#ugh this is so not valid i cry over the dumbest things

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hey guys!!! a bit of a personal post coming…

i know ive made a post like this before but! ive been having a hard time with mental health again and i totally just had a fat cry over a plant can we have another happy hour ú ω ù

if you own any plants you really like feel free to send them into my submissions! tell me about how long youve had them!

if not plants u can send in pet photos… general asks… etc etc i just want something to distract me rn ✨✨

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If someone's laughing, do you instantly think they're laughing at you? I mean, not automatically? People can be laughing for many reasons. But if they’re laughing near me and if I even catch them looking at me from time to time, then it can definitely make me feel paranoid.

What is the strangest thing you've been asked? I’ve said this before, but a masseuse who came to the house a couple of years ago once looked at me intently and asked if I’ve gotten pregnant before. When I asked my mom about her, she explained that that particular masseuse has a third eye. Of course I didn’t buy it, but it was a fascinating scenario nonetheless and I still liked the fact that out of everyone in the family, she had only ~sensed something with me.

What’s the weirdest thing about life that people just accept as normal? Homelessness.

What was your favorite game as a child? I liked playing Diner Dash, Insaniquarium, and Cake Mania on my dad’s laptop. Our parents didn’t keep a strict eye on us as well and we were allowed access to Grand Theft Auto games at a young age, which ended up being one of my all-time favorite video game series.

What’s the stupidest thing you've ever heard? There’s a lot of crazy fake news that have come out over the last few years; I can’t really tell which one is stupidest, but they all are to some extent.

What's the most random thing you've done out of boredom? Make spreadsheets about stuff I will never have to refer to. It’s a great way to be distracted/occupied, so I don’t shy away from starting one whenever I feel the need to.

What show did your parents not let you watch as a kid? Mr. Bean. My mom didn’t like the character’s antics and she especially hated how he technically doesn’t talk, since she felt like it would have an effect on how we learned language (we mainly learned English from the TV) and the way we speak.

What is your personal catchphrase? I say, “Awesome!” when I’m pleased with something, which is a habit I picked up from Gabie. I also tend to say “For real?” whenever I’m surprised.

What is the most pleasurable feeling that doesn't involve anything sexual? I like being given lazy scratches on my wrist or leg. It’s also nice when someone plays with my hair, but it depends on who’s doing it; sometimes I’ll find it too invasive.

What was your 'Oops, wrong person' moment? This doesn’t happen a lot to me, fortunately. For the most part, it’s only been instances from childhood when I mistakenly held on to a stranger’s hand instead of either of my parents’.

What do you find attractive that isn't considered 'normal' attraction? I’m not particularly attracted to muscles or fit bodies in general; a little bit of flab or what the internet calls ~dad bod~ has always been more than alright with me.

What’s the dumbest thing you’ve done drunk? Nearly fall asleep in a swimming pool, or go on a loud rant about someone while that someone was still within earshot.

What's your proudest moment in the bathroom? I have no idea what this means, and I don’t want to ask.

What’s something you own that gets you lots of compliments? Some clothes/shoes I have. Also, my car back when I placed reindeer antlers and a red nose on it a few Christmases ago haha.

If money was no object, where would you want to live? If that was the case, I’d be in New York City right now.

Who is your favorite mythological character? I never took a liking to mythology and the creatures associated with it.

What's something that's happened which couldn't happen at a worse time? My breakup. We were also recently informed that my mom has been retrenched sooooooo life isn’t particularly dandy at the moment. I’ve stopped complaining about my heavy daily workload and have instead felt grateful for it, because at least it keeps me occupied enough and not think about the stuff happening at home.

What is the best pickup line you've ever heard? I don’t like pickup lines.

What did aging ruin for you? My back and my eyesight.

What is the most hilarious thing you’ve ever heard? Ugh, questions like these are impossible to answer. Off the top of my head, I’ll go with this video.

What is the darkest thing you have seen on the internet? Crime scene photos, beheading videos, and corpses. There have also been other stuff but they’d be too triggering if I tried to describe what they are.

What's something you really enjoy, but can't have? I can’t have milkshakes unless I’m fine with the stomachaches I will inevitably get after.

What Wikipedia article have you recently read? So I watched Royal Rumble yesterday (I haven’t kept up with wrestling in years, but I always come back for the big pay-per-views) and there’s this female wrestlerI think I’ll soon develop a full-blown crush on. I wanted to look her up and I learned that she’s Rhea Ripley, so I briefly read up on her life and career.

What's a book you were made to read in school that you really liked? Without Seeing the Dawn will always be my favorite. Taking it up in English class was never a chore for me. Number the Stars was a great read too, as was Dekada ‘70.

What objective did you fail to complete this week? I haven’t worked out at all this week, which I should’ve been able to do twice already according to the workout plan I’m currently subscribed to. But it’s fine, I’ll just try to catch up.

What could have gotten worse for you but it didn't? Work. I kept making a million mistakes during my first two months and thought I’d never get the hang of it, and I was just waiting to get fired immediately lol. But everything’s going smoothly now - I’m not as lost as I used to be, and I’ve even taken to tutoring some of the newer hires.

