#why am i NOT surprised almost all negative traits are applicable...
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conoscenze · 7 years ago
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BOLD ALL THAT APPLIES TO YOUR MUSE // feel free to add more!
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eyes:  blue (sometimes wears contacts) | green | brown | hazel | black | grey | red | other | golden & grey | gold & brown-black
hair:   blonde | brown | black | red | ginger | grey / white | multi-color | other
body type:  skinny | slender | slim | built | curvy | athletic | muscular
skin:   pale | light | fair | freckled | tan | olive | medium | dark | discolored | scarred
gender:   male | female | trans | cis | no gender | agender | demiboy | demigirl | other
sexuality:  heterosexual | homosexual | bisexual | pansexual | asexual | demisexual | other
orientation:  heteroromantic | homoromantic | biromantic | panromantic | aromantic | demiromantic | other
species:   human | undead / vampire | shapeshifter | demon | angel | witch / wizard / sorcerer | incubus / succubus | other
education:  high school  | college | university | higher education | other | no formal education
living situation: lives alone | lives with parents / guardian | lives with significant other | lives with a friend | lives with siblings | drifter | dorming | homeless
parents / guardian:  mom | aunt | dad | adoptive | foster | grandparents | family friend | orphan | abandoned
relationship:  single | crushing | dating | engaged | married | separated | it’s complicated
i’ve been:  in love | hurt | sick | abused | killed
i have a(n):  learning disorder | personality disorder | mental disorder | anxiety disorder | eating disorder | substance-related disorder | not diagnosed | n / a
things i’ve done before:  drank alcohol | smoked | done drugs | stolen | self-harmed | starved myself | been starved | had sex | had a threesome | gotten into a fist fight | gone to the hospital | been arrested | gone to jail | used a fake id | gone to a rave | killed someone
positive traits:  affectionate | adventurous | athletic | brave | careful | charming | confident | creative | determined | fearless | generous | honest | humorous | intelligent | loyal | modest  | patient | selfless
negative traits:  aggressive | bossy | cynical | envious | fearful | greedy | gullible | jealous | impatient | impulsive | insecure | irresponsible | possessive | sarcastic | self-conscious | selfish | unstable
tagged by:  @slaughter-angel​ (thank youuuu!) tagging:  @duskfloret, @wholehcartedly, @hyacinthsgirl, @votvm (no pressure, only if you want!)
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what-if-rpg · 4 years ago
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Welcome to the family, KATT! Your application for FRANNIE FABRAY was accepted, as well as the changes. I am really happy to give you your third, and last character! Make sure to read the beginners checklist, and remember, have fun! I can’t wait to roleplay with you! Have fun!
IN CHARACTER
CHARACTER NAME: Francine “Frannie” Grace Fabray CHARACTER AGE & DATE OF BIRTH: 38 & January 4th OCCUPATION: Lawyer FACE CLAIM: AJ Cook HOMETOWN & CITY WHERE LIVES NOW: Lima, Ohio & New York, NY SEXUAL ORIENTATION & GENDER: (Closeted) Lesbian & Cis-Female RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single POSITIVE TRAITS: hardworking , benevolent , adaptive NEGATIVE TRAITS: distant , argumentative , sarcastic CHARACTER QUOTE/LYRIC: “I think almost everyone tries hard to be good and just finds out too late they should have tried softer.“
HEADCANONS
Frannie Fabray was always her parents’ so-called “golden” child. She was the bar upon which her younger sister was measured. Smart, well rounded, the kind of child that never put up too much fuss and did as she was told with ease. An athlete and a scholar, it seemed that whatever she tried, she did well. It was all surface level, however, but she never let it show. Frannie skipped a grade early in her schooling and nearly skipped a second grade going into high school, but chose not to. Either way, she was the head cheerleader, a soccer star, debate team captain, and excelled in every aspect of school and life that she tried, except for relationships. In fact, she seemed completely disinterested in boys and relationships. She was a devout Christian and claimed that she saw no reason in letting boys even begin to be a temptation.
After graduating high school, Frannie left home for college, eventually getting into Harvard’s law school. She did her best to keep up with her family, but her schooling was always her first priority. In fact, the longer she was at college, the less she heard from her family and the less she went home. She was working on her own well being and destroying the parts of herself that her parents had built up.
While in law school, Frannie had a mental breakdown. She’d been struggling massively with everything and it led to her nearly ending up in a psychiatric hospital. She was diagnosed with ADHD and started therapy to help deal with it, as well as the anxiety, depression, and other issues that came up because of it. She also began to get help for an eating disorder that had been plaguing her since her early childhood. It did wonders for her and she managed to pull through her law degree with flying colors.
When it was discovered that her father had cheated, Frannie wasn’t at all surprised. What she was surprised by was her mother actually bothering to divorce him. It was during a conversation with her mother, about Russell, that Frannie learned that Quinn had gotten pregnant and subsequently kicked from the family home, but that Judy had since welcomed her back into the home. It was one of the last conversations Frannie had with her mother for a number of years, angry that the older woman had even let it happen in the first place. She may not have really known her younger sister, but the idea of her parents kicking the girl out for a simple mistake, one that the lack of sex ed and general taboo nature of sex had certainly helped cause.
While Frannie was gaining work experience in the District Attorney’s office, and working on a secondary degree in criminal justice, she met a man by the name of Elijah Griffin. He was the first man she’d ever been remotely interested in, in a romantic way, and they dated for a few years before he proposed and she said yes. They were engaged for nearly five years before they actually decided upon a courthouse wedding. Their relationship was, like much in Frannie’s life, very surface level. They went on dates, held hands, but even after they married they often slept in separate beds in the home they shared. In fact, their first time, and of of their only times, having sex didn’t come until they’d been married for 3 years. They were hoping it would spark something between them, but all it really resulted in was Frannie getting pregnant and later giving birth to their son, Alexander.
It took about a year after Alexander was born before they both decided to try and experiment with their sexuality, given neither had ever had much interest in the opposite sex and their own relationship seemed to be built on trying to conform to heteronormative expectations of parents with dreams of perfect children. The pair entered what was, essentially, a polyamorous relationship, using it as a cover for what they were really doing. About a year later, they both came to the realization that they were gay and agreed to divorce in order to pursue relationships that could actually be beneficial to them both. Frannie got full custody of Alexander, with a promise that he could spend summers with Elijah, and that Elijah was free to visit and have him when he wanted, within reason. Unlike Elijah, Frannie chose to remain in the closet, needing extra time to come to terms with what it meant for her. Being gay had never been in her plans. The plans she’d made so carefully and remade every few years to better fit her ambition.
Around the time Elijah and Frannie opened their relationship, Frannie learned from her mother that Russell hadn’t just cheated, he’d had an entire separate family. With everything going on in her own life, Frannie did nothing with the information provided to her, but did allow for her information to be given to any of her half-siblings looking to connect. When Juliette made contact, Frannie wasn’t sure what to do, but she did her best to be kind and to connect with the younger woman. It, somewhat unfortunately, poked at old wounds Frannie had involving Quinn and the regrets of never having reached out, now that both were adults. It was in learning that both Quinn and Juliette were in New York that Frannie’s plans for her own law firm changed. She had originally planned to open it in Boston, but with her divorce finalized and Elijah’s blessing, she set her sights on New York, instead. As of Frannie’s 38th birthday, she’d moved to New York, successfully started her own firm, and landed her first major case.
CONNECTIONS
Judy Fabray (Mother): Frannie’s relationship with her mother was always one based on her looks and her place in society. It was never something she held close and in time, much like her relationship with her father, began to fall apart. The only time she has spoken to her mother in recent years was when Judy told her about Russell’s other family. Russell Fabray (Father): Frannie’s relationship with her father was one based somewhat entirely on her  being perfect. A fragile thing that she slowly learned wasn’t healthy for her and is, in part, why she became more and more distant from her family the longer she was away from home. It almost came as no surprise to Frannie that her father was a cheater and had an entirely separate family. Quinn Fabray (Sister): Frannie and Quinn never really got on. Between the age difference and Frannie being the bar against Quinn was measured, no real relationship was capable of forming and by the time Frannie had completely distanced herself from their parents, any hope of a relationship between them disappeared. Frannie has considered reaching out to Quinn, but still hasn’t done so. Avery & Daniel Fabray (Half-Siblings): Frannie hasn’t actually met them but has no ill will towards them, if anything, she feels bad for them, also having Russell as a father. Juliette Fabray (Half-Sister): When Juliette reached out to Frannie, the older woman did her best to return it in kind. To be open to the possibility of forming some sort of relationship. It’s a work in progress, with neither really opening up too much, but it’s more of a relationship than Frannie has with any of her other family. Elijah Griffin (Ex-Husband): Elijah and Frannie were together for a number of years. He was the only man she ever really held any possible romantic interest in, or so she believed, so she clung to that for as long as she could. A number of years after they were married, they both realized that there was a possibility they weren’t attracted to each other. They both ended up finding out they were gay and when Elijah was ready to come out, they divorced. He is still the only person who knows, for sure, that she’s a lesbian. Alexander Fabray-Griffin (Son): Alexander is the only person Frannie would ever give up her career for. He is her entire world and as much as she hates that he was born into a family that ultimately couldn’t stay together, she doesn’t regret having him. He is the best parts of both her and Elijah and all she really hopes is that she raises him in such a way that he never has to do the kind of recovering from his childhood the way she did.
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dishonoredrpg · 5 years ago
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Congratulations, ALLI! You’ve been accepted for the role of SEVEN OF SWORDS with the faceclaim of CILLIAN MURPHY. Canis is certainly a fucking concept, whom I adore to no end. He’s got a tenacious and willful sort of attitude about him, the kind of incredulous charm and wit that lends itself to an air of villainy and danger, and I think that he fits into the Seven of Swords like one fits into a well-made boot or glove. In spite of remaining leashed like a dog, he’s got no small amount of fire in him, and I’m eager to see what (or who!) he sinks his teeth into during gameplay. You’ve brought me a real gift, dropped it on my doorstep, and I am grateful.
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— APPLICATION
OOC
NAME:    alli PRONOUNS:    she / her AGE:    twenty - one TIMEZONE, ACTIVITY LEVEL:    cst /  i  am  currently  on  summer  break  and  have  the  ability  to  be  really  active ,  but  sometimes  things  do  come  up !  i  definitely  have  plenty  of  time  to  be  on  the  dash  with  several  posts  within  activity  limit  and  when  my  muse  is  high  ( i’ll  be  honest  i’m  a  hoe  for  high  fantasy )  my  activity  is  also  super  up ! ANYTHING ELSE?:    what’s the mead sis…….. the wenches are squabbling …….
IN CHARACTER
SKELETON:    seven  of  swords NAME:   efferus  aubenet   /   “canis”  &  “the  dog”   efferus  -  of  latin  meaning ,  “wild ,  savage ,  cruel ,  barbarous” .  a  name  canis  has  long  since  abandoned ,  preferring  even  the  subtle  jab  of  “the  dog”  given  to  him  by  opponents  of  his  crew  and  the  highborn  that  look  down  on  him .  he  finds  it  just  about  as  cutting  as  a  bread knife .  no  one  except  those  closest  to  him  ( ie .  the  pack )  even  know  this  name  exists . canis  -  latin  for  “ dog ” ,  though also  the  scientific  genus  for  all  canines ,  including  wolves  and  coyotes .  meant  to  symbolize  canis  as   the  leader  of  his  pack  of  wild  dogs ,  and  a  sign  of  respect ,  a  nickname  earned  on  the  streets  and  not  given  to  him  in  tyrholm . the  dog  -  a  nickname  received  while  working  under  king  septimus ,  by  those  that  see  the  second  fangs  as  dirty ,  unruly ,  savages .  also  by  revolters  who  see canis  as  a  dog  blindly  following  the  orders  of  a  tyrannical  king.  in  any  case ,  he  still  prefers  this  to  efferus .  sometimes  he  even  barks  in  response . FACECLAIM:    cillian  murphy ,  michiel  huisman   ( he / him  pronouns ,  cis  male ) AGE:    thirty - nine  ,  born  on  the  twenty - seventh  day  of  the  twelfth  month
DETAILS:   i  always  find  myself  drawn  to  underdog  characters ,  muses  that  have  overcome  more  than  most  others  could  even  imagine  to  find  themselves  in  their  present  position .  i  believe  there  is  so  much  depth  to  backgrounds  like  canis’s .  no family  so  he  created  his  own ,  nothing  to  his  name  so  he  created  his  own  legacy .  a  moral  compass that  tries  it’s  best  to  always  point  north .  that  fails ,  because  the  muse  is  so  painfully  human .  the  irony  of  a  sellsword  who  wants  more  for  himself ?  incredible .  when  i  was  skimming  the  skeletons ,  it  was  his  that  startled  practically  writing  itself ,  this  street  urchin  turned  warrior  figure ,  so  i  spent  a  lot  of  time  picking  apart  the  biography  until  i  was  left  with  canis . i  did  a  bit  of  research  on  the  seventh  of  swords  tarot  card ,  but  let  me  tell  you  ..  i  was  so  pleasantly  surprised  and  intrigued  when  i  did .  on  one  hand ,  when  upright ,  seven  of  swords  means  scheming ,  resourcefulness ,  cunning ,  and  lies ,  all  traits  that  have  gotten  canis  to  where  he  is  today ,  however  negative ,  the  legacy  he’s  forged  for  himself  and  all  deeply  tied  to  his  work .  however ,  when  reversed ,  the  seven  of  swords  can  mean  confession ,  conscience ,  regret ,  and  maliciousness ,  which  i  think  lend  beautifully  to  this  character’s  private  struggles .  there  is  a  very  heavy  mix  of  negative  and  positive  attributes  leant  towards  seven  of  sword’s  core  character ,  someone  who  wants  to  do  right  by  themselves  at  great  cost .  when  interpreting  the  tarot  as  canis ,  i  was  drawn  to  the  maliciousness  and  the  regret  ( in  sometimes  equal  measure )  of  the  reversed  card .  i  believe  there  is  so  much  more  to  this  character  than  just  his  web  of  scheming  and  lies ,  that  canis’s  true  self  comes  from  somewhere  within ,  and  i’m  really  excited  to  explore  his  inner  conflicts.  this  man  has  so  many  issues  that  he’s  buried  and  i  think  the  possibility  of  him  becoming  a  part  of  the  revolution?  impeccable.  my  muse  for  this  skeleton ?  through  the  roof .
