#yeah idk. im just unbelievably upset

[4giorno]

please PLEASE beware massive spoilers for gi in the tag but im just so upset so i need to rant

[xxrat--punkxx]

Not to be that bitch but Jesus fuck do the Bloodborne dlc bosses get harder?? Because istg this game has been a cakewalk, the bosses are SO easy (other than the shadows of yharnam but we don't talk abt that). Like I've literally been able to beat every boss so far before my 5th attempt besides Ebrietas (and the shadows of yharnam, but we don't talk abo-) I don't use summons because that's just how I want to play the game (OTHER THWN THE SHADOWS OF YHARNAM BUT WE DONT TAL-) like don't get me wrong the game is difficult but am I missing something???

[cherry-girl444]

🎸⋆⭒˚｡⋆SONGS THAT REMIND ME OF THE PASTAS🎸⋆⭒˚｡⋆

Music i think the pastas listen to or what reminds me of them<3

-`♡´-ENJOY!-`♡´-

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JEFF THE KILLERִ ࣪𖤐◞ ꙳ ๋࣭ ⭑ `

(I mean i totally head canon him as emo and a metal head so here are some ones that i took from my "For jeff the killer" playlist <3)

.Partners in crime-set it off, ash costello (ARE YOU KIDDING THIS SONG IS SOOOO GOOD AND ITS SO HIM)

.Wolf in sheeps clothing-set it off (DUDE THIS SONG WAS MY FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIMEEE LIKE 2 YEARS AGO...BUT YEAH I TOTTALY SEE HIM SINGING THIS AND HIM JUST LIKING THIS SONNG IN GENERAL)

.Monster-Skillet (THIS IS DEFINETLY ON HIS PLAYLIST, ARGUE WITH THE WALL.)

.I hate everything about you-Three days grace (DUDE WHAT THIS IS SO HIM. IT LITERALLY SCREAMS ANGSTY CHAOTIC JEFF. ALSO THIS SONG IS STILL SUCH A BANGER OML)

.Sarcasm-get scared (IK I HATE ON JEFF FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES BUT IM OBLIGATED TO LOVE HIM IN A SENSE BC HIS MUSIC TASTE IS JUST SOO AAAAAH LIKE WHY DID HE STEAL MY WHOLE PLAYLIST....BUT SO MANY OF "GET SCARED"S SONGS ARE SO HIM"

.Good girls bag guys-falling in reverse (SAME THING WITH FALLING IN REVERSE, SO MANY OF THEIR SONGS JUST SCREAM JEFF, ESSPICALLY THIS ONE LIKE WHAT)

.Sexy drug-falling in reverse (SEE WHAT DID I SAY)

-Criminal-Brittany spears (ITS LITERALLY HIM)

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TICCI TOBY ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

.My axe-ICP (LITERALLY TOBY)

.Saint Brenard-Lincoln (IDK THERES SMTH ABOUT THIS SONG

.Father-The front bottoms (I DEFINETLY SEE THIS IN HIS PLAYLIST)

. Chop suey! -System of a down (HE DEF LISTENS TO THIS RELIGEOUSLY)

.Tears over beers-Modern baseball (I SO SEE HIM BEING MIDWEST EMO)

.Tear you apart- she wants revenge (I ALSO SEE THIS AS A JEFF SONG AS WELL BUT ALSO TOBY)

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NINA THE KILLER⛧°。 ⋆༺♱༻⋆。 °⛧

.Pretty little psycho (THIS SONG IS SO HER IDC)

. Pretty scene girl!-Clover! (IK THIS PRETTY SCENE GIRL I WISH YOU COULD HAVE SEEN HER IK SHE GOT SOME PROBLEMS BUT I DONT WANNA LEAVE HER)

.Kiss me again-kets4eki (KISS ME KISS ME KISS ME AGAINNN)

.All i want is you-Rebzyyx (A LOT OF REBZYYX MUSIC JUST SCREAMS NINA)

.Im so crazy for youuu </3-Rebzyyx (UR SO UPSET WITH ME BUT IM SO OBSESSED WITH YOU<3)

.Yandere-Jazmin Bean (YAYAYAYAAAYAY JAZMIN REFERENCE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH)

.Love taste-Moe shop (SHE DEFINETLY LISTENS TO THIS)

.Crazy girls-TOOPOOR (SHES LITERALLY THE DEFINITION OF THE SONG)

.Freak show-punkinlovee (NINA CORE)

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BEN DROWNED ₊ ⊹

.Welcome to the internet-Bo burnham (IDK ITS JUST SO BEN)

.#Brooklynbloodpop!-SyKo

.Spy?-WHOKILLEDXIX (THIS IS DEF THE TYPE OF MUSIC HE LISTENS TO)

.Discord-The living tombstone (I JUST KNOW HE WOULD BE A LIVING TOMBSTONES FAN)

.Never-Mag.lo

.Sugarcrash!-EllyOtto (IDK WHY I SEE HIM AS AN EDM/HYPERPOP PERSON AS WELL)

.Nowhere to run-Stegosaurus rex

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❣LAUGHING JACK❣

-Rainbows and stuff-ICP (THIS SONG IS UNBELIEVABLY LJ CODED)

-Carousel-Melanie martinez (THIS SONG IS SO SO SO SO LJ)

-Insane in the brain-cypress hill

-HAHA-lil darkie

-Mad hatter-Melanie martinez

-In my room-ICP

-Vending machine of love-The stupendium (I SERIOUSLY DK WHY WHENEVER I LISTEN TO THIS SONG I PICTURE LJ)

-Pink elephants on parade-Disney studio chorus (U BEST BET THIS IS PLAYING AT HIS CARNIVALS

-The masochism tango-Tom lehrer (AAAAH)

-An unhealthy obsession-the blake robinson synthetic orchestra

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EYELESS JACKﮩـﮩﮩ٨ـ🫀ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ

-The zombie song-Stephanie Mabey (IF I WERE A ZOMBIE ID NEVER EAT YOUR BRAIN </3)

-Saccharine -Jazmin bean (THIS IS SONG IS DEFINETLY EJ WHENEVER HE FALLS IN LOVE)

-Misery meat-Sodikken

-Monster-Lady gaga

-Cannibal-Kesha

-Blow my brains out-Tikkle me

-Animal i have become-Three days grace

-People eater-Sodikken

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JANE THE KILLER 𓆇🕸️𓆸

-Brutus-The buttress(JANE CODED FR)

