#to be able to do that ive had storyboarded for a few weeks

[buwheal]

Is there a place you could slip off to and wash your clothes or get a change of clothes? Even if they don't stay clean, just that little piece of freshness might perk your system up for a bit. (Not trying to pick on you, I know you're in a tough spot. Stay safe-- Love you, buddy.)

[goomyloid]

What was your process for making the Noelle amv, if you don't mind sharing?

hii! im not sure how eloquently or clearly ill be able to explain it but i definitely have some pictures you can look at!

(the video)

i actually got the idea while i was away on a trip with very limited wifi -- it wasn't Trust Me that i got an AMV idea for first, but instead it was one of 4syu's other songs, There's Nobody. for such a happy sounding song it really made me so sad, to the point where if i tried to sing it to myself id get choked up by the chorus LMAO. it was baddd

but basically i was rapidly trying to find both songs on spotify so i could listen to them offline, and it only took me a few loops of Trust Me and thinking about the original MV to make me go "ohhhh. how can i make this about noelle." And so i did .

i was thinking about doing a storyboard, but in the past, i've found that doing storyboards for animations/AMVs lowkey... kills my motivation altogether... SAD... but i saw the whole video so clearly in my head, and i didnt want to make the same mistake i made before... so i went right to doing quick sketches (while still on my trip...) just so i could get the ideas out of my head

i was torn on what to do with my style at the time, whether i wanted to make it more similar to the original video, or to her canon appearance, or to MY style and how i draw her. i think it kind of ended up as an amalgamation of all three...? at the very least, her light world color palette definitely was more bland and desaturated, like i purposefully wasn't trying to do anything special with her colors.

after that point, and getting maybe a few of the actual drawings done, my motivation crashed again, and i left it all to marinate for nearly a week. it was baking, guys, it wasn't abandoned, listen to me, why are you throwing tomatoes at me,

i had up to about the "I dreamed about that again" animation done and stopped, and it wasn't until i decided to sit down and start editing it anyway that i really got in my groove again. i got all my little assets into a workable state so i could really try to sit down and make the video come to life and all

the really fun part was honestly working on the desktop backgrounds. i really wanted to limit colorpicking from the original video as much as possible, but i decided that making look as similar as possible to the original could help with the contrast i wanted to add later.

i drew these two backgrounds first. i was hoping i could somehow fit the bunker into the second one, but decided to do something different anyway. the second one's ui didn't actually change until later in the editing process.

drawing THESE were fun especially, and im happy with how they came out. i think the dark world icons are really cute still. one thing i really did know i wanted to do from the beginning was to turn the soul/undertale icon into the deltarune one.

i was worried if the shift from the Windows Field Background to the dark world would be too sudden, like you would just blink and suddenly it was all different, but i think it ended up all right...?

the not so fun part was drawing all the different boxes, lmao. it go really tedious by the end, so i tried to reuse as many of the same ones as i could.

a lot of copy-pasting and tracing rectangles for sure.

i also had to make sure the animations didnt Suck. i brute forced those things and used every last braincell i had in order to make those pictures move bros

fun fact. ive never animated hair like this before. or in any complex manner really. i had to use sooo much brain here... heres how it started vs. how it ended up

had my animator gf hype me up thru the whole thing... i was having a great time based on the filenames alone

aaaand then ummmm i edited it. i learned after effects like 1 month ago. never touched it before. i learned it for internship purposes and then used my newfound powers for evil it seems

i split the whole thing up into multiple compositions of course, but i probably could have split things up more... im sorry for having 84 layers on comp 3 its not my fault

editing a video in 12 fps was a fun change though -- very easy for my brain to go frame-by-frame, and yet still some of the timing ended up being off... tis the goomy way

like i said before, i started editing when i barely had half the drawings done, but seeing it all start to be in motion really pushed me to finish it up. and i mean Really. like i finished the whole thing maybe 48 hours after i first started editing.

and...i think that's it? i do a lot of discord art streaming to friends lately but i kinda kept this one more under wraps compared to usual, i think i just wanted to surprise everyone... look guys i remembered how to make a video! and it's three minutes! waow

sorry if this is way more than you asked for LMAO

also, the AMV hit 5k views on youtube today! ive never had a video do well like that so quickly! thank you!!