BACKGROUND  
I .  O’ ROMULUS  AND  REMUS ,  CASTOR  AND  POLLUX ,  WHAT  IS  ONE  WITHOUT  THE  OTHER ?   a  twin ,  you  were  told ,  though  it  feels  like  something  you  should  never  be  permitted  to  forget.  you’ve  never  felt  him there ,  not  like  a  phantom  limb  or  a  guiding  whisper.  just  a  story ,  when  you’re  feeling  ungrateful  for  your  lot  in  this  realm ,  that  there  is  only  one  where  there  once  was  two.  born  in  the  dead  of  winter  --  the  one  that  bit  at  the  napes  of  even  the  most  fur  cloaked  nobility  of  markholm ,  that  anyone  unlucky  enough  to  live  through  it  can  still  recall  as  “ceaseless”   --   and  childbirth  takes  your  mother  as  it  goes.  two  children ,  born  sickly ,  cold.  so  you  are  dubbed  efferus ,  a  savage  beast  who  can  claw  his  way  into  life ,  barely  holding  onto  breath ,  already  having  taken  a  life.   it  takes  a  village  to  raise  motherless  boys.  sometimes  it  takes  more  than  that.  your  brother  doesn’t  make  it  past  the  winter ,  but  you  keep  growing ,  getting  stronger  by  the  day ,  and  finally  spring  flowers  bloom  forth  from  hard  soil.  the  goat  farmer  next  door  tells  your  father  you  are  a  resilient  one ,  that  the  undying  smiled  upon  him.  another  miracle ,  that  your  life  could  be  a  blessing  and  not  a  curse.   as  long  as  you  knew  him ,  your  father  kept  steadfast  in  deep  religion ,  devout ,  praying  over  the  crops.  the  cattle.  the  harvest.  even  your  birth ,  a  story  he  recants  so  mystically  it’s  hard  to  imagine  you  were  there.  “we  all  bled  fer  you ,”  he  always  starts ,  like  it’s  your  fault ,  “my  son ,  my  son.  let  all  else  be  damned  fer  ‘im.”  two  lives  for  the  price  of  one ,  he  reminds  you ,  and  you’re  just  a  boy ,  but  you  still  find  it  all  absurd.  there’s  never  been a rhyme  or  reason  to  suffering.  “you  make  a  deal  with  the  undying  and  you  get  what  you  paid  fer.”  sometimes  it  seems  a  compliment.  others ..  you  aren’t  so  sure.   your  father  hath  no  mercy  for  the  weak  or  spineless ,  though  he  wasn’t  an  inherently  evil  man  either ,  at  least  not  in  the  figments  you  can  conjure  of  him.  you  plow  the  fields ,  with  hands  so  rough  with  calluses  you  can’t  feel  the  hilt  of  the  axe  you  use  to  cut  the  firewood.  you  milk  the  cows ,  so  gentle  with  great  beasts  you  start  to  forget  your  name.  you’re  skin  and  bone  and  beating  heart  ,  not  much  to  look  at ,  but  just  the  blessing  your  father  asked  for  all  the  same.  a  good  boy ,  in  that  you  were  capable  and  healthy  and  strong.  a  bad  seed ,  in  that  you  cared  for  little  and  didn’t  always  do  as  you  were  told.   it’s  your  tenth  winter  when  frostbitten  tendrils  take  first  your  farm ,  and  then  your  father.  you  make  a  deal  with  the  undying  and  you  get  what  you  paid  for ,  you  remember ,  and  it  almost  makes  you  laugh.  perhaps  it’s  not  so  funny  that  you  mourn  very  little  the  life  you  lost.  perhaps  still  it  is  a  testament  to  your  strength ,  a  boy  of  only  ten  who  shoulders  already  a  lifetime  of  death  and  decay.  who  makes  it  look  a  load  easy  to  bear.  who  are  you ,  efferus  aubenet?  and  who  will  you  become?
II .  A  MIRRORED  MIDAS  ,  IF  EVERYTHING  HE  HAD  TOUCHED  TURNED  TO  DEATH  AND  ROT .   a  street  urchin  with  no  farm ,  no  family ,  and  most  prominently  no  coin.  winters  slip  away  like  sand  through  an  hourglass ,  and  it’s  all  you  can  do  to  keep  track  of  the  time  that  folds  beneath  you.  one  year ,  and  you’re  frail  and  quiet  and  know  only  to  keep  to  yourself.  three  years  and  you’ve  developed  a  taste  for  fighting ,  scrappy  as  you  are.  it’s  just  a  game ,  in  the  beginning ,  one  the  other  coinless  children  keep  telling  you  you’re  too  good  at ,  “it’s  no  fun  fighting  a  hungry  dog.”  five  years  and  you’re  taller ,  more  meat  to  your  bones.  you’re  better  at  sneaking  things  out  of   the  market ,  extra  to  feed  your  friends.  you  learned  the  hard  way  what  happens  if  you  don’t  bring  back  enough ,  if  you  turn  a  blind  eye  to  people  who  call  out  your  name.  you  hear  it  when  you  dream ,  half  awake  in  chilled  darkness.   “i’m  so  hungry,  efferus.  i’m  so  hungry.”   you  start  going  by  canis.  it  makes  it  easier  to  sleep.   six ,  seven  years  and  you’re  so  good  at  fighting  that  your  pockets  start  to  feel  heavy.  cobbled  streets  whisper  canis  when  you  cross.  bruised  fists  and  a  bloody  conscience ,  not  all soldiers  make  it  out  of  battle  alive.  it  dawns  on  you ,  slowly  but  with  all  the  force  of  a  crack  of  lightning ,  why  the  others  like  to  call  you  dog.  maybe  it’s  because  you  were  born  from  death ,  or  because  you  know  loss  so  well  it  colors  your  eyelids  when  you  blink ,  but  it  seems  all  you’re  good  for.  you  discover  a  rage  within  you ,  one  which  you’re  sure  ( you  hope ,  foolish  as  it  is )  any  man  is  capable  of ,  if  pushed  too  far.  but  it’s  directionless ,  vile  in  the  way  it  sits  inside  your  chambered  heart.  there  is  nothing  more  universal  than  pain.  nothing  more  isolating  than  anger.  a  boy  with  a  taste  for  blood.  so  blind  to  the  way  you  snap ,  like  branch  under  boot ,  when  you  push  too  hard.  what  place  is  there  for  you  in  an  unforgiving  world ,  wracked  with  hardship?  at  whose  table  do  you  dine?   you  knew  love  once ,  it  felt  like  sharing  bread  and  blankets  and  tales  of  woe.  like  years  on  the  streets  relying  only  on  wit  and  steadfast  determination  to  survive.  like  knowing  a  person  fully ,  inside  and  out ,  as  you’d  always  known  yourself.  that  too  would  be  taken  from  you ,  like  everything  else.  for  the  price  of  just  a  single  coin ,  you  watched  your  love  take  their  last  breath ,  watched  the  thief  make  off  with  their  blood  money ,  felt  truly  and  terribly  powerless.  worse  than  losing  your  father  to  deep  winter  chill  you  lost  your  first  love  to  a  blade.  and  in  the  end ,  it  meant  nothing.     the  sons  of  argos  could  not  undo  what  you’d  done ,  what  had  been  done  to  you ,  but  maybe  you  could  give  back  tenfold.  it  starts  small ,  at  a  table  in  your  favorite  tavern ,  as  all  great  plots  tended  to  do.  an  invitation  to  join  a  company  you’d  heard  about  only  in  whispers.  you  saw  espace ,  penance  where  others  saw  a  home ,  but  that  would  always  be  enough  for  you.  it  was  intended  to  be  permanent ,  a  family  you  couldn’t  lose ,  under  a  friend  who  would  lay  down  their  life  for  the  men ,  women ,  and  children  under  their  protection.  a  life  of  adventure  to  call  your  own  and  you  didn’t  need  to  suffer  anymore.  you  had  but  one  skill ,  it  seemed ,  beyond  tending  to  the  herd  and  trimming  too  tall  crops ,  and  your  father  once  taught  you  that  skill  fed  fortune  ( though  the  money ,  you’d  find ,  would  come  later ) .  you  don’t  think  the  sons  is  quite  what  your  dearly  departed  had  in  mind ,  and  this  makes  your  smile  widen.  you’ve  always  found  humor  in  odd  places.     what  follows  is  a  career  far  short  of  extravagant ,  fighting  crime  like  a  bunch  of  vigilanties ,  tied  to  a  city  state  that  knows  little  of  its  own  streets.  you  hunger  for  travel ,  to  sink  your  teeth  into  shores  unseen ,  land  untended.  to  make  a  real  name  for  yourself  and  anyone  who  followed  suit.  “mind  your  place ,  mutt,”  you  hear  more  than  once ,  and  you  want  to  swat  the  others  away  like  flies  buzzing  in  swelling  ears.  but  there’s  something  sharp ,  too ,  like  a  cut  that  just  won’t  heal.  your  voice  is  too  loud  amongst  the  rest ,  your  name  --  the  name  you  paid  for  in  blood  --  nothing  next  to  strength’s.  the  captain  you  were  meant  to  worship  turned  to  dust  in  your  heavy  fist ,  the  family  you  forged  alongside  them  never  yours  to  call  your  own.  you  tell  yourself  they  betrayed  you ,  like  everything  else  in  this  life  they  gave  you  nothing  to  hold  onto  save  for  the  back  of  their  coattails ,  but  in  truth  you  were  never  meant  to  stay.  minding  your  place  felt  a  lot  like  digging  six  feet  down  to  lay  rest.   it’s  like  waking  from  a  dream ,  one  you  push  down  when  it  returns  to  you  in  the  night ,  leaving  the  sons  for  good.  four  winters  you  slept  under  their  tents ,  ate  at  their  table ,  and  still  you  feel  nothing  when  you  pack  what’s  yours  ( and  maybe  some  of  what  isn’t ,  but  who  would  dare  come  looking  for  it? )  and  go.  no  one  follows ,  no  one  even  pleads  your  case ,  and  when  you  see  them  playing  knights  on  the  docks  the  fire  in  you  swells.  it’s  all  rot  now.
