#too lazy to post a shit ton of oc art i have lol

[kapi-tanka]

prodigal siblings, reunited

[crazycookiemaniac]

Omg why are you losing so many followers youve been drawing gay shit for forever??? (Or maybe i as a gay was just interpreting it that way)

Because I literally spammed people every day for one week lmao. And also, a lot of people follow others for specific content. The moment I stop drawing that exact thing they followed me for, they unfollow me. There are also accounts that follow just to make you follow them & if you don’t, they unfollow you after a while. There’s people who followed me for haikyuu & weren’t interested in BC content, and there were people who followed me for BC content but got showered in gay art instead and that was not their cuppa tea. 

But mostly, i start appearing on people’s feed the more I post. So having me post incessantly for one week made me show up on feeds that I hadn’t shown up for  a good while, so there were probably people who forgot they had followed me in the first place & me posting was a reminder to unfollow.

Truthfully, follower counts are dumb. Yes, it is important for you to have a high follower count for you to get attention, but the amount of people actually following you if you don’t have a consistent art style & rarely ever post something with different vibes than your usual ones, is equal or less than 1% of your total amount of following.

My instagram tells me I have 43k. I do not have 43k people following me. I’ve had 43k that once saw my account & pressed the follow button, but their feeds are filled up with other people’s accs that interest them more than mine (as well as my own feed does not show all the content of the 200+ something people I follow, unless I scroll down till the depths of hell to find every single post on that day and then do so on the next day as well).

Essentially, 95% of your followers are there because of content. They want to see what entertains them. Most of them don’t care about the artist and don’t interact with them at all. Many of them are scared to, given the high follower count. Social media & big accounts make people forget that there are other, real, living & breathing people that are behind them all.

So, to many, I was just a random artist they found and “lol”ed at one of my comics & pressed follow without thinking about it. Most of them don’t go to my account and see all other art I’ve posted to see if they actually like what I do, or me as a person and as an artist at all.

People who don’t know this get really discouraged when they don’t earn a lot of followers, or when they lose a lot (like I did). And some people think you gotta have hundreds of thousands to be famous. I’ve seen accs going around that paid for ads, that had over 150k followers and less than 1k likes on their posts.

Truly famous, loved, growing and/or steady accounts have an amount of likes per post proportional to their follower count. For example, if someone has 150k followers, most of their posts will vary from 20k to 100k likes.

When I was growing my account because I hopped in the fandom bandwagon and stupid little me didn’t know that would only make me crash later, I had like 20~30k and some of my posts reached more than 20k likes (because people liked my stupid comics). Nowadays, I’m not part of the fandom that made me grow anymore. I’m part of a very underrated one (Black Clover), as well a I am drawing a very underrated ship (LuGna) that above all else is getting hated on. I have everything against me in this, so it’s no wonder I lost so many followers.

They didn’t wanna see gay art. They didn’t wanna see Black Clover. They didn’t even know what the fuck was going on. Not everyone paid attention or kept up with my warnings. Despite me explaining multiple times in multiple posts what the Thunder Flames project was about, a lot of people still didn’t know what I was doing that for.

The thing about being a big follower count is that, unless you’re actually loved for what you do (and to do that, once again, I need to emphasize that you need to keep a steady rhythm, a steady vibe, a steady you. Because people follow you for your first impression on them, and you gotta keep up to that first impression if you wanna keep your followers.

I’m unsteady. One look at my gallery and you’ll see how disorganized everything is. Oh, lookit, a 1 min speedpaint of a random drawing I did on an old piece of paper! And right on the left there’s a stupid random comic I did–on the right there’s this super detailed, shaded drawing I’ve done that actually looks terrible to me and I will 100% archive it later, and then there’s B&W mixed with gray shaded, flat colored and fully shaded characters of different fandoms + OCs from commissions and whatever else. 

The thing is, I made my follower count based on a fandom, and now that I’m not there most of that follower count does not have me on their feed. And most of them do not want me on their feed. Now, I’m trying to build a follower count for who I am as an artist, because the few people who have actually stayed and followed me throughout the years know how inconsistent I am in terms of art style, fandoms and everything else.