What subject should be taught at schools, but isn't? I’d have appreciated it if we had been taught or at least briefed on how to obtain crucial government IDs and documents. I didn’t exactly enjoy walking through everything by myself and being expected to know what to do.

What is the best thing about having a Significant Other? Oh my god, everything. I loved and treasured being in a relationship. I appreciated even the arguments because it made me get better at communicating, know how and when to apologize, and how to be more in tune with another person’s feelings. But my favorite part about it would probably be having a person to share everything about yourself and your life to. I’ve learned to be okay being by myself, but I feel the loneliness the hardest when I’m going through a rough patch and remembering that I no longer having someone to turn to.

What makes you unusually uncomfortable? Injections, blood tests, anaesthesia, anything that’s meant to prick my skin.

What is an upcoming purchase you're excited about? I don’t plan on making any purchases soon. Maybe a couple boxes of macarons with 25 pieces each for my birthday to treat myself?? but that’s the only one I’ve been planning.

What is the worst game you've ever played? When I was still taking PE, I dreaded it every time we had to play basketball or water polo.

What’s the oddest thing you like to do? I really like doing tedious tasks, like inputting things into a spreadsheet or writing out lists. I think I’d be a great secretary. < Yeah same. Literally what I said earlier about the spreadsheets.

What's the funniest news story you've seen in the past few weeks? Some fixers at the LTO who approached the mayor of a nearby city to convince him that they can fast-track whatever business he’s in for there, not knowing he’s the fucking mayor. What a mess lmfao.

What do you really really want right now? For things to go back to normal. My parents are very secretive about finances - probably because they don’t want us to worry - but I hate not knowing if I could even turn on the fan or any of our lights anymore. I also hate that I feel guilty whenever I buy things for myself knowing that both my parents are in sticky situations.

What do you hide from people? Things going on in my personal life. I will refer to my problems in social media posts occasionally, but would never provide enough context for people to know more about my life than I’m comfortable with.

What was the first sign you knew you had a crush on someone? I got increasingly nervous around them and I just wanted to be with them all day and listen to their stories and buy them food and stuff. Also, I knew when I started crying over them. Hahahaha man this just made me feel so nostalgic. I miss that feeling of first falling in love with someone.

What's the best lemonade you've made from the lemons life gave you? The self-love, self-acceptance, and self-validation I gained after my breakup felt and continues to feel wonderful. I never realized how much of myself I sacrificed and gave away. I will never do that again and will always make sure to leave more than enough room for myself in the future.

Who was your cartoon crush while growing up? Sam from Totally Spies and Shego from Kim Possible.

What's the best way to deal with religious door knockers? We don’t have those here. But I imagine just telling them “No thanks” and closing my door.

What’s the most hypocritical thing you’ve ever seen or heard? My mom is a big hypocrite in general; she exhibits some behaviors that she would typically chew me out for. But she would never admit to that; that, or she wouldl use mental gymnastics to convince me that the way I’m doing the thing is wrong and that her version is the acceptable one.

Who’s the most interesting person you’ve ever met? Probably one of the artists at Pinto Museum. Every time I’ve gone there, he’s always standing at the first gallery - he looks like your typical visitor, but I’ve come to realize he actually scans the museum looking for people who are genuinely into the artworks and not just there to shoot photos. I know, because he has always ended up approaching me and whoever I’m with at the time so that he can explain every single painting. He’s done the same thing with me - I think he keeps forgetting me, but it’s fine - 2-3 times, with the same spiels and same interesting explanations and anecdotes. In the end he always reveals that he painted a number of the works in the museum and for his sake I will always try to act surprised, haha. Anyway, he’s brilliant and very talented, and always has great stories to tell.

What just doesn't impress you? Certain movies that are meant to be hailed as one of the greats.

What’s the worst possible way to introduce yourself? By being an ass from the get-go, I suppose.

What makes you wish that you were born in the past or the future? I hate missing out on things when I’m already around, which is why I often wish I could live long enough to see what advancs and developments we could be capable of reaching in the future. Would we find a cure for cancer? Will I get to see my country get richer and more developed like it has always deserved to? Will travel to outer space be a thing? It’s stuff like that I’d love to see happen and the idea of potentially missing out on them because maybe they’re not meant to happen in my lifetime kinda bums me out.

What tragic event was coincidentally beneficial to you? I started loving the shit out of myself from my breakup. I thought I was already comfortable with who I was and where I was in life, but I soon learned that I could be doing so much more for myself, self-esteem-wise.

What's something people are proud of, but it doesn't impress you? Wealth, usually, especially if it’s generational. < True. Also, fucking watches? I’ll never understand the need for watches that cost a million pesos when I could easily stomp on them lmao.

What's the worst possible moment to go and play on a bouncy castle? Doing it with an upset stomach.

Who is the greatest ever comedian? I don’t know about greatest. I certainly don’t watch enough comedians to make such a choice.

