#u cant rly emulate that feeling

[restlesspazzi04]

somebody asked if there was any music i listen to while writing but i cant find it, but here is a my full fledged response for anon

one of my writing rituals is that i pick one or two songs to listen to while writing a chapter/scene to get me into the mood for what im trying to write

so if u want to listen to smth while u read this would be my recs as it's what i listened to while writing each chapter of slow falling

chapter 1: welcome and goodbye by Dream, Ivory

got me in a nostalgic mood for this chapter bc i wanted the shock of their loss of contact after introducing how they met to feel the way this song makes me feel

chapter 2: animal by neon trees

their first kiss, so yeah

chapter 3: home by Edward Sharpe

its funny because a pazzi edit to home is what got me into writing this fic

state fair chapter was probably as fluffy as it was because of this song bc the idea of them being each others homes is too cute

chapter 4: little bit by lykke li

felt right for this chapter ngl but also i j like this song a lot idk

chapter 5: champagne coast by blood orange

mostly bc i rly like this song but also because that was the vibe i was trying to go for with the lakeside/summer vibe of nostalgia

kinda wanted to emulate the soulmates vibe they give and this song gave me that vibe idk

edit: birds of a feather by billie for essentially all of these chapters forgot abt that

im a massive writing nerd and don't have any other outlet for this other than tumblr so hope i didn't over explain for anon lol

also idk if this is a spoiler but chapter 6's song is probably going to be house of balloons by the weeknd bc of the you belong to me part ngl but it might change so idk

lmk if this is smth ugs wanted to know and if not j ignore this post this is all for anon lol

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HII im new here and i LOVE the way u write 😭😭🫶🫶 trust me when I say that when I stumbled upon ur prince!gojo fic i fell to my knees. The way u wrote about his devotion and feelings for the knight 🥹🥹🥹🥹 ITS SO GOOD i read some of Ur other fics and the way u write suguru is so perfect like i don't usually read suguru fics cause ppl usually tend to mischaracterize him but U WROTE HIM SO PERFECTLY and im here to just appreciate ur writing and ask if there are any books or films that inspired the way u write? Genuinely curious 🙏🙏

ANON 🥺🥺🥺😭😭 u r the absolute SWEETEST welcome to my silly lil blog!!!!! i cant tell u how much it means to get messages like this and knowing that ppl enjoy my writing T_T thank u so so much!! <333

and wahh!! the fact that u like how i characterize sugu is also such an honour to me…. ive said this before but i rly do think hes so complex and multifaceted so it means a lot to know ppl enjoy my version of him 🥺🥺

AND AND AND…… we are so linked anon. i was literally JUST thinking abt different writing sources that inspire me (bc there are a Lot psjdjs)……. 

i think that just in general i try to emulate the kind of writing that i like the most!! so my writing style is probably like… just one big patchwork of every book/movie/game ive ever loved LMAO. but here are a couple of the most prominent!! 

first off all… poetry!!! :D a lot of books have probably inspired me too but i think poetry especially!!! since its usually so full of imagery its just become a super big inspo source…. :’3 some of my absolute fave poets are frank bidart, clementine von radics, AAAAAAND richard siken <333 hes my favorite ever and inspires me sm. my fave poetry collection of his is war of the foxes literally every single poem in it is so jjk coded ……

aaaa but also…. poetry aside!! i love kurt vonnegut a lot. his writing is so nice!!!!!! i recommend him a ton!!!!!!!! 

AAAAND honestly anon…….. my biggest inspiration source ever ever ever when it comes to writing is disco elysium!!!!!!! its my fave game and honestly probably just my favorite writing source in general? if u havent played it or watched someone play it pls do urself a favor and do so….. the writing is so earth-shatteringly good and pretty it makes me jealous. it’s such a genuinely funny game too (but also so so heartfelt!!!)…. gosh. i love disco elysium like i love nothing else in this universe.

if u play it and then read my fics its GLARINGLY obvious how much its affected my writing i think psjdjd 😭😭 here r some quotes from it for reference!! they’re so good it makes me cryyy

the last dream will be total annihilation. cinders peeling off the fuselage.

a white mourning. a modern death. divorce, or something similar. all you can do is put more distance between you and him, make him smaller. make him less *you*.