A solution to this would me either keep creating/posting the same thing all over again (just in different patterns), or creating original content (which I do plan on doing at some point). But for now? Since my follower count does absolutely not reflect on how many people actually like me and/or my art, I’m going to be as chaotic as fucking ever and do whatever the fuck I want.

So yes, I do find it comical that I lost 1k followers over this and am not fazed in the very least, especially because I literally foreshadowed losing 1k and hit the fucking jackpot.

The only reason I’m talking about this at all is because 1- it’s impossible not to notice my follower count decreasing, especially because every new 1k I thank people publicly through stories; 2- some people were actually worried I was upset over it and I have to 3- show that I am not, while simultaneously trying to show people that just because you’re losing followers doesn’t mean you have to stop doing what you want to create content to please people. It doesn’t mean you should be upset, and it doesn’t mean that what you’re doing is bad or wrong.

It means you’re fucking renewing your followers & you’ll now grow for what you’re trying to grow for, bitch. That’s what it’s all about.

Obviously, people do take a great risk doing this. I am taking a great risk doing this. I could’ve lost 5k, I could’ve lost 10k. But I only lost 1k! And that’s because I believe in the project I worked on; I knew there were people out there who enjoyed what I was doing and it’s on them that I was focused on. On the people who supported me AND my art, not just that one single funny comic post I did 3 years ago.

This answer is 100% a lot longer than what you could’ve possibly expected for and I am typing this while being awake for more than 24h so I’m sure that I’ve repeated myself a lot and that there are a lotta typos or w/e and I apologize for that!! But I’m too lazy to go back to read everything over & turn this into a neat post & I’m pretty sure I could answer your question in the first paragraph.

Oh and also. Yes. Yes I have been drawing gay shit ever since I’ve become an artist because I’m so fucking pissed at the lack of canon gay content in a way that it’s depicted as a normal fucking romantic couple instead of having eeeeeeeeveryone point their finger to the gay couple and scream “HEY THAT’S GAY!!! THIS CAN’T BE PART OF THIS VERY HETEROSEXUAL SHOW WHERE EVERYONE IS OBVIOUSLY HETEROSEXUAL EVEN THOUGH NONE OF THE CHARACTERS HAVE EVER SAID THAT EXPLICITLY BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT THE CREATORS ARE EITHER HETEROSEXUAL OR TOO AFRAID TO LOSE AUDIENCE IF THEY TREAT GAY PEOPLE AS NORMAL PEOPLE!??!! WHAT SORT OF ABSURD NONSENSE IS THAT??!! GAY PEOPLE AREN’T NORMAL!! THEY’RE GAY AND THEY SHOULD HAVE A GAY SHOW JUST FOR THEM IF THEY WANNA GET SCREENTIME” and yadda yadda yadda.

I’m tired of this bullshit. Ever since I was an artist I’ve been rooting for gay ships in shonen manga while knowing they would never happen just because they were gay, and now that we are in our Blessed-By-Satan, Pandemic-Chaotic, What-The-Fuck-Is-Going-On, We-Don’t-Know-If-We-Wanna-Go-Back-Or-To-The-Future-Or-Just-IDK-Fucking-Die year 2020, in which the LGBT community is thriving and being louder than ever to fight for our rights, Me, in my twenty four years of fucking age, having gone through several fucking disappointments ONLY regarding this matter, am sitting here on my ass, hopeful as all galactic, glittery shit that for some fucking reason, my new OTP formed by very underrated characters from this very underrated franchise in the southern and western communities, becomes canon because my stupid eyes can see chemistry between them even though those stupid haters’ can’t. But that’s because they’re stupid and homophobic, and they really should just shut the fuck up. I don’t wanna dream, I want to believe. Let a bitch pray in peace.

But even if I’m getting ready for disappointment, I’m gonna make this project happen and I’m gonna have a shit ton of artbooks from this Thunder Flames project inside my fucking garage if no one wants to buy them. But I am going to invest a shit ton of money in it and I am going to have these artbooks come to life. Because I am spiteful and petty and homophobes should shut the fuck up, and I wanna do what I wanna do bc as an independent artist, I’m building my future with my own two, very toned and buff by now from all the drawing I did, hands. 

