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Fairy Lights and Saturday Nights

okay so this is kinda angsty so you’ve been warned, but I wanted to contribute to the Pinkberry tag, so this is what I have for you all! This takes place in their senior year (like halfway thru it :) I hope you guys enjoy!! - 💕queen 💕

Saturday nights for Chloe and Brooke had been a ritual since they’d met. They would grab Pinkberry to-go, rent a movie from the Red Box nearby, and then head back to Chloe’s place where they would curl up on the brunette’s bed and watch the movie as they ate the frozen yogurt from their favorite place in the world. It was sacred to the two girls, something that was just for them.

Junior year had flown by, the whole getting drugged at the play made it go by much faster somehow, and senior year was going by quicker than the two would’ve thought. They were only a semester away from leaving high school behind and moving on with their lives. It scared both of them, but they made sure not to let the other catch onto the hidden fears.

Brooke didn’t know what she was going to do with her life. Her grades were average and the only extracurricular activity she did was drama club. She didn’t exactly want to go to some big college, believing a simple community college would suit her much better. She watched as her friends sent in applications to colleges, some far away and some instate. The blonde would congratulate them once they did it. She was happy for them, they were ready to move on.

She was not.

Brooke had watched as Chloe sent her applications away, nearly all of them being out of state colleges, and congratulated her with a pained smile. She was proud of her best friend, but she wasn’t ready to give her up yet. She wasn’t ready to let her go. The blonde was afraid of the future, what her life would be like without Chloe by her side.

There would be no more Pinkberry, there would be no more Red Box movies, no more cuddling as they made stupid comments as the movie played, no more joyrides in her mom’s car, and no more late night talks on Facetime where they would bid their goodbyes with ‘I love you’s’ and ‘sweet dreams’.

It made Brooke tear up every time she thought about it. The blonde wasn’t ready to say goodbye to all of that. But she had to let Chloe go, the brunette was ready to move on. To leave New Jersey along with Brooke behind. The blonde would be a distant memory as the brunette moved on in life.

Without her best friend she would be alone.

Chloe had spent days and nights contemplating if she was ready to leave. She was scared of not being good enough and getting kicked out of school or failing at what career path she wishes to take. She was so scared of growing up and having to face the real world. She was 18 and she was having to make a decision that would determine the rest of her life.

The brunette wasn’t ready to take the next step of her life. Sure she had a few more months of high school, but after that… she’d be packing and getting ready for the long road ahead. Chloe still wanted to be young and stupid with some of the decisions she made. She wanted to be a kid while she still could.

She wanted to spend her Saturdays with Brooke as they talked about anything and everything they could think of as they held one another’s hand, Chloe’s fairy lights dimly lighting her room. She wanted to continue to instagram their adventures together as they tried to discover the ultimate Pinkberry combination. Chloe wanted to continue to be with her best friend.

Chloe was scared, and Chloe Valentine was rarely scared of anything, but the future was uncertain. She didn’t know when she would see Brooke depending on what college she was going to go to and she didn’t know if they would be able to have anymore Saturday nights once she goes away.

Chloe didn’t want to lose her best friend, she didn’t want to lose the most important person in her life.

She couldn’t just say goodbye to her world, the person she was (secretly) in love with, without destroying herself in the process.

Without her best friend she would be lost.

–

Saturday rolled around again and the two girls were in Pinkberry, ready to begin their weekly ritual.

Chloe watched as Brooke squinted at the menu (even though both of them had it memorized by now) and tapped her lips. The blonde was deep in thought and Chloe smiled at it. Finally Brooke ordered some odd combination of berry flavored frozen yogurts. Chloe had went with a simple mixture of chocolate, strawberry, and vanilla.

They got back into Brooke’s mom’s car and drove to the nearest Red Box. Brooke had reached her hand to grab Chloe’s in her own as she squeezed it and held onto it. Chloe smiled and gave a gentle squeeze back. They held hands until they pulled up to the red machine, letting go only to get out of the blue car. They then bantered back and forth over what movie they wanted to watch.

“But Chlo, we watched a horror movie last time!”

“Your point?”

