#why do i feel like I'm about to be sent on an epic quest to restore the sword of legend

[illyth]

Icicles in media: typically uniform, not particularly long, perfectly straight

Icicles in real life: sword

[the-npc-gallery]

Sorry that is has been a week. Just changed workplace so there was a bit of an overlap and some extra hours this week. But now I'm back strong with another candidate. "The hopeless" noble girl, or is she?

Meredith Theodosia Belmont

Bard - College of Lore or College of Eloquence

BG: Noble, Courtier (or maybe perhaps Anthropologist)

(pic from https://www.pinterest.dk/pin/318981586112739994/)

You were born into a noble family with a famous last name. With a long line of generals, the men of your family always trained to be the best soldiers so they could rise in rank and continue the family tradition and thereby withholding the noble name and the title, prestige and property that came with it. Because of this you, your mom and any of your sisters were never able to work and earn any money, for noble women to work, it was frowned upon. We could preform, make art, gossip with each other or else be perfectly silence and obediant.

Things suddenly changed once your only brother fell ill, and died of a decease as a small child. Ever since that day your parents kept trying to get yet another boy, so that he could take over the “family business”. But with four sisters, things started to look dire. Since the insecurity with the future with no male heir, your dad hesitated to go to war, because how could he die without the promise of an heir. So, he were paid minimum wages to do a desk job within the military even though he had the rank and expertise for so much more, but those jobs came with insecuritys. So, until mom got pregnant again he was stuck with a low income. The family money running out and no way to even pay a dowry, so that we could marry into money, my family were really scruwed. Rumours started to spread. That maybe a curse was cast upon our family, and we had to do something fast because we didn’t have money to keep up appearances, food on the table, and pay taxes on the house. First one of my sisters were sent to join the church. But mom still didn’t get pregnant and money were really a problem, to the point where we were almost starving, they shipped me of to the closet castle, to be a lady of the court, to personally help the princess in any way she saw fit. Basically, I became a maid for the princess.  

So even through my family name is well known throughout history, and I have a great renown, it means nothing for us “low nobles” as long as there are no money and no prospects, because we lack of a male heir, low nobles were no better than poor merchants who couldnt make days meet.

I moved to the castle when I was so small, I almost do not remember my sisters faces. I had to focus my whole life, to keep up appearances, to not shame my family name. Yet I was curious. I followed my princess everywhere, like I was her obedient shadow, whom did everything that she commanded. Because of this I mostly lived in the castle. My whole live trapped behind big stone walls. All I saw of the world was the people whom came to the castle. I silently observed everything they did, I learned and in the little free time I had I studied people, culture, history, customs and religion of they were from. So if we one day would visit I could help my princess. I spent most of my life studing places I never thought I would see. But when my princess came of marriage age. We travelled from one castle to the next to meet the princes and nobles of the realms. I followed along on her quest to find her Romeo and with that I got to see glipses of the world as we passed it by on the way to the next castle.

My whole life was devoted to her. I never thought off anything else. Never dreamed of something bigger, because I could not change my position. I was stuck here so why bother wish for the impossible. I never thought about love. But one day a prince meet us, he was a younger prince and somewhere along the sixth in line for the throne, so basically he could have any girl he wanted, his family wouldn’t care. He was beautiful, and strong, and brave. Yet he was spoiled, he was so use to get what ever he wanted. So, when he meet me, and saw how pretty I was. That I was noble born, and not attracted to him. Not falling head over heels for him, he saw it as a challenge. And he knew that he wanted me, more than anything. I knew I was supposed to like him. To like the prospects of a happy live with him. Yet, all I felt was that marriage would be a trap. That I didn’t want him. I didn’t want to be married to a noble guy who knew nothing about work. So I kept turning him down, until he tried so hard one night, because he was so in love. He got me drunk at a ball, and escorted me for a stroll in the royal garden, to clear my head. On this stroll, we sat down on a bench deep within the maze. So, I could catch my breath, and clear my head away from the loud ballroom. He started kissing me, laying my body down on the bench, with his own body hovering just above my own. I liked it. I did not expect to like it. I had not let myself feel anything for him, or even think like that because I always put everyone and everything before myself. But here, where the starlight made his eyes sparkle, his hair falling down into my face. His sweet smell cover me and filling all of my senses. I can’t say that I didn’t love it. Because I really loved to feel his body heat throw my thin silk dress. The soft touch of his perfect lips. The smell of his perfume that lingered in the air all around him. I wanted him, so bad in that moment that I let go. I forgot all my responsibilities, to keep the honour of my family to stay loyal to my princess. I let the alcohol and the sweet music of the moment control the outcome of the rest of my life.