”every combination of words has been played out. the atoms don't form us anymore: us, our love, our unborn daughters…”

”where *are* we, lieutenant kitsuragi?” ”in elysium,” he replies, “behind our eyes. like all human beings, detective. (…) the world is what it is. i’m glad to see you’re stable. keep it that way.”

SORRY im just. so genuinely obsessed w this game psjfjdj i seriously could not recommend it enough!!!!

aaaa but what abt u anon??? do u have any sources that inspire u? or general recommendations? 👀👀 i would love to hear em if so!!! <33

[musclegoth]

im glad there is still a demand for film photography bc that means there is still access to it. but im not glad about the prices

[rosykims]

so gracie barely cries over real events much less fictional ones so she doesnt rly get emotional over movies. like she simply has too much emotional repression control for that ✌ BUT in saying that??? roman holiday is the only movie that has ever successfully made her cry and she definitely tears up (also on occasion: openly weeps) every single time she watches it lol

[matoitech]

id have to rewatch gurren lagann again to write a whole essay abt it and im not doing that but a lot of like dudebro trigger fans hated galo n were like why would i watch a movie where trigger tries to cater to the LIBERALS with GAY KAMINA when i can just watch gurren lagann again 🙄 n im convinced that part of it is bcuz they correctly identified that while galo and kamina both have characters that like.. idk how to describe it except theyre both written to do stuff w Masculinity. galos masculinity is written much differently than kaminas. these ppl think that is a bad thing for some reason. u cant separate galo being explicitely into men from his character n u also cant ignore that they did make ‘is normal to women’ as part of his character (yeah the bar is low but with a male gainaxtrigger protag its worth mentioning) but like his masculinity, whether trigger was THAT aware of it or not, is contrasted against the antagonists (the antagonist who has scenes where hes weird or threatening to women 🤔 like kray is this conservative fascist the way he views women does not rly need to be stated to the audience to know) n galos viewed like, healthy masculinity, Contrasted against krays, not just in differences for how they (and galo compared to kamina) treats women, but also in just like.. story structure, even? ive talked abt it b4 n probably better but galos strength comes from his connections n love for lio n other ppl n for the planet, gay autistic love will save the universe etc, meanwhile kray wants to be this savior of humanity who is convinced hes above everyone else, controls everyone else, and he can do all this by himself w ppl by his side only as his puppets. hes such a terrible person he eventually is turned against by galo (as soon as he finds out) and heris (tho heris doesnt go against him out of the goodness of her heart, she never cares abt the burnish). imgetting off topic. anyway. 

ive seen a lot of essays abt how kamina is a good example of toxic masculinity n id have 2 rewatch ttgl but idk if gainaxtrigger was like That self aware abt it or if they were just like were going to make a guy they thought was Cool and this like hypermasculine dude. but when hes put up against galo its clear theyre very different characters n their masculinity  n how thats handled by the narrative is written is much different. for a lot of reasons. and i think there was SOME level of awareness w galo, bcuz he does feel sort of like revamped, a decade had passed since kamina, ppl want n expect Growth, the loudest part of the audience isnt just, misogynistic dudebros who Love when girl characters r treated like garbage bcuz they hate women anymore. and trigger wants galo to be liked and viewed as a good person n they needed the contrast between him n kray. and themselves. bcuz i still dont know how aware they r abt this ‘galos a good person so he cant be weird abt women’ like true trigger but like YOURE weird abt women so if u agree misogyny is bad WHY ARE YOU BEING MISOGYNISTIC. so its hard to recognize how much is with intent but its still like, a rly obvious way to read the characters n movie. 

galo and kamina have similarities as loud masculine blue haired shirtless guys but theyre handled sooo differently, ive described galo as feeling like a character who watched gurren lagann as a kid but got smth dif out of it then a lot of the cishet dudebro fans did b4 cuz it does feel like that 2 me, like u dont rly want to emulate that part of kamina, they CAN be contrasted but theyre not like, the same character for sure. diehard trigger fans disliking galo is for a lot of reasons but a lot of them hate when hes compared to kamina at all which i think is fair bcuz galo is better than kamina. enjoy my post

[faunusrights]

OFFAL HUNT REMASTERED LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 19

IN THIS EPISODE OF MURPHY IS SCREAMING, CONSTANTLY, TRAPPED IN THEIR PERFECT NIGHTMARE:

Glynda was saying: “I know we aren’t friends. I know we aren’t partners. I know you’re a criminal. But—I think I can trust you. I think I have to trust you, even if you’ve done awful things before.”