“I’m just saying, I think I should get to pick the movie this time,” Brooke said, tugging on Chloe’s jacket sleeve.

Chloe looked at Brooke’s pouting face and crumbled as she sighed and nodded.

“Fine, but we are not watching another Barbie movie.”

“Oh stop, I know you secretly love them,” Brooke smirked at Chloe as she went and picked out a rom-com.

Chloe rolled her eyes, but smiled. They paid for the movie and let it dispense before they resumed their positions in the car and began the drive over to Chloe’s house. Brooke grabbed the brunette’s hand once more and let her thumb stroke the back of it. Chloe stared at the thumb, watching as it went back and forth. She bit her lip.

10 minutes of silence passed until they finally pulled into Chloe’s long driveway. Brooke parked and as she was turning off the car, Chloe spoke up.

“Brooke?”

“Mhm?”

“Do you ever think about what’s going to happen after school ends? Between us?” Chloe looks off after she finishes her sentence.

The thumb on her hand stops its movement and Chloe feels the warm hand go stiff. She looked over to Brooke and saw as the other girl’s smile fell.

“I think about it every single day Chlo, everyday I see you I think about it. About you leaving and not coming back. About how Saturday will become just another day. About how I’ll just become…” The blonde didn’t finish.

Brooke had a sad smile on her face, Chloe noticing it as the blonde looked over to her. She placed her other hand atop of Chloe’s and patted it.

“But let’s not worry about that and just enjoy tonight okay? We only have so many of these left,” Brooke said, quickly turning off the car and leaving Chloe alone in it.

The brunette watched her friend make her way into her home and she let out a shaky breath. Brooke was just as scared as she was. But scared about different things. She reeled herself back in and got out of the car and made her way into her house.

–

Hours into the Saturday night, the girls had changed into pajamas and curled up on Chloe’s bed, turning on the movie. They hadn’t spoken of their brief conversation in the car, but it was on both of their minds. The two girls sat next to each other, Brooke’s head resting on Chloe’s shoulder and Chloe’s arm around Brooke’s back. The movie played and they would make comments now and then, but things seemed more tense than usual.

The minutes passed and the credits eventually appeared on screen. Neither made a move to exit out of the finished movie, allowing the computer screen to go black before eventually shutting down. The two remained still and listened to the quiet breathing that filled the silent room.

Chloe’s fairy lights shined gently, casting a warm glow over them. On the wall underneath the lights were pictures of the two girls together. The one farthest to the left was one of them in 6th grade, when they first met, and the one farthest to the right was of them not even two weeks before. In between were random pictures from throughout the years. One was of Brooke lounging on top of her mom’s car in a field near Chloe’s house, as she pointed at the sky. Another was of the two of them at Pinkberry, feeding each other spoonfuls of frozen yogurt.

Chloe took a deep breath as she thought of the pictures on her wall. She let the breath out, hearing it was shaky. She felt Brooke nuzzle into her shoulder. The brunette closed her eyes.

“Brooke I’m terrified of what’s going to happen after senior year. I don’t know where I’m going to end up and I don’t know if I’m going to be any good at where I do go. I’m so scared of leaving everything behind. Of leaving you behind. You don’t understand how much you mean to me. I’m so scared of the future and I’m even more scared that I’m not going to see you in it. I want you in it Brooke. You’re my whole world, my ride or die, the only one who knows how to put up with me. How can I say goodbye to that?” Chloe rambled, squeezing her eyes tighter as she felt tears slip down her cheeks.

Brooke closed her eyes as she listened to Chloe, feeling her heartbreak towards the end and let a few tears slip down her cheek. She bit her lip as the brunette continued.

“Honestly, I don’t care if this is the worst time to say this but Brooke, I want you in my life forever. But not as my friend or my best friend, but as maybe something more? I care about you so much Brooke, more than all of the froyo flavors at Pinkberry and more than anything on my phone-” Chloe let out a small, teary laugh before continuing, “- I want you as something more Brooke. I want to be selfish and have you as mine.” Chloe finished, tears slipping down her cheeks.