-Killer queen-Queen

-Bring me to life-Evanescence (SHE KIND OF LOOKS LIKE AMY LEE IN ONE OF HER PHOTOS TOO)

-Living dead girl-Rob zombie

-Shes my collar-Gorillaz, kali uchis

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[a-sip-of-milo]

uhhhh hi research to bpd pipeline person. maybe some day i’ll make myself properly known beyond that. this is gonna start by sounding probably random but. i’m listening to reddit story readings because god do i love that stuff (i look for aita and stick along for any other subreddits tossed in the mix) and im listening to this one about a stepdad who had cameras to watch the ‘yard’ but was actually pointed into the op’s room and after reading all of it and the updates, the people reading it mentioned the op said her stepdad was a narcissist and how bc of that the family has probably been dealing with abuse and hes probably gaslighting the mom and i’m like, that doesnt have ANYTHING to do with him being a narcissist???? he’s a fucking weirdo yeah but that doesn’t have anything to do with him being a narcissist as far as i understand. and idk it decently upsets me.

i think if i had found this before i found your account i would’ve been like “yeah that makes sense” but now that i understand being cluster b isn’t inherently bad i’m like. hey what the fuck.

i’ve been debating telling my friends/siblings i think i have bpd just to let them know and this along with anxiety i already had about the idea makes me worry that if i tell them it’s gonna go terribly.

also sorry abt continuously messaging you. knowing that youre someone i can message abt these things w/o worry of being abandoned bc of it means i’m flocking back here 😭

That sort of thing is so unbelievably common. They have no idea what NPD is and it shows.

If youre curious as to how they’re going to react, try bringing up the subject of BPD in general first to see what their attitudes are towards it. You can mention that you’ve been doing some research on the disorder and would like to know their feelings on it, or you can bring it up in a more casual way. It’s up to you following that conversation as to whether they’re safe:)

And it’s more than okay to keep coming back, I’m always here 💞

[buttercupbuck]

i'm not mad about the finale, I just think it's so unbelievably disappointing that in a potential series finale they just had to have buck end up with someone that doesn't care about him and eddie with a carbon copy of Ana and yes I know these will be walked off in S7 and I know "dating someone you meet on a call never ends well" is telling us none of these relationships will last but man what a bad shallow idea the couch ended up being

i feel that! but idk....i think while there are definitely parallels to their relationships with taylor and ana, i don't think natalia and marisol are taylor/ana 2.0 and i am hopeful for the potential these storylines can have.

like. i think natalia and buck DID reach a good point in the last episode and i think it's maybe a little unfair to say that she doesn't care about him. does she fully understand him and his motivations? no, but they only just started getting together. i think they've given enough indications that they aren't made to last but i think while we do have them, there are a lot of different ways they can explore the relationship and his overall arc that wouldn't feel repetitive of his relationship with taylor (mostly because she is So far from taylor that im not even really worried about that)

and for marisol and eddie, i think they're cute. i'm really happy to see eddie genuinely excited about a relationship and pursuing it for himself instead of forcing a relationship and rushing it through for christopher's sake, and overall i think it'll be a good thing for him, even if it doesn't last

so yeah, i get it but im just gonna have faith in the writers until they give me reason not to. we were all upset about eddieana and bucktaylor at the end of s4 and questioning what the point of these relationships even were, but both of those storylines ended up being really well-done and impactful imo. so! ofc im not thrilled, but for now im just here for the ride

[melodygatesauthor]

MY TREASURES!!!

Prized possession- i requested it and you blew me out of the fuckin water with it. The way you perfected their dialogue, the sensuality, the tension. The fucking surprise ending with Jake. I literally truly could not have asked for a more perfect fic if I tried

Preciously plump- as a plus sized babe...this. Ima be honest it made my cry the first time I read it. I struggle with my body image alot (and have for decades sadly) and the idea of being naked and vulnerable in front of someone makes me so unbelievably anxious. I also (high key) fear that no one that is like...idk "textbook hot" would want someone like me. And so this. Fuck im tearing up writing this but its true. It gives me hope y'know? Like maybe somewhere in the wide world someone like Santi wants someone like me

Vamp moon boys- im a sucker (haha get it 😅😂) for vampires. Always have been. And the fact that I can read my moon boys as vamps? Count me ALLLLL the way the fuck in. I love it. I loveeee it! And I love the way you describe the interactions between them as individuals and reader. The way you blend vulnerability and sensuality with steam inducing smut is literally magical.

A long night - my bastard man Blue!!! I love how fucking ughhhhh he is but in the best worst way ever. I love how his plans go left but it also ultimately doesn't matter cause baybee...we are in for a long night indeed

Hi "Nonnie" - hehe

Prized Possession was such a FUN fic to work on OMG. I mean it's just, the thought of a threesome is already hot but let's add 2x OI characters to make it INSANE.

Preciously Plump was hard to write because same. I struggle with that too but I promise, there's all kinds of people out there and they like people of all shapes and sizes. You will find your Santi hehe.

Vampire Moon Knight AGENDAAA lmao (I love puns, the cornier the better. If I'm not rolling my eyes dramatically then you aren't doing it right hehe). Thank you so so so much babe for the praise it means so much to me <3 I love the vampire Moon Boys too. They're so...UUUUUUURGH

A Long Night - yeah he does not CARE. He was upset at first but...it works out in the end hehehe

Ty for the kind words you're amazing <3

[unsentnotes]

what do i want robbie?

18 OCTOBER 2023 AT 12:20 AM

i want to feel safe and loved and secure. I want to be loved and be cared for, i want someone to be there for me when i need them and for them to understand how i feel and understand that i don't mean harm. I want someone who will help me grow and teach me and lend me a hand during the difficult times. I want someone who wants to place equal effort and trust into our relationship, i need communication and respect as a natural given and understanding. I want to tell someone about my day and not have to think whether it's something questionable i've done or be worried "have i mentioned this person before" or feel weird or event feel any type of way to even mentioning a friend, i wanna hear about their day and their life, their shortcomings and their achievements. I wanna know everything they have to offer, to be delicate with them and cherish their memories with them. i need someone else to help me understand myself. i need someone who is kind and nurturing.

I don't need negativity or hostility when met or faced with an issue. i've dealt with so much of that as a kid. I don't need it as a grown adult. Having an issue and solving it doesn't have ti be negative or be met with aggression or rudeness. It can be solved by talking and understanding and at least some acknowledgment, even saying "i understand how i've made you felt, i'm sorry, it wasn't my intention. can we talk about how i can help prevent this." or even "I didn't realise that the way i reacted was unhelpful to you at the time, i now see how it's upset you, can i apologise and hear you out?"

