#where I am in life atm because I literally lost all contact with everyone lmao

[asmallcafethatslove]

There is so much to unpack from this message I got from an online uni friend (whom I have never met and we just reconnected after ages of not talking)

[citialiin]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm. tagged by: @forseenclade thank you ! man i am so bad at doing memes.  tagging: @blossomingbeelzebug @zhrets @lupichorous @dansiere yayayayayayayaya

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated [ z/iggy stardust is DEFINITELY not my original character, but 683 is, and every single part of how i rp ziggy from his backstory to his personality was made up by me. that being said, ziggy is still a character that exists in media. ]

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO. [ im pretty sure ziggy is tied with the thin white duke as one of b*wie’s most famous fictional personas? ]

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES ? / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Are they underrated?  YES / NO / IDK. [ maybe a little overrated ]

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. [ celebrity rock god of limitless talent vs inevitable overrated washup. most celebrities are polarizing anyways ]

How strictly do you follow canon?  — there isnt much canon to go off of i think? the album barely even states if ziggy is an alien and b*wie himself got really wishy washy about it (sometimes saying z is a human who was contacted by aliens, he was an alien himself, etc). i dont think we know anything about him besides what he looks like (red hair / weird eyes / pale / “well hung” lmao) and he has a band called the spiders from mars, he plays the guitar left handed, he’s bisexual + androgynous, and he’s charming and popular with the teens but inevitably is a victim of his own ego. and he dies.  that too.  but that’s literally it! we know Nothing else about him.  so i filled in all the gaps because my brain has worms.  theres a little bit of the story that verges on fantasy (that he’s some sort of messiah messenger for “the infinites,” whatever the fuck THAT means, david) so i nix that because i prefer hard scifi.  and theres one BIG part that i just ... deleted out of his canon, in that the world is ending in 5 years in his timeline, and he’s like ... aware of this ?  but that’s dumb and confusing.  i legit dont care anymore. my OC now.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  im so embarrassed i know i could be genuine and actually try but i have brain blockajjolajlakala33lak33klak333ak3jka3akjj323j3 i guess it’s like ... ziggy is truly the ultimate expression OF humanity because he reveals everything both wrong and right about the human condition, he literally embodies the best of humanity and the worst at the same time, he’s a really interesting critique on the idea of genuineness/earnestness vs commercalism in art, the perils of fame, and also how humans are so inherently corrupting?  a lot of thematic stuff i like exploring is like what is innate to humans vs what is learned behavior, what are things that humans do naturally that ziggy mimics out of his desire to be like us?  i think he has a really good story arc -- he went from being a literal nameless CLONE in a society full of pragmatic forward thinking science-oriented people to a sell out rockstar celebrity in a society of people that value individualism and self expression and art, but in the process completely lost his mind and himself and gave into the worst that humanity has to offer like rampant selfishness, drug abuse, self destructive tendencies, etc. characters changing is always interesting and ziggy truly changes for the worse -- but he is never just black and white, he was never good and then suddenly evil, he just was always the same person putting on different facades and trying to be himself by constructing an identity that maybe was who he wanted to be versus who he actually is.  i dont know what im talking about. hes just an alien trying to be too hard to be human in all the wrong ways.   i just like how “gray” ziggy is. he isnt good or bad, he can be very nice and he can be very mean, he’s overtly showboating confident but at the same time deeply afflicted with self-consciousness (why tf else would anyone be So obsessed with how they present themselves?).  hes an icon of individualism but also commercialism.  he’s freakishly alien but is almost more human than humans themselves.  he struggles as lot in his head -- which makes for interesting writing, i guess !!  Im so emabrrased im not going to go back and read what i wrote so if i typoed dont look at me

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  —  i think ziggy comes across as really mean and nothing else.  his horrible bitchy rudeness comes across as hee hee hoo hoo sassy isnt he a rascal when it’s supposed to be more like ... he’s so far gone into the celebrity delusion he’s conflated aggressive rudeness with charmingness because no one told him otherwise and everyone worships him to the point where he’s just given into the delusion that he can do no wrong.  i think theres the general simplification problem that happens with a lot of fictional characters, it’s easy to see him as just a whacky sassy glittery quirky rockstar when i guess it avoids the inherent tragedy of like ... everything else about him. his totally fake and false sense of identity built up from superficial things like fame and labels and stardom.  maybe my version of ziggy is just too weirdly depressing and sad when i know his original iteration wasn’t quite so ... grim.  im not very sure tbh.  