III .  WHERE  WOULD  ICARUS  BE  NOW ,  IF  SOMEONE  WISE  HAD  CLIPPED  CURSED  WINGS?      iriebury  is  the  stank  of  unwashed  flesh ,  the  heat  of  southern  sun ,  something  to  conquer.  the  citizens  are  mean  and  the  crime  meaner.  it  makes  tyrholm  look  a  lot  like  playing  pretend ,  the  sons  seem  like  a  group  of  toy  soldiers.  to  survive  in  iriebury  you  need  your  bark ,  you  need  your  bite.  naturally , you  thrive.   it  takes  just  one  winter ,  one  warm  southern  winter ,  before  you  have  something  to  call  a  crew  of  your  very  own.  the  second  fangs ,  a  handful  of  beaten  down ,  nearly  finished  off  mutts  that  think  you  look  like  a  future.  you’ll  find  one  day ,  when  you’ve  turned  to  face  the  wrong  end  of  a  sword ,  these  dogs’  loyalty  knows  no  bounds.  and  maybe  you  do  have  a  family  after  all.  they  don’t  look  like  warriors  born  for  battle ,  but  they’re  sharp  on  every  edge  and  speak  of  you  like  you  hung  the  moon.  like  a  prophecy  spun  from  the  undying  herself.  the  queen  of  iriebury’s  no  different ,  when  you  flash  her  a  smile  and  run  a  sword  through  her  guard.  this  is  your  destiny.   with  work  and  full  bellies ,  the  second  fangs  grow ,  picking  up  more  men  and  women  the  rest  of  markholm  cast  aside ,  giving  them  all  purpose.  leadership  becomes  you ,  you’re  kind  in  places  other  captains  breathe  fire.  your  men  adore  you ,  and  maybe  this  is  why  it’s  easy  to  lose  yourself  a  bit.  you’ve  always  been  looking  for  him ,  that  voice  inside  of  you  that  has  guided  every  confident  step ,  and  you  really  start  to  believe  you’ve  found  him  at  the  end  of  a blade.     what  you  do  isn’t  pretty like  life  in  a  castle ,  it  isn’t  gentle  like  the  farm  or  humble  like  a  temple ,  but  it  suits  you.  you  find  company  at  the  bottom  of  a  bottle ,  family  inside  the  taverns  and  brothels ,  atop  dirty  cobblestone.  it  all  feels  a  lot  like  honor ,  like  duty.  you’re  known  for  your  loyalty  and  cunning  among  burdened  skill.  work  lends  to  virtue  or  some  mirrored  image  of  the  sort.  the  second  fangs  take  the  jobs  you  approve ,  not  the  ones  the  queen  hands  you ,  nails  stained  with  blood ,  and   who  knew  a  mercenary  crew  with  such  an  eye  for  morality?  bastards  that  comb  the  streets  but  speak  with  love  fresh  on  their  lips.  you’re  a  heathen  with  heart ,  of  that  not  even  the  fiercest  opponents  can  dispute.  maybe  there  is  a  place  in  this  world  for  nameless ,  coinless  men  with  a  hunger  for  something  more.  you  give  back  to  your  beloved  pack  what  they  give  to  you ;  everything ,  everything  and  then  some.  a  life  that  means  more  than  scraping  the  bottom  of  the  barrel.   you  can’t  carry  on  like  this  forever  and  survive ,  and  it’s  only  a  matter  of  time  before  real  gold  starts  knocking.  a  steady  job ,  you’re  promised.  a  lifetime  of  stability ,  peace.  you  know  more  of  the  king  of  tyrholm than  you  let  on ,  and  maybe  you  are  naive  to  trust  the  word  of  a  woman  who  did  not  raise  herself ,  but  when  you  look  at  your  company’s  worn  faces  and  tired  smiles ,  weathered  from  southern  strife ,  it’s  never  been   easier  to  bend  a  knee.     some  odd  winters ,  some  odd  springs ,  lived  with  modest  lavesty.  septimus  is  an  arse  of  a  man  that  whispers  corroded  bidding  into  your  graceless  ear.  no  one  but  the  second  fangs  knows  how  much  you  shake ,  when  the  job  is  done  and  you’re  safe  at  home.  how  much  weight  you  shoulder ,  for  yourself ,  for  your  men ,  for  the  lives  you’ve  taken.  the  lives  you  will  take.  your  crew  was  never  meant  to  become  a  rebellion.  the  glory  feels  lost ,  you’re  a  knight  without  chivalry ,  a  wolf  without  teeth.  you  hear  dog  more  than  your  own  name  and  you  bite  back  bile  when  you  look  in  a  mirror ,  but  still ,  you  think ,  you  would  do  it  all  over  again.     the  second  fangs  are  a  happy  crew ,  well  fed  and  housed  and  nothing  like  the  orphans  you  sheltered  so  many  moons  ago.  when  it  starts  to  feel  like  you  have  your  own  sons  of  argos  you  shelf  the  thought.  your  pack  looks  at  you ,  strong  and  fit  and  still  just  a  bit  withered ,  and  laugh  and  cheer.  “yer  getting  old,  canis,”  they  jest ,  when  you  stumble  into  bed.  “hunch - backed  from  all  that  gold  in  yer  pockets.”  you’ve  always  been  wiser  than  most  of  them ,  something  raw  in  your  heart  that  keeps  it  beating  steadfast.  better  you  than  them ,  you  know.  most  men  would  crack  at  what  you’d  seen.  what  you  know.     there’s  good  to  be  found ,  once  you  learn  how  to  look ,  like  the  devotion  of  judgement  ,  a  beauty  in  worship  that  reminds  you  of  all  your  father’s  useless  praying.  peaceful  in  all  it’s  absurdity.  there’s  friendship  in  odd  places ,  with  the  empress  you  serve.  you  find  it  hard  to  trust  in  tyrholm ,  unaccustomed  to  the  politics  of  a  ruling  class ,  the  society  that  never  once  smiled  down  on  a  farm  boy  and  his  widowed  father.  you  want  to  be  wise  and  cunning ,  still  sometimes  you  feel  inadequate  next  to  those  raised  in  education ,  but  the  queen  saw  your  potential  before  anyone  else  in  the  whole  retched  kingdom ,  and  that  has  to  mean  something.  there’s  the  fool ,  a  real  dog  you  sometimes  think ,  who  mirrors  your  old  captain  so  much  it  makes  your  skin  crawl.  they  aren’t  so  bad ,  but  it’s  hard  for  you  to  look  up  at  someone  who  serves  at  the  hand  of  the  king.  you  wonder  if  others  think  the  same  of  you.  fools ,  the  whole  lot  of  them.   you  know  what  the  queen  expects  of  you ,  your  word  is  your  livelihood ,  but  these  things  take  time.  for  now ,  you’re  comfortable ;  your  cup  is  full.  there’s  always  been  something  about  wars  to  come  that  feels  like  home ,  ragged  and  battle  scarred  thing  that  you  are.  and  besides ,  it’s  easier  to  put  out  a  fire  that  burns  inside  your  ribs  than  one  that  swallows  an  entire  kingdom ,  of  this  you  are  certain.
PLOT IDEAS
STRENGTH:   oh  boy  oh  man.  canis  can’t  hold  his  tongue  with  distaste  even  if  he  tried ,  and  he  definitely  doesn’t  try  with  them.  his  anger  often  gets  the  better  of  him  and  i  believe  he  would  try  to  confront  strength  every  chance  he  gets.  he  sees  this  skeleton  as  nothing  more  than  the  king’s  right  hand  ( literally  so  exciting  to  me  that  strength  is  also  a  revolter  and  i’m  sure  neither  of  them  know  they’re  destined  to  work  on  the  same  side  again?? )   and  i  think  he  reflects  a  lot  of  his  own  inadequacies  onto  this  skeleton ,  a  lot  of  his  failure.  with  such  a  tension  relationship  i’d  like  to  see  fights  break  out ..  maybe  even  between  their  own  respective  men  that  they’d  have  to  quell.  far  down  the  line  even  settling  their  differences  and  working  together  as  the  military  leaders  of  a  revolution  because  who  is  better  suited  for  the  job  than  them?  but  it  would  take  a  big  blow  to  canis’s  pride  to  share  such  a  job ,  to  ever  work  alongside  this  skeleton  instead  of  against  them  like  he  always  has.  so  all  around?  here  for  it  all. NINE OF WANDS:   canis  looks  at  them  and  sees  passion  he  once  was  sure  he  felt ,  the  sharp  thing  in  his  gut  that  once  spurred  him  to  forge  his  own  path  in  a  world  that  never  once  showed  him  kindness.  his  scars  are  internal ,  but  they  wear  their  scar  like  a  badge  of  honor ,  at  least  that’s  how  canis  sees  it.  he’d  love  to  not  have  to  kill  the  king  himself ,  even  if  he  would  never  admit  it.  it  means  a  safer  life  for  his  men ,  it  means  being  done  with  tyrholm  and  a  life  of  ease  and  travel ,  everything  he’s  always  wanted  and  never  seemed  to  be  able  to  grasp.  i  wonder  if  them  growing  closer  through  sparring  and  their  ability  to  provide  him  the  best  weapons  he’s  ever  seen  could  change  his  opinion  on  wanting  them  to  kill  the  king  in  a  fit  of  rage??  i  could  see  canis  wanted  to  strategize  with  them ,  in  the  end ,  once  he’s  done  poking  the  bear.  love  this  gift  of  a  connection  a  lot !!!! THE EMPRESS:   definite  ass  kissing  going  on  here.  canis  is  more  than  grateful  he  was  hired  by  her  and  not  the  king ,  though  i  do  think  he  might  resent  them  a  little  for  the  work  the  king  makes  his  company  do.  he  prefers  to  take  jobs  from  them ,  when  ordered ,  though  i  feel  their  relationship  at  this  point  goes  beyond  just  work  like  it  does  with  septimus.  he  trusts  them  and  it  does  help  him  to  sleep  at  night  thinking  he  could  be  serving  their  hand  and  not  septimus’s.  also  entirely  possibly  they  call  him  the  dog  but  with  them  it  doesn’t  feel  like  malice.  he  would  never  dare  disrespect  the  queen ,  especially  one  he  sees  goodness in ,  sees  his  entire  future  in.  would  be  really  interesting  if  canis  even  is  a  little  too  friendly  with  them ,  giving  them  a  hard  time  where  maybe  no  one  else  would  dare  to  do ,  an  annoying  prick  in  her  side  that  she  NEEDS  to  get  what  she  wants. THE HERMIT:   i  think  he  has  a  lot  of  respect  for  the  hermit.  in  ways  that  his  pride  keeps  him  from  seeing  his  similarities  with  strength ,  he  sees  so  much  of  who  he  once  was  in  them.  young ,  making  their  own  way ,  maybe  even  some  of  the  same  rage ,  though  canis  has  no  place  to  put  his  own.  i  feel  like  if  the  respect  was  mutual  they  could  have  a  friendly  relationship ,  canis  even  pushing  advice  onto  them  they  might  not  want  or  need.  if  a  revolution  came  he  would  back  them.  somewhere ,  he  probably  even  sees  them  as  something  of  a  good  king.  canis  doesn’t  trust  them  fully ,  but  he  could  drink  with  them ,  knows  the  second  fangs  would  treat  them  kindly  as  well. THE HIGH PRIESTESS:   canis  is  scared  of  little ,  but  he’s  scared  shitless  of  them.  he  avoids  them  at  all  costs ,  looks  the  other  way  when  they’re  brought  to  the  same  space.  he  doesn’t  talk  kindly  of  necromancers ,  though  maybe  there  is  some  envy  there  he  needs  to  address.  he’s  sure  this  doesn’t  go  unnoticed ,  not  with  all  their  years  of  wisdom.  i  think  it  could  be  really  interesting  though  if  one  of  his  closest  friends  is  killed  on  a  job  and  they  bring  them  back  as  he  watches ,  sees  this  power  first  hand ,  feels  even  a  debt  is  owed  though  none  of  the  fear  is  gone.  a  lot  of  possibilities ,  i  could  see  the  second  fangs  might  be  dying  a  lot  more  often  pretty  soon ... JUSTICE:   the  world  calls  canis  the  dog  because  they  see  him  as  filth ,  as  something  mangey  that  feeds  from  table  scraps  of  the  king ,  but  canis  sees  that  justice  is  the  real  dog.  and  he  pities  him  for  it.  there’s  little  glory  in  the  work  of  a  bodyguard ,  and  maybe  canis  wonders  how  justice  would  fair  in  his  own  company.  never  the  less ,  i  think  they  could  butt  heads  just  as  easily  as  they  could  share  a  pint.  maybe  they’ve  even  fought  in  some  of  the  same  battles ,  know  each  other  from  war  torn  lives  and  have  a  bond  because  of  this.  lots  of  potential  for  both  malice  and  comradery ,  no  matter  what  line  of  the  revolution  they  tread. THE LOVERS:   canis  sees  himself  and  more  in  them.  he  doesn’t  pity  easily ,  has  an  ability  to  find  the  strength  in  even  the  smallest  mouse ,  but  he  pities  the  lovers.  in  some  ways ,  i  think  he  wants  what  they  have ,  longs  for  something  as  fulfilling  as  love ,  and  doesn’t  want  to  see  this  squashed.  every  day  he  gets  closer  to  telling  them  of  the  war  to  come.  i  really  wonder  how  long  he  can  go  without  letting  anything  slip ,  especially  if  they  look  at  him  with  gentleness  or  show  him  great  kindness.  he  feels  they  need  to  prepare ,  like  he  is ,  for  a  future  of  destruction.   THE MOON:   okay okay ..  i  have  two  different  paths  that  i  think  might  be  interesting  with  this  skeleton  depending  on  what  gets  plotted  out.  BUT ..  i could imagine  canis  stumbles  into  their  office  after  being  badly  injured  on  the  job ,  probably  requesting  some  random  herb  because  it  HURTS  and  he’s  WEAK  and  he  needs  it  to  be  DONE  WITH.  one  path  would  lead  to  the  moon  healing  canis ,  and  once  he  discovers  this  ability  he  probably  begs  and  bribes  ( heavily.  the  man  is  too  wealthy  for  his  own  good  now ,  and  what  else  is  he  going  to  buy?  new  boots?  his  work  just  fine. )  them  to  start  visiting  the  second  fangs  around  the  city  to  heal  them  in  secret.  he’ll  do  anything  for  their  ensured  safety.  the  other  path  works  quite  the  same ,  only  with  no  healing ,  just  plants ,  and  he’d  be  very  dependent  on  this  muse  either  way  because  of  the  miracles  they’re  able  to  work  with  his  men.  really  really excited  for  the  possibilities  of  plots  with  this  skeleton. THE TOWER:   a  backstory  plot  for  these  muses  is  calling  my  name??  like  maybe  the  tower  and  canis  had  a  deal  where  the  second  fangs  would  assist  them  and  their  men  on  voyages  and  pillages  for  a  cut  of  the  treasure  when  all  was  said  and  done ,  back  when  the  second  fangs  were  fresher  and  poorer  and  in  desperate  need  of  work.  and  maybe  one  of  the  two  betrayed  the  other  on  one  of  these  trips ,  with  greed  for  treasure  or  something of the like?  things  could  be  tense  between  them  now ,  at  each  other’s  throats.  OR  there  could  have  never  been  a  betrayal  and  they’re  actually  quite  good  friends  who  know  a  little  too  much  about  each  other’s  pasts ,  and  canis  offers  the  tower  company  amongst  the  pack  knowing  he’s  lived  through  canis’s  own  worst  nightmare.  the  terrifying  ordeal  of  being  known.  canis  could  definitely  trust  them  more  than  he  should.  this  one  has  me  really  excited  i  won’t  lie.