God fucking damn it.

Jesus christ I’m just rambling at this point, I’m so sorry. If anyone ever reads this out of context people are going to be so confused.

But that’s fine. They won’t. You know why? Cuz I got almost 11k followers here on tumblr but less than 0.5% gives a shit that I’m here, so I’m safe.

Have a nice day, drink your water and fuck homophobes. Peace

[callsignbaphomet]

Got tagged by @catastrotaffy - 5 things you can find in my blog: 1. Way too many posts about my OCs and AUs I make for them. Any info on Legion I can put together in a legible way that can make sense. Sorry, guys. 2. Video games, animals, music, people I find really hot. 3. Porn. Not as much as before since I don't wanna make anyone uncomfortable. 4. Sometimes I'll go sjw on you guys. Sorry. 5. Whatever I find hilarious. - 5 things you can find in my room: 1. A mess of clean and not that clean clothes bundled in the clothes chair that I can't bother to hang up lol 2. We somehow managed to squeeze in 2 relatively big tvs. One for the Xbox One and one for the Playstation 4. Our room is pretty small, no idea how we made it work. 3. Some funkos, figures and some small plushies (the plushies are mine). 4. Super sweet and pretty bamboo plant. 5. Like 4 boxes full of sex toys we've collected over time. Glass and steel. - 5 things I always wanted to do: 1. Learn at least 2 more languages. 2. I refuse to die until I visit Norway. 3. Okay, this is really dumb and I'm kind of embarrassed to admit this but write and publish something from my project. 4. Wanna get better at art, wanna learn all I can. Wanna actually reach a point where I can proudly say I can draw. 5. Really wanna lose a shit ton of weight. Seriously feel and look gross as fuck right now. - 5 things that make me happy: 1. Drawing and writing. 2. Playing Fallout and Skyrim. Honestly it's so relaxing. 3. My pets. Those goofballs are so sweet. 4. Cold rainy weather. 5. My OCs. They're super important to me. - 5 thingson my to do list: 1. Honestly I need to clean my room. 2. Need to get off my lazy good for nothing ass and finish those "who they main in Overwatch" sketches. 3. Also need to get some writing done. 4. Don't really have much going on at the moment. 5. Need to get back to Diamond City one day. Biggest town I ever saw. - 5 things you may not know about me: 1. One of my main OCs is a self insert. Not gonna say who it is. 2. When I was a kid I sprained my right wrist so badly that I had to wear a big ol' clunky cast for over a month. On rare occasions it tends to act up. 3. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep. 4. I actually need to have a tooth removed. 5. Boyfriend and I got a picture with Belladonna at a strip club. Tagging (let's keep the 5 theme going): @heliicon @frigatebirds @dragonologystudent @asirenbyanyothername @housemarcellus

[ownedby5cats]

Tagged by @lixana​

Rules: Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked, then write 11 new ones. Tag 11 people to answer your questions, as well as the person who tagged you.

If you could live in any fictional world, which would it be and what would be your role in it?                                                                          I suppose I will go with the obvious choice of FFVIII...and as much as I wanna say I would live in Esthar, I think I’d get nauseous every time I had to ride the lifts XD I would likely live somewhere in Galbadia (Winhill? Just so I could cry?) or Trabia, as I friggin love the snow. And I would still be an artist, maybe drawing the monsters and scenery? IDK.

Do you have a favorite flower/plant? Which one?                                I’m not super big on flowers, though I love nature a lot. And even if I had a favorite I likely wouldn’t know the name, lol. I just love nature in general...so all flowers/plants?

If you could go to a concert of your choice, which artist would you want to see?                                                                                              Well I’ve actually been to a lot of concerts, and all of them were Classic Rock. Of those, the top one that I would like to see one day is probably Eric Clapton. Otherwise, I would so love to go to a Final Fantasy concert with Nobuo Uematsu!

What’s your favorite movie from your childhood?                                Tons. I guess I’ll go with my earliest favorite, or at least the earliest I remember. And that’s 101 Dalmations! I was huge on any and all animal movies growing up...still am tbh.