I need emotional availability and emotional maturity. I don't deserve to feel like i'm just some feeling that you don't know what to do with so you're just gonna carry on like normal until something sticks. We are grown, we aren't teens anymore, the things we do now and the things we feel affect us now. There is no more uni flings and teenage shagging about under the pretence that we're young and wild. We still are but what we do has more emotional impact, we're technically adults. What the fuck are we doing fucking around like this with no certainty, no real promise of commitment or a thought about the future.

I just need someone to be on the same team as me, we're all working towards a goal, one where we are happy and content snd we don't have stress caused by one another.

Most of it is me projecting and becoming a little kid again. I revert back to a child when conflicts arrise, i don't know what to do, i am so unbelievably apologetic and i am genuinely so sorry, and i don't know what to say or do apart from plead and beg until the primal fear of being abused goes away, mental or physical. I do sometimes live in my own little bubble, i sometimes don't think, so caught up in not doing whatver the fuck i did around adam. Yeah i'm not worth him, i'm with you and idk what it is, but i get this anxiety and big fear with texting like,,, i hate it, being chained to someone who constantly has my attention. You're always on my mind, it's unhealthy, and when im with other people i hate being on my phone, i hate looking at it and being distracted. The amount of present times i've not been present at? I'm hanging with a friend, i think it's understandable and easy to clock that im now talking and chatting to them and not gonna be rude and on my phone texting someone else constantly. It's not a you thing. It's anyone. I don't hold long convos over text, i hate that

[epicfranb]

warning: long rant/ramble under cut (i jump from topic to topic a lot)

I need to watch more Sausage vids so i can write him BUT lately I'm so tired from mcyt cuz it's basically the only thing i watch, i wanna read comics and watch shows again i miss it but i only hav minecraf on the brain :( my attention span is GONE (not that there was much in the first place but. I could easily binge an anime season or 2 in under a week. I can't watch a single episode a day idk why)

This is what I'm complaining about?? Really??? If i complained about the actual serious stuff that worries me you'd hear no end of it lol. It's kind of in the background, anyways looming over me (the anxiety) im kinda used to it but it shows itself in the little things that seem unrelated.. like that fact that i can't seem to do the things i actually wanna do anymore. It's called AVOIDING. im scared of failure, im scared of making myself upset, so i start avoiding it even if i like it and wanna do it. It's silly bc in this case it's literally about WATCHING COOL SHIT??? i don't wanna have another kagepro or winx club or naruto on my hands where im so unbelievably upset at the source material that o have this urge to complain about it ALL THE FUCKING TIME but i don't have it in me (maybe i have the skill, but not time and not motivation) to make rewrites for all of them that'd be fucking impossible, especially seeing as they're not exactly short stories or easy to write and structure and REwrite and REstructure n all that.. i have my own fics and stories to worry about BUT I'M NOT WRITING THEM EITHER honestly i thought graduating high school would make me better it made me worse actually. In some ways it made me better. Maybe it's just maturing (a little bit) but worse i mean that 1) I'm drawing way less 2) I'm not developing my original stories at all 3) i don't see comics anymore 4) i don't fucking go outside 5) i don't socialize 6) i rot at home all day IDK im trying not to say that i feel like a failure bc that's not exactly true?.. maybe i don't feel this way cuz im avoiding thoughts like this (im good at avoiding lol) and that's good. Cuz objectively I'm not a failure. I'm still creating, even tho slowly. I think I'm in my transitional point between like.. a worm that i was at school, just creating things with no real purpose, to bring a butterfly who creates more thoughtfully and is able to self express deliberately, because i know what i like and what i want to do now (moreso than i did before at least). Not a fan of an insect analogy but here ya go. Optimistic ending to my little rant at least.

Honestly i wanna do a series of complaining at stuff that i kind of hate-love. I have the most to say about kagepro probably, since i was into that for like 2 years, or maybe winx since I'm into it rn, and it has far more source material+ has a bigger world and now characters.. but i thought about it far less so far (i need to write down my thoughts more..) i really really want someone to talk with about it.. either winx or kagepro, idc. It would be funny to tell about kagepro to a person who doesn't know about it (it's still fresh in my mind... *shudders*) but when it comes to winx I'd rather talk to another fan honestly. So yeah.. rant over bye bye

[justanotherlifeff]

can u do dom aizawa (daddy) and female reader (kitty/princess/babygirl) with her hanging with her friends too long at night after a party, shes drunk a lil nd hes mad shes out so late in the out fit she was wearing, something like not even dirty at all but he thinks she was hot asf in it, something like a sweater ad a skirt type of thing, and yeah ^^ idk how to wrte asks im sorry if this triggers you or makes u upset at all

Daddy dom Aizawa gives me peaceful sleep every night

Vorfreude

-The joyful intense anticipation that comes from imagining future pleasures.

Warnings: NSFW, SMUT, BDSM

You were never this late. Yes, you did mention going out for a drink with your friends. Infact, you didn't have a break like this in quite a while. Asking you to not go was selfish and Aizawa knew that fact. However, after you didn't come back even after he reached home, which was at 2am, he couldn't help but be angry. However, his anger turned into complete utter jealousy when you finally return home.

You weren't wearing anything particularly revealing. It was just a sweater and a skirt, a rather modest outfit but somehow, you still made it seem like you were the sexiest woman he had ever seen. It angered him that you were out so late looking so beautiful when he should be the one to be looking at you this way in this ungodly hour. The pink tinting your cheeks due to being slightly drunk didn't help either as you looked absolutely ravishing.

"Why did you come home so late?" Aizawa asked you gloomily as you entered the small apartment. "Huh? Oh you're here already. I was having fun with my friends and I didn't realise it was getting so late. Am sorry." You answered with a small guilty smile. 'As well behaved as always...' Aizawa thought as a surge of pride flowed through him. "Well, princess, you look absolutely breathtaking. Don't you think you need to be punished for showing yourself like this to people at such ungodly hours when I am the one who was supposed to see you?" Aizawa asked you with lust blown eyes as he approached you slowly.

You felt as if your feet was stuck to the ground as your boyfriend walked over to you. It was undeniable that you were feeling slightly horny as you had the habit of feeling this way when you drank and now that Aizawa cornered you this way, it really didn't help your case.