What’s your irrational fear? Sometimes I’ll get an irrational urge to do something stupid and/or dangerous. For instance I was in Tagaytay last weekend, on the 20th floor of a condo and to my surprise, the windows could be opened and they didn’t have any bars either. As I opened a window I thought about jumping and it freaked me out, so much so I immediately closed it and never went back to it. I believe there’s a word for this phenomenon in a foreign language; I just can’t remember what it is now.

What's your oldest memory? Waking up inside a Winnie the Pooh tent with my sister when I was 3, she 1. My parents let us go ‘camping,’ even though the tent was simply set up on the floor of our bedroom.

What can you not wake up without? Greeting my dogs.

What did you think was cool when you were younger that you now think isn’t? Side bangs.

What are your favorite or most memorable lines from any movie/show? “I would ask you to consider your response in light of the respect that my rank and office deserve, not that which my age and gender might suggest.” from The Crown. Holy shit that line was so good. I’ll need to rewatch this showagain.

What's something people love to hate? Mainstream culture. < Very true.

What’s something that is underrated but extremely useful? Car adaptors have saved my ass so many times while driving long distances and needing to constantly use data to have access to Waze.

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50 things about meee

Tagged by @theempresskaizer​ @kakihoden​ @incorrectmidc​ @nijigendiaries​ Thanks guys!

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: most foods tbh… I’m legit probably the pickiest eater you will ever meet. 2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: The way my ears smell when I need to clean my gauges lolololol 3. Have you got any useless talents?: I can lick my elbow. 4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: art. and saying that specifically to encompass both my writing and drawing  5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: there are so many but I’ve loved Keanu Reeves since I was really young lol, Reese Witherspoon, Kristen Bell, Arden Cho, Fan Bingbing…. uhhh I have a longish list if I think for too long so… 6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: video games, cartoons/anime, playing with random toys and coming up with complex stories that can only be described now as soap operas xD 7. What is something you’re proud of?: my commitment to people, even if I resent it sometimes. 8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?: intolerance of other people 9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?: I’d love to be a follower for once but most people I get stuck with are not driven enough to be leaders or literally don’t make decisions that are more efficient or better for the end result 10. What kind of student are/were you?: “I wish I had a whole class full of her”

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?: Yeah probably, but I couldn’t think back on what that might be.

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: water and open spaces. but worse than that, the out of bounds parts of video games. seriously, scares the heck out of me. 13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: I used to relate to Zoey from Marked but haven’t read in a while so not sure anymore lol 14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?: *has never been drunk* and uhhh I sit in one spot and talk to people I know only. Or people who make easy conversation 15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: I fall in love with looks easily lol, but it takes a while for me to trust people 16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: depends why. one close friend is always great but having casual ones for many situations and areas I go to in my life would also be good. 17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: I’m a neat-freak in my mind but life makes me a slob 18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: My old bed that I accidentally caught fire. The joke was that everyone wanted to sleep in my bed because it was the most comfortable one we had. 19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?: Nope, and not sure. I like picking out names though. 20. What was your favorite book as a child? Goodnight Moon and The Very Hungry Caterpillar are special to me 21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: uhhh??? fidget-spinners tbh 22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: uhhh??? I’m not sure… normal friendships?  23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: y’all thought I’d say Rayvis but you’re wrong. I’d be glued to Ruby Rose from RWBY 24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?: become fluent in each of my chosen languages 25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: I try to when someone is not getting any other support or the offender is wrong, but sometimes I don’t care to do excess research to seem more “valid” to others 26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?: I can’t think of anything lol.. does saying “hella” count? xD 27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?: literally just me as a child lol 28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: integrity 29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): ugh I was the crazy cat lady and everyone would get me various cat print things and most were verrrrrrry tacky lol 30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?: Nope. English and lol pig latin xD Learning Japanese, with goals of French and Arabic sometime 31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: I definitely like city life more 32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: leggings. as. pants. 33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: let everyone look at someone else. I joke all the time with my mom about making everyone look away from me at my hypothetical wedding. 34. Favorite holiday?: don’t celebrate any 35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?: both, but which depends on the situation 36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.): no, because I’m a firm believer that going back to something allows you to see new things while laughing/crying/etc the other things you already experienced before 37. What hobbies do you have?: video gaming lol, watching shows/YouTube/playthroughs, writing, drawing… I’m very boring 38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: access to the cheat codes of life (like you know how you can pause the game or open a menu and enter codes for various things? I wanna do that in real life) 39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: I can be talkative 40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: ??? not sure. I had something and then forgot lol  41. Worst injury you’ve had?: I haven’t really been too injured but I’ve had major back injuries before and once my cat scratched me and I couldn’t move my arm lol 42. Any morbid fascinations?: I get easily grossed out so none really 43. Describe your sense of humor: sarcastic, can get dark, memes 44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? skipping era I’d choose to live in Japan or maybe Europe

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: staying motivated 46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: um? not sure xD 47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): I wouldn’t get a tattoo at all but of the two, the one on my face. I wouldn’t want something offending on my body. 48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: both, but maybe more pessimist? I don’t know lol 49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: compliments make me shy so probably anything genuine 50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: that I’m mean or unkind all the time

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