WENDY PROTECTING STYLE SO REAL THUMBS DOWN CARTMAN BOOOOOOOO NOT THE KKK 💀💀💀💀 THE MAYOR RLY DIDNT DO SHIT oh crap leaving it up to the kids WHACK Wendy and cartman in the same frame is just giving me the ICK NO WENDY DONT LAUGH ALL CUTELY AT HIM EW no bc cartman and Wendy together makes me physically I’ll wtf KENNY EATING THE MINTS “FUCK YOU” so real “I don’t think we stand a chance in this debate bc Wendy’s leading the other side” “Dude, ur just saying that bc she’s your gf” TRUE AND REAL Kyle so real for that omg OH SHIT KENNY NOOOO HE EXPLODED NO CRYING not Wendy & Cartman again LORD ARE U TRYING TO TEST ME I WANNA OFF MYSELF WHY IS TREY AND MATT GIVING WENDY AND CARTMAN AN ENEMIES TO LOVERS ARC HES EVERYTHING SHE HATES AND VICE VERSA STAN PLS COME COLLECT UR GF IM GONNA THROW UP MY DINNER NOT THE HAND TOUCH IM UNALIVING I CANT I FUCKING HATE IT HERE NOT WENDY FANTASIZING CARTMAN I WANNA SKIP IT SO BAD BUT I NEED TO HAVE AN HONEST FULL REACTION NOT THE ROLL DOWN THE HILL WENDY WOKE UP IT WAS A DREAM THE LORD SAVED ME FROM THIS HELL Wendy me too bc what the fuck Dunks head in water me too Wendy seeing cartman everywhere and haunting her NOOOOOO Wendy “please don’t let this be happening” I WISH IT WASNT BABY GIRL This KKK stuff is weird “BEBE IM ATTRACTED TO CARTMAN” Bebe IMMEDIATELY SCREAMS THATS MY DAUGHTER SHES THE MOOD no but Bebe is me rn BEBE NO DONT TELL HER TO KISS HIM ?!1?1!1) THE FUCK ARE U DOING Wendy PLEASE DOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT I DONT NEED THAT IN MY BRAIN PLEASE IM BEGGING WHAT WOULD STAN THINK ??!?!? WENDY ARE U DELULU STANS LOOK OF CONCERN AS HE LOOKS AT WENDY STUTTERING AND PANICKING NO WENDY ARE U FUCKING FOR REAL NOOOOOO STANS FACE NO IM BREAKING IM DESTROYED IM IN SHAMBLES HIS SAD FACE NO STAN IM SOBBINGGGGGG cartman feeling so smug abt Stan’s girl kissing him I know stan is gonna go HAM ON HIS ASS Stan still upset NO I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT CARTMAN IS ADDING FUEL TO THE FIRE TEASING STAN OH STOP IT STAN IS STILL SHOCKED STILL. S T I L L S T I L L S T I L L IM SOBBING AT STAN 😭😭 CARTMAN HAS FEELS FOR WENDY OH FUCK defo my least fave episode out of all seasons so far

[saintobio]

Unpopular opinion-

I usually skim through Sera's parts bc though she's a good character, her attitude reminds me too much of someone I used to know.

But seeing her interact with her siblings rly touched me with how she genuinely cares for them 🥺 It added so much depth to her character and I can't help but think that if she and Satoru would've never gotten together (she'd still be rly annoying jk-), her attitude wouldn't have gotten worse.

I might even root for her going after Toji if she gets over Satoru and decides to work hard to earn money for herself without relying on rich people to help her bc honestly? she ain't blind. Who wouldn't want Toji's hot dilf ass 🥵

But who knows, I might reread the whole series again and find myself hating her once more. Then again, that part in ch 14 where she dotes over her siblings might make me rethink everything all over again.

Tldr; Sera redemption arc(????)