CHARACTER DEATH:    canis  would  quite  literally  volunteer  for  this  so  that’s  a  big  yes  from me.
WRITING SAMPLE
THE SELF PARA:  the tent is warm and the burn of the lamplight casts shadows across familiar faces. the second fangs. his pack, he always calls them, like they’re puppies and not vicious mercenaries. canis is most comfortable here, at ease, his usually pin straight posture relaxed despite the job he knows lays ahead of them. it’s not one he’s entirely comfortable with, an uprising in a poor village. always messy, always felt a bit like putting down a weakened calf at the farm. so they drink, to forget the day that lies ahead, the uncountable days behind. the faces. faces. faces, that echo like screams.   he can’t recall who speaks first, but it was likely canis himself, always a little too bold when his body buzzed with liquid courage. “that’s not what i’m asking,” one of his men corrects with a nudge of canis’s shoulder, always aggressive with each other, a pack of wolves nipping at each other’s heels. “the death’s on your hands. but it’s meant to be a good one. worth while.” and the captain’s own eyes twinkle uncharacteristically, perhaps because his inner conscious knows what his mouth does not. that the answer lies waiting at the tip of his tongue, a snarling beast of a target.     “and how much coin are we gonna get fer it?” ajax jests, but canis can see the gold flashing in front of his face, even from across the table. canis barks out a laugh, and they all bang their goblets on the table.   “aye,” in unison. they know each other inside and out, they speak a language strange and foreign. a family with many moons in their pockets. how many knights can say that?   “no coin,” canis finally adds. “no glory. no private dance at the brothel,” eying ren, and there’s another chorus of easy laughter, more aye’s.   “one of the nobles,” lawren grunts, and at first there’s just ringing silence. a paranoia that winds it’s way through the small group. they trust each other with their lives but this .. it’s like blasphemy. it’s revolution uncurling within them, more than just a job, it’s a force awakening. lawren speaks again, gentler, louder. “undying knows they’re all pricks.” and it’s easy again, more aye’s, cups overflowing with wine and ale.   but in between the laughter, he feels the wrench in his gut, the rage that threatens to flare. an allegiance of blood and blind faith  --  it reminds him so much of religion that he squirms. maybe his answer lies in a job, with wicked tendrils wrapped around his neck like a leash. the dog. how wrong would it be to bite the hand that feeds you? “i’d cut off my ring fingers and swear to celibacy to be rid of the fuck all king already,” canis growls, his knuckles white where he grips tight on his cup. and it’s quiet again. when he speaks they listen, they all listen, even the highborn in the castle, like he’s a wave crashing on shore. commanding attention. demanding it.   “you’re spending too much time with the clerics,” ren groans, with a face like a fox, her hair hanging limply in her face. he can’t tell if she’s smiling or frowning, but they’re nodding in agreement. all of them.    “what good’s that sack of shit king, anyway?” lawren chimes in, and then it’s deafening chatter. all canis can do is listen, absorb the pain of his men, the frustration, see himself reflected in their woes. say what any outsider will about his crew, maybe they are all mutts. one mind, one body, one restless spirit. tired of being used, of being chained to a cause that tries to fill deep chasms in bleeding hearts with gold. what is the price of true freedom?   “maybe the end is closer than you think, canis,” a small voice that rises above the others. a girl, mary, raised in the pack, only nearing her seventeenth summer. and she’s a legacy of everything canis has created, the family he wove with bruised and boney fingers. “we haven’t lost a battle, yet.” and she’s right, of course she’s right, whip smart and flea bitten. if there is to be a revolution, aid of the pack would be an immense advantage. it isn’t arrogance with which his men speak. it’s truth.   he has to chew on the suggestion, sharp glass in his mouth with every bite, impossible to digest, but maybe with the backing of his crew .. canis has trouble seeing the future beyond a sack of coins and a full bottle of ale. he knows little of politics, even after all his withered years serving as something of a king himself. it’s overwhelming, and he thinks his whole arm shakes when he raises his goblet. “nasty fuckers,” but his teeth shine in the lamplight, like fangs. like canines. “trying to get your own captain killed.” but when they clink glasses, it feels like a deal has been made, like he owes this death to more than just the queen, like the undying herself is watching.
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VOICE :   canis  has  an  eclectic  sort  of  accent ,  a  combination  of  all  of  the  people  he  met  while  living  on  the  street ,  his  father ,  the  lands  he’s  traveled  and  settled  into  with  his  companies .  he  constantly  sticks  out  as  an  outsider ,  no  matter  where  he  is .  he  doesn’t  mind  this  sense  of  otherness  because  whenever  canis  goes ,  his  family  is  never  far . canis’s  mockblog  can  be  found  HERE his  pinterest  can  be  found  HERE   ( blood  tw )
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adanicole04 · 6 years ago
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Power to the People: An Ideological Analysis
**this is a paper I wrote in college about the ideology of democracy, and tied to current culture. It’s been a couple years since this was written, but I remember this being one of my favorite projects, and I believe it’s still applicable today. Hope you enjoy! But please don’t steal it ;)
Introduction:
           NBC’s Parks and Recreation character Leslie Knope is a passionate bureaucrat who personally renewed my faith in what government is supposed to be by consistently reinforcing what democracy means to her. It may be a little pathetic in retrospect that it actually took a TV show to do so, but in light of everything happening today, it seems pretty understandable. Considering approval ratings of Congress have been at a historic all-time low for several years now, it should come as no surprise that “this more negative attitude toward Congress mirrors other indicators showing that Americans are at or near record lows in their confidence in the executive and judicial branches and the federal government in general” (Connolly, 2016).
           The American people are losing (if not already lost) trust in their government, and really, who can blame them? We’ve been lied to, deceived, and had our money stolen from us to be blown on government officials vacation homes while the rest of us have the worries of our basic needs to live constantly hanging over our heads. We are a people in need of reassurance; not of what our government is doing for us (because who knows if we are ever told the truth about that), but what our government was founded on: democracy.
After Donald Trump was elected president, there seemed to be enough interest as to what “Leslie Knope” would say, that an actual letter was written up in her name (by the writers of the show). There is a lengthy story about democracy, the central idea of this paper, of which I will discuss later. For now, I will start with the proclaimed point of that story.
           “People are unpredictable, and democracy is insane.”
           Critics, like random Quora user Carl Hancock, argue that democracy should be considered a concept, and that the ideology of democracy is limited to the belief of one’s ideal form of government (Hancock, 2013). And even Merriam-Webster defines “democracy” as a form of government (Democracy). Should democracy be restricted to a concept and/or form of government?
           Foss (2009) states that “an ideology is a pattern of beliefs that determines a group’s interpretations of some aspect of the world” (p. 209). Our government should be reflected on the beliefs and values our founding fathers had for America: that we are free people. By limiting “democracy” to a form of government, we eliminate the potential belief system that essentially directs our government. Using “Leslie Knope Writes Letter to America Following Donald Trump’s Victory” as my main artifact, quotes from Parks and Recreation (Parks & Rec for short) episodes, and ideological criticism, I argue that democracy is (and should be considered as) an ideology.
           Foss (1989) also asserts that the goal of a rhetorical criticism is to introduce an artifact and essay that transforms the lives of the reader (p. 26). My goal for this analysis is to embody the persona of Leslie Knope herself, and inspire American citizens to engage in the idea of democracy. I know too many people who actively avoid anything political, because it’s not only an untrustworthy area, but it’s also confusing due to issues exactly like this essay: what even IS democracy? My contribution is to simplify the rhetorical foundation of what government is supposed to be to provide confidence the people should have about it.
Context and Artifact Analysis:
           Parks & Rec first aired sometime in 2009 while interest in politics really sparked after the 2008 Presidential Election. President Obama based his political campaign on “hope”, creating a positive aura around Congress. The creators of Parks & Rec were inspired by this and with the success of the politically charged show The Wire to produce a comedy about an optimistic woman starting her career in politics while highlighting the general failure of local government (Weiner, 2009).
           This government-loving optimist named Leslie Knope was born, and she reminded us every week why government is important, and what it stands for. She was always consistent in her views of democracy, women in government, and breakfast foods. All of the characters were impeccably cast, but Amy Poehler brought upon a certain charm and admirable trait to her love of government. Personally, I related politically more with the character Ron Swanson, a firm libertarian. However, I really loved Knope’s idea of democracy, and how often she talked about it.
           For instance, when visitors from Venezuela came to Pawnee, Indiana (the fictitious location of the show) to financially help build a park, one of the men tried to trick Knope into taking their money, videotaping the donation, so they could humiliate Americans back in their country. Knope hilariously stood her ground by reinforcing her American values by telling him, “I am gonna build that park myself, and it is gonna be awesome. And it's not gonna have a fountain shaped like Hugo Chavez's head spitting water all over everyone. Unless that's what the people want. And that, sir, is democracy.”
           When it came down to the recent election of Donald Trump, it was embarrassingly comforting to have that same reassurance by her. Honestly, there are more than enough quotes from the show itself to discuss, but her letter to America was classic Leslie Knope rhetoric covering a very real issue.
           To make her initial point, she almost immediately began with a story. She was in fourth grade, and her teacher conducted a mock election in which two fictitious characters were presented. One character was cool, promised things like extra recess and pizza with a candy bar crust, and the other was “bookish”, and promised to take things slow to be able to evaluate the problems of the school in a careful, intentional manner.
           But before they voted, one student (Greg) asked if they could nominate a third candidate. Her teacher replied, ““Sure! The essence of democracy is that everyone—” and Greg cut her off and said “I nominate a T. rex named Dr. Farts who wears sunglasses and plays the saxophone, and his plan is to fart as much as possible and eat all the teachers,” and everyone laughed, and before Mrs. Kolphner could blink, Dr. Farts the T. rex had been elected President of Pawnee Elementary School in a 1984 Reagan-esque landslide, with my one vote for Greenie the Tortoise playing the role of “Minnesota.”
           Knope then went on to say, “Winston Churchill once said, “Democracy is the worst form of government, except all those other forms that have been tried.��� … The point is: people making their own decisions is, on balance, better than an autocrat making decisions for them. It’s just that sometimes those decisions are bad, or self-defeating, or maddening, and a day where you get dressed up in your best victory pantsuit and spend an ungodly amount of money decorating your house with American flags and custom-made cardboard-cutouts of suffragettes in anticipation of a glass-ceiling-shattering historical milestone ends with you getting (metaphorically) eaten by a giant farting T. rex.”
           Even in her self-proclaimed despair, she finds a way to make us laugh. More importantly, Knope reminds us the importance of having our belief system of democracy serve as the foundation to how government operations should run, even if the results don’t sway in the direction we want or intend. Regardless, “democracy only works if people get involved” (Pilot Episode) because “the whole point of democracy is decisions are made by the people, as a group” (Canvassing).
           There were also a couple of episodes in Season 6 where her idea of democracy was even further defined. In New Slogan, Leslie inspires the town of Pawnee to vote for a new town slogan. Obviously, she created most of the selections, and she encouraged the people to vote for one of the slogans. Well, matters took a brief turn for the worst when the local radio DJ “the Douche” suggested a write-in option of “The Home of the Stick Up Leslie Knope’s Butt”, and it led the polls. And why was there a write-in option you may wonder? “Because every election has a write-in option. That's how democracy works. I'm not a dictator. If I we're a dictator, I would throw the Douche in prison without a trial” (New Slogan). Once again, even though sometimes it makes her hysterically angry, her ideology of democracy guides practically everything she does, and every decision she makes.
           Even when her archenemy Councilman Jeremy Jamm snuck in a meeting to vote on a bill that would take away voting rights to its new citizens (there was a town merger that joined the bordering town of “Eagleton” when their government went bankrupt) right before Knope’s recall election. Councilwoman Knope interrupted the meeting to filibuster it so it couldn’t pass. During the filibuster, she found out that the new citizens supported her actions, but would not be voting in her favor. She had to weigh the options out loud, but ultimately remained true to her beliefs. She could’ve stopped in order to have a better chance in the election, but instead she declared that “the right to vote is fundamental in any democracy, and this is bigger than me or anyone” (Filibuster).
Ideological Criticism:
           By using the application of ideology to democracy, we can ensure a level of consistency that is desperately needed (and currently lacking) within political actions. As opposed to the restrictions the literal translation of democracy offers, the ideology behind it ensures that the “actions and their rationale are not isolated but woven into a broader fabric of understanding, anticipation, and value” (Brock, Huglen, Klumpp, & Howell, 2005).