"Yes daddy" you answered meekly, peering at the man who currently pushed you against the wall. "Mhh you really are being a good girl now huh... I might actually let you cum if you keep this up..." he muttered before pulling you into a passionate kiss, slowly leaving your mouth to trail down to your neck only to leave hickeys that you would have to cover with a scarf the next day.

His hands were travelling all over you as soon as he started kissing you and at the moment, he was skillfully taking your clothes off, exposing your bare skin to him yet again. It seemed that no matter how many times he had seen you naked, it never was any different from the first time. He would never be tired of seeing you this way, all shy and beautiful just for him. Holding your hands up to stop them from covering yourself, he now took a good look at you which ultimately got him rock hard as usual.

As soon as he was satisfied with the way you furiously blushed under his gaze, he finally picked you up only to go to your shared bedroom and throw you on the bed. With sheer speed, he got rid of his own clothes before getting on the bed with you and burying his head between your thighs to eat you out.

"Look at how wet you are for daddy. Such a good girl for me.." he muttered as he dove into lick and suck onto your clit as if it was the most delicious meal in existence. The only thing you could do was whimper and moan as you held his long hair tightly with your fist, smashing his face into your nether regions.

Aizawa usually loved it when you were needy like this but at the moment, you needed to be disciplined. Pulling away from your cunt, he took reached for his capture weapon that was discarded on the floor and in mere seconds, you found yourself tied up. "Good girls don't interrupt daddy." He told you strictly as you slowly whimpered an "I'm sorry daddy" to him. With that, he went back to eating you out yet again.

You had no idea on how many times you came on his tongue. You were panting and moaning loudly as he finally got up and lined his erection to your entrance. His hand found itself on your throat as he squeezed slightly before plunging into you, only for you to squeak out a choked noise. He fucked you at an unbelievable pace as your brain turned to mush due to the pleasure and lack of oxygen.

"Daddyyyy pleaseee" you managed to choke out as you were close to cumming yet again making Aizawa chuckle slightly through his own pants. "You've been so good princess. Hold on for just a bit longer for me." He commanded you as your eyes rolled back from pleasure. A choked chant of "please" escaped your mouth as you were completely delirious underneath him. As soon as he himself was close to releasing, he commanded you. "You can cum now babygirl." And as soon as he said that, you creamed all over his cock. The spasms in your cunt brought him to his edge as he released his load inside you.

Due to a hard day of being a pro hero, Aizawa couldn't help but fall asleep almost immediately after this rigorous session, thinking about how he could make it up to you for the lack of aftercare on the next day while you on the other hand wondered whether you should come home late more often since it let to such good sex before passing out in his arms.

[hawkinsschoolcounselor]

Would it be a reach if I completely wanted to agree with you on mileven's entire romantic relationship being a protection wall for Mike? I mean, on one hand, it would be really weird for the writers to reveal that all three seasons of them "loving" each other were actually just Mike trying to hide that he's gay (Eleven is the main character, would she be used by Mike too? It's kinda cruel idk) but on the other hand EVERYTHING you stated makes complete sense IM SO CONFUSEDDDD I honestly don't know what to believe anymore :( I WANT BYLER TO BE REAL

I think the biggest misconception, and one that leads to many others, is that El is the main character of the show. She's not. She's a main character. She's a very important character. So are Hopper, Will, Mike, Joyce, and others. The biggest issue I have with this fandom is that Stranger Things is seen by many people as The El Show. Netflix's marketing team hasn't really helped with this. She is a very popular character, so she gets a lot of attention, and MBB is probably the biggest breakout actor with how many roles she's landed since. This is an ensemble cast, though.

Secondly, Stranger Things hasn't spent three seasons building up Mike and El's relationship or showing them loving each other. They knew each other for a week in season 1, didn't see each other for a year, got together after reuniting, then had a horribly controlling, dishonest relationship that lasted a few months. Yes, they missed each other terribly in that year where everyone thought El was dead. They were both going through unbelievably emotional events at the time (El escaping and hiding from Brenner, Mike searching for Will and briefly thinking he was dead). Couple Mike's utter relief to see her alive and El having watched soap operas for a year while thinking about Mike, and it's easy to see why they'd think they were in love.

Mike hasn't been using El, not anymore than El has been using him, anyway. They're basically each other's security blankets. They make each other feel like they're normal and have control over their lives. Notice how El apparently didn't try to reestablish her relationship with Mike until she was about to leave. She lost her first real parent figure and her powers, and now she was leaving all her friends. Her life was falling apart, but Mike makes her feel safe. But anyone who watches that scene and thinks that Mike feels the same is only kidding themselves.

We also need to keep in mind that El's concepts of relationships are still pretty limited. She learned about romance largely from soap operas. I think if she has an opportunity to grow away from Mike, that she'll see she didn't love him romantically. They care about each other, and nothing about this needs to be cruel for El. She might get hurt, yeah, but no more than any teenager gets hurt from exploring the world of romance. She needs to learn what makes a good relationship and how to tell the difference between romantic and platonic love. She has to learn the difference between needing someone because you love them and loving someone because you need them.

I'll also counter by pointing out that the Duffers have spent three seasons showing Mike and Will loving each other, but in more heartfelt, genuine ways. Mike spent season 1 doing whatever it took to find Will and was devastated when he thought Will was dead. Will could break at least partially free from the Upside Down/Mindflayer several times because of Mike. Will wanted to be with Mike at the Snowball, then Mike was upset after Will left to dance. Their fight was done for drama rather than laughs. The scenes where they expressed how they felt ("..best thing I've ever done" and "I guess I did. I really did.") were quiet and dark so that there were no distractions for the audience. They were both happy and reassured after their goodbye scene.

We have two boys here who have cared about each other so much for so longer that they may not even realize what those feelings mean. Mike may have had an epiphany after the Byers left with how shocked and upset he seemed. Will possibly has a hunch, but is afraid for his dad and bullies to be right. El deserves to figure out who she is, like Max suggested, than to feel tied to Mike. I hope all three of them can end up happy.