Anonymous said

as much as i don't want to admit it, i think it's very sweet how much sera cares for ber siblings. yes, sera is the main villain of sn, but i think she's trying her best just so her siblings won't go through what she went through back then. and honestly, reading her interaction with her younger brother made me cry because it just shows how she loves him and wants the best for them </3

Anonymous said

I’m so scared this is gonna take a direction towards wastelands where Mc or Gojo dies like wtf 😭….both of them have been through so much and deserve so much better then what they have right now.

Okay but I was rooting for sister gen to throw some damn hands at sera 😣 but it’s okay revenge takes it’s time

Tw: S*ra slander and love at the same time

Sera in this chapter showing a different side where she isn’t putting up a horrible front is actually kind of relieving in a sense , like atleast she kinda cares about her family and isn’t treating them like total fucking shit. (I can’t get over the fish thing.. 💀) I also started feeling more for sera since at the same time as causing a ripple with Mc’s and Gojo’s relationship I think people fail to realize yes she has issues and crosses the line on so many accounts but the girl out here heartbroken we can’t expect her to just get over Gojo in a minute then walk out of there. Still hate her though <3

Anonymous said

This chapter hurt me man. And I really like how you put the part of Sera and her family. I know at this point we all hate Sera but it’s nice to see her like that because it shows that she’s human like the rest of us and while she’s cruel she can also be compassionate and kind. Maybe if she wasn’t so obsessed with wealth she would’ve been a better person. Also I love the character the development of Gojo. Only you can make me start falling in love with a character I hated so much.

Also why was Naoya shocked by seeing Sera at the funeral? Didn’t he give her advice on going to Gojo and all that?

@wishingforanother said

SAAAIIIINNNTTTT, YOU ARE HEAVEN SENT.

First things first, I enjoyed reading Sera’s side of the story once again. For me, I understand why she’s projecting her anger towards her family. I love that she acknowledges why this is wrong and tries her best to apologise, as well as still being thoughtful and reminding her sibling that she’s still a reliable older sister. To be honest, I did shed a tear for her.

Also, the lovey-dovey interactions between Y/N x Satoru, my heart fluttered so much 🥺. I am so excited to see what your plans are for them in the upcoming chapters, since now they’re going to be parents.

Thank you again for this amazingly written chapter. I hope you enjoy your break and remember to take care of yourself. Know that no matter how many breaks you take, we will wait; it’s okay. 🤍

yesss aaaaah ik sera’s doing a pretty great job as an antagonist rn but i also really wanna show that she’s not entirely evil like eula lol she’s at least human in a sense that she does care deeply for her siblings. i’m so glad you guys loved how another side of her was shown from the last chapter <33 as for third anon, naoya isn’t shocked he’s just a good actor lol

[qingxin-dream]

I CANT BELIEVE I WOKE UP TO THIS SHIT OMG😭😭 crying and throwing up rn fr

I’ve been dying for Mihoyo to add a separate rerun banner for all the characters that have evaded me, and my beautiful Queen Eula is the first up for the NEXT banner!!! Does that mean SoBP will be on the weapon banner too?!

My primos were totally not ready for this ughhhjghgjsnrhfjs💀 I’ve been saving for Xiao rerun in January/February bc I literally have such a broken set of artifacts and weapons for him! But now I could pick up my queen’s C1 or signature weapon!!😳

How could a poor soul like myself ever afford to invest in Queen Eula and Xiao?😔 (also Scaramouche or Venti but who knows when they’ll arrive)

[lacheri]

My beloved Cher, ✨

“Putain!” he wails, throwing his head back and desperately clutching onto your head. “Don’t, fuck, don’t move, keep it — oh my fucking god, keep it right there. Yes, yes, shit.”

😭 needy levi. Holy shit. I love needy levi so much. I got sooo h-word here😳. This is so perfect😩. I love this part so so much 😭😭 how incredibly raw he is to reader. How he is incredibly ready to show her his vulnerability and let her have his way with him. 🥺

“Look at you, fuck, look at you. You like this so much, don’t you? Bet you’re fucking soaked right now, my cock in your mouth, oh fuck, don’t move.”

