#tohear

[rjalker]

[ID: A black and white drawing of werewolf baring its teeth in rage, saying, "listen to intersex people or die by my teeth.". End ID.]

[aska234]

THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AN ASK NOT A SUBMISSION SORRY

Anyway take 2 ig lol

Im curious about your fem vox and the blank/untitled one

Also really intrigued by the least intimidating fangirl title

Haha, thats fine, absolutely do not worry about that! Happens to the best of us♡ :D

The fem vox is the title I gave one of my drawning after saving it for the first time at 1am, after 2h of work haha. It is a fanart of @/blackblood-tonic's desighn. I just saw it and could not resist trying to draw it with my own little take on it (Of course I asked for permission first!). I am planning on posting it by the end of the week ^^

Blank one is kinda.. let's say lost media at this point hahah! The idea began in 2021. Because It doesn't have any title and although I KNOW that I wrote the first chapter, I have no clue where to find it. All that remains is VERY detailed step by step plan for 19 chapters of SBI in the Spiderwick Chronicles world (great book, would recommend 10/10).

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It is esentiallyabout a family whose car broke down in the middle of the woods. Trying to fix it they are attacked by invisible monsters who chase them towards an isolated, rundown cabin. The lonely resident, being merely a teenager, relucantly let's them stay a few nights until their injuries get better (accidentally bonding with the strangers) as he helps the father fix the car without risking being eaten. Meanwhile two boys, younger then the teenager himself start to pry around the house, discovering things noone should ever meddle with..

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At the moment I plan on using the outline for another fandom as after recent dramas I am unsure about my belonging to the minecraft community at all.

And the fangirl one is The Owl House's / Huntlow / pre-canon little fanfic about how they might have met! It was written in 2022 (before s3 aired) and was just sillier little idea for how they may have met if they were younger. It is so far one of My favourite fics! (That did not get posted whatsoever. I have vanished from the internet like the avatar, I'm telling ya) Have the snippet!! :D :

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Hunters' train of thoughts was abrubtly interruped by random witch turning corner just as he was about to do the same resulting in two people getting scattered on the floor. He slowly opened eyes, holding his forehead before noticing random pot with some kind of flower inside falling from the air right at his face.

Ow. That will surely leave some kind of mark.

"For Titans sake!"

He swore, abrubtly sitting up as dry earth fell through the holes in his mask right into his eyes. What can he say. Maybe he was trained to endure pain in high stress situations but it funking stung Titandamit.

"Oh no! Im, im so sooo sorry. Are you alrigh-.."

The witch he bumbed into started saying something but he was too ocupied with frantic blinking to get the dirt out of his eyes without help from his arms, to pay to it any attention. He couldnt risk taking his mask off right now when he was chased by-.. oh Titan! The girls!!

"He went that way!"

"Faster before he gets away!"

He could tell by louder and louder voices that all the advantage he had gained from his fast moving and knowing the city like the back of his hand just faded as the thunder of teenage feet neared the position he was sitting in right now.

This isint good. He needs to move NOW.

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[animutate]

dsmp died btw peace on earth forever

[spacedykez]

hi mutuals thisIs your permission 2 tell me abt Your Little Guys!!

[scaryvagina]

hes big and rude and told me i was stupid for poking his tail 🥰🥰🥰🥰😍😍 I knew id like him

[rogerrcoyle]

beneath the wall

[tinylittlebab]

ill be skinny and dying and ill look beautiful and people will like me it has to happen or id rather die

whats the point of being lonely and in pain all the time and then having to get a job and hate doing that if i have no friends and hate myself. the one thing that keeps me wanting to live wont be good enough once u have to work and in that case id rather just die

:(

[phosporo]

in that weird middle area where i want to talk about a character but my friends aren't rlly into the media where they're from. and im too shy to join any conversation abt the character

[genderqueerdykes]

i just had the sudden realization due to your blog that it’s okay for me to simply be ugly. I don’t have to be conventionally attractive, or attractive by the standards of an alternative community or by any sort of niche queer circle i can literally just be ugly and that’s okay. and I can also not care <3 idk if i’m ugly or pretty or anything and it doesn’t matter cause it is enough for me to just be.

i’m a disabled person for who body neutrality was huge for learning how to be at peace with my disorders, and body positivity never did anything for me, so it kind of blows my mind that i never really thought of this sooner tbh

anyways thank u!!! i am starting to feel more comfortable in my body thanks to you

YES!!!!!! YES YES YES FUCK YES

you can literally look however the fuck. you do NOT have to cover up ANYTHING on your body, you don't have to hide your natural features, or anything that came from surgery, or even body mods. there's nothing wrong with having features that don't fit into the conventional "norm" of what "looks good"- our bodies come in a million different shapes, naturally. we are not inherently imperfect. we do not have to strive to make our bodies and faces "perfect"

of course! hey you can't always go from one end to the other right away, i think learning body neutrality is a good way to go. it's okay to just be. it's alright. your comfort & autonomy supersedes all of that. i'm okay with being ugly, you're allowed to be okay with it, too.

take care of yourself, this made me smile. really glad tohear you had this realization. take care of yourself, have a good time out there. your body is yours and you deserve to be at peace with just existing in it.