           During my analysis of the presented artifacts, it is clear that Leslie Knope has a deeply rooted understanding of democracy that is based on the idea of “the people”; that government cannot properly or fairly operate without the input of its citizens. The element that Knope presents is that we also need people within our governmental systems to uphold those beliefs and values. We need people to encourage group participation.
           Although she explicitly speaks to females near the end of her letter, she acknowledges the misogyny protruding from Trump. Because this character is also quite the feminist, it probably would’ve been easier to cover this and other artifacts using a feminism approach. However, I’ve found that her hardcore belief in democracy is the basis of her rhetoric and actions. She encompasses the power within groups by simply using the word “we”; accomplished within this letter, and pretty much everything she does on the show.
           “We will acknowledge this result, but we will not accept it. We will overcome it, and we will defeat it. Now find your team, and get to work.”
           Democracy isn’t yet another form of government. It should be the idea behind every single decision made and action taken within the system. Political leaders and elected officials should stop and think, “Is this what the people want? AM I 100% SURE?” before signing or approving anything.
           Using her anger as a tool, she encourages the beliefs behind democracy to fight the good fight in politics, and overcome this embarrassment that is our current president. When she says, “I work hard and I form ideas and I meet and talk to other people who feel like me, and we sit down and drink hot chocolate (I have plenty) and we plan. We plan like mofos. We figure out how to fight back, and do good in this infuriating world that constantly wants to bend toward the bad. And we will be kind to each other, and supportive of each other’s ideas,” she is literally describing her idea of democracy in classic Leslie Knope fashion. As the elected official in her town, she remains determined to improve lives through the power of the people, and through communication.
Conclusion:
           Democracy shouldn’t be placed in a box, and set aside in politics. It should be the automatic default deciding factor for everything that happens in our government. Without the ideology of democracy, we have no real guide for how things are done. The values and beliefs behind it consistently point to the PEOPLE; not one person, not only elected officials. If anything, the elected officials should ONLY be acting in the wishes and demands of their citizens. No politician should have a final say in anything without the approval of the people first. Maybe that’s why our government is as screwed up as it is: because we have put democracy in a box, labeled it as a concept, and threw it in the dark and musty basement that no one ever goes in.
           Politicians want us to believe that the notion behind democracy is some liberal tactic to take more of your money, and encourages welfare systems “for the good of the people”. This also discourages others to participate in government because people will blindly accept and trust that elected officials will do the right thing. Well, if there is no foundation of beliefs, morals and/or values, what (besides dirty money) is left to guide them?
           Simple answer? Democracy. Myself, and others like Mrs. Knope (aka Parks & Rec writers) firmly believe that democracy is a set of beliefs grounding all political actions to be decided upon by the people. It is also the mutual understanding of myself and others like me that this can only be done through communication. Any politician has the “power” to draft a bill, and receive approval within the system, without ever reaching awareness of his or her citizens. In a fair and just democracy, that can no longer happen. Americans need to understand the true power of the people, and reconstruct our government to do the same. We are in desperate need of a government that works for us, not over us. We can only make this happen through the ideology of democracy.
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morsmordrehasbeensaved · 8 years ago
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CONGRATULATIONS ASH, YOU HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED AS SIRIUS BLACK WITH THE FACECLAIM OF LUKE PASQUALINO!
We were really excited when you told us you were willing to reapply, Ash, and you truly blew us out of the water with your newly written biography! You nailed Sirius’ personality in our minds and we loved how he met James on the train which matches’ Kay’s biography as well - and the background on his family was just perfection. We are super excited to have you around and can’t wait to write and plot with you!
Check out our acceptance checklist right here on what to do next!
♔ Out Of Character Info ♔
Name/Alias: Ash
Age/Birthday: 14; October 17
Pronouns: she/her
Timezone and Activity: EST: 70% active; I am not available at school during the weekdays, but I am mostly here when I’m not at school
Triggers: REMOVED.
Anything Else: REMOVED.
♔ In Character Info ♔
Full Name: Sirius Black (Nickname: Padfoot)
Birthday: November 3rd
Pronouns: he/him
Sexuality/Romantic Orientation: Bi
Extracurriculars: Dueling Club
Personality Traits:
postive: loyal, flirty, brave
negative: arrogant, rebellious, impulsive
Additional Info: Thank you for allowing me to reapply. I’m really interested in this roleplay group and I think it would be a wonderful thing to be apart of. I really appreciate the second chance and have worked to improve my application. Once again, I do not have any other Harry Potter content. I hope that doesn’t affect your decisions.
Biography:
Sirius Black was born into a pureblood family, who owned a luxurious home where Sirius resided during his childhood. The home was called the House of Black, the family name going all the way back to around the middle ages. Naturally, Sirius’ parents were quite proud of him when he was first born, aiming to create the perfect model child out of him. They wanted him to share the family’s views pertaining to blood purity and soon, Voldemort’s evil reign. However, Sirius quickly began to reject these ideals, even as a child. With a multitude of family members trying shove opinion after opinion into his head, it was challenging to find his own thoughts. Sirius started to believe he was meant to be evil, no matter what he thought about it. His family was like that, so why shouldn’t he? Why should he go against his parents instead of just trying to make them happy? It was all too overwhelming for him, to be stuck in a house full of others who were trying to tell him what to be. Due to these staggering feelings, he didn’t interact with the people in his house unless he had to, which allowed him more alone time for himself. During this time, Sirius was able to read and see what the outside world thought (though reading is definitely not one of his favorite activities) and began to make his own opinions. He found solace in the fact that he wasn’t alone in his ideas of equality, ideas that contrasted the ones of the rest of the Black family so greatly. He believes that no wizard is less than another. The amount of magical blood they have doesn’t matter to Sirius. As he began to express these thoughts, (slowly at first, as if he was testing the waters) his family painted him as the odd one out. His parents especially began to be extremely unsupportive of their rebellious child. They saw him as an outcast to the rest of the family. Sirius began to enter even more conflicts with his relatives. Sometimes the fights would last for hours. Eleven years of living in his complicated home took a huge toll on him, but that didn’t stop his pure excitement when he stepped on the train on September 1st, ready to make a new life at Hogwarts and hopefully not be ridiculed for everything he expressed. . Sometimes the fights would last for hours. Eleven years of living in his complicated home took a huge toll on him, but that didn’t stop his pure excitement when he stepped on the train on September 1st, ready to make a new life and Hogwarts and hopefully not be ridiculed for everything he expressed.
Almost immediately after he set off to his new life, Sirius met James Potter on the train. A boy who walked into Sirius’ cabin that seemed almost too confident and cool for his age. They immediately befriended each other, bonding over shared interests like chocolate frog cards and spells they practiced at home. They clicked extremely well, nearly conjoined at the hip from that moment on. Having his first friend brought Sirius great joy. After all those years with nobody in his corner, he finally had somebody he could trust. The train ride went by quite quickly and the boys arrived at Hogwarts along with everyone else. Sirius was almost sure the Sorting Hat would place him in Slytherin, due to him being the heir of the House of Black and all. However, to his surprise, he was sorted into the Gryffindor house instead. The hat spent a long while deciding and sensed Sirius’ desire to be different from his family. His need to not be like the people who inflicted pain onto him all throughout his childhood. This played into him being chosen for Gryffindor, adding to the fact that he posses a lot of traits that belong to the Lion House, including, of course, bravery.
After his sorting, Sirius sat down next to James, who had a wide grin spread across his face. Sitting across for them were two other boys who had just been placed in Gryffindor as well. Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew. They began to speak to each other, discussing what it was like to get their letters and the train ride there. The other two were a lot quieter and less rowdy than James and Sirius, but the four of them still seemed to find a newfound friendship. They could all tell right away that this bond would last for years to come. Having friends that accepted him was one of Sirius’ greatest wishes at home, and he’d achieved it so effortlessly. Being apart of this group of people allowed him to learn more about different kinds of family and people, and let his loud and open personality shine in a way that it wasn’t able to when he was at home. Although, the boys sure did get into a lot of mischief, but Sirius liked it that way.
In their second year, the group began to notice Remus and how reserved he was. They realized how strange he was acting and that he was missing a multitude of classes. This concerned the three others, so they decided to investigate, eventually uncovering the truth that Remus was a werewolf. While shocked, Sirius didn’t see Remus differently for it. Remus was his good friend and he was all too familiar with being the odd one out when it came to his family. James, Sirius, and Peter wanted to look out for Remus and make him feel less alone. They also needed to cover for him during school, since he’d already missed so many classes at suspicious times. Considering all of this, the three decided to become animagi. They went through a long, grueling process to do so. Being second years, their magic just wasn’t advanced enough to complete the spell correctly. The process took three exhausting years to complete, but it was definitely worth it. The boys were very proud of how everything turned out and Remus was so glad that he wasn’t alone. Sirius’ animagi is a black dog, which is why his nickname is Padfoot. The four called themselves the Marauders and each got a nickname. [“Moony (Remus), Wormtail (Peter), Prongs (James).”] The transformation into animagi was a pivotal moment of their friendship and brought them even closer than before.
Sirius’ school years were full of fun and misbehavior. His times at Hogwarts were the best times of his life. Even with constant punishments and detentions due to their mischievous actions. Out of all the Marauders, Sirius and James were the most popular. They built up a reputation, a popular person on their bad side being Severus Snape. It was mostly James who butted heads with him, as they both liked Lily Evans, but Sirius always had his friend’s back.
Currently, he is in his seventh year at school. With it being the last year and all, Sirius desperately wants to make it count. He finally got out of his home, where his relationship with his family members has grown more and more toxic. Moving in with James and his family was a huge relief. Sirius finally doesn’t have to worry about being ridiculed for everything he does. The Potters accept him as a part of the family right away. Sirius is extremely grateful for this. He always wanted a family that supports him, but all his life he never had that. Now, he finally has it. Even though Hogwarts was an amazing relief from the people that caused him this pain, it didn’t liberate him fully. Sirius always still had to go home for Christmas and summer break, which were the worst parts of the year for him. Having a place and the Potter household means the world to Sirius. It also allows Sirius and James to spend even more time together. James is one of the most important people in his life, along with Remus and Peter. He doesn’t mind that his family blackens out his name and considers him a traitor. He’s found where he really belongs.
After moving in, seventh year begins. This year is a really important time in Sirius’ life. It’s his last year at Hogwarts and evil seems to be on the rise. With Death Eaters and supporters of Grindelwald on the rise of attack, Sirius is prepared to fight back. He’s also growing in maturity. Though he is still the wild, flirty Gryffindor that he’s been all these years, he also realizes how important this year and the rest of his life is. He’s thinking about the future now and is ready to grow and change. As well as this, during the summer between sixth and seventh year, Sirius has realized his daunting crush on Remus. Terrified of losing his friendship with Remus (another person who is very valuable to him), he overcompensates and pines by flirting with nearly every girl. (Except Lily, of course). He believes this is the best way to cover up his feelings and since he has never told anyone, it works quite well. Despite this, the Marauders continue to be inseparable and are prepared to fight alongside each other.  Sirius is ready to begin this new chapter in his life and to see what this school year has in store for him.
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ruleandruinrpg · 8 years ago
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CONGRATULATIONS, AJ!
You have been accepted for the role of ANASTASIA LANTSOV. Admin Rosey: Choosing Anastasia was incredibly difficult because I saw two of my favorite characteristics about her presented so flawlessly. There was the somewhat childish princess and the tender-hearted princess with steel beneath her silk. Ultimately, AJ, I had no choice but to go with your portrayal of Ravka’s heart. The detailed plot ideas were so intriguing to me -- and the seemingly effortless way you integrated her samples into everything are what sealed the deal. Dirt upon silk, and tenderness upon sorrow is what truly tugged at my heart. Thank you for this wonderful application and thank you for taking on the role of Annie. You have 24 HOURS to send in your account. Also, remember to look at the CHECKLIST. Welcome to Ravka!
OUT OF CHARACTER
ALIAS: AJ PREFERRED PRONOUNS: She/Her AGE: Twenty-Four TIMEZONE & ACTIVITY LEVEL: EST & I am currently only in one other active roleplay at this time, so I will be able to give RAR the majority of my attention. I do want to give a bit of a heads up as my family is in the process of buying a new house. Our estimated closing date is June 30th, so that will be about a week of adjusting to the new house and getting WiFi setup. I will definitely keep the admins updated during that time as I do not want to disappear out of the blue. I am also going on a family vacation with my parents from June 23rd—June 26th. It is just a weekend away, but it will be right after acceptance. This is all I could think of to let you all know beforehand. TRIGGERS: OMITTED CURRENT/PAST ACCOUNTS: Here & Here
IN CHARACTER
DESIRED CHARACTER: Anastasia Natalya Lantsov ANASTASIA — meaning reborn. NATALYA — meaning birthday. LANTSOV — meaning ruler.