What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  hmmm ... a lot of things! i just really got into b*wie stuff in early 2019, i’ve ALWAYS loved aliens and sci-fi, and i was really shocked that db sets up such great visual storytelling potential but does it through music.  i just really liked ziggys “story” and i like any chance to think about aliens so i just got invested into piecing together a little backstory for him using, like, the cumulative knowledge of literally every other piece of science fiction ive ever consumed in my life.  this was summer 2019 when i was making initial pitches for my thesis film, and so i just randomly decided to pitch “animated version of ziggy stardust” as one of the potential ideas.  shockingly everyone liked it a lot and so did my professor who thought it was really cool, and then i just ended up sticking with the character and working on him for an entire year.  ziggy became my hobby but also my homework.  he was such a fun character because everything about him was interesting to me and i had just enough source material to have a starting point but so much room to take him in any direction i wanted to.

What keeps your inspiration going?  —  honestly, yooooou guyssssss. i have some really amazing fwends that ive met thru here .... and some of our dumb stupid stories have literally become NOVEL length. it just self generates inspiration because you realize the limitless amount of stories you could tell with this one single character when your character enters his story or he enters their story and etc. etc.  ive drawn endless amounts of comics and stuff for him ... ziggy is just so endlessly interesting ...   cringe be cringed bro but recently (i know this sounds dumb bear with me or die.) ive kind of realized a lot of how i rp z comes as some metaphor for the experience of being an asian immigrant/being asian in the US -- his home “culture” is a lot stricter than the rampant selfish individualism of the usa (he only lives in the uk and usa, so he thinks the whole planet is like this), he’s dissuaded from standing out from his community and his selfishness becomes a community burden rather than a personal flaw, and when he does come to earth, he goes through such awful culture shock, literally nothing makes sense to him and everything is Different.  and while some things are different in a Nice way, something things are different in an Awful way, and he’s given the option between losing his true personal identity as an atominan and giving it up to be a human.  the allure of being a human is a little too much but losing yourself like this is traumatic, in a way.  obvs like ... a little silly and definitely not something that i actively intended to put into his story arc, its just something that fell into place cuz i guess i worked so closely with my own personal experiences and feelings of “alienation” (pun intended) to try to understand how he would feel being a literal alien an shid. its cathartic to write about him. but he also has a lot of my own personal interests just thrown in -- 70s fashion, scifi, science, tryhard implications about human nature, art history, whatever dumb nonsense i get into

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / SOMETIMES?

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO  [ i would prefer information to spring up organically in the story but cuz threads always get dropped i end up just telling people outright. i didnt want anyone to know his home planet/his old name but barely anyone writes enough with ziggy to get to that point to reveal it (i legit managed to do it organically Once) so i just had to write it in a post lmao orz ]

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO [ wrote a ton of drabbles ! drew a ton of comics! ]

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO 

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO / I DUNNO?

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / HAHA NO.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES  / NO. / IDK ? 

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  definitely!  like i said ... my version of ziggy ended up being the protag of my thesis film and for 1 yr straight his characterization, backstory, design, and even how i wanted to animate his fucking movements (ziggy stardust timing charts.) were beaten to death in a classroom environment, torn apart and rebuilt into something better.  had i stayed with what i originally wanted to go with, ziggy would be so different than how i write him 2day. amazingly my pre production professor is a literal two time emmy award winning storyboard artist and animator so he definitely helped me design him (my version of ziggy is meant for ... a cartoon, obviously, not real life) and give him a better backstory?  and my post production professor is a retired disney animator who worked on hercules and a bunch of old disney channel shows?  had i gone wah wah wah i dont want to hear ur critiques i wouldnt have made him better.  if you ever think ziggy seems inconsistent or poorly written ... tell me !! i literally major in ... animation. cartoons. entertainment.  my job is to entertain you. if you are not entertained, there is a problem.  ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED ????