Do you have a favorite Disney character? Why is he/she your favorite?                                                                                            Argh, I gotta pick one?! I-I’m not sure I can actually...there are so many! Can I get back to you on this? XD

Do you have a bucket list?                                                                      Not really? Not a specific one anyway, I mean there are a few things I would like to do in my life eventually but I never actually listed them or anything. Off the top of my head: visit Alaska and see the northern lights, come face to face with some of the big cats...i.e. lions and tigers and snow leopards. There’s more I’m sure but that’s what I can think of right now, lol.

What’s your favorite piece of any movie or video game soundtrack?                                                                                         I’m just gonna say the entirety of the FFVIII soundtrack. Like I love every song on it, and can hardly pick favorites. I mean ‘Man With the Machine Gun’ always deserves it’s own mention cause...Laguna, and I love ‘Liberi Fatali’ and ‘Fisherman’s Horizon’ and well, all of them! And ‘Eyes on Me’ of course gets it’s own mention, especially considering how often it’s made me bawl my eyes out.

Something you want to do this year?                                                   Start actually selling at local fairs with my art, I did one last year but it was so last minute that I didn’t really have anything to actually well...sell. Hopefully I can get some original prints ready and actually do things this year with my art!

Tell me about your favorite OTP! Why do you like them?                    LAGUNA AND RAINE. Always them, they will forever be my top. And as for why? I mean, holy shit. It’s just everything about them. You can see in the cutscene where he proposes and they hug...the looks on their faces and their body language...they are home. They are each other’s home. And their whole story is so goddamned sad. Like the timeline when Laguna was with her is a bit iffy but at max they can’t have had more than 2-3 years together, and 6 months of that includes Laguna’s bedridden recovery in the beginning, not to mention it was still months after that that they even became a couple. And because of fate, and his responsibilities in Esthar (that he didn’t even ask for btw!) Laguna couldn’t even be by her side when she died. And because Winhill was full of assholes that somehow hated this cinnamon roll of a man, they never even told him he had a son! It’s like, even before Raine...look at what happened with Julia, he only had one night with her before fate decided to screw with him. It’s like he is destined to have the worst luck with love and relationships and family. And it sucks because that’s all he ever really wanted, and fate never let him keep it. Every time he found happiness it was ripped away, and yet...he still smiles.

Do you have any OCs? If yes, tell us about one of them!                    Yes I do, though I never really did much with them, or the stories surrounding them. I guess I can do a brief overview of the very first one I came up with...waaaay back in 2007/8 when I was seventeen, lol. Back then I was obsessed with all things Japanese and so at the start his name was Keiji. An ice demon who grew up on his own and hated by his clan after his mother had an affair with a human and was banished (and the human killed btw) I recently changed his name to Reikan (which may be changed again one day, who knows). He has pale blue hair and silver eyes and basically never wears a shirt, pfffft. Hey he’s an ice demon, not like he ever gets cold right?

Tea or coffee?                                                                                          COFFEE! Seriously, I’ve been known to drink a whole pot in one day before. I have two mugs I use, one which, despite being small...well small for me, I use every day because it’s an FFVIII mug. And one that is like HUGE, that I use for when I really need a caffeine fix. Oh, and guess what I’m drinking right at this moment, lol.

Yeah, way too lazy to come up with new questions and to tag...sorry? (Not to mention I did this like 3/4 times on my RP blogs awhile back...lol)

[baereaved]

All of the odd-numbered OC asks!! >:3c

u devil~ thank u for all the asks omg

send me some oc questions~

1. Your first OC ever?

kairos. i think. probably.well in all honesty i had plenty of self-inserts before him OTL OTL OTL but i think  he was the first proper oc i madei might just think he was first bc he was the first one i hallucinated, but eh. he’s been around a good while

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

i haven’t omgstraight up didn’t know that was even, like, a thingsomeone let me adopt ur child

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

screamsmorgan, probablyi mean u can’t rlly know morgan w/o knowing the other dozen ppl in his universe anyways sOplus he’s adorable and important to me, so who better, reallyi feel like he’d be the one i’d write about if i was gonna, like, make a book or webcomic or smth

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

in the sense that i’ve made them up, then yesand in the sense that some of them are ocs for other actual stories, then also yesin the sense that i’ve ever written anything for them, absolutely noti’m way too lazy to write OTL OTL OTL