WHAT DREW YOU TO THIS CHARACTER?:
 × BLESSING IN DISGUISE —      There were so many characters that held such a heavy muse within my mind that begged to be explored that I panicked on who I would ultimately apply for in the end. My list continued to grow as more biographies were released, and I decided that I would attempt to place them in an order of who I wanted to explore more. The first on my list was dear, sweet Anastasia Lantsov. It was almost amusing how easily their sample came to fruition, and the way their words seemed to pour out from my fingers so quickly.         Everything about them screamed a character that I have rarely played before: soft.  Their softness was a characteristic that they had been forced into, but it was also a trait that they welcomed wholeheartedly. Some would call them weak, but there was something more than weakness that attached itself to me and kept bringing me back to their application.     I spent several days bouncing around a few characters until I realized that every muse that I tried to dive into was being tainted by Anastasia. I found that Aleksander was a bit softer than he should be, or that Svetlana wasn’t as terrifying as I wanted her to be because Ana was forcing themself into every characterization that brought my muse away from theirs.     Up until them, I was constantly finding my muse and taste drawn to the characters that were more flawed than them; almost always looking for which path to take for either redemption or further damnation. For Ana, there is absolutely nothing that I could find that screamed a flawed character outside of their inability to speak of what needs to be done for those less than themself. This is the ultimate reasoning behind my attachment and draws to their character, and I hope to convey that through the rest of their application.
WHAT FUTURE PLOT IDEAS DID YOU HAVE IN MIND?:
 × THE TRUTH UNVEILED —
    Part One. I have to be honest that it was quite easy to come up with this future plot because it is an inevitable fate for Anastasia to be caught during one of their trips to the village. However, the way it happens is very important to me because it could have two very contrasting results. Every little detail of this would have to be thought out thoroughly because the timing, the person, or even the location could be what shifts the outcome one way or the other.     For timing, I simply mean what is currently going on in the kingdom when they are caught sneaking to the village. Is there a peace in the country that would guarantee them that suspicions wouldn’t arise, or are there rumors of a rebellion that could cause questioning as to why they are out so late? While the location is not the biggest factor in this revelation for someone to figure out the princess’ secret, it could be the one that gives them the chance to keep it. If they are caught while standing in the middle of the village in the clothes of their cousin, it is pretty obvious that there would be no convincing someone that what they are doing isn’t exactly how it seems. The difference in location would be if they were simply on their way to the village and were caught up in the garden by someone. There are plenty of stories that could save them from the truth spewing out.     The most important factor to me in this future plot is the person that unveils what Anastasia has been up to. I want this to be someone that deserves to figure out the secret and actually want to do something about it. Yes, there could be one person that finds out and hovers the secret over their head, but I desperately want the opportunity for them to find someone, whose heart beats for the country as their own. This potential development with another character is not only crucial for Anastasia, but it is absolutely necessary if they want to make a change.     Part Two.  Further expanding this idea for Anastasia, it would be fascinating to explore what Nikolai did in the canon verse by changing his appearance to hide his true identity. I imagine this would be the case if the tension in the kingdom grew to a point that traveling as herself in and out would be risking her life. In this new disguise, she would be able to fully grasp what many in the village already call her as ( The Shattered Mirror headcanon ) and take on a new life at night.     As someone that enjoys increasing the angst within certain plots, it would be an interesting shift if Anastasia were to be caught in some type of attack or confrontation within the village that trapped her there. This would be a very intense moment that would have so much more opportunity if Anastasia were to get hurt by the hand of someone close to her, perhaps Viktor? Maybe he was the one to strike her down when she fought to protect an innocent villager. This type of development would only further my idea that Anastasia’s heart is far too large to belong solely to her, and that is why she so often gives it to those that rarely get noticed.
 × THE LIFE DESIRED —
     They are more than a single person; they are the heart that beats beneath the chest of their country. They feel devastation upon those less than them while many turn up their nose and look elsewhere. For Anastasia, the life they desire for their people is a life that they cannot give on their own. There are things that must be done to bring the starvation that most within Ravka suffer from, and it is their sole purpose to line everything up in order to conquer it. No one deserves to be less than another; all life should be held at the same value. This is what makes the princess such a bright mind that deserves the attention often given to them, and that is what they will use in their favor. Any that dare listen to their pleas for change,  if anyone should step forward to become their saving grace, are likely to get their heart in return. This is what makes this future plot so valuable for Anastasia’s development through the roleplay. Everything they have done has been to see change, and it would be upon discovering they alone cannot heal the wounds that cut deep into their country that will ignite them to look elsewhere.     I want Anastasia to start a campaign in favor of those less than. I want them more than anything to find the power to stand up for what should be done. The revelation that their family does not feel the same way as them is so vital to what happens next, and it would be a privilege to explore the opportunity of the princess finding someone else that shares the same feelings as their own.
× THE LIFE LIVED —
     As Anastasia is fighting for those that deserve more, there comes a time when they need to face the prejudice that they are living among on a daily basis. The split is far too obvious to go unnoticed, and the princess of all people has proven to be one that sees everything. I imagine that there would be a shift in their own heart to mend the gap between those at the Little Palace and their own. It might be small at first by simply walking a different way to get the chance to come across a few Grisha and sparking a conversation. It could build on these small moments where they befriend one wholeheartedly, who then introduces them to more.     This type of outreach will not settle well for those that do not believe the Grisha are worthy of being considered equal so it would be even more fun to find Anastasia on the negative end of someone’s opinion as that seems to be a rarity within their biography. Everyone seems to be so caught up in the princess that it would even take them by surprise to find that they are no longer fighting a singular battle for just villagers, but they are beginning to fight a secondary one for the Grisha as well.
 × THE TOUCH OF POWER —
    Explanation: For this headcanon, I wrote out a small blurb of what it would be like if Anastasia were granted the chance to be a human amplifier in-game. There is such a purity to her that would add to the roleplay as an opposing force against the Darkling’s own ability to amplify other Grisha. Within her biography, there were hints of how she could become a catalyst to the tradition of the kingdom, and it would only add to her layers and desire to change the country if she were to be one herself.     Blurb: There are glimpses of it as she passes them, a quick feeling of connection that she’s never felt before. The way her eyes light up when she’s surrounded by them makes it almost nerve-wracking, to say the least. It took her by surprise the first time the rush came over her; a need to break the barriers and reach out for a single touch. She has contemplated what it would be like to actually be allowed to hold a genuine conversation with one of them; to grow close enough with a Grisha to touch them.     That’s when it happens — Very slowly, she finds herself mapping out when and where she will be. The Sun Summoner has become a blessing to this country, and Anastasia says just the right things to her brother to make it obvious that the two should meet. The interaction is odd, almost too forced to be able to convey how much she admires the other, and when all hope is almost lost, she learns the summoner’s name to be Gemma Pavlova. An introduction that results in an exchange of a formal bow, but she needs something else; a simple handshake.     Everyone in the room is caught off guard when Anastasia steps forward to stop the bow; all eyes falling on the pair. That’s when they connect — that’s when they know. It was the type of connection that many have whispered about when it came to the Darkling. The way he could touch another and expand the reaches of their power immediately, and for a princess that was painted to be in a cage, she held this exact same connection as he.
WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO HAVE YOUR CHARACTER DIE?:  × YES — When it comes to Anastasia’s potential death, I imagine it would be sacrificial in a way as they have already displayed how desperately they want the best for their country and everyone within it. If this is something that does come up, I would love a quick message to let me know the plans to give me a chance to bring this character to close on my end as well: threads, current plots, etc.
IN DEPTH
IN CHARACTER PARA SAMPLE(S):
× SAMPLE ONE—
 Silk laid in a pile of waste in the midst of chaos as hands pulled and poked at the mess that came in the form of Anastasia Lantsov. It had been another late night of wandering about the kingdom with dirt caked beneath nails that belonged to even dirtier hands. Her smile was frozen to reflect the vision of a princess Ravka desired, yet if they were to look hard enough, it would seem the uplifted corners held a sadness to them that only those closest to her would be able to spot. The corners of her lips trembling to allow real emotion to flood through, but she kept face for those within the room as no one could know the truth of what she had been up to.
 Although questions still poured in, Anastasia had already laid out the perfect story hours before they had even returned with a tale painted of a trapped bird singing out for help at a late hour that they couldn’t recall. They reached up to pull a small twig that had managed to weave itself into their hair as proof before tossing it to the floor.
“The poor thing was singing out as if it knew I would come for it,” they said with a heavy breath that had so much weight within it that the entire room stopped moving to listen to their words. “Wouldn’t you have went out to save it? I searched for hours within the garden, falling to my knees more than once to look beneath every bush. If it wasn’t for that last, little chirp, I would have returned this morning empty handed without that poor thing as proof of my rescue.” In this moment, the attention left them to fall towards a bird that rested in the midst of a makeshift nest, which sat directly on the princess’ bed as if they hadn’t even spared a thought for the dirt smearing against the finest sheets the kingdom had.
 Adoration soon poured from the mouths of all those within the room to praise the princess for her actions as no one could blame her for rescuing such a helpless creature. It was only when they had finished scrubbing the dirt away and returning her to a state that made her presentable to the kingdom, that they gave her the first moments of solace and privacy.  The painted picture of a trapped bird was so well-constructed that she was impressed with how well she was getting at lying. She hated to label what she just did as that, but it was true as the real story did not come close to what she had done the night before.
 “You are a kind creature to give me such an opportunity to lie,” she spoke to the bird like a friend as it looked at her with a tilt of its head. She had made a home for the bird and its family months prior and began planning out stories for why she would return to the castle in a heap of a mess. The bird was one of many that she had laid out for her use, and she almost hated how lies were the only way she would be able to help those that truly needed it. “I will return you to your family late this evening as I would hate to raise suspicion when you are supposed to be healing.”
 Soon, their attention was pulled to the sight of their left hand as fingers caught against the start of a callous that would never be present on a princess. They never had to work for what they had, and the existence of a callous alone would be enough to cause some suspicions to stir. A quick drop of lotion upon it would have to do for now as they had too much to do before they would be called down for breakfast.
 What their advisors did not realize is that just beneath the skirt of their bed hid the truth; Anastasia lifted it to reveal an extensive collection of food and garments for those on the other side of the gate. They quickly did a count to see what they would need to restock before they returned, taking note of the need for more bread and blankets. The skirt of the bed had just hit the floor when a soft rhythmic knock sounded against her door as the delicate voice of Darya poured in through the crack. “Time for breakfast, Annie.”
 Her eyes scoped the room for anything out of place before presenting herself at the door to greet the other with a gentle hug that surpassed the formal exchanges some would expect between the two of them. Friendship had always been a constant for both ladies as Anastasia could barely remember a time before there was Darya in her life. The sweet exchange of secrets beneath poorly made forts and laughter that broke the bounds of closed doors was just the beginning of what made Anastasia and Darya so tightly woven together
 “You were not too busy, were you? I can go pick us up something if you would prefer to wait here.” Her hands reached forward to reassure the other that she was fine to go before closing the door behind them. The two walked in a ritualistic silence until they were out of the quarters and in open halls that allowed their words to go unnoticed. Her fingers gently played with Darya’s forearm as they wrapped themselves together when they made their way to breakfast every morning ( at least every breakfast Anastasia attended ).
 “Have you met her yet,” Anastasia asked to be the first to break their silence, intently watching Darya’s face transform the moment the question left their lips. A hope seemed to emerge through the smallest of gestures as the somber expression dissolved into nothing to show a glimpse of the other’s smile. The girl almost too eager to share her own thoughts about the Sun Summoner left Ana with the idea that much was to be learned.
 “Yes—I mean, no. She is marvelous, though; even from a distance. Everything that we have prayed for has come to be. You should get Anton to introduce you. I am sure he would not mind,” Darya spoke softly with her own fingers tickling the inside of Ana’s arm before looking at them again. “I swear, to the Saints above, she seems to light up an entire room the second she walks into it.” She squeezed a bit too hard against their arm at her last statement before continuing on. “She reminds me of you—a little. There is not much known of her before, but the way she silences a room by just walking into it; awe-inspiring really.”
 Anastasia gave her best attempt of a kind elbow into her friend’s side before casting her eyes forward. “You seem to be quite impressed with the Sun Summoner,” she added with thin-narrowed eyes casting momentarily to Darya. “It almost makes me think you are contemplating a replacement on my behalf. Am I to fear I will walk into the ballroom to find you have become quite cozy with her?” She counted to three very slowly to give her friend the impression that her concerns were to be taken seriously before finally allowing a laugh to break through. “You have to learn to take a joke every so often, Darya. Not everything that is said is to be considered true. You should know that.”
 The conversation would have likely gone on longer if their mother had not stepped into view to pull Anastasia’s attention away from her friend. It was a single look, but that is all it took to refocus her attention on what life was like now. Laughter was supposed to be scarce after such a loss, but with Darya, there were small moments where she forgot the pain that rested in her heart. The gesture from her mother caused a single squeeze into Darya’s arm, smiling towards her friend before lightly stroking the back of her hand. “I must go now, but — Darya, a single request. Please do not get flagged as a danger to the Sun Summoner. I would hate to have to explain your infatuation to my mother.”
× SAMPLE TWO —
 Hands clasped tightly behind their back as they walk through the gardens with little inclination of where they were truly going. They simply needed an escape from the crowd that was becoming a bit too over stimulating for them this evening. Every party was a bit too over stimulating for them if they were, to be honest. It was the gardens that provided the momentary escapes that gave them a second breath to survive the rest of the evening.
 Anastasia wished desperately to walk the gardens alone, but they knew this would not be granted to them as a presence had already been noted several moments prior. The other person trying their best to keep within the shadows when the princess would take their next turn, creating a game that was no longer fun for them. They would have waited until the next turn if the person behind them had not so recklessly stepped across old leaves to give a hard crunch in the silence of the gardens.