[peridipshit]

EDIT: IDK HOW TO MAKE A READMORE ON MOBILE SORRY FOR A WALL

hey hey guys ive been super inactive and theres a reason for that and that reason finally worked out and i cannot fucking begin to explain how good it is ghjklljhgfdghjkljhgfdghjkljhgfdghjklhgfhjkl

read more for a super lengthy overshare of angst and ecstasy

i kno w its fuckin long, its not for anybody but myself bc ye i have adhd myself and dont know how to read sh i t and dont expect anybody to have the patience for this

so, if i start at the beginning, ive had, the hardest period of my life starting around fall 2016. ive been in community college for about 4 years now, and i dont want to list all of the things ive done because it wouldnt reflect the mental emotional and physical exhaustion ive put myself through for all of this work. and all this time i thought it would amount to nothing because a lot of what i was supposed to be doing was pushed away out of fear. i filled up my time with a million impressive things that i genuinely loved and enjoyed, but knew it wasnt the actual work to get into the universities i was so desperate for. i pushed,, all my applications to the week or day before the due date. i had to give up three out of seven universities because of the deadline pressures. 

but my main school, the one that i returned to as the ideal place, but a laughable pipe dream, was the one i worked the absolute hardest for

i needed to do two different applications with a total of uh, 8 or 9 essays? the first round of 5ish essays i submitted the day before, and then the second application, i started the week before and completed the essays and storyboard, and hit the submit button 2 minutes before the deadline. i had two winter semester classes (which both kept me under a no-sleep schedule) and i juggled the application work by night. i ended up with like 3 total hours of sleep in that week. i almost gave up like three times but i remember crying after finding this song which coincidentally reflects the acceptance into the university im now somehow attending. it was the moment to myself that i decided i wanted to push through and grow up

the third round where i almost gave up was when my professor couldnt recieve my emails and i had no other way to contact him during the winter. i came to his office the week school started in spring with a deadline of three days to get my letter completed, and he submitted it an hour and a half before the deadline. i spent that weekend convinced i would just take another year at community college and at home and prepare myself more. i cried after checking my phone when i was walking out of Black Panther because he hadnt submitted it with less than two hours left before my application would have been thrown out. he submitted once i got into the car and refreshed the tab

last month i got an interview with the school of my dreams. i looked up the real statistics and they choose 30 transfer applicants for interview and accept 15. that moment was a rush of disbelief and brief sobbing as i realized that maybe im not crazy and not stupid and maybe just doing good things

that was the longest week of my life, but it wasnt a nervous thing at all. i knew i could nail an interview, it just was practicing. i spent each car ride to school talking to myself for 30 minutes. 

i literally could not have done anything as amazingly as i did in that interview without my friend’s help (hey dude), i was literally hearing that skype notification and have never had my heart pound as hard in my life. two seconds thinking about my friends and everything theyve done for me was like, a reminder that ppl care and have my back and istg that power of friendship anime bs is real my dudes and i couldnt ask for better people in my life 

i rocked it like some kind of word virtuoso person and waited a month for a notification

limbo is wierd

i spent so long knowing i was so, close, but not in a place to celebrate

the day i found out was Of Course as wild as it was, where i was having a panic attack out of everything in the morning that accumulated, i was like near crying in class because the prof was kinda yelling at me and i almost lost my project and had to run about a mile in heels to look for it and i was being hit on by a guy twice my age and i had 2 hours of sleep

but????????? i got into ucIa in their theater film and television school, which is harder than any ivy league school. me and 14 other transfer students. 92 total undergrads in that entire film school. ill be nineteen into my junior year. ill be at the heart of the industry going into animation and able to do practically anything. 

a n d i learned that not only my tuition room and board will be covered, but likely a ridiculous amount beyond that too.

