#unity crashing and burning caused the spite apocalypse and as a direct result i'm back doing engine dev for the first time since '19

[holmoris]

Never forget the power of spite. Spite is the motivator. Spite is the motive force behind the creation of almost every massively successful 3D engine ever.

Build, all 5 UEs, Bryce, some of the id tech engines (1+2 at least, dunno the history past that), renderman, 1.0 era Unity, goldsrc, and source 2 can all be pinned to an instance where someone was muttering 'I'll fucking *show them*' under their breath, usually as a direct retort to competition talking shit and upstaging them somehow.

If you expand the net to catch dedicated video hardware you can throw in the PSX and most of the SNES expansion chips (especially the original SuperFX, that's the first place winner for Most Seething Hardware and the story of argonaut software and the origin of Starfox is a great read). Never underestimate the power of getting really fucking angry about things being shitty and then fixing them.

one of the most important things terry pratchett has taught me is that it's okay to be angry. no one has ever said that to me before. he taught me that anger was an engine. that you can use that anger. that it goes hand in hand with love. he taught me to never underestimate my anger, because it's one of my strongest points. he taught me genuine anger was one of the world’s great creative forces. he taught me i shouldn't be fighting my anger, but what caused it. he himself said rage underlines everything he wrote. i never heard anger talked about so openly like that before and it's freeing, i suppose, to realize you are truly, truly not alone in your rage at the world. you never were.