 “How impolite to follow someone with no intention of speaking to them— ” Anastasia said with a hard glance over her shoulder to meet the gaze of Maksim Kaev. “—especially someone who knows better.” She extended her hand out to stroke the few lilacs that were within reach, regretting the words she had spoken. Her lips parted to say more, erase her mistake before he had a moment to address it, but he was already beside her with hands stroking the same flowers as she.
 “Do you not count the weight of observation as something worthy, Princess Lantsov?” The way Maksim stood behind them made their skin crawl with a feeling they could not place, but it was enough to cause them to continue on their path. “How does one hold a conversation with someone that mimics the pattern of a hummingbird? You flutter from one flower to the next, and I find it almost taunting the way you so suddenly leave right before I have the chance to speak.”
 Every step Anastasia took, Maksim doubled to continually bring himself closer to them until they were walking in sync with his strides slowly to keep pace with theirs. Everything he had said was true of them that they hardly stayed in place long enough to get passed the usual conversations. No one ever could hold onto them long enough to get into the deeper levels of who they were.
 “Maybe it is you who is at fault here,” Anastasia said with the tips of her fingers still brushing against the flowers on the path before pulling her hand back, if only for a moment to rest her outstretched arm. “What have you done to hold my attention as long as you wish, Maksim?” Her steps paused as two paths in the gardens came to a cross, taking the moment to give the lieutenant the attention he so desired. “Why am I the one to blame when you have done nothing to attract my attention until now? It is you, not I, that should be questioning their actions.”
 Anastasia stood in the lantern-lit crossing with no sign of which path they would take next, bouncing on their toes to diminish the uneasiness Maksim seemed to give them. As much as they wished to point him back to the Grand Palace, there was a part of them that wished to know the reasoning behind his pursuit of them. Curls casting shadows upon their face until the slightest movement from Maksim captured their attention.
 “You are right—” Maksim’s word were cut short as her hand lifted to silence him, surprising even herself as she gazed up at the Grand Palace, where music poured from the open doors that led into the ballroom. Within the gardens, there was a granted privacy that allowed for titles to be stripped away and connections made that would have otherwise been overlooked. This privacy would also give Maksim exactly what he wanted, in terms of reaching the deeper levels of Anastasia.
 “Only a fool admits his mistakes,” Anastasia said with amusement casting over the corners of their mouth before his own hand silenced them in the same fashion as they had done.
 “Or a man who is not afraid of them.” Maksim’s confidence had gone unnoticed to the princess with a charm weaved within it. He soon locked eyes with her and made no attempt to look away; instead, he brought himself closer to her with a hand extending out before a rustling from up the path caused him to stop abruptly. She wanted to ask what he had planned to do at the end of those steps, but this would be another mystery to add to their dynamic.
 “Princess Lantsov, your mother is requesting your presence,” said a guard that came into view a few short seconds later. Desperately, Anastasia wished to stay just long enough to reveal what actions would have soon followed, but she reluctantly gave Maksim a nod as some symbol of a goodbye. She soon began back towards the palace until fingers caught her own, bringing her attention back to the lieutenant who pulled her hand to his lips.
 “Until our next encounter, Princess.” His lips burned as they ghosted over her skin, and he slowly released her fingers, watching her; an assumption made as she could still feel his eyes on her, even with her back to him. For such a short encounter, she felt as if he had unraveled her in a way that no one else before had, and it was both enchanting and terrifying to think how easily he did so.
 The rest of the evening was filled with brief conversations on topics that were more impersonal than anything else, and it wasn’t until she had made her way back to her quarters that she realized that she had missed him a bit. Not in the way that she wished to seek him out, but it was more of a realization that he had made her want every conversation to have meaning. She missed being sought out in a way that wasn’t solely connected with her title, and it was once she finally closed her eyes that she floated back to the gardens to dream of the what ifs; what if the guard had never come? What if.
CHARACTER HEADCANONS:
× THE SHATTERED MIRROR —
    It was never supposed to be her destiny to break from her cage and explore the world just on the other side of the bars. Mistakes are defined by being wrong or misguided, and for a few hours after her return from the village, she whispered the word repeatedly to herself until it felt wrong within itself. It was a mistake to call her own actions as such, and it was a quick glance in the mirror with the worn fabric still cast over her head that she saw herself for the first time as someone she wanted to be.     She began to feel a discomfort when lace was thrust upon her skin as the luxuries she was born into no longer held the same meaning. Her meals were soon portioned to mimic those of the villagers; her own gluttony being denied. She no longer felt the envy that would rise when another lady at court had something she didn’t, and it was during this transition that someone else was born within her. It was soul-shattering to find that luxury was never her calling, but the struggles of others in the village so close to her. As much as she wished to lash out, she knew that to do so would severe her chance of ever returning to the place that felt more like home than her own.     But what had she connected with so desperately within the village that differed than the palace? It was a question that swirled around her thoughts often as she contemplated bringing up her adventures with each of her brothers, but she couldn’t find the right words that expressed the deep passion that she found within the villagers that many lacked at court. Though they suffered, the villagers still were alive. They were still fighting for another day, and it became suffocatingly clear that everyone at court was simply going through the motions.     It was a slow realization that she wanted to live as though each day was one scattered event after another with no schedule to fall into. One morning she would wake up far past her usual time with breakfast skipped and feet bare from the heels she often adorned to experience life in a different way. The pattern becoming a signature for those close to Anastasia as they anticipated which version of her they would come across. As if pulling a slip from a hat, her days were small adventures for the princess that so very few experienced.     This went on for weeks until it still left her bare of the feelings the village gave her all of those late nights. Yes, she was experiencing life in a different light, but she still had everything she ever wanted. The gifts that were now piling in the corners of her room were looked at with disgust, and ideas of what to do with them seemed to always fall short until a chance meeting with a merchant in the village set her up for a chance to become someone she wasn’t. She could become a patron within the village, though for only a short night every other week, but she decided then that the gifts she had been given were also hers to give away. This is when ‘the Bearer’ was slowly a name she began to know as her own as her identity to those that she began to save could never truly be known.    As the Bearer, the gifts of luxury that were given to her by those within her family were sent off for trading in other cities that were returned for goods that were given freely to those in the village. Each time she brought another gift was a promise that food, blankets, whatever the villagers need would come soon. It was finally then that she realized that within the village there was a need for her. There was a genuine appreciation of her presence that the palace had never given her previously. There, in the midst of the village with mud caking her boots and hands reaching out for what she could give, is where she finally found her purpose.
 × THE PACE OF GRACE —
     It is common knowledge for those within the Grand Palace that catching the princess long enough to hold a steady conversation is a rarity. Her pace around the grounds mimicking a casual sprint than planned steps that someone in her position should take. Time has been something she has never taken for granted, and it shows more now with the way the ribbons of her dress are always dancing behind her. Most mock her inability to stay still for a moment, but her argument is valid that ‘remaining complacent too long increases the risk of missing something’. Those words falling from her lips far too often lately to be overlooked by those in her life.     She has made it a mission of sorts for her to make people appreciate the time they have been granted and make the most of the moments they have. This was never a realistic goal for her before life became a shade darker after Ivan’s death. His death hallowed her heart so severely that for days there was no sight of her around the grounds. Many at court found the princess’ heart to be admirable at times, but it was upon the death of the crown prince that they began to call it weak. They whispered about how naive she must have been to think life was infinite.     Viktor was the first to push through the walls she had built around her to create a refuge within his arms, but they still felt out of place as Ivan had been the one that often escorted her back to her room when he was at the Grand Palace. He was the one that held her just right way to let her know that she was more than she had thought. The loss of someone that gives you meaning in a single touch is one that will shatter you if you let it. It was a week of daily visits from Viktor that finally pulled her from the walls of her room and took her out into the palace.    She would have died in that room if another week had gone by as the frailty of her existence was beginning to disappear until she became nothing more than a painting on the wall. For Viktor to becoming her saving grace, she felt a tinge of anger once she realized that life was still moving forward. Ivan’s name rarely being spoken to those in the castle now, and Anton’s name being thrown left and right as her skin itched to run away from it all.     Running away is just what she did — Anastasia ran for hours until her problems fell from her shoulders, and a fire ignited within herself to live the days for two. The real reason that she runs everywhere is that though she lives sporadically from one thing to the next if someone looked close enough at what she did, they would find that she is truly living the life her brother had. She goes from enjoying a walk in the garden to reading hours in the library like Ivan once had. Her heart no longer aches because she feels him within it, and it is a life that she feels is worthy to live.
 × THE NEED FOR MORE —
    Though her required classes and training ended several years back, Anastasia has taken it upon herself to continue her education within the Grand Palace. Her mother is quite proud of her daughter’s love for the books that rarely go touched and records that hardly get reviewed. The world has an infinite amount of knowledge to be absorbed, and it quenches some hunger within the princess to be the consumer of what Ravka has to offer in that area.     There are plenty of people in the palace, whose sole duty is to know and learn, but it is a task that has never been granted to someone within the royal family. Therefore, she has the itch to become more than she is and be someone that holds the answer to everyone’s questions. Her desire to be able to walk in the midst of a political discussion and contribute in a way that will not get her looks of amusement, but looks of respect.      To be in her position, she has found a way to contribute to those outside of the palace gates, but there is still the struggle to connect to those that have shared such a huge amount of her life thus far. Therefore, the books that have often been stacked around her in the late nights when she allowed herself to not sneak off to the village were books that were often read by Ivan. She knew that her brother’s position had already been replaced by Anton, but there was still so much of him already forgotten that it has broken her even more than she realized.     Her brother’s opinion had been lost upon his death, and she desperately wanted to keep it alive anyway she could. Now that she has accepted his death and has moved forward in the only way she knows how, her love for the books once read by her brother has grown tremendously, which in turn has matured her as well. Not a moment before Ivan’s death would she have found herself interested in the history of Ravka’s military, but there is a familiarity with the words in the books and the ones often said by her brother.
× THE UNFORGIVING TRUTH —
    There is this fear that has implanted itself within her that the world would easily move on without notice if she fell behind. It is likely that this came from the death of Ivan, but it had been there much longer than she would like to admit. She has been the porcelain doll on display for the royal family, and there has been little notice of her outside of this role. It is likely that her silent rebellion in the form of helping those just on the other side of the palace gates came from this fear.     However, as much as she likes to label it as a fear, it is a daunting truth that she holds little weight when it comes to the country. She is supposed to be the one that holds conversations with those who her family wishes to avoid and cast a smile on those that are undeserving. This weighted truth that bears such a pain in her chest is the source of her outcry for change, and it could ultimately be her downfall in the end. That is why she remains silent to bring up her own actions to those closest to her as she already knows where everyone else around her thinks.
× THE THORNED CROWN —
    It was a moment that caused a wave of sorrow to fall over the kingdom that shook the foundation that their feet rested upon. There was never a moment they wished to escape more than this, but to hear the actual words of their brother’s death were more paralyzing than they could have prepared for. Deaths are expected to come at the end of one’s life; when decades have passed and age wears the body down. Death is not supposed to come when so much life is left to live, and this is what hurts Anastasia the most.     They are forced to watch another brother take the crown as his own, forcibly taking on a task that was never meant to be his. This is when they realize that the crown is not a gift, but an iron clasp that takes away everything that you had before it was placed upon your head. Anastasia is the first to begin calling it a ‘thorned crown’ to Anton as even they can see the weight of it pushing him down. The two were never close, but there is a duty to be there for a sibling when they need it most. That is why they now take it upon themself to do what they can to take small burdens from Anton and pick the smallest of thorns from the crown he now wears.
× THE GIFT OF LIFE —
    Of all the small boxes that had been laid upon their bed with soft ribbons wrapped around them, it was an irregular box that peaked their interest immediately with Viktor* almost spewing too much anticipation to give them to open it themself. It had been his way of helping them heal in this process of such a hard loss for the family, and they admired his attempt to keep their lips in a constant upright fashion. They almost wished they could request the gifts to stop coming, but there was money to be made by such gifts and villagers to survive off of the trade to come.     This one was something different, something odd like themself. Small fingers pulled at the ribbon until a chirp from within brightened their face in a way that gave off a soft glow if you looked hard enough. They couldn’t reveal it fast enough, but once they did, the bird seemed to welcome itself into their room as if it had always belonged. Of all the gifts to be given, they had never thought of something so small as a bird could fill such a large place in their heart, and now they have found it to be all the company they need when waves of grief come crashing in.     * the person that gave Anastasia the bird can be changed.
 × THE STACK OF LIES — ( touched upon in the first sample )
    The secrets that had been piling up in Anastasia’s lap were ones that needed to be kept until the hearts of everyone around them changed. Allowing themself long enough to think of their nightly adventures to the village only caused further inclination that they were far from over. Several attempts were made to make sure that they at least tried to stop going to the village in ways of exhausting themself to the point of crashing once they made it back to their room at night, but a jolt of energy would rise within them and push them from the very sheets they laid.     A small hidden box beneath their bed would soon be pulled to reveal the clothes taken from their cousin and list of stories to be told if they were caught going or returning. It had been a game to them to try to create different scenarios that would require them to leave their room for any reason. The list that once only contained a handful of excuses was now filled from left to right of ink-spilled lies that they would tell in a heartbeat if it was required of them to protect what they were doing. This is something almost enchanting about the princess is that their mind should be far more credited for what it can do.