i just. got to a point in my life last year that i knew that i was setting myself up for failure and i thought that if i wasnt improving i was failing and so i put so much onto myself in terms of working that i literally had no time for myself. no time for anything leisurely and no time for shows or movies or games or even friends. the only thing i felt like was my escape was cosplay and i still had that shamed by my family for wasting money and time. i of course had many moments and opportunities to do a few things that i regard very fondly, but overall i had no time to genuinely reflect on the damage that everything had caused. it felt like i had no time to cry ultimately, like some kind of hamster wheel of responsibility and fear. im still recovering now, and i want to be better. i want to do my best for myself and everyone around me. and i want to become someone that can be healthy and be myself. and yknow what im pretty damn proud of where im already at right now 

trying hard to keep coherency but i gotta wake up at 5 for an 8am class tomorrow so this is a lil rushed. its probably corny as hecc, but hell i feel just ok for a second and thats nice. i would never have gotten here with the support around me and like, my friends and family have done so much for me and i could write ten of these rambles on each one of you. you care about me and i care about you guys beyond anything these words can express. (*cough*quinn keira kevin cece*cough* not to say everyone else i know hasnt impacted me because gOd so many lives have done so much for me, i just, hey, love yall) 

my life is finally feeling like something big, ive never believed in the destined for greatness thing, ive just felt Capable of greatness and afraid beyond words of wasting it. and i want to be great for me, i want to be great to others, and i want to be great to the big picture. 

just, holy fuck i love you guys so much and thank you 

things are finally looking ok and i would repay you guys back in to the fullest extent of my hearts adoration and appreciation

[spectral-cervid]

hey i saw your tag so only the odd ones

oh my GOD

is this just gonna be a..recurring theme now? ( fine

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?Spotify. Pandora isn’t in canada anymore and soundcloud is horriblewhat color are your eyes?A brownish color with bits of amber-ish near the centerwhat is your relationship status? Dating a jerd (jock-nerd) (cryptid but very real) (he’s the best tbh?)what color hair do you have?Naturally it’s a weird...brownish red? It used to be dark blonde but I dyed it too much, speaking of I’m bleaching it white at some point

where do you shop?store

favorite social media accountLinkedIn...sarcasm aside, probably tungl so long as I avoid the Disk Horse. Facebook keeps trying to reconnect me to the half of my family that I’m estranged and disowned from

any siblings?I have two sisters, I’m the youngest

favorite snapchat filter?the one that makes your mouth rly big because I like scaring my friends at 3 AM with a “whatcha doin?” and a wide-eyed grin

how many times a week do you shower?Whenever my hair’s too greasy + depression allows it tbh

shoe size?I actually have no fucking clue but I think I’m a.... 9 or a 10 in canadian size?

sandals or sneakers?Sneakers because I do too much fucking about to risk a sandal falling off while going about my day

describe your dream dateProbably equal parts thrill and chill? Ziplining followed by cuddling n watching the landscape, sort of thing.

what color socks are you wearing?I am not wearing socks. Or pants, actually.

do you have a job? what do you do?Currently still just an artist taking commissions when I can. I was nearly a delivery courier, but I have too many balance and general nervous system issues to safely drive a motorcycle in the dead of winter in a city of reckless and aggressive drivers.

whats the worst thing you have ever done?Define worst. Morally worst? Embarassingly worst? Stupidly worst? I picked up a deer skull once only to find that a nest of very angry harvester ants was living underneath it. That was bad. Very, very bad.

3 favorite boy namesUhhh can I get back to you on this one? I don’t think I’ve ever thought about this one much tbh

favorite actor?I really admire and respect the talent of the entire Stranger Things cast tbh

who is your celebrity crush?Don’t think I have one? do fictional ones count

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? I read a lot when I find a good book or series, but it’s finding something that interests me that takes a while. I don’t think I really have one favourite?

do you have a nickname? what is it?Depending on if I’m using my first or middle name, it’s Lee or Jensi, both of which I don’t mind

top 10 favorite songsIn no particular order:- Lover, Lower Me Down! by Major Parkinson- sl0t by Mili (it’s been stuck in my head...all damn day)- This Is Transcendence by Ritual Howls - Golden Antlers - Glass Animals- Mykonos - Fleet Foxes- Honestly, the entire album “IV. - Wake” by American Murder Song- U,U,D,D,L,R,L,R,A,B,Select,Start by Deftones- Arsonist’s Lullabye - Hozier- Earth - Sleeping At Last- For The Best - Gregory And The Hawkwhat is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)....like skin? I’m not sure it’s not really anything

how many kids do you want? If I had kids I’d rather adopt (never mind that I can’t, physically, have kids if I wanted) and I’m not sure how many I’d want. I’d much rather adopt older kids and teens, to be honest, if I did. For one, the idea of having to...raise someone from infancy, teach it everything, be responsible for all those crucially formative years...... That terrifies me. That absolutely terrifies me and I do not want someone’s life in my hands like that. But for second, I’d like to be able to give some older kids some stability. Especially at an age where they really need that stability and accepting base.