[hella1975]

me asking for relationship advice:

hella ! good day , how do u break up with someone ( they're a good friend and I'm p sure they won't like ??? start hating me n shit and the reason is just that I feel we work better as friends) HOWEEVR THIS IS MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP AND IT LASTED REALLY LONG (10 MONTHS) AND IDK HOW TO BREAK UP.

also !!! you do not have to answer this, I just kinda see u as a big sister figure ( yes yes parasocial relationship etc etc whatever) and I don't really have a big sister figure irl so here I am,, at 2 am wrktkng into ur little ask box <3 anyways!!! i will figure this out for real and I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable or was too much!!!!! have a good day <33 meow

omg hi! i absolutely don't mind this at all and i actually find it really sweet. im v good at setting my own boundaries but thank you for being careful anyway <3

oof i was actually in this exact same situation a couple years ago. i was really good friends with this one boy, and then when he asked me out i kind of was like 'yeah why not' and it wound up being an 8 month relationship where i knew from DAY ONE that actually i didn't like him like that. i wasn't leading him on per say because that's a shit thing to do, i was just young and hadn't quite figured out the difference between platonic and romantic feelings until i was already dating the guy lmfaoooo. we were incredibly close friends though and i was so scared of losing that that i just didn't say anything, and that's how it wound up going on so long.

so from personal experience, i think dragging it on when you know you want to break up with them doesn't actually benefit either of you. it's scary thinking you might lose them completely, and change isn't very appealing after so long knowing one thing, but at the end of the day, if you truly care about each other in any capacity, then you'll overcome it, and if they genuinely hate you for it, then maybe they weren't someone you want in your life after all. i know for me, when i broke up with that guy, he didn't speak to me for a while and he was very upset, but then we became friends again, and we were closer for it. it was also a VERY funny joke from then on because we were best mates and also exes and the comedic potential of that is god tier.

just don't do anything inadvertently mean for the sake of ease, like breaking up over text! i know a face-to-face conversation like this is hard and UNBELIEVABLY awkward, and there really is nothing you can do to avoid that, but you want to try and leave as little bad blood as possible if you want to stay friends after :)

[luvspence]

darling, you’re the one i want

spencer reid x reader

{im not quite sure this is how a song fic works but this is basically stolen from paper rings by taylor swift, i’m using the lyrics as like prompt one liner things?????? idk bare with me}

- 1,3,4 are mainly fluff but 2 is a lot of fighting and bickering

——-

i want to drive away with you

“do you ever feel”

you took a pause in the middle of your thought, spencer spun around in his chair to face you

“indeed, i do feel”

“shut up i’m thinking” you said as you laughed and slapped him on the arm

“do you ever feel like, trapped? like boxed in almost”

he chewed on the end of his pen

“i guess? elaborate”

“well, i love my life. i have no regrets. but sometimes i feel like just running into the streets and screaming and keep running and never stopping? just fleeing in a sense”

“yeah, i get that. sort of an intrusive liberating type thought”

“exactly” you said tapping your finger to yourself head, a few seconds of silence passed before you spoke again

“i want to drive away with you”

spencer looked at you in confusion

“you’re all i need, seriously. i love everything in our lives right now i do, but i could go without all of it, besides you”

he rolled his chair up next to your and caught your hand in his

“i’d get up right now, keys in the ignition, and i’d drive into nowhere with you y/n. you’re it for me”

——

i want your complications too

you chased spencer up the stair way

“spencer!”

he turned around

“listen to me would you? every time i open my mouth it seems that you turn off your ears”

“i’m all ears y/l/n” he said, giving you more attitude than necessary, but you were having a hard time getting through to him

“that was unbelievably stupid! you could’ve gotten yourself killed! spencer this isn’t the first time, let alone the second, let alone the 7th time you’ve put yourself in harms way! this is so dumb spencer you understand this shit but you still are reckless! and don’t give me that crap about calculated risks”

you were fuming at him

“so what i’m alive, so is our victim what more do you want?”

“why are you turning this on me? i don’t want shit from you spencer! it’s not what i want! it’s your life! my god i shouldn’t have to justify to my colleague, god to my friend why i care about them being alive!”

“well i am alive. so i don’t know why you’re so bothered y/n it’s like your my mother or something” he said as he continued walking up the stair case

“no, you don’t get to do that. you don’t get to put your life on the line and then treat me like i’m the irrational one. painting me as the villain when i only just care about you”

“why do you care so much?”

“because i’m your friend?! because i love you?!”

he ignored you and resumed walking up the stairs

“you know what spencer? it’s because i love you. it’s because i love you so much that it affects my sleep. so much that i always make you coffee when you come in. so much that no matter what i’m doing, where i’m doing or who i’m doing it with, you’re always on my mind. the problem is spencer, not that i love you, that i’m IN love with you. and even at that you can’t seem to let me in. so i don’t know what the fuck to do anymore”

a tear fell down your cheek as you slammed the door and left

spencer standing dead in his tracks on the stair case. honestly wanting to vomit

-

you spent the rest of your day scream crying. so many emotions that you couldn’t quite process anything

you were laying on your couch, radio head on your phone, dried tears on your cheeks when your heard the doorbell ring

you go and open it

spencer

“hi”

“hi?”

you stood in your doorway, looking at each other with swollen eyes

silence, 2 seemingly frozen bodies

until spencer opened his mouth

“look, i’m sorry.”

“yeah me too”

you were sick of him, sick of how he couldn’t communicate, of how blind he could be. but something about his face was so so good. you were about to shut the door in frustration before spencer started to speak again 

“and with what you said, about the love thing...”

he took a big gulp 

“i do too. i love you too. i mean i’m in love with you too”

what. the. fuck.

between the shock and the upset you were feeling, there was little part of your heart that warmed when he said those words. you opened your mouth to speak but spencer cut you off

“and i just wanted to say that because i uh i owe you the truth always. regardless. but anyway, i don’t think we should pursue that though”

you stood in your doorway in shock

you didn’t know if you wanted to fight him, cry, or vomit

probably all of the above

you were blank, nothing came to your mouth. you tried to speak, tried to scream , but the only thing that came out was 

“what?”

“i’m no good for you, you deserve someone who can be perfect for you. you deserve that truly. and i can’t be that. so i’m sorry but that’s just how it is. i just want you to be happy. you don’t deserve a guy that you have to yell at in stairways, that makes you cry until your eyes swell shut, a guy that cant reconcile his emotions for crap or can’t communicate or anything that i am. so im sorry, but i think this is what’s best for you.”  he stuck his hands in his pants

“so bye i guess”

you were paralyzed, a surplus of information hitting you all at once. you couldn’t quite process it but you knew you couldn’t just let him walk away

“you’re idiotic” you shouted as he was about to get on the elevator

“i’m what now?”