 × THE QUICK HEADCANONS —
    One. Anastasia has such a deep love for the gardens of the castle that she has taken far too many trips through it to keep count. She knows where every flower lies and areas that can conceal her long enough for a bit of privacy. This love only grew further as the years passed, and she was allowed to explore the idea of becoming a botanist, outside of her duties as a princess.
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hogwartselementumrp · 8 years ago
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Hyacinth, congratulations, you have been accepted for your OC Rhys Llewellyn. In finding a lone wolf Logan Lerman FC with a “tragic backstory” in one’s inbox, an admin must brace themselves--if you’ll forgive the frankness and not find the joke rude--but we honestly found your writing style so engaging and your passion for the character so ready to shine through with a bio that felt not at all rushed despite knowing you were racing the clock, and shone through with promise of what you would be like to RP with. Admin Beth may have offered to physically fight Admin Lily (we’re tired, stressed people and these things happen), though in the end there was no need for such measures and we agree together to accept you. We can’t wait to see you develop him into a character that shines as an individual and grows a three dimensional life of his own that continues the potential set in the application. Get him on the dash because I am eager to interact with him. 
Side Note: We already have a character named Rhys that has been a part of the RP for over three years. Now, people share names in real life and even in this RP Lily once wrote two vastly different Lawrences, Lawrence Yeaun and Lawrence Frisk. Both are played and played marvelously and seldom is there confusion, but if sharing a name makes you uncomfortable or you are worried about the confusion of players, we want to give you the chance to change the name or to have him go by Llewellyn. You are in no way obligated, but it might help everyone out.
Now, I have written a longer acceptance note than Lily. Welcome to the RP!
NAME/ALIAS: Hyacinth
PREFERRED PRONOUN: She/her
AGE: 19
TIMEZONE: GMT-4
ACTIVITY LEVEL: Around an 8-9 out of 10.
HOW DID YOU FIND THE RP (NEW MEMBERS): through a google search
ORIGINAL CHARACTER INFORMATION:
Desired Character: Rhys River Llewellyn
Face Claim: Logan Lerman
Now, please check our dorm page! To see which house is needing a character and in which year!
School Functions (check Quidditch availability’s): Healer Program
Why do you believe this will be a good character in this specific roleplay?
Just a few months prior to the roleplay, Rhys experienced a very drastic, devastating tragedy in his life. It will be really interesting exploring his headspace after that occurrence, and the relationships he will create because of what happened to him. Rhys is at a very delicate, confusing point in his life. His previous religious faith, which was fairly constant, is now gone. He is now estranged from his father, attending a new school, and discovering his own sexuality. I believe he will be able to discover who he truly is, or at least begin to, and in turn, help others do so as well.
RHYS LLEWELLYN is 18 years old, in his FIRST year HOGWARTS UNIVERSITY and was in the house of RAVENCLAW.
                                          ❝The weight of the world / is love / Under the burden / of solitude, / under the burden / of dissatisfaction / the weight, / the weight we carry / is love
↳ MAGIC
Rhys was gifted with a very sharp mind and wisdom far beyond his years. This didn’t translate very perfectly into magic, as even the mere thought of it had never entered his mind, but he studied extremely hard in his years at Hogwarts. Naturally, he wasn’t particularly gifted, but his hard work and determination put him at the top of his class. His instinctive curiosity and eagerness to learn things also gave him an extra edge over his classmates. As for his elemental magic, he far preferred spells and charms. They were easier to master through studying and practice, easier to control. Even so, Rhys saw his elemental magic as a challenge he had yet conquer, and devoted his time to improving it. Rhys was almost predestined to be a healer. His selflessness and instinctive compassion for others led him to apply for the Healer Program, which he was confident he would excel in.
↳ BACKSTORY
Rhys Llewellyn and his twin sister, Eve, were born on the first day of June in a small town of Wales, with the sun shining brightly overhead and not a single cloud in the blue sky. They’d been born a full month early, after hours and hours of painful labor. And when their mother, Adelaide, held her two pink, squalling babies in her arms, she placed a kiss on the tops of their heads and whispered an apology. For she could not stay, and two days after the two babies had entered this world, Adelaide hurried away into the night, leaving her children with nothing but a broken father and a long-forgotten memory of a gentle kiss that would be the only one they would ever receive from their first home.
It is surprising that Rhys and Eve grew up fairly undamaged. Their father, Jonathan, was a fierce, Evangelical pastor, forever trying to find an explanation for his loss in a higher power. Jonathan had only two loves in his life: His wife, who’d left him, and God. And after she left him, it seemed like he needed to fill up that empty hole with all the love he could ever contain into God, leaving nothing for his two children.
Rhys and Eve grew up relying on only each other for the necessities of life that went further than food and shelter. It is no wonder the two siblings grew very close. But despite the fact that they spent nearly all of their time together, they could not be more different. Eve was loud and outgoing, intent in her beliefs and unafraid to voice them to the world. There was an overly-flamboyant, almost frantic way about her, as if she started up an act of someone she was not long ago and now had to over exaggerate herself or risk being found out. Yet around Rhys, she could be the loud, confident self she was in public but also the more sensitive side that she typically kept hidden for fear of getting herself hurt. The two twins were like day and night. Rhys was mellower, far preferring anonymity and his own company over others. He was very intelligent and introspective and preferred to mull things over before doing anything, unlike Eve, who rarely planned for anything and preferred to live life spontaneously. But when they were with each other, they were better versions of themselves.
With Eve, Rhys felt like he could do anything and not be afraid.
When Rhys was accepted into Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, he was anything but delighted. How was he to face a school, a magic school, without his twin sister? But Eve was adamant he should go; she knew Rhys was something special. There were times when certain things happened around Rhys, odd things, and in her opinion the idea that he was a wizard was not something particularly far-fetched. She, like many others, had the overwhelming sense sometimes that Rhys was different. Otherworldly. Perhaps it was his intelligence, or his compassion for others, or the way his eyes lit up when he spoke about the poetry he loved so much. So, to be perfectly honest, Eve was not very surprised at all. She would have been more shocked if it turned out Rhys was just ordinary.
His father, of course, was furious at the mere thought of his son going to learn witchcraft. It was a terrible sin, something one would be condemned to hell for, a type of satanic worship.
But Rhys, who rarely objected anything his father said, went anyway, and when he came back from his first year at Hogwarts, he was met with a stony silence from his father and a tight-lipped smile from Eve, her voice the one she used with other people, not him. And, year after year, Rhys found that he heard her real voice less and less, until it disappeared entirely.
Over his seven years at Hogwarts, Rhys didn’t exactly feel the automatic acceptance he’d assumed he would. In turns out, even at a magical school, he was odd and out of place. Preferring to study and read and write poetry than attend quidditch matches and explore Hogsmeade, he never really made any lasting friendships. But it was no real issue for him, as he often preferred his own company over others.
The summer before he was to attend his first year at Hogwarts University, Rhys’ life fell completely apart. Ten days after their shared birthday, Rhys found his sister dead in her closet. She’d hung herself, leaving no other explanation except for an ‘I’m sorry’ scrawled on a torn piece of notebook paper.
In the aftermath, Rhys could not stay. Guilt and fear and anger and blame and all-consuming grief was everywhere in the house, everywhere in his father, everywhere in his own heart. It was heavy with a blackness he was unused to. He could not stay. So, like his mother, like his sister, he left.
And in leaving the house, he left his father, and in leaving his father, he left everything he had ever known, and in doing so, he freed himself.
↳ PERSONALITY TRAITS
» {+ positives} creative, selfless, insightful
» {- negatives}  shy, anxious/worrisome, distracted
↳ BASICS
» BLOOD STATUS: half-blood
» ELEMENTAL POWER: air
» AFFINITY LEVEL: average affinity | very studious
» DATE OF BIRTH: July 1st
» WAND: willow, dragon heartstring, 10 inches, supple flexibility
» FACECLAIM: Logan Lerman
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RHYS LLEWLLYN IS PLAYED BY HYACINTH
It wasn’t like his father preached all the time about how Rhys was an abomination that would be sent straight to hell. But it happened often enough that he decided it would be safest if he just kept silent about the whole being-attracted-to-boys debacle. Keeping it from his father was second nature - it wasn’t like Rhys actually told him anything. But with Eve, it was practically impossible. In fact, he wasn’t really sure why he wasn’t telling her about this part of him. Maybe it was because he barely understood it himself.
Or maybe it was because he wished it weren’t true. Rhys wished he could say that he wasn’t at all ashamed with who he was. It it were Eve, she would be attending pride parades everyday and kissing whomever she wanted in front of their father, one eyebrow raised as if daring him to say anything. If it were Eve, she wouldn’t be ashamed at all because she knew there was nothing to be ashamed about.
Rhys knew, too. But he wasn’t as brave as she was. He was scared. Of his father, of a God he barely believed in, of himself and the truth.
Because there was this boy at Hogwarts, a boy with a sunshine grin and endless jokes, a boy that Rhys kissed, but would have liked it much better if his mind wasn’t screaming sin sin sin sin sin.
He wanted to kiss him again, but shame swallowed him like an ocean for weeks after he did it the first time, and Rhys didn’t particularly enjoy drowning.
He kissed a girl, too, once. Before he’d kissed the boy, back when he was still unsure. In the Hogwarts Library, his back against the hard wood of the bookcase marking the Legal Section. Their lips smashed together, too urgent and unsynchronized. Rhys hated the way their faces fit together, the lack of strong jaw and vague stubble to ground him. There was too much hair to wade through, too much peony filling his nostrils. His mind wasn’t telling him he was sinning, but instead pounded a crescendoing chorus of this is wrong this is wrong this is wrong this is wrong.
Rhys had home come from his Sixth Year at Hogwarts, having kissed two people that were both sins in his mind. The boy because the Bible said so and the girl because it’d felt inherently wrong when it happened. And his father had looked down at him, his head tilted and eyes narrowed as if he’d sensed something on Rhys that was even dirtier than witchcraft. But nothing had been said, and he breathed a desperate sigh of relief.
He was hiding, and that was bad, and that did not make him happy. He knew all these things. But he was also scared. And he also loved his father, despite everything. In the end, the only thing that counted was love, was it not?
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what-if-rpg · 5 years ago
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Welcome to the family, CECE! Your application to SAM EVANS was accepted. I am really happy to have you around! Make sure to read the beginners checklist, and remember, have fun! I can’t wait to roleplay with you! Have fun!
IN CHARACTER
CHARACTER NAME: Samuel Evans CHARACTER AGE & DATE OF BIRTH: 27 - October 12th OCCUPATION: Freelance artist (Sells art online, fiverr, etc..) FACE CLAIM: Chord Overstreet HOMETOWN & CITY WHERE LIVES NOW: Seattle, WA - Lima, OH SEXUAL ORIENTATION & GENDER: Male, heterosexual RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single POSITIVE TRAITS: Eccentric, Respectful, Humble NEGATIVE TRAITS: Stubborn, Blunt, impulsive CHARACTER QUOTE/LYRIC: “Everything is figureoutable”
HEADCANONS
First Headcanon: A jack of all trades is probably the most fitting title for Sam Evans. He’s done everything from modeling, singing, and acting in cheesy commercials in New York, and even stripping for a brief moment while in Kentucky. Though, he doesn’t like to talk about that little tidbit. But nothing else felt quite like home the way Lima did, which is probably why he’s back and though momentarily he’s taking the starving artist route by selling drawings, he’s the happiest he’s been in a long while.
Second Headcanon: Admittedly selling drawings and digital comics online wasn’t the original plan, in fact, there was no plan when making the decision to move back to Lima. Lately his art has been picking up a bit of traction and recognition on a few sights. Things are looking a little brighter in way of this actually being something that he sticks to…If it continues to go well.
Third Headcanon: Dating has been rough and awkward. It’s almost as if he’s forgotten how to talk and act around a woman who isn’t Mercedes. He used to be pretty decent at it, or at least he thought he was. Since their break-up he feels insecure and incapable of actually being the person someone wants to be with. It’s like high school all over again.
Fourth Headcanon: He’s made it a point to keep in contact with all of his friends, some more than others, but that’s not completely on purpose.
CONNECTIONS
Mary and Dwight Evans: There’s not much to be said when it comes to his parents. He adores them and is nothing but thankful for how supportive and accepting they’ve been of everything. Stacy and Stevie Evans: While on the verge of being homeless while in high school, all he could think about was his brother and sister and how much he needed to help. How much he needed to be sure that they were taken care of. That hasn’t changed and he always makes it a point to let them know that. Mercedes Jones (ex): The two dated after graduation and while in New York. He proposed but was turned down. This broke him, but motivated him to fight for Mercedes and prove her doubts to be wrong. He surprises Mercedes by showing up in Los Angeles at her apartment, but finds her with another man. She promises that it was nothing but the two have never really been the same. Here recently they’ve gotten back in contact and some of those old feelings are resurfacing. Blaine Anderson: His right hand man and the one person that knows almost all of what’s currently going on in his life. They’ve kept in close contact.
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