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  —  I LOVE QUESTIONS? i love ... answering questions ... if you ask me something ill come kiss you.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  sure! i dont know why that would happen, though, because i mean ... he’s an OC. but i gues someone could be like “i feel like this is incongruous to things you’ve previously established in his character” or somethin

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  i feel like a lot of b*wie stans would find my version of ziggy weird but i mean thats fine!  i guess my goal is to have a well written character, not necessarily an accurate version of ziggy

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  —  if you hate MY version of ziggy thats fine but if u hate ziggy stardust in general (like the bowie concept) then u need some taste what the fuck is cooler than a egomaniac genderless bisexual rockstar alien with red hair? nothing. go back to watching your CW shows you dirty filthy normie

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  —  yes! dm me though. dont clown me on the dash like that.  i usually write your replies 12 AM - 4 AM so it’s expected.

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  hmmm ... maybe! i do like to talk to people and i am VERY nice, trust me, if youre ever sad ill do everything i can to make you feel better. but im quiet! i dont really reach out to people and i tend to just keep to myself.  im not very social or extroverted at all haha i barely can make ooc posts without feeling like god’s coming to beat my head in with a brick. im sitting here at 5:30 AM with this meme feeling like if i post it i will die (BUT I MUST)

[ratbone]

ALL of the questions

im putting a read more for this you heathen

Sunrise or sunset?  sunrise!!

Are you mentally ill? yea p much

Are you physically ill? think so

What is the most expensive thing you have bought? my pc!! fuk!!

Do you have a job? i do not. im gonna sound like a bum.

Are you in school? nope

Are you a dropout? nope

Are you in college? not for the moment

Introvert or extrovert? i think myself an introvert

What do you think when you look at your body? pls dont look at my body unless u want me to cry

What have others said when they look at your body? oh boy idk if u wanna know this one, let that suffice as an answer

Do you have a particular song that you feel deeply? yeah!! it changes sometimes, but atm its this song: pvris - seperate

Talk about a time in your life where you have felt most alive? i hope this doesnt sound cliche or anything but i honestly dont remember.

Are you confident wearing a bikini? hell no

Can you look people in the eyes while talking? sometimes

Has anything terrible happened to you? lmao yeah you bet

Has anything wonderful happened to you? my friends

Favorite part of your personality? ive been told im empathetic

Least favorite part of your personality? most of everything yeah

Favorite part of your body? eyelashes

Least favorite part of your body? all of it

Favorite quote? sure. “I aim to be lionhearted, but my hands still shake and my voice isn’t quite loud enough.”Michelle K., Earning Your Roar

Do you have friendships with all genders? hell yea

Do you have a good relationship with your father? i guess, im distant from most of my family though.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother? as good as it can be until she’s pissed off.

Do you have a good relationship with your siblings? nah, they hate me and keep trying to convince me im adopted.

Have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member? looks at parents.

Have you ever had a near death experience? ive almost drowned twice in my life time, when i was much younger.

Do you know anyone who has taken their own life? yeah, i do.

Have you ever tried to take your own life? no.

Biggest lie you have told? ill do better.

Do you follow any conspiracies? not really

Do you believe in a New World Order? eh?

Do you respect your government and the way your country is run? oh boy i have a lot of issues with this bullshit im not gonna dive into

Is there currently any strife in your country? a lot???

Have you ever been displaced within your country? ehhh

Are your friendships healthy? id like to hope so.

Are you currently fighting with a friend? no, i am not.

Are you jealous of a friend? Why? most friends, but its because they are happy, but its not like i dont want them to be or anything, i just wish i could be too.

Do you believe in the Illuminati? ahhhh!!!

Do you think any celebrities are associated with the Illuminati? Who? me. yes its me.

How can people tell you are nervous? Visibly tense, unable to make much eye contact, shaky voice, fidgeting my fingers.

How can people tell you are sad? i cry. lmao. or i distance myself for long periods without wanting to talk to people. but uh, i do this when i need to take a break from being social too.

Do you ever express your true feelings? no i shove them inside a paper bag and stomp all over them. i try to avoid most human emotions.

Regrets in your life? a lot, no joke.

Achievements in your life? i graduated highschool lmao.

What did people say about you in school? OHHH BBBBOY. i was weird or a freak, made up random shitty stories about me to a point where i just didnt talk to anybody my last year.

What did you say about people in school? i dont have anything to say about them. idk. fuck that school.

Is there something you have never told anyone? ya probably.

Have you committed an illegal act? my uncle let me puff a cig once when i was 5. i never did that again.