“idiotic. no ones buying the ‘i’m not a nice guy’ crap”

“it’s not crap, it’s true. i’m no good for you”

“oh please spencer you’re acting like this is your villian orgin story. first off, who do you think you even are? i’m an adult i don’t need a white man who doesn’t know how to brush his hair to tell me whats ‘good for me’”

“i’m just looking out for you”

“okay, thanks, but i’m a big girl spencer i know how to take care of myself. and even so i don’t even think thats what this is about. you know what i think? i think that you’re too scared to admit that you don’t feel the same way. which is fine by the way, but if you’re to scared to face the reality of whatever your feeling and youre covering it by turning it on me? by saying that ‘i’m too good for you’ thats fucked up and thats that spencer.”

you caught your breath and continued 

“because spencer i know you’re pulling all this shit about not being good for me but is that even true? spencer reid we’re perfect for eachother. in every way. and if you’re blind to that than whatever, but i don’t want you to lie to try and tiptoe around my feelings”

“ever since you walked into the bau y/n ive loved you. every word you’ve ever said to me get played on repeat in my head. i love you i would want nearly nothing but to be with you y/n. i love you that much. that’s why i’m trying to our myself above what i want and above whatever so that you can be the happiest you can be. it’s just that i don’t want to hurt you. you don’t deserve that. i never want you to hurt ever. and i can only prevent that by taking myself out of the picture”

“spencer, when i said i love you. it means all of you. i want every side to spencer reid. i want your complications too. it’s all worth it spencer because you’re the one for me”

you two stood there for a couple minutes. it was the longest and shortest time of your life. spencer eventually took a deep sigh and stepped in a step closer to you, looking down at your face

red from the crying, left eye swollen shut, giving him a weak smile

“you’re the one for me”

——

i want your dreary mondays

“thursday”

“no?! the worst day of the week is monday obviously”

“monday is underrated in my opinion”

you were conversing with spencer while walking through the park after dinner

“monday is the worst, it’s so hard after the two perfect days of rest to return the mundane process of life”

“sure”

“so thursday? story behind that?”

-

“hey have you seen spence?” you asked around the office, only getting head shakes

it was the monday after a long weekend, and spencer has had a less than ideal day

just woke up on the wrong side of the bed, spilt hot coffee on his pants, forgot his satchel at hole

you searched around for him, when you realized

when spencer was overwhelmed or stressed or sad or anything like that, he retreated to the basement file room

no one ever went down there, and there was a closet with a couch in it that was good for taking mid day breaks

you ran down the stairs, opening the door to the closet and sure enough spencer was there

“hey”

“hi”

he wiped his hand across his face, presumably for a tear

“what’s up spence?”

you said scooting next to him on the closet couch

“having a monday”

“i’m sorry to hear that, what’s going on”

“well besides the coffee incident and satchel problem...” he began to rant about how his day was going less than ideal. when he stopped abruptly

“hey, you don’t need to listen to this”

“i dont have to, but i want to”

“are you sure? i’d hate to bore you with my bad day”

“come on spence, i want your dreary mondays something you gotta recognize, is that you’re such an incredible person, that your bad days are better than most people’s best.”

“yeah, perspective right. my worst days are someone’s best”

“yeah, but don’t ever feel invalidated abt your bad days, you always deserve to feel upset, and i’ll always be here to listen to it”

“god i love you”

—-

wrap your arms around me baby boy

spencer wasn’t a touchy person

germaphobe habits

but something about you, he was magnetic to you

no matter what it was, on the jet, in the office, while in line at the grocery store, anywhere and everywhere he always had you in a hug

coming up behind you while you were cooking, wrapping his arms around the back of your neck while you were working

he adored you, and you adored him

after a case, the team decided to hit the local bar, nearing the end of the night, they started to play slower stuff

slower jazzier beats, the dj came on and said

“okay you couples! get up there”

a few couples hand gone up, you were tugging on spencer’s arm to accompany you up there

“well if you don’t go you know morgan will”

derek raised an eyebrow at him, and before you knew it he was dragging you on stage.

poor spencer didn’t know how to dance correctly, he was standing so far from you. hands in each other’s hands like middle schoolers

“jeez spence, wrap your arms around me”

you grabbed his hands, positioning them on your waist, you wrapped your arms around his neck, and leaned into his chest

swaying back and forth, as the sinatra echoed the other the bar and the click of garcias camera could be heard

and in that moment, nothing felt better or more right, than dancing in spencer reids arms

[siswritesyanderes]

This is a series of asks bc, while I do LIKE all the charas of Fantastic Beasts individually, much of the romantic pairings dont sit well with me. By that mean the messy love polygon w Newt & I think I finally figured out why & I'd like another's opinion on it. For starters, Newt's attraction with Tina is too fast for me considering he was friends w Leta, got expelled out of Hogwarts for Leta, carried Leta's photo in his case, & basically loved her for YEARS. But this is all undone by a [1]

jaunt in NY having met a woman, who he admittedly went on a huge adventure w, over the course of maybe a few weeks. He's so taken w her she replaces Leta's photo w her own &, after refusing to go to Paris for Dumbledore, leaves immediately once he finds out she's there. I just find this unbelievable. I can rationalize it from Newt's perspective where Tina is a fresh breeze sweeping into his life on (percieved) unrequited pining, but this is my conjecture based on my understanding of Newt. [2]

The audience shouldnt be left to rationalize endgame couple of the mc on their own. & the whole thing w Leta is so messily handled I dont think they can save it even if they bring her back in FB3. How she feels for Newt vs Theseus & unresolved lingering affection, etc. She & Newt were SO important to each other & we SEE that & they dont HAVE to get together, but they need proper resolution bc they have actual history between them. God Leta in general deserved so much better. [3]

But my main gripe is that this love polygon serves no purpose to what I believe is the main selling point of FB: the world. HP having love stories makes sense bc we're following the story of a boy as he goes through adolescence & his journey through that via school is part of that, which is why the romance feels fitting. It's a very personal story. FB on the otherhand is the best peak we have at the wider wizarding world beyond school. HP introduces the world of magic, but FB rlly expands it [4]

To that end Jakob & Queenie's relationship is the only one I find myself liking, bc it's deeply tied to the world setting, the series' biggest selling point (in my opinion, should have said this earlier). It underscores the attitudes of the period & the conflict they face feels suitably substantial & not like filler. There's a moral question between them of are they worth it? And how far should they go to be together?