[chronotopes]

beyond all the wonderfully crafted bloody interpersonal dramas of young adulthood in the text of aivide, the scene(s) i keep coming back to in my mind the most are the ones in chapter three, aivide's internship in queen's pass and her conversations with annise and lauris. i'd love tohear the process behind those!

OOOH yes absolutely. ngl when i reblogged this i was like 'if anyone sends something i hope they ask about lauris and annise' so congrats you win... appreciation.

putting this under a cut because it'll inevitably get long.

structurally chapter three was the last atp chapter i drafted because it was the last one that it occurred to me i needed. originally fucked up as that was i wrote it to timeskip from chapter two to chapter four, which in hindsight is batshit, but at the time of first writing atp i was very insecure about asking friends, let alone strangers, to read my oc backstory and therefore determined to keep it as short, word count and chapter-wise, as possible. however upon realizing that i really, really needed a buffer zone between the two Big Explosive Event chapters, the things i'd cover in it became immediately obvious: a snapshot of the legal proceedings between nora's father and bancra's mother, insight into terift fleure's damage control work for the stolen mines from the previous chapter and vtn, and, crucially, aivide interacting with older teals.

that's lauris and annise's fairly straightforward narrative purpose: bait-and-switch reasonable authority figures/surrogate mothers in a novel that is teeming with more obviously-bad choices of surrogate mother. i outlined my purpose with them pretty clearly – in the same way that nora is sometimes written to goad the audience into thinking 'can't aivide just get with the program and live in a straightforward love story already?', lauris and annise are me dangling them in front of you and saying 'ooh you want aivide to have surrogate parents. you want her to trust these people.' they're a hot middle aged butch/femme relationship, something that reads as trustworthy and appealing to us, the gay audience (because we are gay) and to aivide inside the story (because of al2rnia's own cultural concepts and standards - hot butch teal is just as specific and culturally visible of a beauty standard as the pearls-and-pencil-skirt secretary bullshit that stelad embodied.) they're funny! they're nice to aivide! they.... do not have substantial issues with the way the world works, and they haven't for a long time.

bc that's the other part of lauris and annise that i really wanted to get across: they're post-stelad teals, and stelad is not universally hated in the way that aivide's narration would have you believe. she's easy to make fun of for what a clear curmudgeon she is, but lauris's dialogue here -

LAURIS: You hear the pre-Optimizer success stories. The Latoils, the Styeles, the Wrothes, the Caerals, the Seldens— LAURIS: You don’t hear about trolls who deserved better but didn’t receive it— LAURIS: Of course we all complained, growing up reading her. Of course we thought it was unfair that our ancestors could have dreamt of overnight stardom, all while we could hope for nothing but decades of work— LAURIS: But decades of work are more reliable than the chance that some supervisor might grow attached to your story— LAURIS: And the kind of qualities your ancestor’s system rewards are far more consistent and useful than a pleasant sense of humor or a capacity for selling oneself. AIVIDE: <[ but – but everything else; ] AIVIDE: <[ the exams, the reporting rules; ] LAURIS: Unpleasant, certainly— LAURIS: But a better deterrent against dishonesty than the rather naive assumption that one’s peers are by default honest— LAURIS: You may have heard that a teal is nigh-impossible to bribe. Do you think that this truth is an inherent quality, or that it has always been that way—? LAURIS: There is not as much distance as you may think between splitting hairs over academic integrity and functionally wiping out corruption in settings where corruption can be deadly.

is an essential part of the story to me because it illuminates not only that stelad is quite widely admired among older, more successful teals, but that aivide just kind of straight up denies that. on top of the more straightforward worldbuilding about the varying teal politics regarding chiono-style vs eubala-style (aka stelad-style) mobility, this is one of our many flags that The Audience Should Not Take Aivide's Stelad Takes At Face Value, because not only is aivide uniquely unqualified to speak on them in a level-headed manner, she also just straight up does not have all the facts!