If you had two days to spend one million dollars how would you spend it? PAY OFF BILLS!!!! GET NEW THINGS!!!

What were your aspirations at age 5, 10, 15, 18? to answer all of them: to be a dragon. k? ok.

Describe your first kiss? Was it how you imagined? it was gross, and no it was not.

Growing up were you in a wealthy, average, or low income household? i think my family started out with low average but once dad lost his job we became low income, etc.

Are you from a broken marriage? my parents are still together

Have you been raised by a solo parent? no

Do you know both your parents? yes

What colour eyes, hair and skin do you have? blue eyes, brown hair, vampire skin

Have you abused drugs or alcohol? no i have not.

What languages can you speak? english. AND VERY POORLY: german, spanish. idk if i can really count those yet.

Do you conform to your societies standards? i gotta if i wanna stay alive i guess

Do you cry often? a lot, actually.

Do you tell people what you think of them? yeah, i certainly try to let people know how i feel.

Are you comfortable accepting compliments? no, i have a very poor self image and im used to thinking the worst about myself.

Are you comfortable giving compliments? yes!!! i try to give my friends compliments

Is any mental illness hindering your life? depression. could be more, but im not sure in all honesty.

Is any physical illness hindering your life? i need to see a doctor lmao

Do you keep up with current events? not really, i kinda drift along time and space and hope for the best.

What’s the latest news in the world you have heard/read? the hurricanes and the fires, flooding in other countries, and the possibility the bees are making a comeback.

What have you done today? I ATE, SLEPT, AND SAT AT THIS COMPUTER. i am totally productive.

Do you sleep well? lmao no

Do you sleep badly? yes

Have you ever hurt anyone because you were hurting? i think that depends on the situation. i can lash out at people sometimes if i felt they’ve really struck a low cord with me, but you really have to be trying tbh.

Has anyone ever hurt you because they were hurting? god, probably, i dont remember. i guess my mom counts. she takes out her emotions on everyone.

Have you ever had to end a friendship/relationship? Why? yeah. idk for various reasons? like it didnt work out, there wasnt really anything there, or i was too boring, we stopped talking, we kept arguing, or i just didnt feel strongly towards them anymore and vice versa.

Have you ever stopped someone from hurting themselves? ive tried.

Has anyone ever stopped you from hurting yourself? they’ve tried.

Do you like your laugh? its a pretty random laugh, but its ok i guess.

Are you preparing for an apocalypse? And what kind? no. but im waiting for nuclear winter.

Do you have any funny family stories? most of them are my dad going into a store and making cat noises, so people end up looking in the vents and shit.

Are you religious? no

Do you like to watch true crime shows or movies? not really

Are you interested in cults? no thnx

Would you like to raise a family in your country? uhhhh i dont wanna have to raise any child ever. and idc about the location where i try to be happy at.

List some things you wanted in your childhood but never got? to be a dragon. seriously isnt that fucked up??? realism is fucking rude.

Is there a large age gap between you and a sibling? im 24 while most of my siblings are well along into their 40s, so yea.

Are you from a blended family? no

Do you believe in marriage? Why/Why not? idc. get married or dont it really doesnt make a difference to me.

What is the nicest thing anyone has said to you? literally any little compliment.

Do you keep a journal? nah, i dont write down shit at all.

Would anyone be hurt by reading it? if i wrote things down in it? probably.

Do you have children? HELL NAH

Have you been pregnant? FUK NAH

List your favorite movies? Lord of the Rings, Interstellar, Arrival, The Fountain, and most Disney movies.

List your favorite people? MY FRIENDS.

Talk about the birthmarks and scars on your body? my biggest scar is no more, i got it when i was 11 from falling off a tree i was climbing, but its near impossible to see now. ive got stretch marks.

Do you look after yourself? lmao no tbh

Do you put yourself or others first? i always try to do things for everyone else.

Are you happy today? im alright.

Are you loved? i try to tell myself that i am. it keeps me going.