The glow from the fairy lights continued to shine. It shined as Brooke’s head lifted from Chloe’s shoulder and it shined as she put a hand to her mouth and let out a silent sob. The lights shined as Brooke’s eyes widened and she got off of Chloe’s bed. They shined as she looked back at Chloe, the brunette’s eyes full of sadness and confusion as the blonde shook her head. The lights shined as Chloe tearfully sobbed out as Brooke ran away.

The glow continued to shine as Chloe cried in the dark, alone on a Saturday night.

–

A week passed and the two girls didn’t talk to each other. Chloe became colder and more vicious than she’s ever been. No one dared to go up to her, not even Jake. Jenna decided against spreading gossip for this incident, in fear of having her life ending short.

Brooke was resigned and navigated her way through the halls unnoticed and made sure not to come in contact with Chloe. She wasn’t sure why she ran. It was sudden and she didn’t know how to respond, and it overwhelmed her. She knows she probably shouldn’t of, but to have your best friend tell you she wanted something more? It was a lot to take in and Brooke needed time.

Chloe wasn’t mad, she was just… hurt. Very hurt. She knows she shouldn’t of thrown it on Brooke how she did, but at the same time Brooke didn’t have to run. She could’ve just talked to her. Something other than run. Chloe had spent the past week building up her defense system, becoming cold and callous to everyone.

It wasn’t until Saturday rolled around that Brooke truly felt the ache in her heart. She had sat at Pinkberry for an hour, waiting for someone who wasn’t coming. The workers gave her concerned looks, offering her free froyo. She ate 4 cups before driving off.

Once again she felt her heart break as she absentmindedly pulled in front of the Red Box. Resting her forehead onto her steering wheel, she cried. She cried for what she lost and who she lost. She cried because she didn’t think her and Chloe’s Saturday nights would be over so soon. She pulled herself together with a few deep breaths and decided she needed to fix things.

She drove with a purpose as she made her way to Chloe’s house in record speed, making a stop beforehand. She drove up the long driveway and she parked. The blonde quickly ran up to Chloe’s door and banged her right hand on the wood.

“Chloe Valentine!” She shouted, ringing the doorbell twice.

A minute passed before the door swung open, a disheveled brunette stood in front of her. Brooke looked at her best friend and felt as the tears fell down her cheeks and she slammed herself into Chloe. She wrapped her arms around the brunette and hugged the tall girl.

Chloe stood there, her hand still on the door as Brooke hugged her. She didn’t know what to do, she was still kind of mad at the blonde, but she missed the other girl. She felt the debate in her head before she finally wrapped her arms around Brooke. The blonde clung to Chloe’s shirt as she calmed her tears.

Brooke backed off and smiled up at the girl. She quickly apologized as she ran back to the blue car and grabbed two cups of Pinkberry before running back to Chloe.

“Can we talk and enjoy another one of our special Saturday’s? Please?” Brooke asked, stretching out the fro-yo.

Chloe looked between the two cups and Brooke, she sighed and accepted one of the cups. Brooke smiled as she walked in. They walked up to Chloe’s room, and shut the door. They ate their froyo and shared awkward glances. When they finished, Brooke was the first to speak.

“I’m sorry for running last week. I was just… overwhelmed and I was scared because I don’t know what to do with my emotions sometimes. You already know how many times I’ve been hurt in the past Chlo. And you telling me all that scared me. It scared me because I feel the same way about you. I’ve been scared of what will happen after senior year because I’m afraid of what I’m going to be without you. You make me better Chloe. I mean- now you do, after the whole ecstasy scare and shit. But Chloe, I’m yours in every way you’ll have me.” Brooke grabbed Chloe’s hand after she finished.

Chloe looked at the shorter girl and smiled. She pulled the other girl into her and kissed the blonde. She put one of her hands on the back of Brooke’s neck and the other on her cheek. Brooke smiled as she let herself kiss back, placing her hands on Chloe’s hips. They parted for a second before their lips met once more, smiles on both of their faces. They parted with a few short kisses before they laid down facing each other.

Brooke ran her hand gently through Chloe’s hair and Chloe had wrapped her arms around Brooke’s waist. Their lips met more than once as they simply stared at each other, talking about everything they could. They smiled and laughed and eventually just cuddled up with each other and closed their eyes.