Imma be real hear & say FB2 was rlly Queenie's movie & they should have been ballsy & just make Queenie the mc for FB2, bc her story was actually considerably more important to the overall development of the story than Newt's, which mostly came off as a rushed & a tad clichè soap drama. & making it about Queenie I think builds more room for good conflict & independent narrative for Tina that would serve her chara better. [5? 6?]

If I bad to be REAL ballsy, I'd say my big issue w/ the relationships in the FB series & how it enhances or impedes the main story & what I believe to be it's biggest attracter (the setting) could have been solved if they made Newt's romantic interest a muggle. It attaches a deeper meaning & relevance to them & the story so it felt more deeply that they truly moved WITH the narrative rather than beside it but I guess Im just picky. Thx for putting up w this! [Final]

(My response below the cut.)

Yeah, pretty much all of this is right.

Regarding the Tina thing, it was definitely rushed, especially since there was literally nothing romantic between them in the whole first movie, except maybe the end part where they're stumbling over their words. Despite knowing how movies work and knowing that they were the male and female lead, I still found that completely out of left field, because they don't really share any interests and I didn't feel like they felt anything in particular for each other before that. She really wants to be an auror and feels really intensely about it; he just wants to travel the world and write about magical creatures and take care of them. I don't see a lot of compatibility there, and the movie didn't really do anything to reconcile that gap.

Jacob and Queenie made sense, because they actually sowed some seeds for it. It's not even about the fact that they both like to cook; they showed an interest in each other throughout. They noticeably like each other. Newt and Tina never really had that, to me, so it was bizarre for her to become his primary motivation in the second movie.

Queenie's trajectory in movie 2 overall bothers me, so while I agree it would have been better if they'd centered it more around her, I definitely think they needed to drastically rewrite pretty much everything she did. Enchanting Jacob at the beginning never sat well with me; I usually only have to say this in the Descendants fandom, but if one half of the ship is magical and the other half isn't, we can't have the magical one enchanting the non-magical one for romantic reasons without addressing what a violation of trust that is. Like, Jacob would be justified for never trusting her again, over that. Also, the fact that she apparently holds it against people if they think bad things about her is not something I would expect from someone who has been a Legilimens as long as she has, and not a detail I like, at all. Especially since it was used to give her justification to be mad at Jacob after she enchanted him in the first place. I find it sad, because Queenie was definitely my favorite character in the first movie. (Also, joining Grindelwald was a nonsensical thing to do. I can only assume she's there to spy on him or something, because it makes literally no sense.)

As for Leta, I really don't like how that was approached. First of all, I don't like how their mention of her in the first movie was "She was a taker; you need a giver," because once we actually met the character, that only made me resent Queenie for representing her that way. Leta deserved better in pretty much every way, and they definitely shouldn't have killed her off like that. I find the whole situation really iffy from a racial standpoint. The first black character to be written three-dimensionally in all of HP lore, and they make sure to preemptively tell the audience that she's a "taker", kill her in the same movie we meet her, and manage to trivialize her death by turning it into a little "Who was she saying 'I love you' to?" mystery. I like her relationship with Newt and Theseus, and I'd definitely want to see more of it.

Yes, it definitely would have been better, thematically, if they'd made the love interest a Muggle. (I'd honestly say they should've paired Newt with Jacob, but I know they're unwilling to do that. That would be kind of cool, though, to see the movie shaping up with two male characters and two female characters and have the men end up with each other and the women just live their lives as humans.)

With the story they ended up telling, though, I don't think that is needed; since Queenie is already dealing with the wizard/Muggle storyline, Newt could have a different conflict. Maybe his love interest should be a werewolf or something, to tie in the wizarding world's unresolved dislike for "half-breeds". And if he were in a relationship with someone already regarded as a creature, the wider wizarding world might take a different view to his studies and look down on him a lot more. Idk, a thought.

And then, with Leta/Theseus and Grindelwald/Dumbledore (if they were willing to actually deal with that), they'd pretty much hit every controversial beat they've got: wizard/Muggle, wizard/"half-breed", interracial, homosexual. Credence and Nagini are both creatures, kind of, but I still like them together, so their relationship doesn't have to tie into any theme; it just has to be developed way more.

On the whole, Crimes of Grindelwald felt like they skipped a movie. It feels like they needed a middle installment to make these relationships happen, instead of jumping from "Do Newt and Tina maybe have feelings for each other?" to "Newt loves Tina and Tina is possessive enough of Newt to be outwardly upset with him when she thinks he's engaged to someone else," and creating a whole relationship between Credence and Nagini that we see none of.

The fact that Queenie and Jacob were done well in the first movie gives me a fair amount of goodwill for them, but that goodwill only offers enough cushioning from the botching that movie 2 did that I'm near-indifferent to the ship, now, instead of actively opposed. I'd like to see things improved, but as it currently stands, I'd be just as happy seeing them end up not together as together. The fact that Leta's relationships with Newt and Theseus were more interesting than any of the aforementioned makes it that much more ridiculous that they killed her. What ship am I supposed to care about how? If I can't go into the next movie delusionally hoping Newt and Leta will get some moments, or enjoying the Theseus and Leta content, then I'll just be sitting there waiting for Credence and Nagini to share a screen, and who knows when that'll happen?

[maschotch]

I might have liked later seasons if the focus had been on Tara Luke and Matt. I love the original team but they ran out of ideas for them and just brought back old stories.

i knowwwww and like.. some of the things they did with them was interesting?? but they didn’t follow through, and even if they did it wouldn’t be nearly enough. like.. the whole deal with tara’s brother.. they really just kidnapped and tortured him, had them reunite, and then never mentioned him again. would he be traumatized or smth??? wouldnt it be nice to see tara help him through that? or at least struggle w his recovery at all??? and they really just… completely ignored any emotions she may have ab that whole situation. you’d think we’d at least see her be more upset ab scratch anyway. 

