#to be perceived by u is such a blessin

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I am percieving, so here we go, for Metis: 3 and 4 for starters but also 1!

oh my goodness oomfie hii thank you for the ask!! ♥️

for my girlie metis

1. What circumstances led to your Dark Urge becoming their Class/Subclass?

Since her past is a jumbled mess, Metis wants to believe she was, and still is, a simple Selûnite. The visions of torn flesh and blood; Metis will try convincing herself they are the fractured memory of her initiation. Once she’s met Orin, however, she realizes those flashing images depict the night she slaughtered her adoptive parents and sibling, before wandering out into the dark where she eventually crossed paths with two senior Selûnite clerics. They took in her appearance and decided she must be a child of Selûne, her bright silver eyes and the white streaks in her jet black hair seen as the touch of the Goddess. Metis was then raised to be a Life Domain cleric, ever struggling between her heart’s desire, to help and heal, and her Urge’s sick fixations.

3. What would your Dark Urge consider to be their greatest skill? Is this accurate?

On the outside, Metis seems stoic and quiet. The only time the gang has seen her smiling or laughing was during the tiefling party (or any soft moments she shares with Shadowheart, who Metis is extremely enraptured by). However, as quiet as she may be, Metis has a way of breaking down the walls of those around her, I would label this as her greatest skill. Regardless of the companion or their morals, Metis can surely convince them to take the right path (or at least, the path with the least possibility to trigger her Urges in that moment). She has a soft confidence about her that I think some of the companions are especially drawn to. If asked herself, Metis would say her greatest skill is her connection to Selûne, and the powers granted by the Moonmaiden as she greatly relies on them to fend off her murderous fantasies. I can definitely envision her furiously praying at her bedroll whenever she feels the Urge creeping back in. The first night her prayers failed was the night Alfira joined camp.

4. What would your Dark Urge consider to be their greatest flaw? Is this accurate?

Metis would definitely say the Urge itself is her greatest flaw. I definitely see her attacking Sceleritas the night he finds Durge, until he can convince her that he really knows her (then he has a purpose, she’s like Hmm what info can I get out of you…). If she could only be rid of these torturous thoughts, she’s sure she could focus on her true purpose as a cleric and, of course, getting rid of the tadpole, but she doesn’t fully understand how strongly bonded to Bhaal she is. (Yet). And though she is heavily troubled by her dark urges, they have come to be useful when dealing with the most unsavory characters in the realms, and for getting Metis through the more horrifying moments in their journey. I would say Metis’ greatest flaw is that she lets fear consume her, specifically her fear that the Urge will take over and she will become something unrecognizable. The more she tries to suppress it, the worse it gets and she’s terrified, always looking to her faith for reassurance. As much as she tries to keep her feelings hidden, there are definitely some companions who notice this uncertain side of her.