#tilldeathsetsmefree

[notepadnotes]

Breath9

How in the fuck am I gunna be used in the same game, I’m no longer even fucking playing.

*Deep breath in

*Exhale

So I’m just a pawn, regardless if I play or not.

*Deep breath in

*Exhale

So, why even exist

*Deep breath in

*Exhale

if you’re forced to play 

*Deep breath in

*Exhale

If, nay should exit

*Deep breath in

*Exhale

[tatyanalovestaylorswift-blog]

I wish there was someone out there that knows what im going through. I am so alone and i hate it.

I will forever be stuck with a sickness with no cure. My body will remain weak. My heart to. I will never be able to do what i could just a short year ago. My mornings will start the same:

Wake up

Take pills

Give myself a shot

Eat breakfast .

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My afternoon boring:

If I have any energy

Play with my dogs in the yard

Or online college class

Or just sleep.

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My evening short:

Eat dinner

Take meds

Try to attend online classes if missed in the afternoon

Sleep

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I normally can only stay awake for about 5 hours before my body gets tired and my legs get weak. My dreams were to become a police officer on the streets. I'm worried that I have to give up on that dream. I use to know where I would be in a year but now I have no idea. I'm so scared for my future. Please share.

[tatyanalovestaylorswift-blog]

I'm a lost soul trying to find home. Free me from this mindset from this pain the hospital bed.