 I became his. His flirt. His mistress. Yet I felt somewhat wrong. To leave the princess and my duty to her. And things never stays perfect. I must be a cursed. Because we only got a few weeks to love one another. 2 weeks of happiness and freedom was all I had. Then the unimaginable happened two of his older brothers were killed by what looked like my princess’ soldiers. War broke out between our two countries. Resulting in my prince leaving me. He couldn’t bring me home with him. Not only was he now just 3rd in line. But with war came new alliances. Meaning he had to marry a princess of a country that could help his own country win. On the other hand, how could he trust me, I could be a spy from the princess, wanting to kill him, just like his brothers.

My princess couldn’t take me back either, because I could be a spy. So, I was left, with nothing. Yet the princess liked me, saw her as here best and only friend at court. She wanted to help me, so she made the rumours settle down. She wrote me off because she was to be married and therefor didn’t need me anymore. Making it look like I walked away and not cast out, like a beggar because of my own shortcomings.

Leaving him broke my heart, and I felt heartless. I saw everything through a thick layer of sorrow and heartack. Envious of lovers. Daydreaming about him. Heartbroken. But I made a choice. Even though all off this happened, I didn’t want to go home. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t want to bring shame and rumours to the family name. So, I started traveling. Started making my own choices for once. Not following orders, or etiquette for the first time. I followed my curiosity, and my wish to explorer and maybe even help finishing this war. With the faithing glimmer of a hope, that when it was over and the dust settled, that I might be able to go back to my prince. My love. My heart.

I refound my passion for writing everything I observed. For making epic tales. And I joined an adventure group so could write down their story, and help them.

When people first hear your name they might think of some high and mighty noble, whom never seen the poor life of the beggars. Yet, she has worked almost very single day of her live and proberly harder than most. So just because she owns a nice dress or two doesn't change that. She is maybe naïve and an oblivoius girl to somethings like how rogueguilds and the nightlife of streets work, yet she is a very curious down to earth kind of girl, whom love a good story around the bonfire. She is loyal to whom she sees as allies and is a thrustworthy girl.

[leakedinlondon]

Hey Courtney I'm going on my first over seas flight in 5 days time (like 20 hours or something with a brief lay over???) and I'm in desperate need of book recs. 21 year old female I like Harry Potter, dystopian future stuff, gay stuff especially wlw and also really love shitty cheesey light hearted stuff like Janet Evanovich. Would love your opinion!

tragically, i hav not read a lot of wlw books bc i’m a picky bitch about genres and a lot of the ones i know about are realistic fiction which i ain’t big on but i do recommend checking out Malinda Lo i rly like Adaptation which features a bi love triangle and aliens and has a part where some dude is talking about aliens and just starts humming the x files theme and that dude is me also i have heard v good things about Ash and Huntress but my bookstore doesn’t sell them and i’m like???? why

ok SO i hav a v v long dystopian masterpost if ur down to go through it but i’ll give u my faves from it here!!!!