It had become dark and Chloe’s lights were off, all except the gentle glow of her fairy lights. The light continued to shine as the two girls fell asleep in each other’s arms, at peace with what their future may hold because now they know they’ll always have one another.

[17cafe]

rollerskating date with dino

this is for @dinosidealtype!!! ily and hope you enjoyyy

ok so wow

this boy is an angel

that doesn’t have to do w the scenario really but it’s tru

anyhoo

lil baby dino was all shy to come to the skating rink bc he’s never gone to one before

it was your idea and of course he said yes

he would do probably anything to make you happy like there’s barely any exceptions

and he said it so eagerly that u had to be like !!!!!!!!!!!! 

cALM DOWN !! 

and he did bc again anything to make u happy LOL

so it was finally the day you both were gonna go!! 

sweet lil dino went out the day before and bought you guys matching rollerskates but shh you don’t know that yet

you both decided to just meet up at the rink and when u DO

biggest smile

im talking eyes crinkled, gums showing, all because he just sees u

it’s nothing special he’s just always sos o sososo happy to see you

and he rushes up to you but before he can hug you ur just like

uhh?? did you get us matching?? rollerskates???

and on the outside it sounds like you’re judging him but rlly ITS SO CUTE

and his smile doesn’t fade at all bc he knows inside you’re all smiley too and hes like YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and finally he hugs you super tight and when he swings his arms around you the skates hit him but he doesn’t even care bc guess who he’s hugging??

you

his sunshine

he literally talks about how much you brighten up his day not to mention his lif e

he lets u go but practically keeps his shoulder against yours as you both walk in and find an empty little cubby to put your jackets and shoes in

he shoves his jacket in before yours then takes time to fold yours nicely before placing it in hehehfghej

and as he does that he tells u to sit down and 

what a cute gentleman,,

he kneels down and unties your shoes and slides them off gently

and pulls your rollerskates over and tells you to slide your foot in

and he does them up perfectly and ur like woah you’ve done this b4 haven’t u??

and he blushes bc he impressed u :)) 

but he’s like hah no noo

and quickly finishes leaving your skates on like perfectly

truthfully he practiced tying them up just so he could do it nicely for u

but he takes your shoes and puts them in the cubby before taking his off and putting his skates on

and when he tries standing in them hes all woAhHhHHH 

and already is almost falling over,, how

ur all like dino omg and roll your eyes

but rlly you’re kind of worried haha and reach out to help him steady himself

and he gives a slightly distressed smile like 

“what did i get myself into..”

you help him over slowly to enter the actual rink and hes actually getting the hang of it pretty quickly but that’s not surprising bc this boy can do anything

but even though he’d be okay on his own he still goes all

AAH NO COME BACK I NEED U when you let go of his hand

and makes it out as an excuse to grab you by your waist tightly bc he “needs you for balance””

he’s always finding excuses to be more touchy with u but this especially he can use to play off of and it makes him happy lol aw aw aww

he also claims that holding on to your hand helps you too even tho you know what you’re doing because “your turn was a little wobbly”

lil babe just wants to hold your hand all the live long day

BUT he hesitates at one point before letting go because he wants to see how good you can actually be so you take him off to the side and sit him down

and he’s pouty bc his baby is going out there alone but he’s okay bc he knows it’s only for a minute

and when you skate off he watches in awe at how smoothly you roll along and how natural it seems to you

like even with no tricks just,, moving in skates he’s like :oo !!!!

and when you make it back to him he shuffles over to the side of the rink and gives u lil kissies hehehgj and hes all

wow!! so smooth, like water,, a river flowing

he has this habit of comparing aspects of you with nature and it’s honestly so wiaklndkgnlskdl

like it melts you

like lava

lol bUT you get all blushy and he does too and soon enough you guys are shyly kissing at the side of the rink but nobody seems to mind because young love

and the music playing in the background just sort of fades out of the picture as you both focus on each other

and your mind is blank and empty of worries as you’re enjoying the moment and everything throughout the day leading up to it