#wishtype stuff

[earthdeluxe]

Decided to use the "wish-" prefix just to make it easier to differentiate between stuff that isn't related to this entire thing here and this

like Wishhome being a specific kind of hearthome, wishtype and wishself to refer to this specific kintype and my monsterkind-self, WishLife and wishmates (wishlifemates?) and such, since I don't have any memories or noemata to refer to these things with current terminology

(disclaimer: nothing to do with the concept of "wishkin" (sometimes used to mean KFF? or maybe just to invalidate people idk?) and I'm not intending to coin terms for anyone other than myself. You can use them if you want, just saying that's not why I threw these words together)

[digidrakncreature]

my identity being like almost perfectly half-involuntary and half-voluntary is kinda frustrating when it comes to wanting to talk about the process of it forming and honestly a lot of general stuff about my wishtype

[digidrakncreature]

Why I refer to one of my kintypes as my "wishtype" (and sometimes "wishkintype")

So a while ago I went around asking about the exact definition of a linktype. Because I wanted to know if the 'type had to be something you intended to make into a kintype/linktype specifically, or if it was also under that if you wanted to be the thing so badly that you'd unintentionally created a kintype of it.

Oh boy. The chronology is already screwed here isn't it. Let's rewind a bit?

I am not a human. I've known that all my life. What I am exactly specieswise wasn't known until recently, but that's not relevant here.

I am not a human. But I love humans. I want to continue to live with them, alongside and intertwined. I just also desperately need my own body and the freedom to act a bit "not human".

This isn't possible on this version of Earth at this current time in history.

Enter Deltarune (and post-pacifist run Undertale). A fictional Earth where presumably humans and nonhumans live together in intertwined societies. An Earth where magic is a natural resource, where the nonhuman beings are just made of magic so their biology doesn't have to adhere to the rules of our Earth. But despite that it's still very very similar to here.

For a bit I indulged in fantasies about living on a version of Earth where I can just be myself and live the life I want to live as a sapient nonhuman being with humans in a mundane modern world without it becoming a creature feature.

And then one day I realized it's not just me and my life I'll never have because I can't go there. I realized I'd never see another monster IRL. I wouldn't be able to hug someone who felt like they were made of inorganic materials while still feeling very alive. I'd never just see other monsters go about their days. And the homesickness I felt tripled.

I'm told this identity feeling, even if I created it by accident, is a kintype. And I agree for multiple reasons. I am not using the word "wishtype" to say it is different or not a kintype. It's just to make it a little easier to talk about for me.

I don't have a "canon" to refer to. I don't have "canonmates" or anything. A lot of fictionkin and such terminology is inaccurate to me which is something I just can't really mesh lol.

And it's easier to group all of the related things together to talk about. My wishself and my wishlife and my wishmates, my wishhome, etc.

Also my "coretype", a mash of all my species identities together, is (sometimes) the same shape as my wishtype, which is a version of myself, my coreself, my coretype, that would be able to exist in person in my wishhome. Just unable to shapeshift and made of magic instead of meat or digital wireframe or whatever. So when there's two identical images of me, Gideon, I can say "this is my wishself and this is my coreself".

And you know what? The word wishkin always felt off to me. It felt mean and invalidating and kinda nasty. So I like the idea of taking the word "wish" back, you know? Wishes aren't bad things. Self-determination, having a piece of your identity simply because you want it to be isn't a bad thing.

[digidrakncreature]

[everything about my wishtype I was basically deep daydreaming up and then in doing so went and accidentally created the kintype for me]

a good tldr of the explanation of my wishtype lol

[digidrakncreature]

It occurs to me that I didn't adequately explain the whole "wish-" thing

yes it's partially because I created the kintype by wishing too much

but it's also because that, the entirety of it, is my wish. It's what I want. It's how and where I want to live.

[digidrakncreature]

altbeing blog of Gideon

it/they, early 30s

I'm transspecies and... most of my 'types kinda blended together which makes it a little difficult to list...

Me:

In a vacuum I'm "drakncreature" as in the semi-digital shapeshifting drakn thing on the left, a blend/mash-up of everything.