EVERYTHING GOES WRONG BUT LIKE SOMEHOW WORSE THAN EVER? LIKE A WHOLE NEW BRAND OF LOW. LIKE CINDER’S GOT A PICKAXE AND THE CENTRE OF THE PLANET CALLS FOR AID.

IT’S BEEN A WHILE HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but dw offal hunt, like the rising of the sun, the arrival of winter, and the eventual downfall of capitalism, always returns. so lets go.

(i just quickly reread chapter 18 liveblog to remember what happened and Ah Yes I Remember Now. The Suppressed Memories)

The place was emptier without Glynda. Quieter.

/gunshot oh we’re in danger right out of the gate huh? we got some yearning right out here? right now? how quickly the turn do tables.

Cinder appraised her work, holding the beige coat up to the light and squinting.

man i forgot. i FORGET. how much i just love cinder in this fic. sometimes she kinda zones to the back of my mind where she sits waiting for me to start thinking about her again, but now i remember that this cinder is Peaque. look at her GO, minding her own BUSINESS. im proud of her. does she know i love her.

It didn’t take long to don her new, fire-proofed clothes.

in another world, in a more comical plot, she used asbestos. it didnt go well.

The subtle warmth of the Dust teased tension from Cinder’s stiff muscles, even as she marvelled at the strangeness of her own bedroom’s space. It seemed bigger now than it had the last two nights.

h

She chose not to dwell on it.

h

i choose to dwell on it! ME!!!! I CHOOSE TO DWELL ON IT. HEY CINDER WHAT THIS GAY SHIT. hello. ma’am. can we look deeper into this. i, for one, would like to, and i, for one, think its of value to think abt this. that said, small segue

Quietly, Cinder murmured, “I didn’t freak out.”

THE FACT SHE SAYS IT ALOUD LIKE EM AND MERC CAN HEEEEEEAR HEEEEEEEER i am. INFATUATED with this family. cant wait for the 100k spinoff thats basically an elongated beach episode where they go to like. alton towers. or butlins. six flags??? thats a thing in america right??? anyway. beach episode. call me. (wink wink nudge nudge push push shove shove)

 We had to stop back in because Merc left his favorite binder, and it was 2 in the morning, so it was easier to crash here for the night than mess with the ship’s autopilot.

them,,, THEM!!!! mercury is just a son and childe. thast it. he canot change this. i love these kids so much i am SHAKING THE MONITOR RN!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA

Stuck here in one of the homes they’d shared, Cinder missed them terribly. Missed the sound of their voices and the easy comfort of their presence. Finding the time to contact them had been difficult, between managing Glynda and Hati both, but Glynda was gone, and she’d sent Hati onwards to Atlas. She remembered her call with Emerald, before arriving in Umbraroot; she knew it had not soothed her or her fears.

im sorry was this chapter targeted at me, specifically, as a human being on planet earth? GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS FAMILY!!!!!!!!! THIS WONKY OLD BANDAGED UP FAMILY UNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thrive every time they are mentioned on the page. it is a blessing. my succulents grow stronger each time they show up.

“No,” Cinder argued softly, “I had to. Mercury, you deserve to hear it from me as well. I am sorry. And I am promising you: I’ll come back.”

For a long, heart-wrenching moment, he was completely quiet. It was good that Cinder was alone in the apartment; laying herself bare like this would be unbearable with an audience.

GODDDDDDDDDDD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i am OBSESSED WITH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO BE THINKING ABOUT THIS UNTIL I D I E. of all thing the remaster does better than og, this is just. SPEEDING AHEAD. this whole CONFLICT this whole MESS just makes everything so much RICHER its like when u splash some wine in yr fancy food or stick some cinnamon on yr favourite desserts u dont NEED TO but it adds that lil SOMETHING,,, that little KICK that just ties the flavour profile together and in this case ofgughugguhu it just GIVES SO MUCH. im making SNOW ANGELS in the WORDS on the PAGE.

“Mercury. If I could prove it to you, I would. But you have to—trust me. For just a while longer.”