9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

i mean someone can take catboy if they really want them like they were a Mistakebut for the most part i quite like having them all to myself lolololol

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”?

jesúswhich makes sense, considering his namesakein my mind when i made him i was like “if ur gonna name him jesus u can’t be givin him all the perfect traits like he still needs flaws and things” and then that just. didn’t happenhe is sweet and gentle and quiet and kindand also he’s traumatized and terrified of acting out and he screams in his sleepbc i’m a terrible person and i love to torment my smol kids

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

god, all of themcielle, notably, since she will fuck u up and also. winters. she’s literally my dgm oc whose general is winters and they get along terrifyingly well, so. yes.also katrina and benji and dessa and hendrik and reese and rien and nyla and listen, i could go on

15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

yes, absolutelyi also enjoy it when ppl tell me abt their ocs, mostly so i can grill them for oc info lololol

17. Any OC OTPs?

jesús and luc, dessa and shiv, olivia and ekundayo, rien and the sweet embrace of deathi rlly need more couples so, like, subject to change

the rest are under the cut~

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

i don’t think i even could pick oneumi haven’t mentioned enlil yet, i suppose, and i mean? he’s not very developed, but he brings me an indescribable amount of peace when i talk/think about him, soi’m not actually sure if it’s okay for me to use that name, but eh. if not people can yell at me and i’ll change it. names are hard sometimesbut anyways i don’t have much of anything on him? he’s deaf. generally pretty calm and relaxed. like shiv, except actually a good personidk what it is abt him, he just?? puts me at peace? makes me feel good? like i only made him last year but he’s like, the personification of what nostalgia feels likeso he’s really important to me just bc of how comforting he is. like just thinking abt him could probably get me out of an anxiety attack

21. Your most artistic OC

santa is my nameless oc (as in, the game. he clearly has a name) so 1. he is art and 2. he is an artist himself lol, mostly a painterhelena is pretty artistic too, and is a sculptor

23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?

already answered~

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

listen okay all of them started out as self-inserts. all of them. they’re all at least partially based off me.i’ve been thinkin abt this for an hour and i still can’t come up with anything OTL i’m p similar in different ways to all of them, so i’ll have to leave it at that lol

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?

already answered~

29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going?

nyla, for fun, and benji, bc he’s Cool and Edgy and mr. survivalist who would probably be an actual detective if he wasn’t, like, 14

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

i was gonna talk abt my bae rosaire here but he’d be a youtuber, somona is my edgy 13 yr old bab who would probably have a blog full of anarchist shit and different alternative rock lyric postsalso, she’d be part of that shoplifting side of tumblr

33. Your shyest OC?

rosetta nicoletteshe’s the softest and purest and everyone needs to protect her

35. Any sibling characters?

pollux and isabela……i think that’s it. i need more siblings asap

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

santa’s a doll. dessa and shiv are a demon and angel, respectively. i have a couple other angel charas too that don’t have names yet but are gorgeous, so |D also all my space charas aren’t human. opluxx is an ogre. i think. catboy is self-explanatory.

39. Introduce any character you want

ekundayo is my beautiful bab and also olivia’s long-distance gfi haven’t done a ton of development on her but i love her bc listen they’re one of those relationships where olivia is literally the most stoic intense fucker around who will kill u and ekundayo is the purest and softest around everyone but then u see them together and olivia’s obviously happy and totally whipped by her sweet but also unexpectedly dom gf and i love them, okay

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

well. yes, but we had a falling out since then, so i feel it’d be wrong to post it herei’d love to see some more fanart of my ocs~ i should commission smth from someome sometime

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

already answered~

45. A character you no longer use?

o'malley johnson, valentia, kiriko and akumukiriko and akumu were my old bleach ocs, o'malley johnson was just a kickass dude, and valentia was my stereotypical yandere childsimce i don’t care for bleach anymore and i don’t have universes for valentia or o'malley johnson, i haven’t done much w/ them, but i still like the last two

47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?

i don’t think so? maybe. hmu

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

god, rienrien would be the worst anti-sjw shitty memelord and i ha te