In a transspecies way I'm a "(Deltarune-esc) monster-person" as in the right side of the image. (Basically drakncreature adapted into).

kintypes in the "I am a member of these groups" way:

- draknkind (HTTYD-ish) @draknkind

- monsterkind (Deltarune-ish) @if-wishes-were-glitches @earthdeluxe @dragoblin

additionally:

canine-kith and canine-shaped things kith @caninequandary @suburbanwerewolf

▶- "digimorph" kardiatype

Uncategorized Scavenger-identity (maybe conceptfolk?) keystone... something

- "bug" conceptkith (both as glitches and concept of bugs)

- sitcom character archetrope (passive? secondary?) @last-laugh

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other sideblogs:

@transdrakn drakncreature blog where all my drawings and feels and reblogs go

I made @drakngoblincreature to reblog aesthetics and stuff because this one is more for discussions and transdrakn ended up being more specific drakncreature stuff

@neogargoylecore goblincoreish blog (+ shitposting + voidpunk honestly my favorite of my blogs)

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and jsyk, I have cognitive issues due to brainstem compression, so like. I'm so exhausted mentally and physically. My tone might be a mess along with my attempts at... anything really tbh? Just as a general disclaimer/warning x_x;

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Important links:

Outerverse Theory explanation

Short but full summary of my altbeing stuff

Gonna tag this post so you can click/tap through

[digidrakncreature]

a great deal of my altbeing stuff is intertwined with my deepdaydreaming, especially because my vessel is nonfunctional so my IRL stuff is a mess

and it's even More now because I accidentally went and created an entire kintype from deepdaydreaming

and idk it feels super weird to say in altbeing spaces that this stuff I imagined became this altbeing experience because I guess so much stuff in otherkin online communities were "are you sure you didn't just make those memories accidentally by thinking too much about it" and that's 100% what I did??

I'm not saying my experiences are invalid in any way, and everyone's been kind and interested. It's just my brain being "how do I talk about this?? Am I explaining it right?"

it also ties in to my transspecies-ness and the fact that I am 100% of the time Not Human, you know? Everything is an altbeing experience because I am always this no matter what I'm doing or what's going on

... also the nonfunctioning of my vessel makes thinking and words really difficult lol

[digidrakncreature]

differences between Delta/rune and HaM Earth:

- no dark worlds (afaik)

- I don't know because there's only 2 chapters of the game so far lol

[digidrakncreature]

For the record I know the wishtype stuff isn't like unheard of lol

it's just that it was so recent and sudden,

and that I was (and still am) intentionally worldbuilding

it's just very new to me

but also the monsterkind, monsterfolk identity is already completely integrated and deeply entrenched ^_^;

[digidrakncreature]

So like my Coreself includes the digital and drakn feels and stuff

my Wishself is specifically the monster solid magic version of myself. I'm always my coreself, I always identify and feel that stuff, it's just to more easily point at which I'm talking about

also I have a tendency to mash words together as they're relevant, so if I say Core-anything or Wish-anything that's also that.

Like Wishbody, Wishtype, WishLife, etc

In my Wishlife, I'd still have my coretype, you know? I'm a monster and I'd be very happy to live as a monster, but I'd still identify as a drakn on the inside and have to try to translate that to make sense to people

[digidrakncreature]

throwing some words around my brain just for shorthand to talk/think about things:

(these are specifically for myself and not an attempt to coin terms atm)

Coretype = the core collective identity of someone(s) (if they have that)

my coretype = digidemidrakn

Wishtype = a kintype that was caused by wanting to be that (in a tangible way, not like a linktype where one purposesfully makes it an altbeing identity)

my wishtype = draconic monster in a de/tarune-esc monsterkind and humankind earth

WishHome = a hearthome that one wants to live in immediately if possible (as opposed to other hearthomes they might have)

my wishhome = the monsterkind and humankind earth

Additional wish-things: WishLife, WishMate(s), etc

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I don't intend to use these as suffixes, mostly because they're subterms for kintypes and stuff, also because I think "coric" is taken for aesthetic genders (I'm bastardcoric btw) and "wishic" doesn't sound great (idk if it's already taken lol)

[earthdeluxe]

So basically my WishHome is like Deltarune but without darkworlds or anything, just mundane

Very similar to this world: Half the sapient population are humans. The other half are monsters. Monsters are made of solid magic and turn to dust when they die. Humankind and Monsterkind live intertwined for the most part. Souls are visible and known of.

There's scientific studies into magic and souls. Most acts of magic are automatic and "small" by monsters, like being able to fly for winged monsters, or just being alive at all. Anything else requires a lot of research and study and multiple people to achieve.

Otherwise everything is the same as this Earth.

I mean, it's a little more queer accepting and a little more accessible but not by much. And inherently more whimsical but again not by much...

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EarthWith = there

EarthWithout = here

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I refer to everything with this identity with the prefix "wish-"

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main altbeing blog: @digidrakncreature (More links through here!)

main wishtype blog: @if-wishes-were-glitches

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tags (wip):

🖊 = my posts

🌎 = stuff about the world

#monsters = all images of "monsters"

#everyday monsters = "monsters" doing anything or in a place

#cool monster design = "monsters" in a void or stuffed animals or whatever that doesn't fit the prev tag