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)Rented Duplex (two-floor house split into two units, I live in the lower unit.)

what was the last compliment you received?“I WANT TO HUG THEM AND TELL THEM EVERYTHING’S GOING TO BE OKAY” - directed @ me about Vier. I consider that a compliment tbh

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?Already answered, 6ish I do believe

opinion on smoking?Don’t mind people that do, but it burns my lungs too much and sends me into the worst coughing fits without fail. No matter what’s being smoked. I require water if I plan on it.

what is your dream job? Already answered..? “I used to want to work on the trauma floor eventually, but I’m pretty sure my hands are screwed for dropping things so I’m going to settle for something else that I have a different sort of passion for- art and writing. I’d love to be on the creative team for a game developer some day, whether for concept art, writing, storyboarding, what have you. I’ve got a little ways to go but hey- I’ve got time.”

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?The only time I did, it was because they said “GAYLORD” on the labels and I’m a certified 12 year old

do you smile for pictures?Sssometimes?

have you ever peed in the woods? I’ve gone on week-long forest treks, they don’t build loos 10 miles out in bumfuck nowhere I’m afraid

I have fallen ass first over a short cliff trying to take a dump over the ledge.

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?Wendy’s has nuggets?

what do you wear to bed?skin, blankets, enough raw power to kill anyone who walks in on sight

what are your hobbies?Also answered! I’m getting back into metalworking mostly because I’d like to make a knife Because I Can, aaand other than that? Beyond art & writing, I do competitive target archery (or did, can’t afford to get out to practice these days), am a semi-professional vocalist and used to do traveling theatre when I lived in British Columbia. I also code things, but I haven’t been in the right brainspace for a while.

do you play an instrument?Several! I can play guitar, bass, harp, piano, violin & sing with reasonable proficiency. I used to play trumpet too but I didn’t like it too much.

tea or coffee?Both

do you want to get married?I have mixed feelings

are you going to change your last name when you get married?It depends, to be honest. I like my name now (picked it myself, I did) and god damnit it’s going to be a pain in the ass to get it changed twice

do you miss anyone right now? A few people. Friends too far away to visit anymore, my sisters, my sleep schedule

do you believe in ghosts?Yyyyup.

last person you called?Got a call about a job offer that sounded sketchier than an unmarked van with “KANDY” painted up the side

regular oreos or golden oreos? What, pray tell, the fuck, are golden oreos

what shirt are you wearing? None. A blanket wrapped around my shoulders?

are you outgoing or shy?I can act outgoing but honestly I’m naturally pretty shy.

do you like your neighbors? The person in the duplex unit on top of us is a cool guy and puts up with way too much.

have you ever been high? Yyyuuup.

last thing you ate?Piece of toast with cinnamon sprinkled on it for taste

summer or winter? I prefer winter aesthetically but my health issues prefer summer so long as I avoid the sun

dark, milk, or white chocolate? Milk, or semi-dark

what is your zodiac signI’m a cusp between Leo and Virgo.

[vaanibct]

Studio IV - Actual Reality

Week 12…

Tuesday (16-10-18)

Yesterday, we were all working on Synthetic Realities assignment, hence there was no changes or discussions regarding our Studio project. However, today I’m starting to feel a little stressed. I think this stress is not because of the workload, but mainly because of the fast-approaching deadline. I just came to realise how close to the end of the year we are, and it’s a little scary.

So, we started with a team meeting, to discuss what exactly we need to do for the rest of the time left, and what we need for the Submission. We also talked about what we will be needing for the Showcase separately, because we want to change our place to the ‘Light Room’ for the night. Due to equipment issues, I volunteered to bring in my television from home for the submission, so that we can use that to showcase the app video.