“It’s getting harder,” he said. He didn’t sound like he was lying just to hurt her. That wasn’t spite. That was honest anger. And it made her feel like dirt.

im less picking these for specific instances of like, things i want to say, but more just because bits of this r rly just so /chef kiss. cinder has these.... endearingly (take that whichever way u like) human qualities in OG to rly make u realise she had ties to add to her #Doubt but the remaster is just AMPING it up and u FEEL IT and ive never been more SYMPATHETIC to a round-faced sinnamon bun of assholery and fire id DIE for cinder fall and this is a fact PUT IT ON MY GRAVESTONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Is there anything you need?” What was this? Cinder could barely focus on her words. It felt like... “Anything? At all?”

“We’re fine.”

“Mercury, wait please—” She was losing him. “I think—”

“Just hurry up.”

The line went dead.

this place is not a place of honor.................. no highly esteemed deed is commemorated here........................ nothing valued is here................ IM DYING

Cinder began to type out her response, and that was when the nausea really kicked in. 

[...] 

She recognized this now.

Glynda.

stress stress stress stress STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

There shouldn’t be anybody. Cinder had done everything in her power to cut Glynda from people who would interfere. To isolate her. Make it easier to bring her to Atlas, to the frozen north, to her mother and the machine…

Cinder’s esophagus quivered; furiously, she shut her eyes and thought of nothing.

god cinder don’t remind me that you’re an asshole and dipshit and also a moron im trying to be NICE and CARE ABT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP REMINDING ME YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The front door clicked open.

Cinder couldn’t have said how much time had passed, only that it had passed slowly. What she did know was that it was Glynda returning, the sensation of boils bursting wafting off her soul. It crawled over Cinder’s flesh. She curled in on herself.

There were mites under every nailbed. Salt in her weeping mouth.

offal hunt’s brilliant use of this horror aspect is something i have tried previously to emulate and here’s a fact, take it from me: that shit is HARD. offal hunt consistently able to whack those real nasty, really Disgusting vibes on the head EVERY TIME is a work of art. i mean, kc and diesel do not fuck around, and therefore i am NOT surprised, but it’s only when u try this shit yourself that you realise: this is hard! this is difficult! it’s a huge testament to how GOOD this fic is in every way. also this whole fucking body horror aspect is something i didnt know this fic needed, but it did, and here we are. 

Thickly: “Things were going okay. If you hadn’t gotten nasty, I might have smoothed things over. I could have fixed things with my son.”

with my son

with my son

with my son

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I CANT TAKE IT EVERY TIME ITS TOO MUCH FOR TO BEAR I CANNOT HANDLE IT I CANNOT STAND IT ITS LIKE BEING SHOT JUST DIRECTLY IN MY DICK

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

im like sweating rn

Glynda said, “I’m scared.”

“Why?”

“I don’t want to tell you.”

I SAID IM SWEATING

Glynda asked, “Are you lying to me?”

And Cinder said, “What?”

“About me. About Witches. About Ozpin—” Cinder’s guts went sour. “—About anything. I need to know if I can trust you.”

I SAID I! AM! S W E A T I N G

“I know you’ve lied to people. Hurt people.”

Adrenaline and the image of her kids’ faces behind her eyes made a potent, sick cocktail. “—Not. Now.”

so lets like double back to when i said hey was this chapter written to target me specifically and as it turns out, yes. yes it was. yes it was and as MUCH AS I AM LIVING FOR THIS MOMENT THIS SWEET BUILDUP THE EXPLOSION AND THE CRATER IT ALL LEAVES BEHIND

I

AM

so this next bit is like. i cant really quote one section but as i was saying in Vague DMs, this whole bit feels like wading through mud. usually if you say something consumes energy to Read it’s in a Bad Way when yr bored but this is more like. you Feel cinder all over everything feels so sluggish and it’s like dragging your own corpse around as you try and leave and you’re TIRED and your LEGS HURT and you’re kinda thinking god what if i just fell face down for just a moment of my LIFE.

