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suncaptor · 5 months

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Like if you do want to engage in "Dean was raped in Hell" headcanon space you also do need to handle what I genuinely think would change his relationship with sex & sense of self even more which is that he would have also raped people in Hell because it's very safe to assume anything that was done to him he would do to others. Which, while I don't think it's unrealistic to think the torture he experienced and inflicted was intimate or sexually done in a way that is actually indistinguishable, it is not something I think comes off at all from the way he perceives and engaged with sex post Hell.

#incoherents #tw rape #s.a #like the thing about dean & hell is that what HE did is what shapes most of his trauma #not that he WASNT tortured for much longer. but what really destroyed his sense of self and altered how he like #could exist like the source of his worst trauma #is what he did #its the severe moral injury #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #dean #to be clear i dont think its canon he was raped nor raped others in hell!#i think its a reasonable headcanon from a couple parts of the show #and the way Alastair is shown to torture makes me think Alastair probably didnt rape Dean in a way Dean registers as such #but he did like. sexually torture him.#but thats also just my perspective from cross comparison theres no direct references to that type of torture canonically #torture over the long term and feeling fundamentally changed by being taught and coerced into torturing #could easily come off all the ways Dean & Alastair's relationship does #like torture is also this huge violation and there is also sadism involved like

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