This is sexy as fuck, cher👑. Yes. Let him talk to us like this 😮‍💨😮‍💨 He really switched that quickly holy shit this man really said ✨“speed”✨. Yes, we won’t move. Talk your time for as long as you want baby 😮‍💨

“I’d rather cum inside you,”

AHHHHHH, no words here just, AHHHHHH 💛✨✨😭💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦

“We really are one in the same, aren’t we?” he muses, tilting your chin up, inspecting the drool shimmering down your neck. “Give and take, take and give.”

My heart swelled with love. This, this is just so perfect and beautiful I was crying on the inside. ✨✨

“Need you to give me one more, ‘kay? Just one more, yeah?”

Again, ✨AHHHHHHHHHHH✨, yes we have all the time in the world. Give us 5 more and we we wont be complaining. 🥵💦🌝

the casual brutality of unity, the catastrophic beauty of release. How tightly you hold onto each other in these final moments, relishing in the afterglow of an intimacy so sacred, so raw and honest.

My heart exploded. 🥺 This is too beautiful not to put it on here. I love moon river so much. I love how you envisioned French!Levi so much. I love your writing so much. I love you so freaking much 💛💛💛

✨Grooming after sex✨

Please, I had to stop myself from screaming bc I really cant help but feel so fucking amazing when they were just staring at each other, adoring the after-sex glow. Grazing each other’s faces😮‍💨 Levi smiling at us as if he found the missing piece in his life *sniffs* 🤧 more kissing, mhhm we love that😽 😌

😂Needy levi in the morning 🌝

I was so ready for round 2. Fuck being boneless lmao 😂 😭😭😭

⭐️Levi teaching her french. ⭐️

Yes, i am falling head over heels for french levi. Teach us more spicy french words so we’ll use it when doing 🥵✨✨✨ give us a gold star every time we use it⭐️

💛A whole lot of fluff after sex. + levi laughing, holy fuck💛

God, I dont even have the right words to describe how phenomenal chapter 10 is. Holy fuck, I am so 💦 after reading it 😭 the whole month of waiting is worth it. Holy shit, i had to drop everything and rush home, which was 2 hrs away, after seeing my notification that you posted chapter 10. This chapter skyrocketed my expectations. Their intimacy is so fucking perfect that perfect is not even enough to describe it. Thank you so much, mon cherie 👑, you did a really an amazing job here. You really gave me an early Christmas gift and you have my whole adoration and love for this year’s Christmas. May you enjoy your holidays. May you be granted the wish your heart really desires. You incredible human, thank you so fucking much for giving us Moon River 🌙 ✨💛.

*ignores the sadness that MR will only have a couple of chapters left* 🥲

With all my love and gratification in my life,

-🌼💛🌻

first of all, let me just say. this was so sweet of you to take the time to write all of this out and send my way. I have the biggest goofiest smile on my face rn

so here’s a long explanation of all thee things u added in this ask, you absolute angel <3

okay so for one you know I HAD to make Levi’s mouth absolutely filthy, this man has no filter what so ever canonically so :/ had to stay true to that ya know

probably the dialogue was the hardest thing to write this chapter, because I overthink everything and I’m one of those people who cringe easily if dirty talk is too dirty, or something a person would never say (like if someone ever called me a c*m dumpster I think I would cry and leave LMAO) SO I’M VERY HAPPY YOU ENJOYED THE LIL MOMENTS OF DIRTY TALK!

the spread out moments of vulnerability was such a crucial thing to me to write. more than anything, my goal of this chapter was to make it as real as possible (well as real as fanfic smut can truly be, ya know) so reader checking in to make sure Levi enjoyed his bj LMAO and then him taking note of how similar they are, the after sex awkwardness when you don’t really know what to say — VERY IMPORTANT THINGS I WANTED TO ADD!

but very specifically I wanna talk about the after sex moment where they’re holding each other’s faces because listen, heads were empty, thoughts were not being thunk, it was a pure feelings ONLY kinda moment. reader’s hands losing their grip, Levi kinda just overwhelmed and in shock so he’s brushing her face because whoa that just happened? we just did that? that was incredible, we should keep doing this? wait, should we? and Levi inevitably staying the night because “fuck it I guess if we did all that might as well”