[yeoldontknow]

Get To Know Me Tag

tagged by true queens @baebae-goodnight and @jeons-jalebi

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (lord idk if i can lmao)

also this shit long af so adding a cut

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone Call: i facetimed my parents...does that count

3. Text Message: my housemate

4. Song you listened to: dive - tiffany gouché

5. Time you cried: like a few days ago over a picture of chanyeol looking healthy do not judge me

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: never 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: yea

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i dont let myself get to that point but i have blacked out idk my body is made of iron

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. chartreuse

13. cerulean 

14. royal purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: YAS

16. Fallen out of love: no

17. Laughed until you cried: YES like on friday lmao

18. Found out someone was talking about you: im sure they have but ive not been privy to the info

19. Met someone who changed you: im 100% sure of this

20. Found out who your friends are: i lived through that drama a long time ago 21. Kissed someone on your facebook list: yeah

GENERAL:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i wanna say all of them because i dont add people if ive never met them

23. Do you have any pets: three BEAUTIFUL KITTIES

24. Do you want to change your name: the spelling used to annoy me but im good now

25. What did you do for your last birthday: my friends took me to this spot in chelsea for a full english dinner and then we went for evening tea and to a british food market and i wailed for 8 hours straight about how nice everything was

26. What time did you wake up: 9.30

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was researching the history of glassblowing while crying at @kpopfanfictrash and @the-porcelain-doll-xo about something probably my emotions about hoseok/chanyeol/their writing/or general crying idk i been weak for a while lmao

28. Name something you can not wait for: SEPTEMBER. 15. IS. COMING.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: aw like months ago *sobs* but shes coming down this weekend!

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i would love to have PCY in my bed because he already lives in my heart...or like idk a literal ton of money. tbh id like the money pls

31. What are you listening to right now: speculate - xavier omar

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes! my uncle!

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: passive aggression 

34. Most visited website: probs tumblr

35. Mole/s: one on my hand

36. Mark/s: like...scars? one on my leg from knee to near foot; one on my ankle; one on my left shoulder

37. Childhood dream: being a mermaid

38. Hair color: chestnut brown (it looks black in the winter and auburn in the summer)

39. Long or short hair: long atm and i cannot wait to get this cut

40. Do you have a crush on someone: excuse me i am in a very serious relationship with pcy lmao nah atm im good 

41. What do you like about yourself: im honest and loyal to a fault

42. Piercings: none

43. Blood type: O-

44. Nickname: kat

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac: aquarius

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite tv show: black mirror

49. Tattoos: none yet!

50. Right or left handed: i write with my right but i do A LOT of things with my left

51. Surgery: none

52. Piercing: didnt....this...already happen?

53. Sport: is this fave or ones ive done? i played tennis in high school and did equestrian for like 9 years

54. Vacation: i would love one thank you, put me at the sea side please

55. Pair of trainers: adidas

MORE GENERAL:

56. Eating: currently nothing but for dinner i made roasted chicken, couscous, and sautéed broccoli 

57. Drinking: water

58. I’m about to go: to sleep

59. Waiting for: my alarm to get me up for work

60. Want: all the cash

61. Get married: hopefully someday

62. Career: ideally: music supervision; currently: music licensing

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. Hugs or kisses: hugs

64. Lips or eyes: eyes

65. Shorter or taller: taller tho im way short so this is easy

66. Older or younger: younger only if their maturity level is crazy high

67. Nice arms or nice stomach: THAT FOREARM MUSCLE GETS ME EVERY TIME

68. Hookup or relationship: honestly either or they both have merits

69. Troublemaker or hesitant: this is situational and dependent on so many factors

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. Kissed a stranger: ye

71. Drank hard liquor: lmao do you know me??

72. Lost glasses/contact lenses: not so much lost as there was a time when i was 9 when i was breaking my glasses like every other week

73. Turned someone down: yeah

74: Sex on the first date: lmao

75. Broken someone’s heart: yes

76. Had your heart broken: absolutely

77. Been arrested: nope

78: Cried when someone died: yes

79. Fallen for a friend: *long heavy sigh* yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. Yourself: you know how proud i am to say yes? took my ass so long to get here

81: Miracles: sure do mate

82. Love at first sight: no

83. Santa Claus: my family didnt let us believe in any of this because they didnt want to deal with the trauma later lmao

84. Kiss on the first date: hell yea if theres chemistry KISS THEM LIPS

85. Angels: yeah but not in the standard definition 

LOL WHERE ARE  86-89???? im cackling

OTHER:

90. Current best friend’s name: i got a few mate but the key ones are grace and 

91: Eye color: brown

92: Favorite movie: brief encounter

tagging: man im 90% sure everyone i know has been tagged at least twice in this so if you see this and want to do it, DO IT and act like i tagged you <3