Chaos Walking by Patrick Ness

Prentisstown isn't like other towns. Everyone can hear everyone else's thoughts in an overwhelming, never-ending stream of Noise. Just a month away from the birthday that will make him a man, Todd and his dog, Manchee -- whose thoughts Todd can hear too, whether he wants to or not -- stumble upon an area of complete silence. They find that in a town where privacy is impossible, something terrible has been hidden -- a secret so awful that Todd and Manchee must run for their lives.

these books!!!! are everything!!!!! if you haven’t read them u 100% should i swear they’re so fkn good

Unwind by Neal Shusterman

The Second Civil War was fought over reproductive rights. The chilling resolution: Life is inviolable from the moment of conception until age thirteen. Between the ages of thirteen and eighteen, however, parents can have their child "unwound," whereby all of the child's organs are transplanted into different donors, so life doesn't technically end. Connor is too difficult for his parents to control. Risa, a ward of the state, is not enough to be kept alive. And Lev is a tithe, a child conceived and raised to be unwound. Together, they may have a chance to escape and to survive.

i would die for Lev literally die for him at any given second this is also a very good series

The Passage by Justin Cronin

An epic and gripping tale of catastrophe and survival, The Passage is the story of Amy—abandoned by her mother at the age of six, pursued and then imprisoned by the shadowy figures behind a government experiment of apocalyptic proportions. But Special Agent Brad Wolgast, the lawman sent to track her down, is disarmed by the curiously quiet girl and risks everything to save her. As the experiment goes nightmarishly wrong, Wolgast secures her escape—but he can’t stop society’s collapse. And as Amy walks alone, across miles and decades, into a future dark with violence and despair, she is filled with the mysterious and terrifying knowledge that only she has the power to save the ruined world.

haven’t gotten around to reading the last book in this series yet but they are seriously epic like i swear this series is something else entirely

Maggot Moon by Sally Gardner

What if the football hadn’t gone over the wall. On the other side of the wall there is a dark secret. And the devil. And the Moon Man. And the Motherland doesn’t want anyone to know. But Standish Treadwell — who has different-colored eyes, who can’t read, can’t write, Standish Treadwell isn’t bright — sees things differently than the rest of the "train-track thinkers." So when Standish and his only friend and neighbor, Hector, make their way to the other side of the wall, they see what the Motherland has been hiding. And it’s big...One hundred very short chapters, told in an utterly original first-person voice, propel readers through a narrative that is by turns gripping and darkly humorous, bleak and chilling, tender and transporting.

this book broke my damn heart and ruined my life but oh my god it’s so good also a lil gay but like i said sad but it’s more 2 do with the setting like.... it doens’t have a happy ending but it felt right like that?????

More Than This by Patrick Ness

A boy drowns, desperate and alone in his final moments. He dies.Then he wakes, naked and bruised and thirsty, but alive.How can this be? And what is this strange deserted place?As he struggles to understand what is happening, the boy dares to hope. Might this not be the end? Might there be more to this life, or perhaps this afterlife?

this is my favorite book!!!!!! i would die for it!!!! i want to buy enough copies to fill an entire room of my house so i can just sit in it and cry!!!! this book is literally everything!!!! also gay!!!! she’s also sad but like...... i cannot express in words how much u need to read this damn book 

Bird Box by Josh Malerman

Something is out there, something terrifying that must not be seen. One glimpse of it, and a person is driven to deadly violence. No one knows what it is or where it came from.Five years after it began, a handful of scattered survivors remains, including Malorie and her two young children. Living in an abandoned house near the river, she has dreamed of fleeing to a place where they might be safe. Now that the boy and girl are four, it's time to go, but the journey ahead will be terrifying: twenty miles downriver in a rowboat--blindfolded--with nothing to rely on but her wits and the children’s trained ears. One wrong choice and they will die. Something is following them all the while, but is it man, animal, or monster?

another one of my all time faves!!!!!! i don’t even know what to say this is a masterpiece

ok so here we move on to the more fantasy and gay stuff these are less sad 

Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo

Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price—and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can't pull it off alone...A convict with a thirst for revengeA sharpshooter who can't walk away from a wagerA runaway with a privileged pastA spy known as the WraithA Heartrender using her magic to survive the slumsA thief with a gift for unlikely escapes Kaz's crew are the only ones who might stand between the world and destruction—if they don't kill each other first.