I think one of my favorite things to write about when writing about people in this way is the complete contrast between how good the sex feels versus how brutal it is to do it. so I’m GLAD that line made sense (casual brutality/catastrophic beauty) I was worried it wouldn’t lmao. but yeah that is my bread and butter, you can probably find that theme in all of my smut works because idk it just tickles me to personify and romanticize such a complex thing (: and it sounds pretti 2 write

LISTENNNN THEY WENT AT IT FOR A GOOD AMOUNT OF TIME THERE WAS NOOO WAY READER COULD HANDLE A ROUND TWO THIS MAN HAD HER FLIPPED THIS WAY AND THAT WAY I GOTTA BE A LITTLE REALISTIC HERE (plus we would’ve been looking at a 20k chapter and I was NOT about that) ((don’t worry this isn’t the last of the smut to come, just probably the most detailed)) (((emphasis on probably I am a known liar)))

I, am going to cry. you are so so so so SO sweet. thank you for taking the time to send me this and for reading, wishing you the happiest of holidays right back at you <3

DO NOT FRET I DO INDEED HAVE BONUS CHAPTER OUTLINES IN THE WORKS because I cannot let moon river go that easily this is my baby

[aquagustd]

i’m honestly considering throwing my phone and myself out the window…

i had just spent over 30 minutes writing all my thoughts on part 9.3 of hie and i wrote soooooo much and guess what i did…

my dumbass literally deleted it by closing the app out and swiping up while i was going in between my notes app and tumblr because i had so much to say that i had to write my thoughts in there 😭

i’m so done rn. my heart sunk when i did that because i didn’t realize that i did till a few seconds later because i was frozen. i did not wanna believe i did that.

i was almost done writing too. and since i wrote so much, i can’t even rewrite it. i forgot most of what i said now. 😭

i’m just gonna start writing in my notes now and then just copy and paste onto here. i’m not risking this happening again because this has also happened so many times before too 🥲

i have so much to say so i’m gonna keep it short and simple. all i’m gonna say is that 9.3 was so amazing. so much happened. some scenes were so cute. especially when they were all having dinner with each other. they were so happy. i loved how jk and yoongi were joking around with each other. the tension between jk and oc. got me blushing. “would you two kiss and get it over with already” 👀 but i will not overlook how he called taehyung her baby daddy and saying that oc wanted to be in sora’s place 🤨 the audacity. speaking of taehyung—why did mans think he could just call oc and not expect her to bring to the fact that he’s been ignoring her when he asked why she didn’t go say hi to him 😭? and sora cheating…not surprised. but oc and jungkook bickering at night got me smiling so hard for no reason tho. the eye contact…holding hands…foreheads touching…goosebumps…heart beating so fast. “what’s this feeling?”. and then both just hugging and admiring their son together is so 💔 my heart. junho was so cute too. so many cute scenes with him. he’s so precious.

but what i’m thinking about the most is the “you’re remembering who he was, and he seems to be too” i wish i was good with words and explaining my thoughts so i could talk about this 😭

but part 9.3 was probably my favorite part so far. it was so funny too. the scenes between yoongi and oc 💀 lmfao yoongi drank oc’s breast milk? yuri closing oc’s mouth and saying oc was drooling over jungkook. i cannot. and yoongi saying “i would’ve been on my knees if that happened to me” i was dying. it’s even more funny imagining it.

i’m still crying about me deleting all that…

thank you for updating!!!

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omg i’m so sorry that happened 😭 & thank you for taking the time to write it all out again 🥺

yeah we all have a love hate relationship with the oc & jk ship 🫣 they’re so cute at times and then he goes and says dumb shit like tae is her sugar daddy 💀

i know it was all so cute bc of junho and them cooing over him as he slept :(

lmaoooooo yeah yoongi accidentally drank oc’s milk 💀 it’s so funny lmao i have to write that drabble for you guys so we all can laugh about it.

tysm for reading bb <3