[thequantumqueer]

I was tagged by @batpositivity

Rules: Answer some shit and tag people maybe

THE LAST:

1. Drink: milk 2. Phone call: uhhh my mom probably idk 3. Text message: @thenonbinaryspacegem 4. Song you listened to: idk it was awhile ago. the Neon Jungle cover of Take Me to Church i think? 5. Time you cried: this past saturday afternoon, thinking about CMH

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: yes 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: absofuckinglutely 10. Been depressed: this implies the past tense so no lmao 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: hoo boy yes

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: purple, lavender, forest green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: nope :D 17. Laughed until you cried: probably 18. Found out someone was talking about you: i don’t matter enough for people to talk about me lmao 19. Met someone who changed you: idk. im really bad at keeping track of when i meet people 20. Found out who your friends are: a combination of a relatively low-stress year and already mostly knowing who i can count on makes this a no 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: well my husband is on there so...

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: no idea i dont use my facebook enough to even know who all is on there 23. Do you have any pets: sort of. @selkieblues has a dog and im moving in with her 24. Do you want to change your name: i already changed it. now it’s a question of making the paperwork happen to give the change legal weight 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i don’t remember and i don’t think that’s because of alcohol i think it’s just my shitty brain 26. What time did you wake up: like 15 minutes ago so like. 1:30am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sitting off in the corner at a kink party, talking about the intricacies of consent and taboo  28. Name something you can’t wait for: the sweet release of death  29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like a week and a half ago, but the time before that was almost 4 years ago so dont get the wrong impression 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life? it would be nice to be healthy i think. idk im not sure i quite understand what that’d be like 31. What are you listening right now: the sound of the air conditioner and staticky radio signals that the speakers are picking up 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my nerves lmao 34. Most visited Website: tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: lots, including 3 on my arm that form orion’s belt 36. Mark/s: freckles everywhere, parallel scars on the back of my left arm, a nasty scar on my right inner forearm, a scar on my right shin 37. Childhood dream: to be an astronaut 38. Haircolor: brown 39. Long or short hair: longish 40. Do you have a crush on someone: i am deeply and irrevocably in love with my husband. i also have a longstanding crush on at least one mutual 41. What do you like about yourself: im a talented writer (yes i mean talent, not skill. ive barely developed that shit at all) and a loyal friend 42. Piercings: industrial in my left ear, daith in my right, and my lobes are 1/2″ 43. Bloodtype: red, usually 44. Nickname: Quantum 45. Relationship status: married and polya 46. Zodiac: libra AND capricorn 47. Pronouns: xe/xem, but anything works 48. Favorite TV Show: dont have one atm 49. Tattoos: a potato above my right ankle, a dr seuss hat on my upper left back, and a black line around my wedding finger 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: one as an infant, and 6 teeth removed, including wisdom 52. Hair dyed in different color: i had it black once and liked that. i eventually want it purple long-term 53. Sport: no 55. Vacation: there are SO MANY PEOPLE i want to visit 56. Pair of trainers: i am a Clunky Boots Gay™ because ankle support

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nothing but i probably should get something 58. Drinking: ditto the eating 59. I’m about to: do something probably? idk its 2am 61. Waiting for: the 15th, when i’ll finally be moving 62. Want: to see my husband 63. Get married: been there, done that, quite literally got the tshirt 64. Career: i want to support myself with my chain maille

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: doesn’t matter as long as there are concurrent cuddles 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: shorter is good but i have no basis for comparison 68. Older or younger: ive literally never been with someone older than me 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: wtf even is a “nice stomach” all stomachs are weird and gross regardless of size do you realize that’s where your body makes poop like what the fuck nice arms are so much better 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: ¿por qué no las dos? 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: i will hesitate enough for the both of us

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: yes 75. Drank hard liquor: yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes 77. Turned someone down: yes 78. Sex on the first date: yes 79. Broken someone’s heart: yes 80. Had your heart broken: yes 81. Been arrested: yes 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: yes

(fuck ive never said yes to literally all of them before holy shit)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: no 85. Miracles: i believe in confirmation bias and the law of large numbers 86. Love at first sight: no 87. Santa Claus: yes (my religious philosophy is super cool ask me about it) 88. Kiss in the first date: yes 89. Angels: see “Santa Claus”