this is.... so good.... also a little gay... hav heard the second book in the series is gayer but i haven’t read her yet

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

That's what his roommate, Baz, says. And Baz might be evil and a vampire and a complete git, but he's probably right. Half the time Simon can't even make his wand work, and the other half, he sets something on fire. His mentor's avoiding him, his girlfriend broke up with him, and there's a magic-eating monster running around wearing Simon's face. Baz would be having a field day with all this, if he were here - it's their last year at Watford School of Magicks, and Simon's infuriating nemesis didn't even bother to show up. Carry On is a love letter to love stories and the power of words - to every 'chosen one' who ever had more on their mind than saving the world...

this book is literally just harry potter but gay and i’m still laughing i love it

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness

The monster showed up after midnight. As they do.But it isn’t the monster Conor’s been expecting. He’s been expecting the one from his nightmare, the one he’s had nearly every night since his mother started her treatments, the one with the darkness and the wind and the screaming…This monster is something different, though. Something ancient, something wild. And it wants the most dangerous thing of all from Conor.It wants the truth.

can u tell i’m a fan of patrick ness i’m going to fucking fist fight him for this piece of shit like.... this book.... is about a little kid..... whose mother has cancer....... like u know it’s gonna be a fucking bad time but u read it anyway and u cry like a fucking baby but u enjoy the whole damn thing because u hate urself.... it’s a beautiful read but it hurts (((also yes there is a Literal Monster hanging around))

The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater

Every year, Blue Sargent stands next to her clairvoyant mother as the soon-to-be dead walk past. Blue herself never sees them—not until this year, when a boy emerges from the dark and speaks directly to her. His name is Gansey, and Blue soon discovers that he is a rich student at Aglionby, the local private school. Blue has a policy of staying away from Aglionby boys. Known as Raven Boys, they can only mean trouble.But Gansey is different. He has it all—family money, good looks, devoted friends—but he’s looking for much more. He is on a quest that has encompassed three other Raven Boys: Adam, the scholarship student who resents all the privilege around him; Ronan, the fierce soul who ranges from anger to despair; and Noah, the taciturn watcher of the four, who notices many things but says very little.For as long as she can remember, Blue has been told by her psychic family that she will kill her true love. She never thought this would be a problem. But now, as her life becomes caught up in the strange and sinister world of the Raven Boys, she’s not so sure anymore.

the description of this book doesn’t do it justice and i hate it i love these books i love my stupid raven kids i mainly love adam parrish who i would die for in a second ((also gay)) ((please read them if u haven’t i love adam so much he’s worth it)) ((the other characters are also amazing and i lov them too))

The Darkest Part of the Forest by Holly Black

Children can have a cruel, absolute sense of justice. Children can kill a monster and feel quite proud of themselves. A girl can look at her brother and believe they’re destined to be a knight and a bard who battle evil. She can believe she’s found the thing she’s been made for.Hazel lives with her brother, Ben, in the strange town of Fairfold where humans and fae exist side by side. The faeries’ seemingly harmless magic attracts tourists, but Hazel knows how dangerous they can be, and she knows how to stop them. Or she did, once.At the center of it all, there is a glass coffin in the woods. It rests right on the ground and in it sleeps a boy with horns on his head and ears as pointed as knives. Hazel and Ben were both in love with him as children. The boy has slept there for generations, never waking.Until one day, he does…As the world turns upside down, Hazel tries to remember her years pretending to be a knight. But swept up in new love, shifting loyalties, and the fresh sting of betrayal, will it be enough?

Hazel is literally me okay there is a scene in this book where she’s at a fairy party and u kno how ur not meant to eat or drink anything fairies give u or ur fucked???? hazel ingests fucking fairy wine bc it was in the mouth of some fairy girl she was making out with and if that isn’t me i don’t know what is (((also that’s the only scene that she shows any interest in girls i am very sorry i don’t want to get ur hopes up))) ((ben on the other hand he is very gay and is also me they are both me i love these two idiots this book just makes me really happy))