The putrid weight of Glynda’s soul filled the room until there was no space left for her.

it’s like being trapped in a sauna, like getting stuck in a humid waiting room. where do you GO. what do you DO. god this whole section is fantastic and offal hunt NEVER fails to fucking nail the Vibes but reading it is HARD. i literally keep having to stop and breathe like ive been holding my breath. jesus h christ.

a small intermission for a mood:

“Get fucked.”

back to regularly scheduled hell

Out of the bedroom. Down the hall. The walls were sweating with heat. She tasted smoke. 

i love that i just said how i feel like im trapped in a sauna and it turns out: thats because me and cinder both, baybee!!!! hahahaha help

Glynda’s soul chewed her to the marrow. “Move, Glynda.” 

cinder being hunted at the start of this fic: teehee! im running away! now im gonna getcha! heehee! arent i clever :) cinder being hunted now: this uh. this blows, actually,

Cinder’s pulse roared in her ears. Her hands twitched. She smelled Ochre Brown’s round face melting off. His wide smile shattered with each of his teeth, going black and popping like corn.

this chapter is probably my favourite so far for this blending of so many elements. i cant even begin to like. THINK STRAIGHT about how all of this is tying together. the lore. the THEMATICS. like i said this character rly is just Rich with what og lacked and oh is it RICH. im gonna read this chapter in future and see so much that i know ive already missed. holy shit.

“Ms. Fall,” she said. “The White Fang requires your presence immediately.”

NOT NOW

Cinder stood there looking at it for a moment. Her thoughts were slow. Copper-tinged. Something small and indulgent whispered to her through the blood-fog.

It was obvious enough what would happen if she got into this car. The driver would take her to a secluded place, where she would be ambushed by a squadron of battle-hungry White Fang grunts.

They’d try to take her down. And she was a killer, wasn’t she? Ochre Brown wailed in her ears with every thump of her runaway heart. Her hands itched for action; her teeth, for blood.

She’d burn them black.

never mind! you are already dead,

She thought about Glynda. About her saying that if there was trouble with the Fang, she wanted to come. That she would fight for Cinder.

She thought of Glynda’s question: What aren’t you telling me about Ochre Brown?

Yeah, fuck that.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A MOMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!! MORE MOMENTOUSLY: WHAT A CHAPTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is EASILY my favourite chapter so far. EASILY. everything about this was peak offal. the relationships. the dynamics. the dialogue. the vibes. the Grossness. the fighting. the EVERYTHING. this is some other level and its BITCHIN. PEAK. that said im now very tired. im going to have a cup of tea and Consider Things for a few hours. brb.

[badley]

ronan, persephone, orla, mallory

Ronan: Based on your self-perceived best and worst qualities, what would your superpower be, and what’s the catch?

u rly went for the difficult ones huh

best trait = worst trait: my ability to get along w ppl or at least act like i do. ties into a bunch of my issues but i figure shape-shifting? but it relies on empathising with who/whatever ur emulating so i cant for instance be someone i hate/think is evil

idk i feel like thats a cool one?

Persephone: Which tarot card do you feel best represents you? If you’re unfamiliar with tarot, pick a major fictional archetype (the witch, the knight in shining armor, etc.)

fuck idk bumbling sidekick of cups

Orla: Do you have a “power outfit” that you can do anything in? Describe it.

ye bitch underwear i can do anything at all times!! lmao no thats not true. probably these really cool jeans w embroidered flowers on them that i bought recently and also a shirt i feel pretty in. guess i cant do anything in them, but its cool and i like it

Mallory: How do you take your tea? What is the best tea you've ever had? Would you die for tea? 

honestly i would die for a chai latte which is basic as hell but idc. i bought a chai latte before class today and i felt super guilty abt it bc i shouldnt have spent the money but like? it was good, fight me @my bank balance

[kurtwagners]

have you been reading the new ghost rider series and if you have how do you like amadeus' characterization in it? i think it's pretty good, granted i haven't read all of his series but imma catch up during this month

I like the series so far, amadeus’s characterization is better then champions but also i feel like its kinda missing something bc i dont rly like him here either compared to totally awesome hulk...hes such a fuckup lmao hes the one who caused the whole mess!...but i rly cant complain ill take what i can get...also whats up with his terrible lingo like can writers stop trying to emulate the way millennials talk lmao

another problem i have is that ghost riders not really robbie-focussed right now, that’ll probably change after the xover but this is the very beginning of his series!! if im reading ghost rider i want robbie u know? but it feels like the series name should be changed to all new fantastic four... which i dont mind, yall know i love laura and amadeus (and cindy omg im so excited), but i want to see more of robbie himself in his own solo u know? 

but yes robbies first series all new ghost rider is A++++ excellent, definitely check it out