i feel like they did that a lot particularly with tara? mention something for an episode then drop it entirely? like her ex-fiance… or even her ex-husband!! that one seemed so interesting and definitely added so many layers to her character!! but then they just ignore it?? its upsetting 

luke… they gave luke nothing lol. i was liking the old partner he was helping with physical therapy and getting him a dog and stuff.. that was sweet. but then they just killed him for no fucking reason?? and then luke got suspended/demoted for.. not… killing the guy who murdered his best friend? i’m just saying you have rossi, hotch, and idr how many other instances of team members revenge killing without any consequences. which i mean yeah its fucked up but its a cop show and it just feels weird that NOW is where they draw the line. especially when luke didn’t even do anything. especially when she praised him for choosing to let scratch die like last season or smth and they never mentioned what happened to his fucking dog

matt.. i cant even think of a story they did for matt kajsdhlgj he was just there. they did do the thing where his wife was in a hostage situation. it was cheesy and whatever, but on par for this kind of show (ok the whole “this isnt who you are” thing was ://///) . and i did appreciate that they addressed her trauma and how it was affecting their kids?? she was still weirdly chipper every time she talked about it “yeah :) i’m traumatized from that :D its making our son sad :)” like can she please express an emotion?? kristy definitely seemed like haley’s foil, too… the doting, patient wife who’s perfectly understanding of her husband’s job. maybe they delved a little more into that in beyond borders or whatever spin off he’s from, but just from what we see in the show it just seems very… shallow

we’ve given reid and jj enough fucking storylines. and both of the plots they had in the last five seasons were just unbearable (other than the one jj episode w the fire—that one was cool). spencer still not accepting that he cant “fix” his mom (again—unbelievably problematic jaskdhlgfjk), spencer’s prison arc (dont even wanna get into it), and all the new shit they added to jj’s sister’s suicide (bc well now that derek’s gone i guess we can just give his backstory to anyone else)... they were poorly conceptualized, poorly written, poorly executed, and dragged on for entirely too long. idk askdjhfglkj i dont wanna keep talking ab it or im just gonna keep getting annoyedjakhsldfjg

[rolypolydandy]

u hate mint chocolate? i'll kill you. unfollowed. unfriended. unalived. i'm so angry right now. how dare you. how could you. after 10 years of friendship and u treat mint chocolate this way? disguestn. i'm ashamed of you. god i'm so angry. why are you like this? next time i see you it's on sight. i cant believe youve done this. i'm fuming. imagine living your life and being like yeah mint choclate sucks. how is that a sin? youre a sin. how dare you. honestly i'm enranged. of all the things you could say. of all the thing you could think. i'm this close to hopping on a train and beating yo ass. i just cant believe this. unacceptable. there's not enough emotions in the human spectrum to describe how disappointed i am in you right now. the absolute nerve of it all. you think youre better than mint chocolate is that it? well guess what buster, you aint. mint choclate would take you on a beautiful date and treat you right and this is how you respond? sickening. i don't know who you are anymore. how can you even look yourself in the mirror? you hate mint chocolate? who are you? why are you? i'm betrayed. i need time. don't contact me for a while. i think we need space. i'm going dark. you should rethink your life. unbelievable. can't believe jesus died for our sins just for you to turn around and hate on mint choclate. jesus invented it you know? maybe? idk. okay thats a lie. i'm just so mad. upset even. i thought we had something special? the betrayal. the audacity of you. go walk into the ocean. oh i bet you'll like that wont you? no mint in the ocean? guess what! no chocolate either! yeah youve made your watery bed now go lay in it. mint chocolate bad? unbelievable. you wish you were mint chocolate. then you'd finally have friends. youve just lost this one pal! well no actually you do have a friend and that friend is mint chocolate because mint chocolate would stick by you no matter what crimes you'd commint commit because mint chocolate is better than you better than all of us. accept love into your heart. stop this hatred. hating mint chocolate is so performative. you think thats cool? well it's not. god i cant believe this. after everything mint chocolate did for you?! mint chocolate died for your sins. and this is the thanks you give it?! unbelievable. hope youre happy with yourself. god i need to go eat some mint chocolate to calm down but i dont have any because of people like you! literally crying in the club right now and not a mint club because i dont like club bars but i do like mint chocolate because i'm an normal respectful human person. how could you? i will be writting this formally and sending a signed copy to your house. i would send mint chocolate along with the letter but knowing you you'd murder it and taunt it's wife and 3 kids. you monster. hope you can live with yourself after all the mint blood on your hands. bet you try to wash away the green each night dont you? well you cant. your hands are stained green even though mint chocolate is brown because chocolate is brown, not that youd know because you hate mint chocolate for no reason at all omg jail jail for a thousand years

MINT CHOCOLATE IS A CRIME AGAINST THIS SPECIES I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. WHY DO YOU WANT THAT FLAVOUR COMBO????? IT IS MORALLY WRONG. TOOTHPASTE AND CHOcolate. No. Would you eat spaghetti Bolognese with AN TWIX??????? NO SO DON'T RUN YOUR MOUTH OK I AM RIGHT ABOUT THIs mint IS MINTY?? AND CHOCOLATE IS CHOCELTY?? that DOESN'T GO!!!! ITS NOT RIGHT. PLS SOMEONE AGREE IM LOSSING MY SHIT

[randombubblegum]

bout to go on a long rant , hope that’s okay lmao. it’s just unbelievable to me that awsten thinks this album is his best work. like obviously i haven’t heard it all yet but two of the singles so far are my least favorite parx songs ever , and i LOVE every song they’ve released (and ive listened to everything i think). his lyrics are so weak and it just seems like he’s so desperate to create a unique song for the band. and i wish it just didn’t seem like the band was basically all him , i love geoff and otto so much. like whenever geoff streams he’s so fun to talk to. and otto just exists and i love him for it !! and i want to say like , i have HUGE gender envy for awsten , like i am unhealthily jealous of him probably. like i admire him deeply. so it’s saying A LOT for me to be like “yeah idk what this man is doing , i understand people not liking him in ways”

well, its no use working yourself up over the album before it drops.... im also not over the moon about most of the music released so far but maybe the album will surprise us!! and be really good!!!!

i also rly like awsten and am kind of exasperated with how hes acting this album cycle but theres a certain amount of projection going on here....... like i try to be aware that what this dude in a band i like does isnt as world-altering as it feels in the moment when i have a strong reaction to it, yknow? awstens annoying and desperate online these days and thats upsetting to watch sometimes but itll be okay. really it will. we also dont know how much of that “this album is my best work” thing awstens doing is really what he thinks or just him trying to sell us on this music he wants us to buy and listen to. so its kind of hard to know what he ACTUALLY feels about what hes releasing.... i need to believe hes exaggerating and doesnt rly think this is the best stuff hes made or im worried for his taste lol

the album might be good the album might be really bad but regardless all the old parx music we love will still be there for us to listen to and discuss!! so its fine