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Abby “@greenreticule“ [REDACTED] 91. Eye color: hazel 92. Favorite movie: my top 3 in no particular order are Wonder Woman, The Book of Life, and Wreck-It Ralph

ima tag @jcurnalism @sarcastic-clapping @eyeb0t @hopeandhandler @crpl-pnk @sailorsanghelios and everyone i tagged higher up in the post

and then ima be salty that it wont let me tag @qjusttheletter aka “the husband i keep talking about”

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tagged by @craycraycupcake thanks hun

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. (jungkook voice: YOU MUH BE KIDDIN’ ME) (Imma leave this because I feel it)

THE LAST: 1. Drink: pineapple + coconut juice 2. Phone call: my mom lol 3. Text message: my bff @leafabulous 4. Song you listened to: Conan Gray – I Know a Place 5. Time you cried: yesterday bc I have anger issues 👌

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: nu 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: kinda but if I had the chance I would do it again 8. Been cheated on: nu 9. Lost someone special: they weren’t as special as I thought 10. Been depressed: ye :( 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t drink that much

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: black, blue-gray, gold (my aesthetic tbh)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: nop :/  16. Fallen out of love: nop 17. Laughed until you cried: yes? I guess? My memory isn’t the best 18. Found out someone was talking about you: nop 19. Met someone who changed you: I don’t think so 20. Found out who your friends are: I mean I literally have one (1) friend so it wouldn’t make much sense 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes? no? does my bf of 3 years count

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: why so many facebook-related questions? I don’t even use it lmao 23. Do you have any pets: I wish :( 24. Do you want to change your name: I don’t like my name and it doesn’t fit my gender but whatevs I won’t change it… I like using different nicknames tho 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: went shopping with my bff and had dinner out with my family + bf 26. What time did you wake up: 9:30ish 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: dreamin’ gurl, I be snoring by 11pm 28. Name something you can’t wait for: the end of finals/exams (last year before going to uni wo-hoo)  29. When was the last time you saw your mom: last night 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: being more open to ppl in general 31. What are you listening right now: this playlist 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: a classmate of mine (lmao what kind of question is that) 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my dad (hate u fucken chickpea) 34. Most visited Website: YouTube

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: smol ones 36. Mark/s: on my scalp, on my right arm and on my left foot and they are adorable 37. Childhood dream: becoming a doc 38. Haircolor: brown (I like to think of it as dark chocolate-coloured) 39. Long or short hair: veh short 40. Do you have a crush on someone: I’m in a relationship :> 41. What do you like about yourself: I like how firm I am in my beliefs (that could be seen as stubbornness but eh) 42. Piercings: just earrings  43. Bloodtype: pear I think 44. Nickname: Nia for my bff and Ste for everyone else 45. Relationship status: 3-year relationship 46. Zodiac: taurus 47. Pronouns: she/her but they/them would be cool (we don’t have it in Italian ugh) 48. Favorite TV Show: Orange is the New Black 49. Tattoos: nu, not my thing 50. Right or left hand: right-handed 51. Surgery: idk if a biopsy counts as a surgery 52. Hair dyed in different color: ne 53. Sport: ughh played many, stuck to none 55. Vacation: yes? 56. Pair of trainers: lol idk

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: (what am I supposed to answer loll) 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: eat pizza 61. Waiting for: inspiration 62. Want: validation 63. Get married: y not 64. Career: atm I’m a student on my way to becoming a doc

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: what about cuddles 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 68. Older or younger: I don’t really care but my bf is younger 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: rel  73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant bc ain’t nobody got time for that

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: r u crazy 75. Drank hard liquor: not my thing 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nu 77. Turned someone down: nu? 78. Sex in the first date: nu 79. Broken someone’s heart: maybe  80. Had your heart broken: ehhhhhh I was so young I think it doesn’t even count 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes (I cry all the time for any reason) 83. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: yAs 85. Miracles: no 86. Love at first sight: not really 87. Santa Claus: I’m the real Santa 88. Kiss on the first date: is it something to believe in? lol dating is not a thing where I live 89. Angels: not even in a higher entity if that’s where you want to go

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Elisa  91. Eyecolor: brown 92. Favorite movie: the whole Harry Potter saga 

tagging: @leafabulous and no1 else cuz i have no frenz

[dreamyblossoms]