and – maintaining the awareness that lauris is the raytheon technologies social media coordinator and ultimately not a person aivide comes away respecting as much as nora clearly wants her to – this exchange also highlights something aivide's narration skims over, which is that chiono-style middle management really did harm people and was ultimately sort of deranged and patronizing. lauris and aivide are both so stuck thinking about which is better that they don't consider they've set themselves up for a false binary lol.

i know this is super long but i also wanted to talk about annise a little. obviously part of what annise does is deliver worldbuilding about movies and their creators, cueing aivide to consider entertainment as informed by non-static ideologies and preferences, and setting up for the conclusion of the novel and the revelations of the epilogue – the person who signed off on all those jade movies is real, she's profoundly deranged, she fucked your internet crush's mom, and 1300 years after that she may or may not have fucked yours. Their exchange about movies is the beginning of the cues (from the Aivide perspective, rather than the Vinbre perspective) that eubala is a human character in this novel rather than just a force.

But i also like this exchange with annise very much – 

ANNISE: This is nice. ANNISE: Reminds me of college. All too often, these days, Laurie and I find ourselves in indigo-grade restaurants. ANNISE: But it’s nice to imagine We could be in a college town. AIVIDE: <[ you both went to amhl santerre, right? ] ANNISE: Yes. Laurie and I met there, in fact. When I was ten sWeeps old, I Went to bed Weeping the night after Santerre’s academic excellence gala, convinced it Was going to be the most romantic night of my life forever. ANNISE: Of course, xe and I Were lucky. Xe had some connections through their title. That helped us just enough to be considered for Work in the same toWn and With the same company. ANNISE: I Was smart, but xe Was brilliant. I stood starstruck that night as the Provost shook xer hand and recognized xer on sight. ANNISE: The Provost Wasn’t Savant yet then, of course.

– because while lauris's commentary on upward mobility and the impact of the principles is our insight into normie successteal workplace politics, this section is our insight into normie successteal relationship ideals. All of the things aivide and donnah (and, centuries before that, stelad) grew up idolizing, seen from the opposite perspective. And of course, setting up the mythic status of the AMHL's Academic Excellence Gala is a surprise that will help us in chapter 6, when it's a conflict flash point between aivide and donnah.

sorry for writing soso much and not even getting to the fact that aivide is doing the fucking military industrial complex's dirty work for the entire week she's there but i like lauris and annise and wanted to discuss what i think they bring to this narrative :) thank you for the ask!

[girard]

i miss gerard so much for his birthday i want to see him. i need tohear from him. send me a sign

[pathologising]

hi angel im curious about ur job & like how u found it. what jobs were u working in the lead up? what was applying like? did you have to have connections? .. im daunted by the process of finding a longstanding job let alone a career & you talking about how u can see ur job now as a career is really interesting & nice tohear about.. but anyway definitely feel free to disregard if this is nosy !!!!

hi!!! im sorry this answer took so long, i wanted to properly sit down and respond to it :) i was mainly focused on marketing related jobs because that's what i have experience in! and i found this job by looking at the careers page for this company, i don't have connections per say but my bf was working for a completely different department under the same company and suggested i look for some of their marketing related jobs so that's as far as connections go. but i had to go through the application phase, a phone interview, and then an in person interview. its got a lot of room for growth if you can stick it out, and that's particularly exciting for me just because i found something im good at !!!! i didn't expect to be very good at it but turns out im really good at collecting data and conducting interviews LOL but yeah if u have anymore questions feel free to ask!

[blazeball]

i am incentivised to get headshots in tps bcos sometimes when scavs heads explode i get tohear athena laugh :)

[localvoidcat]

first: GRASGH YOU ARE NOT BLAND TO ME GRASGH (look if I keep sending you asks I think that indicates i don’t see you as bland. You are wonderful. Unless you were complementing yourself with that then uh idk)

Second: hey people who see this ask: go do the ask game that they reblogged please /nf

And 3

Flannel jumpscare!! Woe writing this was long but… hey uh three birds with one stone maube??

love the look of this guy i feel like im about tohear about a topic ive ever heard of

[luderailing]

I'm going apeshit over your Moldova sketches, thank you for the food <33

IM SO HAPPY TOHEAR THAT thankyouuu<3333

[creepy-crowleys]

Truth + What is the hardest decision you've ever had to make?

Leaving. Always leaving. Admitting I can’t can’t fix anything anymore and staying is rotting and I can’t love them better. It’s not enough.

Nobody wants tohear it isn’t enough.

I miss them.