Speaking about presentation, when I talked to Ben, he suggested to design and create something that enhances and supports our idea. At first, Carol, Shades and I had talked about making a poster that explains our app and idea, however we hadn’t discussed this in detail. But now, we think that a video of the functionality of our app would be better suited for our idea. We also talked to Andy about this, and he seemed happy with what we wanted to do, because we would show how the app would work in the outside world, due to the lecturers or the public not being able to walk outside to use the app.

Carol was pretty stern, and had talked to us about setting hard deadlines for the completion, so by next Tuesday, we will finish the app, do the video recording on Wednesday, and by next Friday, we will complete the Statements, video editing and other small tasks, so that we still have next weekend to reflect on our work, and make any necessary improvements.

As for this week, we planned on play testing the current version of the app on Thursday, to get user feedback. And on Friday, we will draw a storyboard for the video, so we are prepared for next Wednesday. But, I think we are at a good place at the moment. The feedback from Thursday should help to frame the app better and allow me some time to make design changes if needed.

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Thursday (18-10-18)

Today, we had planned to play test the app, however, I was unable to participate as I was busy in a Student Representative meeting. Nevertheless, Carol and Shades did a great job with the user testing, because they received some helpful feedback and the changes we need to make seemed clear and understandable.

Questions:

Overall thoughts? Are the “button” positions comfortable? Was it easy to use? If no, then should we add instructions? Was the text understandable? Was it well written, easy to see? Is the AR easy to use? Does it need instructions? Are the 3D models good? Do they relate to the stories? Any improvements on the layout of the app? How are the volume levels and background music?

Feedback:

The buttons react slowly, and the ‘AR Button’ needs the letters “AR” to clarify what the button is for. But the buttons stand out on the page, they are visible and clear to understand. The app still needs instructions to tell the users what to do and how to use the Augmented Reality, because it is difficult to know what happens. The instructions definitely need to be at the start, because it will inform the users better.

The map is also a little confusing - it’s quite small, so either make it zoomable, or enlarge it. And use contrasting colours to make the ‘location pins’ stand out on the map. It would also be good if there was a pop-up telling the users to listen to the audio content, or mention that in the instructions.

Moreover, the background music is quite loud, which makes it difficult to hear the story properly. So that needs to be slower and softer, but the overall music is good. And the Augmented Reality models need to be smaller, as they’re quite big and it’s hard to see all aspects of it. Overall, the app is clear and consistent, and the experience is enjoyable.

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Friday (19-10-18)

This week, we seemed to have met our deadlines and be on track. So, to discuss the happenings for the rest of the week ahead, we had a team meeting. Carol had made a list of all the tasks that  we had finished and that needed to be completed before the submission, and to my surprise, we were at a good place. There weren’t many things left incomplete, so we were happy to have set some deadlines.

We all made a checklist of tasks that we need to complete by next Tuesday, because as Carol said, “that’s when the app will be fully complete - we will not touch the app after that.” So, what I mainly need to complete is the rest of the designs for the app pages, as well as create the logo, and help Shades with the sound effects. I also signed up to make our personal Business Cards for the showcase, and edit the ‘Curiosity Guide’ video which we will be showcasing as well.

Carol made our Map for the app as well, using Mapbox and a similar colour palette as the App. I think this made my job much easier, because I would have been the one to design the map from scratch. However, I somewhat disapprove of the colours in the Map, because I wanted to use contrasting colours, whereas Carol had used similar greens and blues. I think a different colour scheme would make the Map look much more interesting and also highlight the ‘location pins’ (which are also green and yellow). Nevertheless, I’m glad that this is one task off our checklist, because we still have work to do.

After the meeting, Shades gave me the Audacity file for the “Barmaid Story,” so I could add the sound effects in place. This took me a while, but I managed to set them up properly, and it flowed  quite well. So, Shades still needed to finish organising the rest of the dialogues, and equalise the sounds for the story to be completed.

Then, we all discussed the storyboard for our video. We had a proper chat about the events we want to record, the camera shots and where we would be shooting. This discussion seemed to have brought up a few challenges, because we were finding it difficult to agree on certain things, nevertheless, we finally finished the storyboard with a clear idea of how the video would look like.

At home, I continued with my tasks of finishing the designs for the app pages, making the logo, and sketching out a rough business card layout, which I will finish over the weekend. This will probably require input form the rest of the group, so I will keep in touch with them by sending my designs on the Messenger group chat to get their feedback.

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