#upsetting . im so . idk man idk anymore

[saturnniidae]

I miss being younger and believing the queer community was actually a safe space

[cloudcountry]

i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[sadcowboy69]

UNWELL

[eggthew]

getting real petty again over how most people assign traits/experiences to kids just bc of their birth order and how youngest always gets "parents never make any mistakes with them ever <3". like there were some things that happened that sucked SPECIFICALLY bc I was the youngest. not as much as because of them just being shitty parents. most of what I suffered wasnt bc of when I was born it was just them being pieces of shit but there some things that were like "oooh this is bc im the youngest and it sucks". well. youngER ig the same wouldve happened if they had another kid after me

[sirenemale]

Reflecting on how ppl perceive me being a guy is interesting bc largely it is a non thing even in lgbt spaces. So most ppl treating me like a guy has been from me joking about it more, which leads others to joke about it too but the jokes are very much like Masc tm donny hates women jokes. Which I do find funny to a degree obviously bc joking abt the toxic masc standards is funny but I'm also literally like femme gay so it feels slightly surreal that that's the kind of masc affirming joke around yk. Like I want to be at that point where I'm baseline recognized as a femme gay guy bc that's what I am but when I don't pass I guess people would feel like it was misgendering to go for like a girly gay guy joke.

This is like a nothing sentiment though I'm just thinking out loud. I guess even in a jokey way I don't really enjoy the separation lmao. I don't enjoy other lgbt ppl asking me if my pronouns are she/her off the bat or ppl thinking everything in reference to me needs to be as burly masc tm as possible. ig largely I don't like being heavily gendered in any direction. 'they' tends to have the woman lite connotation with me, irl ppl don't use it pronouns typically. Again I want to pass Enough as a guy already so I can feel good about being genderstrange.

[transgaysex]

amount of people ive had a hand in getting kicked out of a college gay club: 2

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to stop giving people my instagram i think like it’s not conducive to appearing in people’s lives and then disappearing i think i should start a number/email/letterboxd only policy because i am in such a good place to meet people and then just disappear and that’s all i need from life rn and instagram is hindering me massively in that i’m literally going to start doing this

[kideternity]

Nobody is allowed to have thoughts or opinions about Kraven or even like the topic of darker spider man stories except for me because all of you fuckers only know him/about it from like Kraven's last hunt and sucking JM DeMatteis' xenophobic dick and I've had it. How about you guys read literally any other spider man or Kraven comic before talking about how amazing it is when the entire concept relies so heavily on the idea that JM DeMatteis is an entitled piece of shit who genuinely believed he understood every single nuance of Russian identity and trauma because he read some fucking classic Russian literature (I am not making this up. You can read this on his blog from a post from years ago.) before proceeding to write Kraven in the absolute worst stereotyped way possible down to him thinking that SPIDER MAN is somehow responsible for not only his very upsetting family dysfunction but also for DESTROYING THE RUSSIAN EMPIRE??????? I could not be making this shit up. Like I know comic fans don’t give a shit about xenophobia ever even though it’s basically engrained into most American comics but come the fuck on man

Like block me i don’t care if seeing this upsets you but I'm tired of xenophobia in comics literally never being discussed / outright ignored usually in favour of making up shit about how well the white Americans are written LOL it feels like shit i'm gonna be honest!

[4giorno]

please PLEASE beware massive spoilers for gi in the tag but im just so upset so i need to rant

[melissa-titanium]

LORD i need to go outside before i lose my damn mind

[nomairuins]

and also it doesnt even matter if i miraculously get a job tmrw bc we don't have a car . and im too out of shape to walk anywhere bc everything is far away . so i genuinely dont jnow what to do

[muffetscollector]

I feel like such shit because everyone else is getting noticed and boosted etc and I'm just here still....suffering and being left behind per usual

[administer-distractions]

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[p33p33p00p00]

boys will literally want to vaguepost on tumblr instead of sorting their issues out with the person theyre upset at

[kingerpiece]

sigh

if you reach out to offer to talk about a kin and I cant find anything abt the mentioned kin on ur blog, or direct me to a sideblog with the information Im not gonna reach out man Im ngl