Tagged by the lovely RegClar trash @moonraccoon-exe, thank you buddy! <3

THE LAST: 1. Drink: Water~ 2. Phone call: One of my friends that lives near where I do atm :) 3. Text message: My sister, who was getting advice for her first college orientation (the bean is growing up so fast OMG T^T) 4. Song you listened to: ‘Boys and Girls’ by Will.i.am and Pia Mia (I’m pop trash kill me) 5. Time you cried: Ahhh... Episode Prompto T_T

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: HAHAHAHAHAH no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Ahhh... no 8. Been cheated on: Nope not really 9. Lost someone special: Well... my grandparents on my mom’s side :,( 10. Been depressed: Heh yeah, still fighting that one tbh 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Nope

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: Black, navy/royal blue, gold, purple, jewel tone green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yes :3 16. Fallen out of love: Nope 17. Laughed until you cried: Hell yeah, best feeling ever :) 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Unfortunately yes :( 19. Met someone who changed you: Oh yes, more than one person too :,) 20. Found out who your friends are: Yes 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Nope

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Pretty much everyone 23. Do you have any pets: I wish ;_;

24. Do you want to change your name: I’ve grown to embrace my name, so no :) 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Had dinner with family and friends like I always did on my birthday 26. What time did you wake up: 6:40 AM LOL (I was restless RIP) 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: scrolling through Tumblr and finishing homework 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Raising enough money to get a new car 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: She literally just left my apartment LMAO 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: The control my mom has over me (I’m 21 and my mom still looks over my grades :/) 31. What are you listening right now: nothing, just the world outside my open window :) 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: My professor’s name is Tom so yes I have LOL 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my mom’s attitude about me getting married and my life choices 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: Nope 36. Mark/s: I can’t tell if they’re freckles or moles but I have one freckle on my face and several on my chest and neck that I play connect the dots with when I’m bored 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a street artist or an actress (I’m not pretty enough for the second one unfortunately LOL) 38. Haircolor: Officially it’s black, but it’s actually a dark brown with red undertones 39. Long or short hair: I recently cut it short :3 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Nope  41. What do you like about yourself: Uhhh... I like my stubbornness :) 43. Bloodtype: B+ (idk if it’s right though tbh) 44. Nickname: I don’t really have one, but Moon calls me Dreamy and I like it <3 45. Relationship status: single and happy~ 46. Zodiac: Sagittarius 47. Pronouns: Mainly she, not really bothered though 48. Favorite TV Show: Ughhhh I don’t watch enough TV to know, but the only one that I used to watch with my siblings religiously was Avatar

49. Tattoos: I wish :,) 50. Right or left hand: Right handed 51. Surgery: ear canal 52. Hair dyed in different color: Nope 53. Sport: Well I don’t play any right now but I like to swim and run  55. Vacation: Haven’t gone on a vacation in a while, at least not out of state anyway. All of my ‘vacations’ were just me visiting family 56. Pair of trainers: What are those? D:

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: Nothing atm 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: cry at the fact that there is no question 60

61. Waiting for: A makeup subscription box to arrive :,(

62. Want: free stuff ;____; 63. Get married: if I can get married to my future cat yes 64. Career: dude I’m still in college and I just switched majors what do you mean LMAO

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: Neither 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: Doesn’t matter because I’m a midget anyway 68. Older or younger: No preference 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: No preference 71. Sensitive or loud: A bit of both is good 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant but with a bit of an adventurous streak like me :)

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: no 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Yes 77. Turned someone down: No 78. Sex on the first date: Nope 79. Broken someone’s heart: Umm... probably by accident? 80. Had your heart broken: Multiple times  81. Been arrested: No and I’m not about to be 82. Cried when someone died: Of course >:( 83. Fallen for a friend: Not that I can recall... I don’t think I could do that to myself though

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: I would like to say HELL YES but I know in my heart that I can fluctuate between between crippling self doubt and soaring confidence on a whim. But I’m getting there  85. Miracles: Not really  86. Love at first sight: ... unless it’s a cat

87. Santa Claus: Nope 88. Kiss on the first date: No...

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: Katelin <3 91. Eyecolor: brown 92. Favorite movie: Umm... Penelope (first movie that made my heart go doki doki :,))

I tag @hardcore-soft-popcorn and anyone else who would like to do it, tag me so I can see :3